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The morning started with "ice lack of sleep". As I mentioned - I ate ice cream for the night. I would wake up to shift with falling asleep. I remember having a dream. The angel spoke to me. I can't remember the content of these words for anything. During the day as standard: several times too. I met a deaf old man again. I read e-books in the morning - it's a perfect opportunity not to waste time. Today I was preparing mum coats to display. at 8:00 am we have to put them up to be better demand. Someone has been hooking up to our wifi network for some time - this is my feeling. The lights are flashing and I can't connect for anything. Probably someone from a distance if that's the problem.

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Two days in a row From yesterday's day it is worth adding and I met Patrick in the Park. Muscular as always. We talked pleasantly. He showed me how to do push-ups properly and we talked a bit about the gym. 3 girls were passing by but we didn't like it. I meditated with the breath in order to get a good sale on the Allegro. To my surprise, I have already sold almost all the books. A few items left Yesterday I was also looking for support groups on meditation, medicine, etc. One person wrote back to me about the doctors of Tibetan medicine in Krakow. You just need to look for them or a Naturopaths doctor in my area. I am positive about this type of doctor after reading Michal Tombak's book. Today and the last few days I wrote my bot. I was doing pretty well. Today I encountered a problem with sending VK_Enter keys to the program. I thought to meditate on it, but didn't want to do it. Today my mother went to the river earlier. I was programming at that time. When she came back, I ate dinner and went to breathe / meditate a little. Today I also tested exercises in the Nichi system from the book by Michal Tombczak. I also went for pants from a few days ago. I put up auctions for my mother and processed the photos. I was at Mrs. Marysia to do her with the computer - she said that I must have pretended to be daddy, because I speak so loudly. What I have learned today and in the last days: communication with the body: eat when you feel like it, when you are full of energy use it, clean it to the rhythm of the music, unload it on the muscle, exercise and then clean it up. I have a lot of adrenaline and serotonin in me. I have also noticed that recently I am very weak in making sharp reproaches. Maybe because I haven't written my diary for a long time and I feel uncomfortable with the voice diary. I want to make it in one minute which is almost impossible. Heh, I'm glad that my health condition allows me to write. I can see my mistakes. From now on I write what I also learned during the day! And I experience every moment as a gift. I also talked to DoraMarau about the lucid dream OOBE. I thought that maybe it is worth reading a book that heals a dream - I wonder what there will be for extraordinary information. PS In addition to what I learned during the day, it is worth writing about my feelings. When I started to write, I felt a mana, smile again, euphoria that I could talk to myself again, write to myself and think about some things. There is a smile on my face, there is euphoria, full of thoughts, I even forgot a moment about pain: D What I have learned today - it's worth working on your mind again, meeting with friends - I completely forgot how to talk to people. 21:34 and this time from this I would like to start writing my diary. The day started with 7:00 am exercises that gave me energy for the whole day. At 12 o'clock my mother went to church, then I think to the river. I used to write a speed reading program before and during this time. To my surprise, I wrote a really good job. Today I was going out for a walk twice. The weather is very muggy and stuffy. The second time I met these salt villagers. I was a little scared, but the breath softened it a lot. Like a lamb, I looked away. What I learned - I could definitely look with a contemptuous smile and go my way. At 7 o'clock I ate supper - garlic soup. I felt a bit worse what was visible in my eyesight and it is worse. I could say to my mother firmly: I don't feel like eating, I'll eat it tomorrow. Although I ate the strength so that there were no problems. Man is whole and I finally understood it. How one broken particle affects the rest and renewing the rest improves. Sick testicles do not produce testosterone. These weaken the bones. The bones of the spine and so the whole body collapses. But the doctors don't get it. Will I ever find one who will perceive the human body in this way? Today also Kaja wrote about what is happening. Is everything okay. Then she wrote back something and the conversation was over. I can communicate better and better with my body. Physical effort is extremely important. It's nonsense to exercise every 2 days. I feel that now, despite the fact that I have exercised in the morning, my muscles need exercise again and are not worn out. The hormones in my head are raving. I want to do push-ups. And when will meditation come? Yesterday I also expressed a pretty affirmation after talking to Dora: "that night while sleeping I will find out about the dream". "That night while I am sleeping, I will regain my consciousness and realize that I am dreaming." Unfortunately, there was no lucid dream, but I believe that it will eventually come. I am proud of my program and I cannot believe that I did so much. I even imagined making an Android version. What I have learned today: to use a contemptuous smile on my enemies again, to practice when I feel that my muscles need it and are unstrained, even now. I have to forget about that bodybuilding crap. Oppose your mother, use the tone of J. Krupa.rano prochyra, fear insurance, gabis if you have a problem machines, bad flakes and casein Sending parcels, earning money on machines, training 12:00, strong lunch, a letter from Kaja, a fairy's e-mail, hotar info, a little quick reading, exhaustion, a second time with machines - great entertainment The day started at 7 am with exercises. Earlier, at 6.00, I was sitting at the computer for a while. At 9 o'clock I went to the thesis and meditated on the intention of another win on the machines. I went to the machines. I threw a five. I withdrew when she did not broadcast. Then the second game and so with 6 PLN I won 10 or 4 PLN profit. Mom went to the river. I used to go here and there. Surprisingly, today I felt quite laughable. Perfectly hydrated, beautiful eyes watered. I ate a lot of cookies. I was also a go up - but it quickly got me wet. It was raining. I took refuge under the prickly one, previously under the trees. I kept telling myself: I am safe in every moment of my life. I experience it to learn something In the evening, Mrs. Mary thanked for making the computer. I went and, surprisingly, the computer was actually running well I was doing a program for Pomorski for the day, but I was lazy at this job. I also called the infectious diseases ward in Poppy Podchalanskie Again I went to Marta to print something. The printer was repaired by restoring a few system services. That's it, now there is a pleasant storm, he writes by the candle. The perfect opportunity to read the affirmations. To reference the Machines: - easy, slow, breath - do everything the other way around - start 20. Check if there is profit. gone, reduce to 10 - Money from the fountain or from the meeting - then you lose nothing. The day started with a wake up call at five in the morning. As usual, I did weigh-in, TB plus auto-suggestion, prayer and went out to the field to breathe. I decided that from now on I would train in the field in the nichi system according to the book by Michal Tombak. It is a pity that I know so little about this exercise system. I know practically nothing about him. In a moment I came back and left again. I met Mrs. Lucynka, her dog wanted to bite me. And the lady with the e-book reader - I don't know her name. Today, when I was exercising, I noticed that I can already run. I was happy :) Running allowed me to unload my nappy. I have noticed that training in the morning gives me amazing energy for the whole day. I became addicted to this training in the morning. It's a pity that my meditation is not as great as exercise. I also see that the hands are in better condition I came home, breakfast - I noticed that I have not run out of tablets. I thought and in the evening I have to jump to the fast. I went to the new market, left Rabka around 11 o'clock. I went to Ogrodowa for the first time - here I could already feel a moment of hesitating. Chlamydia was negative again. I fucking thought in my mind. Why? Well, I was in a hurry to see the urologist In line until I wanted to talk to people about their diseases, their suffering. Older people mostly talk about it. I do not know why. As a young, healthy person, I was wondering why old people only talk about it - now I want to talk about it myself. With a certain lady, I talked about Radio Maryja. Besides, I ate a few cabbage rolls, a good sandwich, Cipsy. Unfortunately, when I entered the Urologist, he did not have time for an examination. The lady registered me on July 11th. I gave the urologist the project on record that I recorded in the morning, the list of functions and my CV - I think he liked it very much - he was extremely excited about it. He said he sees an upper class here. I meditated in the morning for employment in this very hospital. Unfortunately, I am bothered by the thoughts that I will not work, on the other hand, as I think now - if I worked in a hospital, I wouldn't have to program or break anywhere - right? Repairing broken computers would be a piece of cake for me: D Maybe it's worth a job: D While still in the hospital, I think to myself - here people have serious problems. I have healed most of my own. There are holes in my body where the bacteria attach themselves. I did a lot on my own. I was left with my spine and joints. The joints are in better condition. Today I was even running around. I returned home by bus, on the way my mother called and it started raining. I was listening to music and ReadBox about meditation at the same time. Hotar's music is best for listening to audiobooks. Perfect, Perfect and perfect for that. I came back. mom made me soup, but I ate it hard. I couldn't eat the second course. Then I ate it cold and my mother cooked a few more noodles for me. I slept, at 7pm supper, I was still at the pressure again. with Szymkiem we are still today the bar which I managed to sell yesterday. I just slept after dinner. Szymek dropped by my dad about the documents. Today he got a tattoo. moments ago, when I wrote this diary, Szymek fainted for several seconds. It's good that dad caught him. I wrote a lot today ... What I have learned, or rather what I should learn: patience: even from Ogrodowo. I spent PLN 350 on tests where they turned out to be negative again. And yet I could have done them with Tomasz Wieczoszynski, where they allegedly come out positively PS today on the radio Eska Rock I heard the box office. I'd like to say it's her. She had such a sweet voice, warm, strong and at the same time very nice. I felt a little jealous. Filtering with a presenter. I wonder what that might mean ... Lazy urologist - it's not about a urologist but about me. I woke up in the morning at 6:00 a little sleepy. I got dressed and went to the park to practice the nichi system and breathe. I firmly say that the amount I wanted to Practice in Darek's system is too large. This is so much that I do not want to do on my mattress. Interestingly - it is great on the mattress in the living room. I need to learn without hesitating and practice there. In the morning I visited Szymek. He felt a little better. I also took pills