sobota, 27 października 2012
New Experiences-Cry
Now cry, now cry late time - maybe something else will change this �za - this is the title of Andrzej Piaseczny's song that I listen to. In addition to this song, today I downloaded a bit more Ambient techno songs from some hamster.
It snowed in the morning. The weather looked great, so sunny :) I went to training, but I returned quickly. The shoes were too wet, they are not suitable for this weather. I was afraid to put on a lot of clothes - I was beginning to feel these unpleasant reflections from the spine.
Every day I imagine my "Divine Power" taking revenge on my father. It is true that I do not have the divine power yet, but if I still visualize it, I may someday attract this situation to myself. I imagined how at Christmas in the family circle I would ridicule him, fighting him with words and fondling, without doing much harm. I don't want to do anything physical to him. Then, hypnotizing, I make a plant out of him, I call an ambulance which takes him to a psychiatric hospital. Revenge is beautiful, but what consequences would it have for me .... Probably quite a lot .... Loss of money, lack of support ... Maybe I would even be prosecuted - who knows ... the first two consequences would be for sure, for him it would be worth it first secure and earn a lot of cash to be able to leave home.
Listening to Transerfing in the morning was a beautiful affirmation that I liked: let me quote its content: Enjoy great health, powerful energy and spiritual comfort.
In the morning, practicing the vibration of the brainwaves + music + affirmation every day in every way I feel better and better. There are a lot of things in her affirmations like love, joy - and I still feel hatred. I even thought from renaming the affirmation: my heart beats with a rhythm of hate!
Throughout the day I wrote a bot to chomikuj. My work is going smoothly. I wrote a single post posting function along with an error handler. Finally, I bargained with the price for the bot - it escaped a bit.
Besides, I acted assertively in a different situation. The guy wrote that I shouldn't write information to the other person. I replied: I think he has the right to know, since he also pays. And he missed something. I felt a bit scared writing this, but after writing this I felt better. I even thought it was much better than writing something like: aha, oki - where I look like a pussy. And I often do that
Finally some psychoanalysis :)
What I learned today: new music, new sensations and thanks to that I did not get lost :)
PS Szymek came during today's work. I played single songs to him via bluetooth. He also showed his old girlfriends on nk. Such a fun moment, we did something together :)
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