Mask of Laughter

Rafal Pawlik figured me out very well, which he will write about in a moment. However, is it worth confiding in him? According to the prophecies, these conversations will help me a lot. Should you consult with Arlet? The day, traditionally, early in the morning, wake up, go to training, when by the way I saw Rafal Pawlik running twice. The second time, he hardly saw me. I used walking and breathing and heliotherapy. I made it my goal to read books every day in my spare time. I really have a lot of free time and, most importantly, an extra year of free time. Thanks to Rafal I wanted to jump to a higher level and give myself some supplement. Even anew, in a persuasive way, I wrote my morning schedule on the blackboard today. I also wondered about the aspects when a bargiel diagnoses me with Borderline - Acting Personality Disorder. She is experienced, she knows Lyme disease and chlamydia, so she certainly knows this disorder as well. If she diagnosed my dad's assessment, I would be successful, but the disadvantage would be that I could lose the pension I want to have as well as I was quite harmed by my parents and psychotropics that got into me and at least that's what I deserve. Bargiel probably knows that I do not have schizophrenia and she is stupid herself, judging by the expression on her face. Nothing, so far I have to wait until Zarowski signs the necessary documents, which he will give me this time as much as PLN 840 and the money will certainly be useful. Also apply for a second disability group! Life is hundreds of problems. I can always meditate on the intention to make things go well - it's that simple. I was proud of myself and started to think again and analyze the pros and cons of how he had taught me. For now, one aspect each, with time we will come to 5 ... 10 ... 20 ... At 12 o'clock conversation with Rafal Pawlik. We made another appointment for July 30th. Is it worth confiding in him? He certainly feels like a guy who wants to help people, that's for sure. Is it worth confiding in him in the future with the diagnosis of schizophrenia? I will ask the arlets, but so far I am not saying anything, I must be silent. He wants to help me and I must take this help. I have a psychiatrist who believes in my innocence, and if anyone were concerned that I am not sick, I am formally under the control of a psychiatrist. In addition, I have the opinion of three prsychiatrists and I am mentally healthy :) The issue of pension and insurance, hmmm .... I prefer not to say what I say, and what I say RA is treated at a Rheumatologist in Nowy Targ. The Mask of Laughter - because that was the title. Rafal noticed that he was still laughing, even talking about unpleasant things. He said what are the aspects of a depressed person, and I don't do it, I laugh whatever I say. I noticed it at home. I assume this laugh every time I talk to someone I like. But he doesn't know one thing. I can already be firm, acting - I talk to everyone differently, adapting to a given person, which makes me like each person. I sincerely like every conversation I talk to - I don't know where it comes from. Zarowski is a very similar actor, a military peasant. He is a photocopy of me, I wonder if he knows that I am Borderline and why he wrote schizophrenia - a lie? Maybe I don't want me to move any further, if I was borderline I would have accepted it easily. When I got home I fucked my mother screaming. I think even twice. It was a wonderful experience. I felt masculine. Enough of being an orphan who gets to be fucked up. I will do it each time. I accept her screams because I know that she is right and it is fair to get a mess with me that I did something wrong, but it has a bad effect on my psyche. Myself speaking in a sweet voice only heightens her screams at me. Maybe it's worth fucking her, she wants it subconsciously: GOOD, DON'T SCREAM AT ME !!!!! Regarding strangers, it seems to me that I learned to deal with emotions a long time ago, the parents remain. Here I have to roll, cry, laugh, be natural. Eye for an eye, kill for a kill !!! Continue the day no change, thesis. I practiced nichi exercises, which I added to my Exercise repertoire in the morning. I wrote the rest of the tombac book and I felt a terrible hunger and today I have not read any book! I believe I will come out of this without any side effects. I talked to Szymek in the evening, we made an appointment for a movie on Sunday. I lent him a backpack, he is going to Dusi tomorrow. Ah, this hunger and I haven't read any book today. On the other hand, I do not want to read the full self-healing system, because I am afraid that there will be a lot of exercises and you will have to write them down, but I do not want to. How to fix it? Writing in text messages, oh, I changed the keyboard :)