and took NAC down my throat. It turned out that nas in the throat works much better Mom and Dad went to the new market. I had so much energy in me that I did not know what to do with it. I wanted to exercise, run and jump. I also started making tea according to Bonifrat recipes. I felt very eager for her. However, after eating I felt very sleepy and so for the rest of the day. What I learned: Exercise gives my body tremendous energy. Good food supports me, bad food weakens me. I was lying in the living room, dad came over and turned off the tv. I listened to music for a long time. Laziness again. I was doing nothing. I spent the rest of the day at home. After all, I remembered that I have so much material on earning on a portable drive. I have material on positioning. How to read it? After intensive training, just turn on the computer and start changing it. The months will be tired. I won't have to have a dissonance to go somewhere because I did it earlier. I unloaded unnecessary tension, right. I've already learned to adjust the number of dinners. After 7pm I listened to 101 thoughts of H. Louise's power. It is good in the case of a diagnosis of schizophrenia that someone may challenge this decision and Krakow will turn out to be stupid. But I can continue my education. I have all or most of the books in my laptop and phone. Nobody will notice them. It would go on and it would turn out that I am somehow manipulated by the sect. People defend themselves not to have access to this secret and very simple knowledge at all. Here are the things I learned today. Perhaps some more affirmations regarding earning money would be useful. Hotara, please. I don't have to worry about asking him. After all, everyone wants to help other people. Hotar in particular. He will definitely have something in his arsenal :) link exchange system, morning exercises, breath, storm, advertising on forums hypnosis After the delay: I worked overnight on the installer for our project with Mateusz and completed the link exchange system. I have also created an account on cba.pl. The day was spent mainly at my feet and my collarbones hurt. When I was on a rainy afternoon walk I listened to 101 words of power, I was really pissed off by the kids. Yes, I know, it's just children. They only disturbed me and it annoyed me a bit because I couldn't hear the tapes. I thought that it would be reasonable to go to another place, but I had no chance - it was raining ... What I learned yesterday: When you sit at least 30 minutes at work and you are successful, you will not be able to tear yourself away. Today began at 4:30 Later I went to sleep because around midnight. I woke up hungry, dehydrated, and with underserved tension in my chest. And also sleepless. In addition, I really wanted to go to the toilet :) I partially met all my needs, even with food. I hesitated to eat or not. Finally, I did not stick to my planned 14h fast. But I explained to myself that yesterday I was longer on a PC, so my body needs it. I went to the pressure. I was there until close to 10. I also bought a wine cellar in a nearby shop. When I got back my mother was so pissed that I had come back so late. I took the drugs. I went shopping, and it was already somewhere 12. And I lost so much time. I talked a bit with Mateusz. In the morning I improved this program for him. God, I didn't feel like anything again. While on a walk in the morning I stepped on a snail. But I feel sorry for him. On my way back, I saw a group of kids playing soccer saying to their coach at the goal: "Sir, but you are too big for this goal: D". In the afternoon I was mother with 2 prescription antibiotic ointments in the newspaper, but I didn't get it this time. I also asked about the NAC preparation, unfortunately they did not have it, they wanted to bring it, but I told him it was a pity to bother. I felt so strangely dehydrated that I couldn't even breathe. Dry and not free. Almost like a mycosis. I thought the perfect solution would be grapefruit juice. or cold water. Something that quenches your thirst. But grapefruit juice would be the best, and cold too. At home, I did something on the computer, according to the decision, I wrote at least one post, and even a few on earn.com. Yesterday, when I was working with Mateusz, I felt such a desire to work. Working together is amazing, not separate. We just worked together and it was beautiful. Now I was listening to Osho - Prayer. So far it was about balance: Overeating and overeating. The point is to be in balance. When you are sad you want happiness. When you are euphoric, you get bored of everything. You want adventure. So it is! I had it too. I was bored when I was euphoric, alone in my heart, happy with my life. I had hundreds of faces: K. Wojewodzki, Dr. The Hosua that I had already partially lost, I was in a state of Love like Max with affirmations. In a word, I can understand everyone and now I know what Rafael was telling me when he said: good and evil do not exist! What I learned today: it's normal for times to get better and sometimes worse, but the point is to keep going. You also need to live in balance. Once the sun, once the rain. PS I downloaded Holy Keygen where there is nice music in the loop. It gives a climate here when writing it all. PS2. To the rhythm of this keylogger, I have just uttered new affirmations. Lately, when I speak them, I feel that I am doing it very hard. This time I was doing it full of love, I was a pity it was over. I uttered the affirmations twice, then a prayer For tomorrow I also made an appointment with Maks for 20 o'clock under the mushroom. It is worth adding yesterday and I met the farmer with Roman. It was fun to chat for a moment, but on the other hand, it was as if I was a little speechless. Once I had something to talk to them about and now it kind of took me away from talking. Maybe there were no topics to talk about, but I was talking to them about something. Today. Sunday, my mother asked me not to go to exercise in the morning. I did so too. Mum went to the river, the house was mine some time After 12 I went to the park and so did. A tree fell onto the bench at the same time. But I got scared. I repeated the affirmations: I am safe in every moment of my life. I was also supposed to make an appointment with a maximum of 20, but unfortunately it started. Today Szymek was after the p.bol tablet. I gave him the antidol. I feel sorry for him the way I look at him. He doesn't take care of himself and keeps destroying his health. Just like me at the beginning. Grandpa must have looked at me the same way. I have listened to star wars today too: the apprentice has a dark opponent. It was nice to listen to. What I learned today: Pay attention to the weather! Wake up early in the morning. Sleeplessness. Why? Insurance problem. Fear of lack of documents Meditation for insurance. Great breaths Return to doumu, breakfast, sending chimek, losing documents and finding by a strange woman. Cool dressing room - I felt a laugh Coming home - I don't want to exercise, but I did Mom, you will go shopping, you will meet Robert and Patrycja. The flies were biting me. Meeting with Maks: Ola won the trip, Maks promised to give me a massage until Thursday, we talked a lot about the public health service again, there was a guy who was running around, he was analyzing if someone had scoliosis, kyphosis etc ... exactly like I am now. I mentioned the plan to move out of the house - unfortunately I didn't come up with the idea that I should live with him, which I was counting on. What to do, can keep him at a distance like women? Tomorrow I have to go to the urologist and in the morning I also have to see a psychologist. I don't know how to plan it all and I don't have too much money to go to the new market ... What to do? Maybe she can take the money out of the bank. What I learned today: a cool outfit gives you incredible power, energy and motivation. Be careful, plan, although I will probably do everything at the last minute. The day, as usual, started with a wake up and exercise Yesterday and today I joined the exercises at the university. You were driving with glasses. I went home for breakfast. Then I went to the urologist, but before I did it, I fearfully went to the drug's wife to give me an appointment. All the time I was afraid that he would ask me about insurance. She or the drugs I went to the urologist My communication error occurred during registration. Well, you asked me to ask the urologist if he would admit me, I, out of fear not to bother the urologist, said: I'll wait well. Then the lady in the registration firmly says: No! Please ask the doctor if he will see you ... something like that. My communication error was that I did not want to bother the urologist, and I turned my head in registration. but better late than never. So I did I went to ask the urologist if he would accept me. I said I was registered and he saw me. Then I looked at the calendar and it turned out that today was not 11, but some other day on July 10. But I gave my back. But he welcomed me :) Nice to have a good chat I said without any expectations that I was treating with herbs when he offered preparations. He was positively surprised by this news. This time I was treated like a patient who cares about his health, not like a freak. I finally have a completely different character :) People in the queue were pissed off, because I came last and went in first, but when I left a woman said: it's good that you were sitting for a short time. I went on foot to Aunt Ewa, but I did not find her. Then I had a fight with ATMs, but I didn't get the money. Despite two ATMs. I was at the food to lend me money, I will have to give her back on July 17. I went to eat a little in fear, but I took a deep breath and it was better :) I love controlling my breathing. On my way back I met Paul the Church. Also like Max is a Physical Therapist. We went together. Dinner at home, then rebrithing because my feet hurt. Walking on shoe insoles for years has done its trick. I went to Max, he gave me a massage. It was fun talking to him and his dad - I relaxed a bit thanks to that. I went back home, had dinner and put Adrian Green in a trance. It worked, the hand rose. Fantastic. Despite the lack of practice, because I haven't done it for a long time. Tomorrow we made an appointment to have his eyesight by hyponosis. What I learned today: It's nice to have contact with people :) Even via the Internet. Sunbathing 8 in the morning, hypnosis in the morning and talking with the subconscious, nothing interesting during the day, work and terrible laziness in the evening. Go to sleep early. Yesterday was written with a delay. Traditionally, I woke up early and followed suit too. I guess worried I missed my morning training. Then I practiced myself in the Nichi Tombaka system by the sun in tezni. The sun made me feel PERFECT. The eyes watered beautifully, I mean hunger. It was great. It was great to exercise. I was a movement addict. Then I returned home, mum went for some breakfast. I hypnotized Adrian from the subconscious conversation script. I managed to get in touch with his subconsciousness, although she spoke very quietly, but I managed to explain the psychological cause of his deterioration in eyesight - he saw his parents arguing in their childhood. The subconscious also advised to accept this state. On the other hand, with the chest, I could not give an answer and she said that the answer must be sought outside. We also talked about his low self-esteem - Keidys too, I had this problem, I mentioned to him, but I managed it. I think I will pass on my methods to him and help him. I put him in a trance by the nodding method combined with the autogenous method. During the day, nothing special happened, only the headphones broke, mainly my fault. In the evening I sat down to work, but once I