Stryszawa 2

I really don't feel like writing yesterday. Fortunately, I have music in the background, thanks to which I got a bit of energy. Apart from the irrelevant facts from yesterday, such as the visit to the hairdresser and the visit to Manhattan on the thread, around 4:45 pm I went with Agnieszka and Pania Ani to Stryszawa for the second time. On the spot, I met the Paternogow family again. Ola made me wishes. The girl turned into an attractive girl. Pretty, tall, smiling, long and shapely legs. I temporarily watched her with my eyes. She looked great. I think I even fell in love. I also wanted to write about my conversation with the priest during my confession. I spoke about my illness, the practices that I use: herbs, eastern meditations, as I have put it. He said such practices are distancing from God. I can find God only in Christian prayer. But I was angry that I went there. It's brainwashing. God, prayer !!! But I was angry with myself. Until I wanted to re-read the book of conversation with death what he writes about it. On the Christian faith, because from what I remember, they spoke about it in a wrong way. These people are in a BAND !!! I told myself aloud in my mind. Besides, the angel told me to avoid para-religious movements. Should I create a new true religion? I can believe what I want - that's the answer I got! I waited for it all to end. Oh, despite sitting a lot, my tailbone didn't hurt. I was in shock. I was angry with myself for going there, I felt sorry. Well, at least I have my diary as a friend. It's good that I have my trophy on that day. This situation gave me one more kick - FEAR! Fear that I have to act, healed, learn to meditate, learn about the psychological cause of my illnesses and contact God !!! What I learned today: Both love and fear are powerful driving forces!