wtorek, 5 kwietnia 2011
Transformation2ZlyGrandpa
The day, as always, was written with a delay
I got up 11 at my aunt Iwona on this great mattress. On average, I burned, but I slept. I fell asleep a few times, but Dad kept waking up with his cough.
As a wake-up call, I ate cranberry, then my aunt invited me to eat her cabbage, but I didn't like the sauce too much ... ? I wanted to buy something for a liver cover. I went to the store, I bought ice cream from my own pocket, and for Aunt milk and cookies. We wanted to add whipped cream, but it turned out to be spoiled. Dad said it was enough to rinse it, but it stank of mold there too, so I preferred not to risk it anymore.
I sat on the computer until noon. I downloaded dr. House with a hamster and eavesdropping stuff to eavesdrop on papa. Something I don't trust him, I have the feeling that he spreads everything about me. So I have to check it out because I really don't like it all. At the same time, sitting on the computer for a long time started to hurt my head and eyes - I looked at the monitor with narrowed eyes. I checked my e-mail, facebook. Even before we left, I tried to rip episodes of Dr. House on Pnedrive, but failed to get them all. I was also looking for glasses on the Allegro mp3, camera and dictaphone. If I do not have a camera, just buy one with mp3 and a voice recorder and bluetooth - so that you can easily play music from samsung omnia. I have also registered at znlekarz.pl looking for doctor Gmurkowski. I was curious about the opinion about it, google found it, but when I entered the website there were completely different doctors - it's like giving a candy to a child and it gets a piece of salt inside ... // I used a comparison
And we went to see the doctor. I began to feel enormous stress. In the end, I just told my dad: I feel stressed ... Dad started talking after a while and said that this is my health and he will not say anything, but if he loses contact with me, he will start intervening.
I entered Gmurkowski alone. he had good contact with me. I found out that with cholesterol problems, there is a narrowing of the vessels. I associated it with my leg problems ... He didn't even want to talk to my dad, talk for a few minutes, as if he had no objection.
We went back, along the way I expressed my opinion about 5-year-old children who jump from windows, because I think they are batmen ...
We also tested cbRadio, some woman called the guest a moron. Well, you would like to hold this idiot in your mouth: D but I like this retort. Dad dropped me off on the road a bit from the house. Grandpa then talked to Staszek. I wanted to help him take the wood, but grandfather, as usual, did not want my help.
Later, a few times I was told: for a book on hypnosis, so that I would not believe in miracles / more complaints / that it is impossible to do everything in life. Then I did not come for dinner, and finally I went for a while and did not clean the dishes, because I was taking omega3. PS for dad's laptop connected to the network on the porch. But I was sorry then, Grandpa wasn't so angry with me yet. I was so sorry, in addition, there was a pain in my legs and head again and I decided to take Tramal. I was also supposed to talk to Kasia by phone, but I gave up on it. Tramal worked great. At first it eased the pain, I took 100mg. It was like a euphoria / blogostane. In the evening, around midnight, I only started to feel some blood in my ear, but I don't know if I told myself it somehow.
Somehow I talked with my grandfather, we decided to burn all the pills and so we did. I was looking for them myself. I gave my grandfather a massage, he said he liked it very much. Writing to Kasia, I encouraged her to a secret, I want to tell her the secrets of how to be cool, brilliant and have a brilliant mind. The pain in my leg disappeared and the next day until evening as if I did not feel it. maybe it's an anti-inflammatory effect.
PS as I talked the day before my grandfather noticed my problem with joints ...
P.S2 I suppose eating butter may have a bad effect on me. You need to buy a butter that improves cholesterol.