really didn't want to and I was afraid to work on both of them. At least on time, because I was already in bed at 22 and the hotar could probably do its job What I have taught me that day: always tell the truth. I think a strong truth destroys the lie. So when I got acquainted with Adrian and believed in my views on diseases (he also gets sick and read a lot of books), I believed even more in myself and the affirmations I was saying :) The day was written on time. There was a storm in the morning. I didn't want to go for a walk. It rained. I was blogging in bed and I didn't want to do anything at all. So somewhere until 2pm I was at home, I never went out. I listened to a bit of Michal Tombak's e-book. In the morning I also tried to hypnotize Adrian Zielony, but there was a problem with the connection. Maybe it's even good, because I didn't really want to do it. At 4 p.m. I went to a chess ring, but it turned out that they had closed for the holidays At 18 I went to Maks. His mother let me in, as if she wanted to wait outside. Max came in, gave me a massage and I returned home happy. The back was brilliantly massaged. At home, I saw Gerson's therapies. It made me believe in my own possibilities again. There was also a problem with the chimney - recently he is often gone, and mom is pissed with dinner. Yesterday started with a light tanning session. I prayed over Gerson's therapy. This, in a way, strengthened my belief in self-healing. Before 12:45 I went to the psychologist and at the same time I went shopping. The psychologist's name was Rafal Pawlik - great guy. The guy is relaxed, he swears a bit, but he is relaxed and you can see that he wanted to help me. He also had a critical attitude towards doctors and a deep respect for doctor Prochyra for whom he works. He gave me his business card - I have to write or call in case of problems. I was recording the entire conversation just in case. Still talking, I was worried about the insurance, but I hope that the case will not take place again. I was also thinking about new questions for the fairy - is it worth telling the truth about schizophrenia and neurosis and my past to Rafał Pawlik in the future? It seems to me that the strong truth destroys the lie, but it is not yet the time. In addition, I do not have the courage to go to kalemba to ask for a guide to rehabilitation ... Where to get it. During yesterday's conversation I got it when Rafal Pawlik talked about the rules. Great guest until I felt better. According to the prophecy, these conversations are supposed to help me a lot - we will see if it will be so. I believe that everything will turn out by itself, you just need to keep fighting for yourself. For less important things, netia and Orange kept calling Dad about a certain offer. I really liked the text: "Please talk to the owner of the phone!" - brilliant persuasion, give the order instead of asking "Can I ask to speak to the owner of the phone." What I learned yesterday: Even if everyone says that you don't hurt: you keep doing your job. Do not give up. Everything will sort itself out. Everything will be fine! My name is Krystian Broniszewski When I start my diary with such a word, I feel proud that I can now write it with a delay. As Carnegie used to say, your name is the sweetest thing for a human being Yesterday I proudly hypnotized Father Adrian. We were supposed to limit his Smoking. It worked. I was so proud of myself. It worked, and after all, I only read in the modified version 10 reasons why you should quit Smoking. Incredible I will not write any more. I will write down all day of the most important events Just as it sounds proudly. My name is Krystian Broniszewski. What I learned: Use in the Diary: My name is Krystian Broniszewski. This makes me happy to write it. In addition, advertise your hypnosis advertisement and do it remotely for free! Self-hate. I regret that it does not work out. Regret that something hurts, alternating with great self-confidence in recovery. I have an impression that I am not sick enough with my health, and in addition I am losing my good talk recently. Wake up quite late around 7-8. I went on too. It was the first time that I touched the stones while massaging my feet. Wow, quite a strong experience. I liked it very much. In fact, many ailments have disappeared. Then Nichi training, there was not much sun, but I managed to sunbathe a little I came home quite late and as usual I did nothing ... In the meantime, I was out for a walk with Ewa in the afternoon. On the one hand, she irritated and irritated me a bit, and on the other hand, a very nice kid. It was nice to talk to us. We were there for pulling and then tezni. I met and met her aunt Ewa is extremely bright, brilliant and brave for her age. I admire her for that. At her age, I was quiet and confused. On my way back, I met Oscar with his friend. I feel sorry for him that he got such an impression from Eve. I was a little stupid. I wanted to stand up somehow, but I didn't know what to say. Maybe now I will come up with some kind of retort: ​​Ewa is a bit messy - in a hard tone. Ewa, and if you would like someone to be like that? Dinner at home, I spoke to Mateusz about our site. This is how I look every day if someone wrote me an e-mail or a message on Skype, but nobody writes anything. Anyway, I never had anyone and I was always alone. For several days, my mother has been paying attention to the fact that I am having a terrible mine. But when I do, she is nice to me. I would have to do that. This bitch married her father for money, destroying the family for years. Now it's time for revenge. I will feel like a king here, not only to have food and drink, but I want a little psychological comfort that I have never had in this house !!! Every day I think about revenge on my father. Because of this I have foul and bad breath. I imagine ridiculing him in the company of how wonderful he is, then hypnotize him, put him in a trance and make a plant out of him - exactly in the same way that Dr. Markiewicz. Injustice plus suppressed fear. It would be unfair for him to be a bad father. And the suppressed fear? Reputation is that he is a slipper and a cunt to his wife. I think so. What I learned today: Walking on stones strengthens the body, and remember to take handkerchiefs to clean your feet. Michal Tombak came out of a serious back disease, he did not walk for two years so I can too !!! Although the circles are not yet in place, there is a clear improvement with the spine. End of entry on July 14. Tomorrow we are going to Rafal Pawlik again. Wake up in the morning, training - it was terribly summer that day. Mom asked me not to go anywhere, but I am addicted to effort. I have to exercise and train. I must exercise to gain more and more strength. While walking on stones, one lady asked if it was fun to walk this way. She was nice and nice :) at 13 I had an appointment with Rafal Pawlik. We talked about the organization of time. He rightly said that: -write goals -when you want to achieve it -growth your purpose - anticipate possible obstacles. He also asked if Kasia was also for Money. Then, with a smile, I said: No ... I wonder if he sensed me. I want to open up to him, but not completely! We also talked a little bit about healing, The Power of the subconscious - when asked if I firmly denied this belief. I wonder how he analyzed me. That's probably so much of the most important things. In the evening I hypnotized Adrian. It turned out great. This time he felt more confident and I felt more confident. Dad wanted me to do the router for David. I really didn't feel like ... I woke up early 7:00, breakfast, clothes, prayer, weighing and the new market. I took with me a lot of things that bothered me a bit: headphones, mobile phone, glasses, briefcase. I registered with a Rheumatologist and waited. I remember a woman with a child who attended the 1st junior high school. The kid had a very eloquent and interesting personality for his age. While registering, I said: I have no negative thoughts on me ... it worked. The referral has been accepted. The problem with the insurance is also settled. Cool. I can go on. Rheumatologist where I spent a little in line. But when I entered I doubted it. Was it really that lady doctor? I thought she was some kind of substitute doctor, but I think it was her. She seemed older and more serious to me. A year ago, when I saw a cheerful doctor full of vigor and youth. However, it was probably it, to judge by handwriting. I was terribly afraid and I felt that none of it would be too bad. I was referred for an X-ray. I went downstairs. I had the impression that I saw Wojciech Panz showing the patient around. I saw patients in serious condition, one of them had a terrible heartbeat. Panz seemed to be a bit more packed than the last time. I went back to Pierzga - I could say the feathers. It was a completely different woman. Some old, some serious, not a super young doctor that I remember with pleasure. However ... Even though I showed all the test results that were normal: She still suspected Reiter's syndrome :)) I was wondering if the meeting was really successful. Have I been honest? There is another visit though, I can always make up for it. I should read more about this disease. Coming home, I ate beans in the hospital before. The day went by as usual. Big dinner at home, dad was talking to me. My mother asked how it was at the Rheumatologist, but I firmly replied: I do not provide any information. You take care of my psyche and I take care of my physical symptoms. Continue breathing and tingling at the same time, reading a new book on Eastern medicine at the same time. Among other things, I found out about acupuncture and how a good naturopath can diagnose you after many things! At home I greeted Szymek with birthday wishes. We chatted for a while. I looked through the previous diary entries. I can already read with a good understanding of 300slow / min. Gradually increase from 200 and when it is too slow to increase by 50. In my opinion, this is a good way to learn speed reading. What I learned today: Rheumatologist can always make up for everything. Again full of self-hatred. I feel sorry for the prophecy again, for the channeling, for everything. I wanted to go back to the House mask again, finally had his talk. You only need to remember everything and the good species will come back Today: I returned to light shoes. Better for the ankle, but weird for the spine. I'll have to ask the hotar to focus on the entire skeletal system. Traditional morning exercises. I started drinking carrot juice, apples. In the afternoon I met Maks with Sandra. It's been so long since I talked to people and I didn't know what to talk about with them. Maks took pictures for his aunt from the state. He leaves on Friday. He will be back in 2 months, so I will probably not see him again anymore in the near future. I read about Reiter's syndrome this morning. My symptoms are consistent with this disease. Rita diagnosed me well: migrating joint pains - everything is correct! Thanks to this, I imagined my next visit, which was much easier for me. Throughout the day, along with the music, I listened to books, which strengthened me in my search for a Tibetan medicine doctor. Yesterday I do not know if I wrote, I borrowed an armchair from Szymek. Perfect for meditation, the thoughts slow down in this position. Cool! More important things. In the evening, while listening to the channeling, I had a lot of regret towards myself. What to do, I would like to contact Rafael. Maybe one day I can do it through Adrian. But I don't feel like anything. Nothing ... I'm lazy and I don't feel like anything. Nothing interesting happened in my life today. In the morning I sent a transfer to Szymek. Earlier, traditionally, I went to practice at the university. I pay even more attention to my