Courage

01 February - Courage Nothing special happened during the day. I was not running for my feet for fear. I'll be training tomorrow. I read a little bit of esoteric psychology and finished reading it the joy of a dangerous life. Throughout the day I was engrossed in books. Mom today is cutting her finger into juicers. A moment ago now in the evening she went to Morczyna for some reason. Probably from Tat. I'm going to meditate in a moment. I will use the 3-finger technique again, but I will lie on my stomach because I feel that this position will be perfect for me today. I will use the technique of self-hypnosis and I will imagine the golden aura that will give me energy. In this position, the muscles will be taut, which will allow me to imagine the golden aura more easily, like in DragonBall. I had a lot of sweets and cips and sandwiches at night, although I did not want to eat ... What did I do, this feeling of guilt again. In my head, metlik and chaos: learn to live without food, no, it is enough to keep a 14-hour fast to stay healthy and slim, tomorrow I will be hungry if we are gone .... God ... What to do. I feel bigos in my stomach, I've mixed it up too much. I'm sorry my body. Sorry .... I'm lost in my life and I don't know what to do ... When will I learn to meditate?