I slept on my dad's couch. I wanted to throw dr. House for the evening, but I thought it might affect me badly. Dad was suddenly supposed to go to Warsaw, he brought 20 kg of meat from Jadzia.
poniedziałek, 4 kwietnia 2011
Transformation1HypnoJoints
A day written with a delay of 33 minutes
I wrote a moment ago about dreams at night. As usual, poor sleep, but in the morning I slept a little with the radio. I slept on the side of the bed that day. At 12:30 I found out that my aunt had arrived. I get up and I have a joint pain in my left leg under my knee. For the first time in my life I felt something like this ... I walked like a cripple but I didn't want to tell them about my ailments anymore, because my dad would think me crazy.
After a while we ate the broth - it was terrible, it tasted like chicken. Then I asked Papa to take me to the scream at the station. He said there would be a show today. We went home, earlier in Adam I bought ice cream and cranberry. I met david too, but that prick won't even say hello. I also pissed behind the block
We went down to the basement, he was the first to put me in a monodeistic state. Earlier, he warned that he had induced a few things. First anesthesia - I was supposed to touch his pulse and say when he will stop feeling, but I guess it was just a trick, he touched my hand, I touched his. Just how he made me not feel his pulse anymore and that's it.
The second trick is numbers, when I gave two numbers 0 and 9, he kind of drew them with his finger - but he just had a pen tucked away and showed me the numbers - still asking how do you think the chances are that I guessed these numbers ?
And then the famous hand levitation which simply failed as it used to be.
Then I put him in a trance, or rather monodeistic state. I just counted from 1 to 5 and I was telling you how his hand rises, that some strength does it ... Once it went up, once it went down. Then I asked him to subconsciously say what I had done, wrong and what was right. He said that I should be confident, voice and command - the metaphor with an invisible force was good. As I explained, the balloons seem like something to children. He told me to induce in him the processes that were then, I tried but answered NO! just do it, induce it. He said that he is losing faith in the monodeistic state, but he gets along with his father, is his friend and feels better. I was in a hurry, I couldn't induce changes today, so I got out of the trance and we went a bit. a bit, because he was in a hurry on the bus and I told him to go, because you can walk slowly anyway because of the leg. Several times I had the impression that this circular fracture was in the lung
I went to the bus stop, called my dad. The time I picked up and came for me. Then straight to the church, but before we went I changed my pants and put on a leather jacket and glasses. I felt horny in these clothes. In the church, when I was standing - my legs felt strange, as if the muscles were weak. Fuck me, what's wrong with me? Creatine had so many side effects?
At home, I watched a report about patrycja Kazadi - she is amazing, great, pretty and energetic girl, although I don't know if Sav would be suitable for a longer relationship.
We went to Krk, I was going with her aunt and her car. We talked cool on the way, she said that I should go out to people and not stay at home all the time. I downplayed her and explained, but I don't think she believed me. Besides, my dad must have told her too much about me. I have to find a listening device on symbian phone, because it pisses me off a bit what my dad says everything about me.
At home, I mentioned that these nk and fb it just arose on a complex of people willing to communicate. I asked my uncle to find something similar. PS when I was driving, I saw a brand of gackowiec in some car. I waved him, he was probably surprised by my confidence and new personality: D
Sitting on the computer, I talked to befree. I told him about my ailments. Finally he started talking to the point. I also chatted with Greg.
Treatment7Cold Legs
Yesterday was written with a 2-day delay
I got up around 11, but so I was staring or rather feeling the pebbles in my legs.
I drank a lot of water, took vitamin C, took a paracetamol tablet, ate a light breakfast. I was beginning to have a feeling that something was choking on the side of my hips, as if there was a leakage of water. It kind of felt warm against my liver. And so I spent a lot of time
About 5 pm grandpa made fish and rice. I tasted fantastic. When my father came, I felt a cramp in my leg, I wanted to vomit earlier. Finally, during a contraction that was strong, it seemed to me after a while that my hands and feet were icy - especially the legs. I just panicked and made my dad go to the hospital. but he was pissed
In the hospital they complained about me. The doctor laughed at me when I told her this: she said that she had been working here for 15 years and she had never experienced such symptoms and they had not even been taught about it in college. I said about creatine. That blond nurse again - she was pissed at me ... eh ... Although I didn't really care. I was afraid of those icy legs, then I got more chills.