planned duties and things. I read about Reiter's syndrome yesterday and it makes me feel more confident. Today Szymek's head fell on his head. Came bloody. I have listened to a book on the Complete Self-Healing System. Supposedly better than Yoga and TaiChi. In the evening, Kaja wrote to me. It was nice to me. I feel better and better physically. I have more of a desire to read books. Oh the most important: I sent my CV to work as a delphi developer. It remains to meditate on the intention that they call me :) Rafal Pawlik figured me out great, which he will write about in a moment. However, is it worth confiding in him? According to the prophecies, these conversations will help me a lot. Should you consult with Arlet? The day, traditionally, early in the morning, wake up, go to training, when by the way I saw Rafal Pawlik running twice. The second time, he hardly saw me. I used walking and breathing and heliotherapy. I made it my goal to read books every day in my spare time. I really have a lot of free time and, most importantly, an extra year of free time. Thanks to Rafal I wanted to jump to a higher level and give myself some supplement. Even anew, in a persuasive way, I wrote my morning schedule on the blackboard today. I also wondered about the aspects when a bargiel diagnoses me with Borderline - Acting Personality Disorder. She is experienced, she knows Lyme disease and chlamydia, so she certainly knows this disorder as well. If she diagnosed my dad's assessment, I would be successful, but the disadvantage would be that I could lose the pension I want to have as well as I was quite harmed by my parents and psychotropics that got into me and at least that's what I deserve. Bargiel probably knows that I do not have schizophrenia and she is stupid herself, judging by the expression on her face. Nothing, so far I have to wait until Zarowski signs the necessary documents, which he will give me this time as much as PLN 840 and the money will certainly be useful. Also apply for a second disability group! Life is hundreds of problems. I can always meditate on the intention to make things go well - it's that simple. I was proud of myself and started to think again and analyze the pros and cons of how he had taught me. For now, one aspect each, with time we will come to 5 ... 10 ... 20 ... At 12 o'clock conversation with Rafal Pawlik. We made another appointment for July 30th. Is it worth confiding in him? He certainly feels like a guy who wants to help people, that's for sure. Is it worth confiding in him in the future with the diagnosis of schizophrenia? I will ask the arlets, but so far I am not saying anything, I must be silent. He wants to help me and I must take this help. I have a psychiatrist who believes in my innocence, and if anyone were concerned that I am not sick, I am formally under the control of a psychiatrist. In addition, I have the opinion of three prsychiatrists and I am mentally healthy :) The issue of pension and insurance, hmmm .... I prefer not to say what I say, and what I say RA is treated at a Rheumatologist in Nowy Targ. The Mask of Laughter - because that was the title. Rafal noticed that he was still laughing, even talking about unpleasant things. He said what are the aspects of a depressed person, and I don't do it, I laugh whatever I say. I noticed it at home. I assume this laugh every time I talk to someone I like. But he doesn't know one thing. I can already be firm, acting - I talk to everyone differently, adapting to a given person, which makes me like each person. I sincerely like every conversation I talk to - I don't know where it comes from. Zarowski is a very similar actor, a military peasant. He is a photocopy of me, I wonder if he knows that I am Borderline and why he wrote schizophrenia - a lie? Maybe I don't want me to move any further, if I was borderline I would have accepted it easily. When I got home I fucked my mother screaming. Maybe even twice. It was a wonderful experience. I felt masculine. Enough of being an orphan who gets to be fucked up. I will do it each time. I accept her screams because I know that she is right and it is fair to get a shit that I did something wrong, but it has a bad effect on my psyche. Myself speaking in a sweet voice only heightens her screams at me. Maybe it's worth fucking her, she wants it subconsciously: GOOD, DON'T SCREAM AT ME !!!!! Regarding strangers, it seems to me that I learned to deal with emotions a long time ago, the parents remain. Here I have to roll, cry, laugh, be natural. Eye for an eye, kill for a kill !!! Continue the day no change, thesis. I practiced nichi exercises, which I added to my Exercise repertoire in the morning. I wrote the rest of the tombac book and I felt a terrible hunger and today I have not read any book! I believe I will come out of this without any side effects. I talked to Szymek in the evening, we made an appointment for a movie on Sunday. I lent him a backpack, he is going to Dusi tomorrow. Ah, this hunger and I haven't read any book today. On the other hand, I do not want to read the full self-healing system, because I am afraid that there will be a lot of exercises and you will have to write them down, but I do not want to. How to fix it? Writing in text messages, oh, I changed the keyboard :) Ah, these sweets. In the morning I don't think I was in training, but I had a terrible desire for something sweet. I ate so many candies that dad bought for dad's birthday that the holes in my teeth got bigger. On the one hand good - I wanted something sweet as my body said and ate it. I try to stick to 14 hours of fasting. On the other hand: I regretted it. The pain in my teeth and the holes got bigger. Two conflicting views are in conflict. Yesterday I started practicing in the Nichi system. In the afternoon I played with Jack in the Wii. Kirby was a fun game, the music made me emotional and somewhere deep down there I wanted to cry. Perhaps it was because of an unhappy childhood, and the music was also a joy to children. I wanted to go back to those moments ... I wrote down to psychoanalyze people. Jacek is very tolerant and understanding. A bit childish - but I know what he really feels. After all, according to psychology, I have something like Borderline Disorder, I am an actor, and in fact, being in so many different situations I can understand a lot of people. I can understand him too. I know what he feels because I was also in his skin on my own skin. I like him very much, I think he likes me too. From the book, a complete healing system, I learned that: Thoughts are also things, only at a different frequency (different energy, maybe more or less depending on thoughts). I have sent too many thoughts into the universe. Too many, and now there are a lot of random tiles in Tetris. I think I can arrange them according to my principles and thoughts, and one of them is TRUE !!! A strong truth is the key to sorting out this huge mess in the life of a dreadnought. According to what I talked to Rafal Pawlik, he gives himself higher levels. I wrote it on the blackboard what to do, I added Nichi, for 2 days I have to read 1 book which will give 3 books a week, so a huge amount of knowledge. Thanks to these higher levels I have become addicted to the movement and slowly I am becoming addicted to reading books;) What I learned that day: Also remember about the psychoanalysis of people I have met. Again, nothing special. A completely boring day, although the pain was really minor today. I enjoyed this freedom from pain :) Such a kind of rest Even though I started my day with Nichi, I didn't practice today. I felt that my muscles were tired and they refused to obey anymore. I measured the biceps. Az 37cm. Wow, nice :) In addition, the muscles are again as hard as before, and maybe even harder. In the afternoon I met Karoline. I haven't seen her for a long time. She was with some boyfriend. She even greeted herself first. Was she trying to make her boyfriend jealous? Usually she didn't deign to answer, and now - come on. I continued to listen to Taoism. I did everything in the morning. I even made the bed. While rinsing my mouth, I was doing other things at the same time. This is a very good method. I took a nap in the afternoon - it gave me some kind of rest. Similarly in the evening. God, when I sleep, I feel so sorry for my father and because of him I could not sleep for so many years: family atmosphere, my neglect, inadequate bed - what led to it all. I'm so mad at him !!! if at least I had received an apology, I would forgive if he had admitted his mistake, but he is Pussy and Drip and he cannot admit his mistake. What I learned today: Thoughts are things. Power of thought plus imagination plus self-confidence are miracles. I keep learning. Do I really need all these spells of Mary? When will I find a doctor to cure me? Will it be a Tibetan medicine doctor? Morning 6:00 am. Cold but very restful. Traditional activities, Nichi, herbs etc ... I did it all! Go out to practice and return home by 9-10. As always, my mom pissed me off. She made me cocoa in this bad milk. Ah, he relishes no pain, not even his tailbone. You can see herbs and affirmations are working :) I have enough, I want to rest because the pain is much smaller. Nothing works, just listen to music and read books. That's my whim. Parents are chuje, in the end when mom this slut married dad because he worked in peweks. I have never seen her love him, I have never seen her kiss him or hug him, but all my life I saw how you despised him and you pushed him around like a rag !!! About 17 Jacek Gabis came. We played together. Then dinner and remorse, and I ate enough. Burn quickly and quickly to the beat of the music. On the way back, around 10 pm I met the boss, zazi and the crew. I greeted them. In Ddzien, my mother irritated me with the word: everyone said that you only walk with poles ... but it offended me, the tension in your body. I quickly discharged my chest with vibrations and it passed :) Wow, it was amazing. In the afternoon, a guy called a second time about a porn site program. I gave a cosmic price of almost PLN 1000, exactly PLN 987. And the guy was interested: D That's what you have to do. High prices and don't get fucked. What I learned today: you have to value yourself, give high prices, sell people. At night this dream about antibiotics, which, unfortunately, I do not remember exactly. What could he mean? Go back to them? I have no idea ... With echinacea, I felt better, can actually repeat the treatments. However, in a dream I felt to repeat the treatments for 2 weeks. A day like every day, but with some change. I practiced in the morning at home, and by 2 p.m. I wrote a program for fast reading. I improved some functions and made more beautiful graphics. Now I like it very much :) During the day I discovered Radio Katowice, which I liked very much :) I haven't read any book, I practiced the rest of Nichi's exercises at 5pm. I was wondering if Kaja would agree to meet. I am waiting impatiently for a text message from her. He expresses himself very nicely in these text messages. It's hard for me to believe that she writes to me. Maybe I will finally be able to watch the movie of the Indestructible What I learned today: It's hard to say. Ttyl had actually started with: Turkish Loneliness, due to today, however, I changed the title practically to the Dark Affirmation about which I will write in a moment. Everything spreads throughout the body: anger, food, emotion, poison, drugs ... I have already mentioned it, but because it was written on my board, I decided to repeat it. I was stupid to analyze, I thought, and it turns out that there are simpler methods and, in addition, more effective. You just have to change the way you think. I wanted to be like House, and that's what I was. I analyzed everything around. It makes you mad. I made the statements