BlowOdKaji

Morning only Stretching. I missed training because of a lot of soreness. I met Kube the hare. We had a nice time together while walking. I didn't do anything special in the afternoon. I was a bit fascinated by looking for the GetElementsByTagName function ... But that's the ass of it Kaja just wrote that she has another ... She gets to know her friend better. So who I was all this time, those sweet letters and texts. Well, I'm not without blame either. However, I believe that only something good will come out of this situation The affirmation for today was: my heart beats with the rhythm of love ... PS After writing the diary, I followed suit. I was breathing very deeply only 4 steps. After many breaths, the stress of losing a loved one was almost abolished. Breathing is brilliant !!! I found quite a lot of metal gothic music. For a moment I felt something like this: I have to take a hand, I have to start changing something in my life, I have to start earning money to regain it. My breaths, however, made me reluctant to regain it. I relieved the tension. Weird... I also saw a guy who was running and meditating. He irritated me, I wanted to go over and ask him if he was meditating but I didn't have the courage. Pity... I met Bartek Ose and Roman. We had a great time. I like them very much. Bartek has a great girlfriend, very nice and nice with character. Today I have learned to overcome a very strong psychological shock. Perfectly leveling.

WordsMogSail

Yes, words can hurt, hurt a lot, destroy and even kill. They have so much power. I have found out about it, more than once poisoned by the words of my own father, my own mother, on that day when an unknown state triggered me by Markiewicz. I never blamed my father for that. I understood him that my mother despises him, ignores him, does not love him. I understood, but from the moment I started getting sick I hate him. Words can even kill. Today I had an argument with my mother about the vacuum cleaner. In this panic I had to take some drops to calm me down. Surprisingly, they helped me a lot. I took about 30 drops. Brilliantly calms down, in case of problems I will have my weapon. Accepting the state, pain - it doesn't work for me. Let's compare our condition from December - by not taking drugs, I have brought myself to a beautiful state. Then he quarrels over drugs. It took my good talk, although I tried to grunt something: you better be careful because I can take a noose, hang myself and then people just think about you !!! Besides, in the morning I did Streatching + exercises. After a thorough analysis of all the exercises, it seems to me that I can do all of them in the field by changing push-ups on the chairs to the usual push-ups :) I have also written all the stretching exercises that I am able to do. I also learned how useful brain wave vibration is for the feet. It took away all the stress in the body. First a few relaxing kivans to the sides, then very long feet. It was like a hydroxyzine injection in the Dietl hospital. I forget about the music for the diary again, which makes me not want to write it, I will turn it on in a moment. It's better now. PyroZone's madtracker music is brilliant electronic music. The mother feels stress again. I repeated the affirmations: I believe that only something good will come out of this situation. I created negative situations in my life myself. The negative situation is there to meet the inner need. What is the inner need - love? I also read the rebirth of the Phoenix today. A really interesting audiobook. I found out about outstanding people, how the author had passed with the wind to 32 publishers with her book. Nobody wanted her. And yet she finally found the publisher of the book that found something in it that the others did not find. The filming of the film became the greatest cinematic hit of the 20th century, and the novel became a bestseller. Einstein was one of the worst students in school, and today he is recognized as the greatest mind of all time. I also believe in myself. I believe that I am physically ill, my mental problems persistent a long time ago. And I hope the strong truth destroys the lie and I will eventually find a doctor to cure me. Today I learned a lot. PS I would like to forget I had a moment of slight euphoria after alcohol. Music for the diary makes me really want to write.

Stretching

Morning wake up at 6:30, however, I did not perform any affirmation or prayer. Weight below 74 kg, some 73.7 kg. Brilliant In the morning I resumed my physical exercises in the park. I felt great after stretching, I got to know my great exercises that could replace yoga or brain wave vibrations. I felt so fascinated again :) I did half of the training, then I went to the last treatments. I did not sunbathe due to cloudy weather. Recently, however, I have noticed I have a very low self-esteem. When, however, I wrote something in my notebook or programmed and came up with something new, I felt better again and I came up with something new :) Throughout the day - I stretched a lot, read this book, completed my training book. I met a guy who accosted me and asked where I was from. So I'm wondering now if he was with the police. He said he would go to dr. Zbigniew, ask for a prescription and sell it on the black market. Suspicious for me ... In the evening I was carrying jars with a hammer. In the afternoon I finished my training. Drugs in a moment. I hate them. Yes, I would like to contact Rafael, get the answers to my questions ... Today I learned to stretch. I am a sect leader ...

