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Now it's probably two weeks away. Well, in short, my grandfather had a party. I met cousins ​​whom I have never known before, one cool 5-year-old and how cool she was talking: "uncle, you have rotten eggs: D". The second 5 kl is also nice. But the best part was talking to Uncle Jack. He's just great talking to him. We talked about what we used to do in the past, earning money etc, scruffy, he listens, wants to listen, he's a nice guy. In addition, I told Beata about my love problem, but now it's even less important, I almost forgot about it. It is a pity that I wrote about it so late, because I wanted to describe the conversation with Uncle Jacek in more detail, but well .... Now I am not sure if it was all three weeks ago. A week ago, I persuaded Max to come over to him. Eh, we were building lightsabers. When I was with him, I had any thoughts about the fact that he doesn't want me anymore. We built lightsabers, he told a little about his Beatka, that he bought her a teddy bear, and that something is not going to be discussed with him, but never mind the details ... I do not know if it all makes sense. I do not know this Beata, and if I wanted to see it, I would know anything about how to assess the situation. Besides, it was nice, as always, time was spent :) But today I am overwhelmed with thoughts that he does not want me anymore, he does not like me, I am an unnecessary garbage and he is afraid to tell me about it. It's probably like falling in love, before or later, one of the partners is bored with the other ... I think so is with us now. As he writes to Max on GH, he never writes me in. When I was leaving Max said: "I will write you a text message" and, what, I never got any text from him during my stay in ZSL, and I am already there for almost 2 months. When I am available on GH, he will not write to me, as it used to be. I already know his character and lifestyle perfectly well, and I know one thing that he is a perfect man, without the slightest flaw. He naturally inspires friendship, just as some are fearful. People want to meet him, and I was lucky to meet him. The second person in my life I met who was able to arouse friendship was Mieszko. However, Mieszko and Max are two different styles of being. Mieszko is very popular, everyone likes him, no one will say a bad opinion about him, or at least I haven't met with it yet. However, Mieszko likes to be popular, he likes to party, show off, and Maxym is quite the opposite. If max had the features that still has a bellows, he would be much more popular than him ... And now, thinking about myself .... I used to like to show off ... now not. I am not liked anymore, I am a garbage. And why someone who is a junk would be liked by someone better. From my logical point of view, Max and Mieszko fit together perfectly as no one, and I don't even know how now he tried to become friends with me. I think even Max at the beginning of our acquaintance wanted to be more friends with me than myself. But when I got to know him so much better on a trip to Krakow, then when we threw eggs, we walked next to each other. Although there were four of us, our two were in the center, like kings, while Marcin and Romek were next to us. Eh, it was the most beautiful day of my life, I never felt as good as I did then. And today I feel hopeless. Man, what happened to us, it must have started to fall apart when I went to Krakow. Or maybe even much earlier, but somehow I didn't notice it, cramps ... Eh, maybe because we met every day on vacation? Am I bored with him or what? What am I supposed to do now. I have lost the love of my life, and now I am even going to lose my greatest friend with whom I would be able to give my own life? Man, I have to talk seriously with him on this subject, because he will not have the courage to tell me all this live. But one thing I don't understand. It was he who asked me for any help in making a close-up on the face, with the operation "cow hair in upholstery glue" .... He even said that no one else but me could ask for it. He was addressing me as the first "friend", but he was addressing rala in the same way: / eh .... I don't know, I have a tag in my head. Although I am reminded of a certain situation that perhaps makes little sense. Once, when we were at the Rokoteka, and we were already under adasiem, he really wanted to come back home when I really wanted to talk to myself, because it was really nice to have cramps at night, only us. And he didn't even want to talk, he wanted to get back home as soon as possible :( Nothing, it's hard to say .... I think the best solution for me will be to get Max's archive and install a Trojan on his computer. Then I will find out the truth. everything, we understood each other perfectly. I wrote to him yesterday if I can come in, he said that he was getting married at the liking. But he did not invite me from himself, as it used to be :( We only told ourselves everything that was possible and he He doesn't need me anymore And we wanted to make a movie so much :( And what came out of it, he doesn't even want to make an article for a website anymore. Yesterday I had diarrhea so I came earlier from school. My chances of rewriting to another school drop to 0%. Geyser will probably not do anything about it and I will stay in Krakow for a long time. I will stay in Krakow, this is how I feel :( Finally, because I don't want to write anymore, something bad has been done to me ... And yet I opened this file a second time, because I want to add something that I had to add when creating this file in the boarding school. Unfortunately, Krasinski and Konrad did not allow me to do so because they were staring at my screen. Well, lately, while reflecting on, I would like to change my life. I want to be strong, powerful, agile, know martial arts. I want a concept of telecommunications electronics, I want to be a hacker. But it will be the first. I'd love to beat a guy who rapes, kills ... So neatly, that he would always remember it once. And it is more like something in life for yourself. I would like to be someone, change my character. All in all, I can manipulate my character, change and modify it. I can read the mind of my interlocutor. I can make friends as well as the opposite. Jenakze I always arouse the opposite. Since I am devastated about the loss of Aski I do not want to make me friendly, I want everyone to dislike me, but even more I would like to arouse hatred, anger, anger, so that everyone hates me and feels even more afraid of me ....