that the subconscious mind should be making consciously. Low expectations are the best way to succeed. That's what I was doing today, when mom left. I started meditating, actually WFM for the head combined with a Turkish sit and a diamond position. Wow, I was doing pretty well already! cool! and in addition, this meditation gave me real joy when my mother wasn't there. After 30 minutes of nodding plus Hemi Sync Positive Thinking, I was incredibly positive, nothing hurt me, for a while I didn't think about pain when I do it all the time, and in addition I was super focused. This form of meditation was great for me. I felt very well with it :)) In the afternoon I felt like having ice cream. I ate up to 1 liter. Exaggeration. Now I feel it all over my body: my eyesight, dryness, burning when I pee. And I felt pretty good. But it's not too bad. My body is in better condition now and it's just a small poison that will soon be removed. Interestingly, there are sweets after which I feel good like cereal coffee on sugar, cookies. However, the ice cream, although good in such a large amount, harmed me rather than helped, but it is not that bad. It's been pretty good lately. You need to exercise your body to adapt to each situation. After all, in March the pants were too heavy, and in April too. Only 3 months of amazing progress :) After 6 p.m. I played with jack. Nice, until mum and dad came back. What I learned today: the key issue of today. My dark affirmation that gave me incredible power: Every day I take action to become stronger, even more powerful and to implement my plan of revenge. It made me happy to write this diary ... I'll take my revenge Dear Daddy !!!!!!!!! Gosh, I don't want to write this diary so much. How could I make my writing more enjoyable? What to do to make writing it pure pleasure? Music - music is a medicine for everything. I can also write everything as if there was an extraordinary story - then each new entry would seem exciting. So let's check: No major changes in the morning: I didn't want to exercise, I was exhausted, so I was just breathing in tsnia. I returned early 8:30 for a physiological need. I ate the steamers. I advised my mother which dress would be better for the funeral and we went to the clique. On the one hand, I really did not want to go to the clique, on the other hand I thought to myself that I could learn something new in my life. Always choose new ones, as Osho used to say, right. Being in church I was terribly afraid of my joints. Over time, my dad joined me. I listened carefully to what woman my great-grandmother was. She is 96 years old. She raised 8 children in hard times, the most important thing for her was God, faith. And I thought to myself - beautifully, I devoted myself to God, but it is a pity that she lived in such a lie as the Catholic and Christian faith. It is a pity that people do not know the truth I have learned. On the other hand, it makes me feel better than others. After the last year, I have low self-esteem. Maybe because I once recognized myself how wonderful I am. I think so. I felt worse than others, Tearz feels inferior. I stopped in place. However, when I discover something new in myself, I seem to find happiness in it. There is power hidden in the Books, as Ewa Foley says. After the funeral, my dad drove us to Remiza in the new market. I met 14-year-old nephew of Aunt Bozena from the seaside, we also saw them. We ate dinner there, then a moraine and home. At the fire station, I felt like I had lost my good old talk. I didn't know what to talk about. And I was like dr. house. I had a super fast and strong mind. What happened to it, where did it all go? I had good conditions in the house where I spent almost a year and I talked to my grandfather. with people on skype, and now everything seems to be lost ... but we'll get back the good old talk. I don't feel the need to talk to people again, but when I talk I'm glad that I can talk to someone :) I watched the people in the fire station as the poor were destroying their health, they were poisoning themselves: coffee, cola, sweets, cake. What a horrible sight it was for me. Rest at home. It wasn't good for me to drive back home. It was very stuffy in the car. Instead of air conditioning, however, I prefer a tilted window. At home I came over to give him dinner, then I went too, but at one point it spilled terribly and I was incredibly wet. As I laughed, I wanted to hear about this situation: D I also remember a woman who was nice and I lent her my kikji to play with her daughter. Potema even wanted to repay me and give me a lift, but I went with my dad since he already called me and wanted to give me a lift. Ah, how a certain lady laughed at me too when I came wet. I also wanted to laugh: D: D I had an interesting dream last night. How I talked to Max about living together. Surprisingly, he agreed that we should stay in four, as he said. Me, Max, Sandra and Kaja. Interesting dream, maybe it bows me something good :) For now, however, I do not feel strong enough to talk about it with max. Today I learned to write in a diary about what I feel and what I think about the situations experienced during the day. Hard muscles. I have the impression that the circles are inserted into their place. Herbal medicine worked wonders :) The morning traditionally without major changes, except that I felt stiff and hard and I was not hungry. At the same time, I taught myself to walk without poles. Breakfast at home. Then I met Szymek at our place. I thought: his leg was broken again or something bad happened. At first, he had a day off. My mother was surprisingly in a good mood today. Thanks to this, I was in a good mood too. She hasn't asked several times: what are you saying? what's going on? which is really annoying and annoying. I read the tombac's book How to live a long and healthy life. I read quite a lot because I came to over 1000 items. During the day, nothing unusual happened today and it is difficult for me to say what I learned today. Maybe to read a book while listening to the radio and without sticks. It made it easier for me to listen and had time to add to the bookmarks. I missed writing my diary again. After 7 pm I fall asleep so terribly I do not want to write a diary then. I'm going to sleep and that's it? What to do to prevent it from happening ?: Maybe you can explain to yourself that I exercised a lot and breathed a lot during the day and there is no need to do it all around at night as well. Then devote your time to yourself for prayer, diary and reflection of the past day. During the day, nothing special happened. About 4:30 p.m. Jacek came, I really wanted to sleep during the day and so I did. I had a terrible lazy. I noticed that the bacteria always attacks those places that are weakened at a given moment. Thanks to this, I know what is healthy and what is not, how to arrange my life to be comfortable. And until I do it and get rid of the psychological causes of my ailments, I would like this bacterium to stay in me. I have already discovered a lot, it remains to find some work and entertainment. I might consider reading interesting books as entertainment, but again I had a terrible desire to write anything yesterday. I called the diary entertainment, because I started watching Dexter. I found myself having some form of entertainment. The blonde insisted strongly: don't back down now. This made the dexter say he thought and succumbed. I would also say that and I would succumb to it. Things I Have Discovered: Abdominal Wave Vibration plus Rebrithing gives you more opportunities. I had a dream about Nifuroxazite. Earlier antibiotics, I guess that means I have to take this antibiotic. Maybe I wanted to see a great doctor, and a great doctor wants to see a healer. Maybe one day our paths will meet and this great doctor will heal me. Besides, I already know my body well enough and I should think better. Now I was listening to the planning and implementation of goals: - The ability to save. Success is goals! - When you set goals, don't share them with anyone. That's right! - Failure is essential to success. You're getting close to him. You know what you should not do anymore! - Goals must match. Willing to breathe all the time you will never earn - You want to lose 10 kg. Set yourself a loss of 1 kg, e.g. up to 73 kg - 3 goals within 30 seconds: health, money, independence - Goals with my family and with me. Material and finances. Personal development. - Do what you can with what you have where you are. - Set a goal for the next week, month. I noticed that writing all this on the blackboard I felt better and so fascinated again. Yesterday I finished writing my program. I made some extra options like a ruler. When writing a post in the evening from the internet heyah on 4programmers I got an interesting answer in the morning to use the FindChildWindows function. It almost solved my problems in the app :) At night my mother came in and closed the window for me, while the phone with Tombak's e-book was on. Writing on the blackboard gives me a lot of fascination: I am a powerful, charismatic sect leader because I learn and work on my skills daily, weekly, monthly. What a beautiful affirmation, I like it very much. There was a lot going on during the day, now I will try to briefly tell you I spent alone. Mum went to Morczyna in the morning. I listened to Organizing and planning time. Entries in the previous diary. In the morning I started writing this worst function from FindChildWindow and programmed the LogmeIn script in my bot Tick ​​- I was terrified when I met him in the park on my hand. I even talked about it with Rafal at the beginning of the conversation I spoke incorrectly with my mother. She screams - I smile. As a result, she screams even more and I feel resentful. We criticized doctors a lot about how to treat. That heals the symptoms instead of the causes. He gave me an example with Pascca virus. And the essence of something I need to work on. Identification. How a person hurt, instead of how bad I felt. From what he said, this is a problem for 98% OF THE PEOPLE AS THEY KNOW, not just my problem. When I identify myself better in the eyes of others. Sleep with Nifuroxazite - I started therapy today believing in my dreams, and I believe deeply in dreams. Alcohol - Euphoria: For a while I was able to forget about everything, even though the amount of alcohol was really small, I felt great !!! Professor Starzyk - I was thinking about him, he had to live what I did then in the hospital. I was exactly like him back then. I love you, said the dexter to his daughter. I watched two episodes today It's an interesting day I am the Charismatic sect leader - beautiful affirmation. Again, yesterday I did not want to write anything. Therefore, I will only write a few abbreviations Sick's eye problems - he got lime in his eyes. Biedy is deciding whether or not to quit this job. It is clearly visible that it does not serve him I wrote the Adf.Ly Virus. Almost done. Practically no autorun. Rebrithing. I wrote down a list of the closest Rebrithers. I believe deeply in this method and I would like someone to introduce me to this world. I came up with the idea to program while standing. Today I'm testing this method :) What have I learned today. My health has improved significantly. What is Szymek going to say now? There is no one, he has to deal with everything alone. I am in better shape because: I am a powerful charismatic sect leader because I work on my skills every week, every month !!! PS It is worth adding that some kind of aunt, mother's cousin, arrived the day before. Cleaner, kind of cool, but you can see that in his nerves he is still talking only about Marynia's ass not interesting things at all. She invited us for Sundays, but to tell the truth, I don't feel like going. You will have to make up an excuse.