Hormonal Panel

Hormonal Panel - because this is today's title ... I was hypnotizing Adrian on skype. Anyway, we already talked yesterday about how much he would like to control the hormones in his body. Despite a slight lack of self-confidence, I managed :) Adrian was able to control his hormones in the body after hypnosis. I put him in a trance with the Mozgu Wave Vibration method for the hips. During the first trance, your subconscious mind explained exactly how to make it all go well. In the second trance, only from gorka: The subconscious asked to imagine the extreme situations for these states with the testosterone and insulin sliders. For maximum testosterone, I asked him to imagine Arnold Schwarzeneger - strong and powerful. He said he was really powerful. And for the lower end, a poor woman. I even managed to anchor it all. The whole conversation lasted from 11am to 2pm and I was proud of myself that I was able to do all of this. Besides, I read a little book - strength training without equipment. I plan to start this training tomorrow in the morning :). What I learned today: Create a hormone panel during hypnosis.

Rheumatoid Rafal

Rheumatoid Rafal In the morning, Rafal, a conversation about what was in the hospital, a girl you loved, a conversation about good and bad feelings, treatments, Kaja can't swim because she is afraid of low sugar, Rheumatologist lies that the drug is working - my mistake, I guess. Coming home, sleepy ... In the morning I went to Rafal. I missed him 3 minutes. We talked about what happened in the hospital on Skawinska Street, about "a girl I supposedly loved" - as he put it. I wonder what he meant. He's a great psychologist, could he make me feel? He also explained to me that there are no good and bad feelings. Now I also agree with him, it's just like good and bad don't exist. I almost wanted to cry when I was talking about the Skawinska street, but I couldn't cry. Then I went for treatments. Somehow at that time I got a text message from Kaji why I can't swim: I'm afraid of too low sugar ... I went to the Rheumatologist. I was afraid of not accepting me today, fortunately, while searching the photos, I found a note with the date of my visit. I have an appointment today :) I am also glad that while writing this diary I am returning more vocabulary. I took the bus and before 12 I was at the clinic. Fear again - I wore heavy denim pants and a blue shirt. But somehow it was, I didn't even have to repeat my learned self-suggestion. I was registered, accepted - unfortunately I lied that the drug helped me. It seems to me that it has resulted in the fact that he will not look for another disease, although I have continued to say about the wandering pains ... But maybe he will diagnose me. Well, a man learns all his life from mistakes ... Coming home, awful sleepy, nothing more important happened during the day. I decided to work on only one affirmation: life itself loves me, nourishes me and supports me. It's safe to live ... What I learned today: always tell the truth, be honest.

Training without equipment

In the morning treatments, sunbathing - great, buying a frame and notebook and meeting Raphael again. Rewriting notes and getting fascinated by it. I enjoy praising myself.

Patrick

Morning as standard, treatments, then a long time I sunbathed near the police, because I was accosted by this drunk and I did not want to see him. I chatted with him for a while You will not be back home until around 10:30. Then I did two game hacks for a day, bought a dream healing book - finally money came to my account. I sent the ionizer and the book. On my way back, I met Patrick - we talked for a long time. We practiced together. I noticed that pulling up with series of 5 series I feel amazing muscles. Maybe that's the key !!! Doing Exercises in series !!! He also mentioned that I should take care of my grandfather - he was right. Haven't seen him for a long time. Maybe I'll surprise him one day. He also showed me how to properly do push-ups. Plus, we talked about drugs, exercise, and a lot of stuff related to doping and bodybuilding. We're just cheating the body. Today I called dr. Zarowski. I said goodbye to him. What a relief, finally this stress does not bother me. I was glad when I settled this matter, you can say I breathed a sigh of relief, I also managed to buy a book today and return the books and an ionizer. After lunch, I was in the mountains. I must have worn out all my muscles. Come home, something to drink, now I want to finish reading osho books. I'm terribly tired. I guess I'm going too.