Broken heart

About twelve days ago, talking to Ola in the evening, she told me that Asia was going to the disco. As I heard it, I quickly begged my parents to let me go, unfortunately I had to tell the truth why I was going. So I went, hoping she would be alone without this darling. I stood outside for the first half hours. I didn't know what to do and if she was there for sure, but I thought I saw her friend. So I wrote a text message, which resulted in such a conversation: ME (21:35): You are here? ASKA (21:40): I mean where? ME (21:44): In the cinema :] ASKA (21:44): I am :) ME (21:45): Me too :] ASKA (21:45): and tx where? ME (21:51): Will you come outside for a moment? It will take you literally 6 minutes. Please ASKA (21:49): but I can't because I didn't pay for the admission and he won't let me in later. you come in ME (21:56): I'll come in, but promise me it won't hurt me. I would like to talk to you, and finally there is an opportunity :) ASKA (21:54): but why should it hurt you? ME (22:04): Wow, they don't want to let me in, because I don't have money. Please only go out where there is billiards. 6 min And after that text message from outside through the glass I saw Asie sitting on the first chair on the right by the mirror. I decided to somehow squeeze and go inside. At first I didn't know her completely, she was so beautiful, and this smile was so nice and sincere. I got in, sat down next to her and we talked. I already wanted to yell at her, why is she playing with me so much, why she doesn't reply to her, but because of her smile, I didn't have the courage, I didn't want her to lose it in an instant. So we talked figuratively about "sailor ass" all and nothing. However, it was fantastic to talk to her, some good 10 minutes. I thought she was such a sincere kind and smiling. It was really such a nice conversation :( I also asked if she picked up the flowers and what the love letter I wrote there meant to it, and she replied with such a smile: "nothing". even if it were eggs, they were such nice balls (with a smile, of course). Then the conversation ended and she said that she was going to the hall to dance. I asked if she was with someone and she was with a cousin. I also asked if I could stay and if she wanted me to She stayed, and she only depends on me. I entered the halls a bit later, I looked for her and I saw her with a blonde I had never seen before. I also tried to dance with her, and she with the text: "Here you fight together". And they went home together, I wanted to go with them, but my dad caught me and I had to go. I wrote a text that I was sorry that I couldn't walk her away, but dad tracked me down. She wrote back "no problem hehe". The next day in the evening, I tried to talk to her on the gh. Finally, I asked if we could get together somewhere? And she said that he was meeting somebody, and it was the blonde who saw him at the disco. "Pawel Chlipala Raba Wysna 13" I wrote to them by text messages in the midnight, whether those flowers meant anything to her, or did they ever feel something to me. She made a text message to these flowers in Ham, that she did not want to talk about it, but she wrote that they meant and that she only thanked them. She broke my heart, I cried like that at night, I did not sleep all night, I roared so much, my heart ached both literally and figuratively :(: :( :( :( she was not born for it. The next thing I tried with Maks, I tried to come to her house and talk to her, but unfortunately she was not there. I tried to go to her house more than once, but she was still gone. Being in front of her house, I wrote text messages to let her leave, and she said she was gone now. She dismissed me, didn't write anything outright. It was spinning all the time. It's hard, I don't know what to do, it's been twelve days since this event, and I still don't know what to do :( I just want to talk to her. I was playing with my brother a moment ago and I got seriously in the face to hurt and my nose, a beaten lip. I live now with a hate to hate my brother, I would have had him if I could, if he hadn't gone to prison for it, he would have been dead for a long time.