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In the morning, weigh in. Drenched in fat and put on weight. DEBRA: You're not particularly annoying for a swirologist. For the next day I listened to channeling, watched a nice music video. I met Pania Nele Zajac - a great woman. I added affirmations on the spine. Mateusz wrote to me about our business - I think he's a bit pissed. Today I tried self-hypnosis with hemiSync in a good position of the legs, but the hand did not rise despite the fact that I made suggestions conveniently. Today I learned an even more comfortable sitting position for my legs

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Wonderful day. I spent it amazing. I worked almost all day standing. A great item for your computer. Ideal. Mind is tired now, time to go to sleep. This is exactly what I learned today. I was also looking for a way to earn. On earning.com I found a person who offered help on firecash.org I started to create programs, portfolios, etc. in this position. It was simply brilliant !!! Bumps on the back of the foot where the tip of the shoe above the heel is located. That fear again ... In the morning I talked to Kaj�, I tried to work but I did a million things at once. I didn't go anywhere except my morning training What I learned today: not to remove the tumor. It is a defense of an organism that has arisen for a reason. During the day, compared to the previous one, I did everything and nothing on the computer. But I still think about pain. and yesterday I had so much enthusiasm ... Again I didn't feel like writing. Yesterday I panicked about the stops. I practiced a little vibration of the brain waves on the chair when there was a terrible storm. Mom went to gossip with Mrs. Basia. I'm terribly curious about what they could talk about? Could it be about me? Out of this panic, I went to bed in time, then when the hotar was sending its healing energy. In the evening I watched the dexter. But great ... Throughout the day I wrote miniWebBrowser for UniBot. The function of clicking on the area and sending the text works. So the most important bot functions. You will also need to write text reading functions for some variable. I wonder if the option to download all variables is useful ... maybe it will be useful ... not and maybe we'll better interpret the html code ... Everything will turn out. What I learned that day: the storm is pleasant. Time to go back to the risers. Besides, when my mother tells me something unpleasant, I can use the dexter technique. Baba crashed into my shoes, which were folded down. She started talking and talking and talking. It wasn't some terrible aggression. I was silent and she was talking, which I guess was even more annoying. In this silence I also cooked, but only lightly. I came up with a retort: ​​Maybe the police will still call you because of the nicely placed shoes: D: D But then nothing came to my mind. I was just silent. But I wasn't cooking that much. This is a good technique Let the woman talk and I will answer one big cutie. This is just brilliant! I'd get the support of the crowd. Today, Rafal Pawlik taught me the relaxation technique. Counting the breath to the 10th time has slowed down again. The watch irritated me. I was just watching. He, too, is probably a follower of observation of his own body. On Monday, August 6th, my mother and I went to Nowy Targ invited by aunt Marta. We entered Fuss for the first time in Nowy Targ. Dad asked me to try on new T-shirts. They were nice, although I did not want to go there because of Jada !!! Then my mother and I went to the MOK in the new market. Aunt and Patrycja came. We visited a pub. Although we really didn't want to eat, our aunt forced food on us anyway. I wonder if she made it and she is fat and wants to fatten all the skinny around or if it's her kind of hospitality. After that, the restaurant took us to the apartment with Patrycja and Dominik. Pretty nice apartment, clean and tidy. We watched a movie about Smugglers in the series "difficult matters". He talked about a woman who hoarded unnecessary things until she littered the whole apartment. In the evening there was a movie called "Recruit". He talked about people admitted to CSI, the way they were trained, how to recognize a lie, how to curl ... etc ... I felt tiny with them. Watching this movie made me feel very little about my own personality. These people were brilliant compared to me. Athletic, intelligent, they could do a lot. Later, when they arrived, I found out that "my mother married a goldsmith and she had a hard life". I suppose it was about my dad. At night we were teased by the villagers through the window. They did not sleep. Mom went to pay them attention. Until I believed me, I did not want what kind of mother was with them. She spoke such a squeaky voice that you wanted to tease her even more. How is it possible that she fucked us so hard all her life and did nothing to them? I wanted to stand up for my mother, go out there and fight. One problem - health. Or even two - I can't fight properly. Fear would destroy me. The next day my heart ached terribly. We visited a museum, then a castle. But before we did, we visited Peter with whom I became friends afterwards. My heart ached terribly. My aunt gave me food every now and then - sweets of course. I couldn't watch them poison themselves. I am ahead on these issues with my life experience. There was a great blonde in the castle, that's just great. After the castle we went to Peter. I promised him help with the computer, unfortunately he failed. And again a lack of assertiveness. Peter invited me to his place to the festival, but on average I wanted to go to this festival. I could have said: you know, I don't like festivals (I'd be honest), but if you're in a new market, then maybe we'll agree and bring this computer. We agree in some place and I will try to fix this computer for you. After peter come back to their apartment, eat, talk about sailor ass. Literally, country talk about sailor ass. And finally coming home. I felt so bad But I prayed and I experience this moment as well as a gift. I experience what I once experienced for a year - sick with almost complete insomnia. Thanks to this, I appreciated even more what I gained. The next day, ie yesterday, nothing special happened. Monika and Agnieszka invited me to Mass on Friday. I agreed. It will cost me PLN 20 What I learned today: I appreciated that I was sleeping again. That I can be like a battery according to Michael Tombak's book that will work even harder !!! My name is Krystian Broniszewski, I am the leader of the sect, because I learn and work on my skills every day, weekly, monthly! Madtracker2 and PyroZone's music - I'm listening to it right now. I also listened to her yesterday. Brilliant electronic music. Yesterday I did a bit of a hard time finding converterea to mp3, but my efforts were wasted. This is what I think: how this world is perfectly filled with a lie. Just taking into account my disease and modern medicine. Even doctors believe in diseases such as schizophrenia and neurosis. Patients believe it because it says so, because psychotropic drugs treat only the symptom of this disease - only pain. But if you don't destroy the cause of the pain or disease, it will appear elsewhere! Zarowski is a deep believer in schizophrenia and neurosis because that's how he was taught. He was taught a lie. And although he is a good doctor and a great man, I cannot trust him. For the whole world is built on a lie! And because of all this, the whole world is falling apart, the whole world is going to destruction. Where is the truth I ask? Maybe hidden somewhere in this pile of lies. I believe deeply that the truth is hidden in simple things, you have to change and believe that this simple way of thinking gives you happiness, wealth, justice and the discovery of the truth! Psychologists, even if they want help, do not understand ... They also studied modern medicine, which is built on a lie I wonder who built it all this way. Who created this mask of lies? Maybe all of us? People lie like Dr. House used to say. I think so. I wonder how live those who know the truth. And the truth, as Osho says, is hidden in Meditation. For several days, since Rafal taught me a simple relaxation method, 10-10 treats it as a cigarette break. Thanks to this, I am much calmer and better adhere to my activities and duties. Relaxing helps me clean up the mess. at 4:20 pm I had an appointment with Monika. We were supposed to go to the village behind Sucha Beskidzka, the church where healings are allegedly taking place. We went by bus, with her uncle, aunt from the church. There I met Adam Paternoge and his family as well as Mrs. Dziub from Mathematics. I took advantage of the prayer that Agnieszka recommended to me. Then the Holy Mass. In the meantime, Monika and I visited this beautiful area and I was taking pictures of it. What stuck in my head was the priest saying 3 things about me: I feel that there is a person who has intrusive thoughts, I feel that there is a person with a brain tumor on the left side behind the ear, something else with a spine, but it was probably not my thing. Everyone prayed and believed that they would be healed. I was wondering how the priest knew about this? From where? On the way back, I thought: maybe those shepherds who prayed over us then passed this information on to the priest. That would be a valid theory. This intrigues me, that's why I will be going there in a month. I have to check it, I have to be sure, I have to check it carefully !!! First dream: Hide the drugs from Daddy. That's what I did. I hid them in the herbs of Bonifrat. Second dream: Dirty Uncle Staszek who lay down in my bed. He was masturbating and he had a huge ejaculation that almost shot at me from a distance. A disgusting dream. What could that mean? The first dream. What happened yesterday. I was still writing hacks, this time a facebook hack for my blog. Tired, I went to a dirty sleep. Maybe that's why I had such a strange dream. Kaja wrote that we are losing contact again. Now they are playing under the mushroom, and I will write my diary. Sunday morning, sleep until 9:00. I didn't want to exercise. I abstained with affirmations for the time being. I made herbs another way. after 15 minutes of brewing knotweed and giving herbs bonifrats, I gave them so that they burned while cooking. Thanks to this, the coffee grounds have fallen to the bottom and I have a better brew. Two minutes of course, maybe three. I kept writing hacks to facebook and others ... Nothing special happened. Have I learned anything: maybe I have learned to make herbs better. I was also maniacally doing WFM to the rhythm of Madtracker's music PS I just watched an episode of dr. House. It made me remember my good talk. I told my mother: yes, we're going to sleep - lulu because tomorrow is a beautiful new day! Pododka at 6:00 am. In fact, I woke up well earlier and couldn't sleep anymore. I went on too. Every now and then I have bumps on my foot. At one point, I really wanted to shit. Luckily, I went to the toilet in the spa town of Rabka. Interestingly, somewhere along the way, Rafal saw me about or we talked about later. Today we talked about such things: it is my choice whether I want to be calm or not. He showed me success charts. I don't remember their name anymore, but the point was, the more you want to get to your goal quickly, the more your motivation drops. However, if you simply do a given thing, the success comes with greater and greater success. My constant laugh also made me realize. I am afraid to talk about myself, about my feelings, I avoid difficult matters. I kill it with a laugh. Until I was sad when I realized it Late afternoon - departure to �arowski - the guy took my hopes away again. According to the arlet, I could easily change my doctor today. However, I chickened out. I put it on hold for later. Zarowski signed the documents for me. The more he talks