After a long time, I got the results: as if everything was ok. I explained my behavior in my own way: that I do not belong to people who call an ambulance for no reason, even for small things I do not go to the doctor - so I said, concealing part Originally true. On that day, I also confessed to my dad that I had stopped taking my medication - this was probably my mistake. I asked my dad to call my grandfather so that he would not worry about me - only 3/4 of the time he answered this phone
I had three dreams during the night. Wogole in the evening I persuaded myself affirmations as recommended by the poet. He said it works for even the most stubborn, well, I thought it did work.
The first was that I was walking home in the parliament, the second I heard a priest talking incredibly (then I was listening to the radio and maybe it was transferred to pictures). And the third one, I kissed Kasia and opened my legs. I began to feel pleasure until suddenly the pain in my right egg woke me up
For the night, fearing these pains on my side, I ate only a banana.
sobota, 2 kwietnia 2011
Treatment 6Aprilis
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I got up in the morning with aching hips in my legs. I have a feeling as if some stones or a blood clot were walking there ... Unfortunately, I find it difficult to say. Earlier in the morning I watched such an Erotic movie "Emanuel" - quite an interesting proposition for this hour. It was not a porn like redtube, just a erotic movie from a story.
After breakfast and eating garlic, I fell to the rabk. I took my dust jacket, laptop, and backpack, but I got wet on the way. My head was racing and it felt like it might end up with a headache. So I came back for a hat that I couldn't find before, but I took my dad's jacket / fleece anyway. I went to Rabka. I found Kasie next to the press. she was not supposed to come today, but she made me April Fool's Day and she came just that day. I took her to the spa, I think she liked this quiet place. She took the freckles for me and the steroids I asked for. After reading the leaflet, however, he writes that you must not treat bacterial inflammation ... You probably will not use it. I also told Kasia that I would give her the rest or everything if I did not use it, because she might need it more. Besides, she brought me the whole pack and I only asked for a few pills. We spent a few hours there, I was loading my phone. Meanwhile, my grandfather called - he dictated my purchases by phone, and I sent them to my dad by text message. Interestingly, Kasia was so nice that when I said she would copy them to her phone. She is loved.
I also called Aunt Ula and Robert - her boss and bodybuilder. He told me a lot, he was nice to me, unfortunately he talked for a long time, but he declared that I would come and help me choose a diet. I haven't found out too much about the side effects of creatine. But that's what I think - with this phone I made him feel important too, he wanted to help me selflessly. I pledged that in return I would fix his computer, which is there in the exchange office. maybe thanks to this somehow it will be brilliant - it's actually cool on the phone and I will have a better acquaintance
Dad called too. He wanted me to come. So I resigned from visiting the doctor to come there on purpose. When I escorted Kasia, I was in a steskal. I gave her a few things - small things in total. Earlier, in addition to the freckles, we ate ice cream. I also bought a bottle of mineral water for myself, so that I could overcome this unpleasant pain in my hips (like stones) and legs. I had to pee, so I went to the center at the landowner and drove 17:15 to the new market. Unfortunately, I got off too far, because at the Kowancu roundabout I was walking for a bit. Thanks to this, I had the impression that �eb�l is a bit smaller. It should also be added that I did not eat dinner that day.
I went to the store. Earlier, I wrote a slightly persuasive text to my dad: "as soon as I return to my health, we will plan a joint trip to a special place for two :): *: *"
I went on a fuss. I was expecting my sister to eat there too, so I wrote such a text to keep me at a distance, because I knew that my dad would read something like that, and she would try to get me and I will be able to conduct a psychological experiment. She worships me for just speaking on the phone. I tried on a lot of shirts and pants, at the beginning I said that the pants do not want to try on because my legs and hips ache. And dad doesn't understand me - for him some fucking pants are more important than my health, he doesn't even want me to go to the doctor. Well, whore - I could go to the doctor then, not to my dad. I also had a situation when I was taking off my shoes, I was afraid that Jadzia would look inside me and see that I was wearing insoles.
