Silence

Yesterday was written with a delay and I will shorten it a bit In the morning I was going to Krakow. Again, however, a roughly sleepless night. at 12:25 I was supposed to go to the main station, but there was no chance for me to make it already. So I went to the crossroads near the shovel and waited for the bus. One passed the green one and he did not take me, there was one of the bottom mszana and only around 1:30 pm there was a bus. So I waited about an hour at the bus stop I showed the busie the ticket // it must be noted that it was the rabbus company // he was surprised that I did not have the card, I said that I just haven't got it yet. I gave him an account on which at the moment he could not see much, but the most important ones were personal data and the date of validity of the ticket. He himself stated that he couldn't see anything, but he let me in. Such an older nice driver, I regret using him. Meanwhile, I wrote to Kasia that the bus did not stop and I was a bit late I arrived somewhere at 3:00 PM at the roundabout and waited for the cashier. It was terribly cold and windy, and it is always cooler since the Vistula River. in the meantime, I bought a brown obwarzanek from this nice lady who once gave me a mobile phone. We got on at 19 and got off at the main post office. Kasia did not want to sit on the tram because she said she was not an old grandmother. I, however, sat down because there was an empty seat. in the meantime, we were writing some stupid text messages. I already wanted to write that if he does not come and hug me, there is a nice blonde in front of me who will definitely agree to my request: D We went a long way through the market square on Florianska Street. I talked terrible stupid things, I think I only say stupid things in front of Kasia, maybe because she says so little ... Several times I felt attacked by her. I also had to ask for funding, because I only had PLN 9. We ate a hamburger and there was such // at least for me // a pleasant silence. I've tried to talk a few times, but keep quiet. So I took my laptop and checked a few things, including mobile phone programs for my grandfather // I downloaded a packet of programs // Kasia didn't say anything so that she wouldn't feel lonely, I moved next to her. I asked again what is so quiet and she is so slightly aggressive "what should I say?". Then another sentence: "in a moment I will leave". I was in such a state that I just didn't want to say anything. Finally she left and I think she was waiting for me to say something or stop me, but I didn't. She also left money, I took it. I felt a bit devastated and I was looking for a tram, but unfortunately I didn't have one. I went in the direction of the Krakow gallery, I still saw it at the bus stop, but I did not go to it. I went to the gallery a bit with tears in my eyes, the tram was gone, I was ready to cancel my meeting with Krzyski, just to go home for Tramal and prevent this terrible mental state. In front of the Florian Gate, I also met a zebra, I told him slightly aggressively: "Fuck off!" I went downstairs for ice cream to calm down and I liked it very much. I went upstairs and met Kasie on the bench. I sat down next to her. We talked over text messages. Finally, aggressively again "and what am I supposed to say". After a long moment, I explained to her what I just felt, this conversation made me very much calmer. at the end I said: "the fact that I do not cry or take offense does not mean that I am not sorry, because I am! I wanted to tell you before I go " - but I do not remember the exact words I used. I went to a meeting with Krzysk, and Kasia seemed to come across to me and looked at me. I saw her calling. Finally I went to another cafe, I was looking for a shout, he was a little late as usual. When he came, Kasia was gone. I found a place, talked to Krzyski a bit. He lent me his Book on the Mind, it's good that there isn't so much to read. He was talking about his supposed girlfriend. We finally broke up. Man, I'm wondering what else we were talking about, but I can't remember. I took the last bus to Rabka, before I went, I bought tofia ice cream at mcDonald for PLN 3. I listened to the buddha on the bus, when we got to Rabka, I asked the bus driver if he was going to Zaryte. He said that, unfortunately, he was going in the opposite direction // it was this nice old man with whom I once talked about work // he left me at the train station and I went home on foot PS I also remembered that a large part of the day I played millionaires on my grandfather's phone. A very addictive game. I wrote to my dad or informed my grandfather that I was coming home. Dad wrote back and offered to come to Nowy Swiat and we would go again. I said I would walk the tracks. my eye is terribly sensitive to cold. at home, some conversation with my grandfather, Witalij Kliczko has a fight soon and I would love to see it. After some time we went to sleep, something I must have fell asleep for a while. However, when I woke up around 2:00 am I took relanium + 5 mg zolpidem, but I did not fall asleep and in the morning I was also terribly scared. Kasia also wrote an explanation that I liked, but I did not write back to her, I think I was so tired. In the morning I also played millionaires in the toilet