about some kind of psychosis, the worse he gets. He will change the doctor by phone in a few days. It will be easier this way. I have signed documents on ZUS, besides, I recorded the entire conversation. He also drew my dad's attention to the herbs, breaking medical secrets as usual! What pisses me off now !!! Bot Request: Unique YT Impressions, Mass Facebook Account Creation and Likes, and Mass Commenting. Probably nothing specific happened. I spent the day without a laptop, the weather was terrible and I really wanted to sleep. I wanted to borrow a USB flash drive, unfortunately, I couldn't find it anywhere at home. I made an appointment with a kaja, I tried various ways to get money. I did not work anything due to the lack of a laptop. I decided that in the morning I will not be wrong, due to the large water costs and a large lack of time. Now I'm going to wash, it's 10:30 and it's time to optimize it all. Bot downloading text like datapremiery.pl to html code. 5:00 wake up from the alarm clock. Earlier I couldn't sleep, nervous tension, I felt a little hungry, stress related to hunger so I went to eat an apple. It helped. I abolished the nervous tension with one of the yoga exercises similar to the chest vibration exercises. I made a mistake, I went on foot to cornflower. In the morning I only ate breakfast. I practically fasted for the day. Now I feel this has given me an amazing improvement in health !!! Feet do not hurt, eyes are tearing, niesetty returned to me old habits of tearing. I also felt intestinal contraction and I wanted orange juice. Amazing starvation, although she was in a smeirdzacym bus, I have the impression that it helped. And I also used NAC as a support, you can say that it replaced lemon juice and cleansed the body of toxins. Returning to Kaja - she dressed beautifully today. Fantastic feather earrings. I didn't even get to tell her all this. It failed, we did not have the courage to talk about what we should talk about. We talked about other, incidental, less important things. I only managed to hug her in the gallery, I did not have the courage to do anything more - I have a boyfriend. I don't want to destroy her life, her relationship. On the other hand, if I don't look, I'm the other one ... Lack of time, little time, too hurried meeting meant that I did not have time to talk to her about it. I borrowed 10 PLN from Kaja because I missed it. I bought a ticket only to Krakow. I was afraid of what would happen, luckily, by eliminating negative thoughts, I managed to reach Repair where there was an accident. From there I went on foot, then a woman gave me a lift to the rabka where my father came. I ate dinner, nice homely atmosphere - something unbelievable. I also stuffed myself with dinner and other delicacies. I also went to read the tombac book. What I have learned today: control the hunger, control it, understand its beneficial effects. My name is guilty, morning treatments, aunt 6.00, new post and more and more views, Osho seven human bodies, Kaja discussion about guilt via SMS What I learned that day - reading interesting books is extremely fun !!! Sen Monika Friday and sex with her - baking of the sexual organs. Maybe you should be careful to protect yourself from intercourse, take care of your sexual organs ... Sleep Cyst and second pulmonary Fast and rested, I got up in the morning. I made herbs, but not exercised. I went out too. Then sunbathe. The weather was amazingly beautiful. The sun makes her feel much better. Vitamin D works great miracles. Perhaps it is good to voluntarily put myself in a psychiatric hospital. They are looking for nothing else in me so I can continue to discover myself :) Coming home, I wrote practically no hack for the day. I've played a lot of Tetris, found a better crack. You will laugh at the game;) I was about 5 in the mountains. Excellent condition. I read an article this morning about the starving men how the guy did a 21 day fast. It made me believe in this method again. Now I have worked out my body better, I am more resistant to stress, whenever there is an opportunity, you will have to try this method again :) Drink lots of water. Then it works best. I read the article in the program I created For tomorrow I made an appointment with szymon for a movie I wrote the diary exceptionally earlier thanks to which I feel that I have more time for myself. And the weather was fine today. Morning sleep until 9:00. What was good about eating ice cream yesterday? I found out on my body how big a mistake it is to eat ice cream for the night, or to eat ice cream at night, especially sweetness. How the body was poisoned by toxins after eating ice cream. Over the day - I wrote one hack, pasted an ad on my website. I have played a lot of tetris The relaxation of nodding my head calmed me down a lot and gave me even more motivation to work. Today I made an appointment with a chick to watch movies, but somehow I don't want to go to him. Mateusz came up with the idea of ​​a "magnet link generator". I suggested that I also write something like that. I also started taking notes that I didn't finish regarding whether it was possible to live 150 years. I resumed my prayers and affirmations. Only one thing affirms: life itself loves me, nourishes me and supports me. I'm safe. 15 errors that kill a compound: You are attracted by unreachable people You are greedy You are inclined to dramatize You are involved in previous relationships Negative attitude You are too powerful and demanding You have friends who limit you You are only interested in non-binding sex You prefer practicing rather than romance You are disorganized You prefer to work rather than romance You can't say NO " You have a problem with your ex-partners You have possessive parents You do not care about your appearance and health. Standard morning treatments, then I was sunbathing for a long time near the police, because I was accosted by this drunkard and I did not want to see him. I chatted with him for a while You will not be back home until around 10:30. Then I did two game hacks for a day, bought a dream healing book - finally money came to my account. I sent the ionizer and the book. On my way back, I met Patrick - we talked for a long time. We practiced together. I noticed that pulling up with series of 5 series I feel amazing muscles. Maybe that's the key !!! Doing Exercises in series !!! He also mentioned that I should take care of my grandfather - he was right. Haven't seen him for a long time. Maybe I'll surprise him one day. He also showed me how to properly do push-ups. Plus, we talked about drugs, exercise, and a lot of stuff related to doping and bodybuilding. We're just cheating the body. Today I called dr. Zarowski. I said goodbye to him. What a relief, finally this stress does not bother me. I was glad when I settled this matter, you can say I breathed a sigh of relief, I also managed to buy a book today and return the books and an ionizer. After lunch, I was in the mountains. I must have worn out all my muscles. Come home, something to drink, now I want to finish reading osho books. I'm terribly tired. I think I'm going too. Reumatoid Raphael In the morning, Rafal, a conversation about what was in the hospital, a girl you supposedly loved, a conversation about good and bad feelings, treatments, Kaja cannot swim because she is afraid of low sugar, Rheumatologist lies that the drug works - my mistake, I guess. Coming home, sleepy ... In the morning I went to Rafal. I missed him 3 minutes. We talked about what happened in the hospital on Skawinska Street, about "a girl I supposedly loved" - as he put it. I wonder what he meant. He's a great psychologist, could he make me feel? He also explained to me that there are no good and bad feelings. Now I also agree with him, it's just like good and bad don't exist. I almost wanted to cry when I was talking about the Skawinska street, but I couldn't cry. Then I went for treatments. Somehow at that time I got a text message from Kaji why I can't swim: I'm afraid of too low sugar ... I went to the Rheumatologist. I was afraid of not accepting me today, fortunately, while searching the photos, I found a note with the date of my visit. I have an appointment today :) I am also glad that while writing this diary I am returning more vocabulary. I took the bus and before 12 I was at the clinic. Fear again - I wore heavy denim pants and a blue shirt. But somehow it was, I didn't even have to repeat my learned self-suggestion. I was registered, accepted - unfortunately I lied that the drug helped me. It seems to me that it has resulted in the fact that he will not look for another disease, although I continued to repeat about the pains ... but maybe he will diagnose me. Well, a man learns all his life from mistakes ... Coming home, awful sleepy, nothing more important happened during the day. I decided to work on only one affirmation: life itself loves me, nourishes me and supports me. It's safe to live ... What I learned today: always tell the truth, be honest. In the morning treatments, sunbathing - great, buying an anti-frame and notebook and meeting Raphael again. Rewriting notes and getting fascinated by it. Praising myself gives me joy, Hormone Panel - because this is today's title ... I was hypnotizing Adrian on skype. Anyway, we already talked yesterday about how much he would like to control the hormones in his body. Despite a slight lack of self-confidence, I managed :) Adrian was able to control his hormones in the body after hypnosis. I put him in a trance with the Mozgu Wave Vibration method for the hips. During the first trance, your subconscious mind explained exactly how to make it all go well. In the second trance, only from gorka: The subconscious asked to imagine the extreme situations for these states with the testosterone and insulin sliders. For maximum testosterone, I asked him to imagine Arnold Schwarzeneger - strong and powerful. He said he was really powerful. And for the lower end, a poor woman. I even managed to anchor it all. The whole conversation lasted from 11am to 2pm and I was proud of myself that I was able to do all of this. Besides, I read a little book - strength training without equipment. I plan to start this training tomorrow in the morning :). What I learned today: to create a hormone panel during hypnosis. Wake up at 6:30 in the morning, however, I did not do any affirmation or prayer. Weight below 74 kg, some 73.7 kg. Brilliant In the morning I resumed my physical exercises in the park. I felt great after stretching, I got to know my great exercises that could replace yoga or brain wave vibrations. I felt so fascinated again :) I did half of the training, then I went to the last treatments. I did not sunbathe due to cloudy weather. Recently, however, I have noticed I have a very low self-esteem. When, however, I wrote something in my notebook or programmed and came up with something new, I felt better again and I came up with something new :) Throughout the day - I stretched a lot, read this book, completed my training book. I met a guy who accosted me and asked where I was from. So I'm wondering now if he was with the police. He said he would go to dr. Zbigniew, ask for a prescription and sell it on the black market. Suspicious for me ... In the evening I was carrying jars with a hammer. In the afternoon I finished my training. Drugs in a moment. I hate them. Yes, I would like to contact Rafael, get the answers to my questions ... Today I learned to stretch. I am the leader of a sect ... Yes, words can hurt, hurt a lot, destroy and even kill. They have so much power. I have found out about it, more than once poisoned by the words of my own father, my own mother, on that day when an unknown state triggered me by Markiewicz. I never blamed my father for that. I understood him that my mother despises him, ignores him, does not love him. I understood, but from the moment I started getting sick I hate him. Words can even kill. Today I had an argument