July 26-night discussion as a father

On July 26, a night discussion with the father it's 00:55 I'm in the room now, there is a boarded-up TV. Father just went to sleep. I started the soup for the evening. I am sitting on a high chair in the style of a bold heel thanks to this there is more resistance (compression) as if I am grayish I am focused on writing this diary ... night discussion with father ... his argumentation: - if you want to have the power of clout - convince me - here I came across a skywalker gap ... kind of compressed, with a bit of dark power in him, an old wise character who, as it were, keeps all knowledge to himself - this is the effect of compression ... this is what he wants more ... he wants this more from anything else - at least something I replied to my father: you are no authority for me to listen to you, on the contrary ... at least I replied something great ... - and by the way, I really want revenge ... revenge on you above all else, no matter what happens next, although I also have to escape ... such a revenge would be to lock you in a psychiatric institution, hypnotize you, only before that I have to heal myself, moreover, I think in myself I have a lot of this angel: THE DOCTOR IS FROM THE NEW SALT, THERE IS SOMEWHERE CLOSE TO ME ... - nothing is still overly focused on the owl organism and I was not in this duel with you dr house ... you destroyed my life you bastard ... you still think about it, you destroyed me and now I want to destroy you above all else - but what have I learned by human thoughts ... with my thoughts I may have wanted to ridicule myself, but in compensation I might be able to keep my methods and skills to myself. yagami raito himself had to feel this way to pretend to be innocent ... maybe I did something similar .. - I have accumulated a set of theoretical knowledge of how to help myself, although finding a doctor with new salt may seem the most difficult to me - you will get help - said the angel .. at the moment it would be good for me to go back to the Ochikara, maybe write a letter to waldek maybe he could help me ... then I don't know ... let's see action, above all start training, finally at night ... so I must finally make it, and having a stronger, healthier and more efficient body, I can take revenge - by the way, when it comes to rabka ... I am kept here by red drazki, plunged and fresh air ... I do not want to direct my thoughts, but it would be healthier to live away from my family and come to the rabka for regeneration, only I am so terribly I hate my own father so much I want revenge after what he did to me !!! I want revenge so much after what he did to me ... - as I mentioned before, for all this to happen, first I have to do my power, power, money, then I can prove my flares, take my revenge, go away from my family without telling anyone (even the shame said that theoretically I now have such a privilege - everything the rest has its price) - THIS IS THE POWER OF HUMAN THOUGHTS, JUST MINE WAS UNDIRECTED ... - it suppresses everything inside itself, unfortunately ... instead of unloading negative emotions ... well, I do not know, summarizing through my body .... I was struggling to discuss with my father here, but at least I did something, I answered something willingly, and I felt so old. - until I feel like fighting him, but I'm still so overly focused on my body and ailments .... I understood ... in society and everyone has to do something ... and I feel like I do not do anything, not even Elenaka, as recently I used to say: uncle you are just like that - accept this state properly in this state, I can function quite well, speak against what my father says about me ... I regret and told him about my methods: resistance, gloves, taking on the left side, eating potatoes, eating in a circle of the same etc ... I feel bad, he has told me this ... he feels ridiculous and humiliated in the depths of himself, what remains for me to count and hope that if I continue to live and do something very much will come out of it good for me ... - patience, this day will come and it will explode ... .. eating chocolate is what it gave me .... - this kind of oriented visualization gets better and better theoretically ... theoretically better and better - in two days from Thursday, I am starting construction work ... I hope that I will do well ... - I am delighted to write about it all again, I feel like the joy of coming alone in front of my laptop ... So far I am instinctively silent, as little as possible to copress everything in myself ... do not choke but compress everything in myself / myself - this is probably my best instinctive solution for the moment, nothing better comes to my mind. - ok father, in that case what you call the power of punishment I for the moment the name ... compression, silence, mystery, say as little as possible - so let this word turn against you ... // like jola, like lukeskywalker