Then I went to the moodo to do with the webcam. I started cleaning my computer from viruses. Unfortunately, I failed to disinfect it, the virus was still there. I found out that it detected some kind of virus hidden in the system drivers: I wrote them down on a piece of paper. among others: cdrom and temp117. I connected to some wireless network, I talked to Grzesek Uniewski, I was doing with computers, we were probably trying to get to the first webcam. The pains were getting stronger.
A certain drunk checked me - he asked if the Atari 250 would be repaired. I asked: but what is broken there: the screen is not displayed, these cassettes do not work? And here I understood that he just checked me and knows that I am good. He was drunk. I could have asked him: what was it, test, what kind of sprite? But I am proud to go to him, I said in conclusion: I can check, but I cannot guarantee. Damn, I think so - he shook his hand, and who knows in what places with such a man she was. Dad also bought a lot of sweets, cips for a snack, as he said you can't buy anything more nutritious.
Webcam: myWifiZone worked. When you create in Ad-Hoc windows, it automatically converts to Access Point. All you need to do is that the program is running and the red light is on. Great thing!
We went home, my dad bought No-Spa in Alberta, but even after 2 tbl at intervals of 30 minutes, I did not see any improvement. I went to sleep on the ground, but on the side, about 2-3 am. I think I fell asleep quickly, I threw Kasia Szafranowska and I didn't wake up until morning. The pain was also limited as I slept on a quilt thrown on the floor.
piątek, 1 kwietnia 2011
Treatment5 Creatine
Early in the morning confusion in the stomach: a lot of apples, ice cream, bananas, slices - I was damn hungry
Get up 12 and be rushed by tate. Refusing to go to the NT, Dad wasn't even angry. My head hurt.
I ate a few buttered sandwiches. A lot of encyclopedia browsing - horror. Mushroom dinner. Scalded garlic. Somehow I was reluctant to eat champignons. Going out into the city, go to the clinic in Poniatowski, but it was closed. Then to the spa, going upstairs, nodding to the guard, drinking a cup. Connection with Ave. Message from Kaja and Hypnosis with a poet. Then to the pharmacy, bus stop, pharmacy again. Busyrz in yellow and notes from guests at the bus stop. Stress, going home, stiff neck / even earlier / talking to grandpa and panicking a little. Learn about creatine and get better. now like fingers. I ate steamers, decided to drink plenty of water to get rid of the creatine. Throwing out creatine.
środa, 30 marca 2011
Treatment4Po% C5% BCar
The day probably has been written on time for a long time, so I will be able to write much more orderly.
As I mentioned, my dad woke me up at 7:45 am. He tried earlier, but I didn't get up at 7:00. Supposedly I had such a strong dream. I got up at 8:00, I made a mistake and we went. I went to take the line. People used to say that the doctor calls out the names / in fact, it is some kind of witty old woman / and that the hour does not matter at all
I went downstairs to register and show my insurance. Apparently, this was what had to be done from the beginning. Now, as I write it, I think that maybe because of me this line has moved. One woman entered at 10:00, although I don't know. Probably tied up people, everyone was in a hurry as much as they could.
Adela is a nice woman. When I came in, they asked for my file, people were probably pissed about it, but I didn't admit that it was me. Earlier, I told everyone that it would be fair if I would enter now because I had 8:30. They agreed, I entered.