with my mother about the vacuum cleaner. In this panic I had to take some drops to calm me down. Surprisingly, they helped me a lot. I took about 30 drops. Brilliantly calms down, in case of problems I will have my weapon. Accepting the state, pain - it doesn't work for me. Let's compare our condition from December - by not taking drugs, I have brought myself to a beautiful state. Then he quarrels over drugs. It took my good talk, although I tried to grunt something: you better be careful because I can take a noose, hang myself and then people just think about you !!! Besides, in the morning I did Streatching + exercises. After a thorough analysis of all the exercises, it seems to me that I can do all of them in the field by changing push-ups on the chairs to the usual push-ups :) I have also written all the stretching exercises that I am able to do. I also learned how useful brain wave vibration is for the feet. It took away all the stress in the body. First a few relaxing kivans to the sides, then very long feet. It was like a hydroxyzine injection in the Dietl hospital. I forget about the music for the diary again, which makes me not want to write it, I will turn it on in a moment. It's better now. PyroZone's madtracker music is brilliant electronic music. The mother feels stress again. I repeated the affirmations: I believe that only something good will come out of this situation. I created negative situations in my life myself. The negative situation is there to meet the inner need. What is the inner need - love? I also read the rebirth of the Phoenix today. A really interesting audiobook. I found out about outstanding people, how the author had passed with the wind to 32 publishers with her book. Nobody wanted her. And yet she finally found the publisher of the book that found something in it that the others did not find. The filming of the film became the greatest cinematic hit of the 20th century, and the novel became a bestseller. Einstein was one of the worst students in school, and today he is recognized as the greatest mind of all time. I also believe in myself. I believe that I am physically ill, my mental problems persistent a long time ago. And I hope the strong truth destroys the lie and I will eventually find a doctor to cure me. Today I learned a lot. PS I would like to forget I had a moment of slight euphoria after alcohol. The music for the diary makes me really want to write. Morning only Stretching. I missed training because of a lot of soreness. I met Kube the hare. We had a nice time together while walking. I didn't do anything special in the afternoon. I was a bit fascinated by looking for the GetElementsByTagName function ... But that's the ass of it Kaja just wrote that she has another ... She gets to know her friend better. So who I was all this time, those sweet letters and texts. Well, I'm not without blame either. However, I believe that only something good will come out of this situation The affirmation for today was: my heart beats with the rhythm of love ... PS After writing the diary, I followed suit. I was breathing very deeply only 4 steps. After many breaths, the stress of losing a loved one was almost abolished. Breathing is brilliant !!! I found quite a lot of metal gothic music. For a moment I felt something like this: I have to take a hand, I have to start changing something in my life, I have to start earning money to regain it. My breaths, however, made me reluctant to regain it. I relieved the tension. Weird... I also saw a guy who was running and meditating. He irritated me, I wanted to go over and ask him if he was meditating but I didn't have the courage. Pity... I met Bartek Ose and Roman. We had a great time. I like them very much. Bartek has a great girlfriend, very nice and nice with character. Today I have learned to overcome a very strong psychological shock. Perfect for leveling. Feels great The breaths took the matter out fantastically. I do not know if it was the acceptance of feelings or their suppression, but it was not. Maybe acceptance, because my body needed more oxygen in this state. Wow, 15 min was enough. In the morning I checked the email from arletta. I was wondering what the cards will do. As he says: The cards indicate that Kaja still has feelings for me and it is worth fighting for. And the fact that the other man is interested is due to the lack of contact, I neglected the contact. I got up today exceptionally early. I think even 6 and I went to exercise. I came up with the idea that I can practice push-ups on the handrails that I ordered today. Likewise, triceps. I did a full training session with two warm-ups and breathing. Today I talked with Rafal. I made an appointment with him on September 3. A moment later Roman called. I made an appointment with him in advance on Wednesday with Bartek and his girlfriend. There will be great company :) Besides, what happened today. Darek came, I gave him the ring, he was amazed at my progress in walking. I guess that's it. I did not write to Kaja. Somehow I didn't feel the need. What I learned today: probably nothing. The affirmation for today was: I am a user of my mind full of love :) Yesterday was written with a delay Just write a few things Meditative Affirmation - I did it more or less like this, making the affirmations "tomorrow I am having a pleasant trip down the hill" while meditating at the same time. The meditation does not flare when read from the book Rebirth of the Phoenix In your mind, say the word "I like you" to the interlocutor in order to have better contact with him. I couldn't sleep at night. I meditated, I even set up my own Death Note. In the morning 4:00 a.m. wake up after a sleepless night. The rest in a moment. Wake up at 4:00 am total sleeplessness. I meditated in the intention that the expedition would not take place, I even created a special notebook which I called deathNote. Romek came for me, we went for Bartek and Olge and to beech wood. The expedition only made me feel like I didn't want to walk, but I did. I even climbed sharp rocks. I was very afraid that something would happen to me, both my life, my tailbone and my health. Today, however, when I look at the photos from the expedition, I think it's really worth it. It was a fantastic trophy. I don't want to write the details of the Expedition. In the evening, Kaja wrote and broke up with her boyfriend and is in despair. As if you could say - once again I missed writing my diary. Sleepiness, laziness. I did not want to write terribly. In the morning, while at the same time, I met a woman who asked me why I walk barefoot on stones. I told her about the health benefits of water, herbs, stones, and horsetail. I felt very appreciated and happy and I could help her in some way :) Then a man joined the conversation. He talked about his daughter who sang and appeared in many shows, including IDOL. Her face swelled terribly, where doctors could not determine the cause. As always lazy during the day. I almost finished listening to the rebirth of the phoenix. I feel stronger and stronger thanks to the power of herbs :) I learned today and it is worth going out to people and helping them :) I also talked to Kaja in the evening about how she broke up with her boyfriend. She said she felt strange with it now. Climbing compared to my life situation. In the end I got to the top and then only gully. In the evening and in the afternoon I watched porn. Interestingly, I did not masturbate, I practiced endurance. Again, I didn't feel like anything. But the push-up rails came today, but they stinked terribly. I have finished reading The Rebirth of the Phoenix by Nicodemus Marshal. Today workers have come to do with the radiators. I was breathing a lot too. I felt great. So hydrated. They finally cracked the muck in their mouth and they bleed heavily, but they come back again. What is this? Maybe it's from the spine? I do not know. I also tested Nicodemus Marshal's CSS meditations to stay motionless for 30 minutes. I also listened to the diary from May and June last year. Today I look at myself how much richer I am in new life experiences. It's amazing how much I learned, how much I got to know myself, what I discovered. How the acquired knowledge allowed me to rebuild muscle mass in a short time. What I learned today: use music to read books and diary. Music is a wonderful medicine as I have already mentioned before.

Get rid of the pain

In the morning I also talked to some nice old lady. This conversation really relaxed me. Yesterday I also attended a lecture on the illness of Ewa Foley. We want to get rid of the pain, and we wanted to get sick ourselves, we chose the parents we have because we knew that they would be appropriate for our needs. In the morning I only practiced streatching. I listened to more of the channeling book today. I met this lyso friend who was drinking. Nice friendly man, he said he drinks because the girl dumped him. Interestingly, I was interested in his story. I wanted to help him in some way. Since my life goal is related to peace and mediation ... And the disease was supposed to prepare me for my future life. At 20:00 I have an appointment with Lukasz Lopata for irritation. He wrote a text for me to come there. Apparently, without hesitating, I agreed, but I was wondering what it said: Come in at 20 for a strike, instead of being able to stay at 8:00 pm? Great persuasion, you can see he's pretty well trained. For the most important things, that's it for today. Here's what I learned today, I analyzed Luke's persuasion.

BraveKrystian

The morning started with an 8 o'clock visit to Rafal, but before that, I took the medication alone. I swallowed, of course, but my mother was outraged and swallowed too soon. Never mind. There will always be claims and trouble for drugs. I went to him. He said he was very delighted with my MMS. He even read it several times. My words touched him. I was very pleased that I acted on him this way. He is a great therapist and for free, it would be a shame to lose him. Today we talked about my experiences, about everything and nothing. He said that when he listened to what I was saying, he saw my tone, calmness, composure says that I am very brave after all this. I felt appreciated, in the end my thoughts were just like that - to be admired for being brave. Nothing special happened at home at 4 p.m. we went to zarowski. My dad's swearing after relaxing exercises and with Zarowksi did not impress me much, as they did there, although not that big. I freed myself from zarowski, so now I am writing affirmations: only something good will come out of this situation. It can be easily solved for the benefit of all. I'm safe. We spent some time in the bonnet. I ate a huge unnecessary dinner. On the way back too - I was barefoot. I met Lukasz Lopate and some crew. We talked mainly about nutrition, Allen Kara's book, eating two meals a day What I have learned today: it's nice to be sincerely appreciated :)

I choose the worse

I write this entry in the middle of the day. I just realized that everyone who has gone through some suffering in life chooses "friends with less experience" in quotation marks. But what's interesting, I sincerely like them. I sincerely like the Oscar, Damian. Apparently, Maximus did the same to me once. He already told him his story, I am grateful to him for that. But how to make us friends again. We are different today. He is strong, I am stronger. My mind wants to be friends with him, but with my heart I prefer to be friends more with Oscar, Damian, Marta ... Strange. According to Arleta and Angel, the only way to rebuild friendship is meditation and prayer ... Prayer is easier - just say the magic formula ... What am I saying, I will never start doing it anyway. After all, I don't even feel the need to be terribly friendly with Maks. End of the afternoon entry on September 29. Conversation natalka too quick diagnosis can hurt. Borderline. 3 hour talking mile. Release the laptop table and sit in Turkish.