I choose the worse

I write this entry in the middle of the day. I just realized that everyone who has gone through some suffering in life chooses "friends with less experience" in quotation marks. But what's interesting, I sincerely like them. I sincerely like the Oscar, Damian. Apparently, Maximus did the same to me once. He already told him his story, I am grateful to him for that. But how to make us friends again. We are different today. He is strong, I am stronger. My mind wants to be friends with him, but with my heart I prefer to be friends more with Oscar, Damian, Marta ... Strange. According to Arleta and Angel, the only way to rebuild friendship is meditation and prayer ... Prayer is easier - just say the magic formula ... What am I saying, I will never start doing it anyway. After all, I don't even feel the need to be terribly friendly with Maks. End of the afternoon entry on September 29. Conversation natalka too quick diagnosis can hurt. Borderline. 3 hour talking mile. Release the laptop table and sit in Turkish.