Adela examined me. It seems to me that she was quite careful and accurate in her diagnosis. I told the girl about it, but somehow I was ashamed to give her a piece of paper. I am thinking now that maybe I can at least read her: I didn't say about the muck in my mouth, the insomnia ... She examined my reflexes, but I think I felt the hammer unevenly when she drove it. She wrote out some painkiller and took me downstairs. She registered for another visit and MRI - probably another visit, because I have no idea when she will be ... Now you have to register for this MRI. I also got a card with numbers for Zakopane, Nowy Targ and Sucha Beskidzka. You will have to find out what is G44 - some patient weight
I left, called my dad, but I couldn't get through. I went to ABC to buy a snikers and a Kapusniak. I contacted my dad, but before I went to the dermatologist. Unfortunately, I had to pay PLN 40 and I still had to provide insurance if I wanted to write out my medications. PS Adela also issued Nimesil for pain relief. Seems to be a serotonin-boosting drug: be careful with aids, cancer. And this dermatologist probably said: it could be a mushroom: D
I told him about it, he wrote a drug, but only some anti-fungal. This is probably where you have to watch out for this cancer. Adela also said it could be: 1. Migraine only 2. Tumor 3. Inflammation.
I left, I was probably a little pissed that I paid as much as PLN 40 for only 7 minutes and that I forgot to show him my hand. Well fucking mac ...
We bought medicines in the green near the spa pharmacy. We had to order Rhodiola. Then we went to the one in the square. Here I was tempted by Rhodiola for PLN 18 because it had as much as 300 mg, but as it turned out later: it was 30 tbl and the tablet was 150 (there was a dose of 2 tbl). Dad wasn't so pissed off with that, he said he would buy me a new one and that man learns from his mistakes. At the pharmacy, I also asked about Huminil for my grandfather. Only 3.20, so very cheap, although they passed me out of Rhodiola. But I have no regrets because they asked if this one suits me, even though I felt excluded.
At home, dad noticed that grandpa felt strange. I know that it is from the drugs he is taking, I will have to talk to him about it, because zolpidem interferes or strengthens alcohol and strengthens many other drugs, and my grandfather is still taking some new drug.
They called private number from mbank. Finally, I picked up. Grandmother presented the offer nicely and I felt manipulated. I could have said: you know, I don't use it so often. Although on the other hand I said that I need to think about it, read the regulations. And she, but it is all just like I introduced you here - I felt a bit manipulated, or rather the pressure ... I regretted it. Moments later I look out the window and here is the Fire!
Dad had set fire to the grass before, but the fire spread so much that our house has already been burned down. I saved as much as I could, fortunately, the quality was extinguished at our house - probably the mud. We saved as much as we could, I took buckets. I asked myself - what did I do? I took a wet broom - it helped for a small fire, because dad was making a shovel unsuccessfully. I took buckets of water and it seems to me that I wiped a little at your skin and in addition I left my white bucket for exercises. Dad will have to buy me back! Gienia was not angry, she was probably even grateful that we helped her. There was also some guest in her house, I saw him for the first time.
At home, I watched dr house. I thought about my hand, I wanted to lie but I didn't. We ate ice cream, sausages and garlic. The head and eye felt familiar again today. I still want to take this mushroom pill, but you have to read the leaflet.
I wrote an email to Kaja, I talked to Kasia - I don't think all my texts are getting through to her. What's interesting - writing to Kaja now I felt nothing but a spark of longing. I wrote a slightly persuasive text and although it was short, I was composing it for at least 1.5 hours
There was Lepper on TV. I want to go back to politics. You have to go to wash after the smoke, tomorrow we're going to Nowy Trag to mount a webcam.
Treatment3Hospital
When was the last time I regularly wrote my diary on time :)
I woke up in the morning of 9:00 after an alcoholic night. Somewhere around 4:00 6:00 I spent on the porch. Finally, I go hungry, open the fridge and think: "the fucking fridge is not working". But I look: it shines
. more or less this is how I told it to my dad
Terrified that I was under the influence of alcohol, I went to bed and I woke up. My hip hurt more and more
At 9 o'clock I woke up, my grandfather was still drunk, at that time I crouched down and drank a bottle of mineral water on my kidneys, hoping that something would help. Olenka called, my grandfather still had such a drunken voice and talked to her. I also called my daddy that I was worried about him and we were going to cry. Interestingly, when dad came - he did not sense that there was drunkenness in that voice, he said it was because of his grandfather's new drugs. Maybe mixed up, because grandpa was under the influence of alcohol for a long time.
Grandpa went shopping, I wrote in the afternoon to Esther for help with those sore kidneys. The pain was terrible, getting worse every hour. When my grandfather was not there, I even thought / a very stupid theory / that watching porn would loosen the vessels a bit, I did it, but it did not help me much.
In the morning we also read in the newspaper about Doda who was beaten by Majdana's current fiancée. I also presented my grandfather with my 4-point way to get the girl back. He said it was a good idea for him
In the afternoon there was a phone call from TPSA - as if she was trying to manipulate me, and for me it was a blackmail. She wanted me to accept something, so that they would not have to send me letters. I could say that I prefer to have it in writing. I wonder if they really were from TPSA. Dad said now you can call the blue line and ask if there were any such calls. In the future, they can use arguments: "You are chanting me? Because it's all like this: take, accept ... please, please." Boy, I was just thinking maybe she just wanted to get the word "Yes" out of me to make me accept some kind of agreement.
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When I couldn't take the pain anymore, I asked my dad to take me to the hospital. This again his arguments that it was not so easy to get, accepted. He was not willing to take me. And he says he kept saying don't do it, you are doing it, following the example of David. As an argument I reminded him of the cigarettes, the next time I reminded my mother.
- I was an idiot in love, I would not let my children do that, I told you, I told you that you do this renovation only for your mother, because we really had a very nice and well-kept house. So you are an idiot, an idiot who only looks at the outward appearance because you have to admit that mom was pretty, and in return for everything you get ... all the worst.
- why did she generally marry you, because when you weren't pulled out a photo of the ex-boyfriend, he told how he would give her dad and once that it would be our dad (...).
I do not remember whether I wrote, but some time ago / probably 2 days / a new symptom appeared: something like scabies on the hands. The moment I write I still pinch. I have to find out what could be the cause.
We went with my dad to the hospital. He was fucking nervous. I talked to him in the car about his sense of humor, I guess it helped a little and I was great at improvising - as if the translator's technique.
Fortunately, there was Oleksy - a great ovarian and probably an equally good doctor. As soon as I saw him, I said: I am glad to see the Lord: D I think he was talking to him and he certainly felt nice. They gave a ketonal drip - it didn't help. They measured the tempterature 36.2 - so probably a slight weakness. I guess I smelt a little too and was sweaty. Besides, I asked dad to leave - when I left, it seemed to me that he told everyone about the doctor and the doctor informed him. It is a bit illegal, although as I talked to my dad later - he said, when he was with David, he had to obtain his written consent. They got me a urine test - strange and urgent. Grandmother said Creatinine 139 - what an anomaly: D
They gave a second injection: atropine + peralgin + something else intramuscularly in one. The nurse said she didn't like doing. I add that it is embarrassing. No - because it is painful for the patient. Although I must say that it was not so painful as she said :) She also drew attention to my stretch marks. She watched if something was happening after the drugs, they noticed my hand, interestingly, the left one, which was without these new obstructions. Besides, I myself said that she is numb. Ketonal in a drip as he said did not make the slightest impression on me. Atropine helped, when I left I thanked the nurse and the doctor sincerely.
On the way back, I spoke to my dad about how I do research on drugs. maybe now he will gain more confidence in me, moreover, he said himself that he trusts me more, but he feels that it will not change soon. After the atropine, I had the impression of a hump on my spine, and my back felt like round glands. I went to sleep on the ground as instructed by my doctor, but I hadn't slept until four o'clock. I turned on the radio from the omnia, there was just an interview about drugs and doctors: to consult a doctor, and doctors prescribe some kind of medicine that sponsors them: the doctor has their leaflets, a pen ... I remember that I heard on the radio 5:00 , I slept somewhere until 3 p.m. and my dad woke me up. At least I slept for something.
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