Taoism

Nothing special again. A completely boring day, although the pain was really minor today. I enjoyed this freedom from pain :) Such a kind of rest Even though I started my day with Nichi, I didn't practice today. I felt that my muscles were tired and they refused to obey anymore. I measured the biceps. Az 37cm. Wow, nice :) In addition, the muscles are again as hard as before, and maybe even harder. In the afternoon I met Karoline. I haven't seen her for a long time. She was with some boyfriend. She even greeted herself first. Was she trying to make her boyfriend jealous? Usually she didn't deign to answer, and now - come on. I continued to listen to Taoism. I did everything in the morning. I even made the bed. While rinsing my mouth, I was doing other things at the same time. This is a very good method. I took a nap in the afternoon - it gave me some kind of rest. Similarly in the evening. God, when I sleep, I feel so sorry for my father and because of him I could not sleep for so many years: family atmosphere, my neglect, inadequate bed - what led to it all. I'm so mad at him !!! if at least I had received an apology, I would forgive if he had admitted his mistake, but he is Cipa and Drip and he cannot admit his mistake. What I learned today: Thoughts are things. Power of thought plus imagination plus self-confidence are miracles. I keep learning. Do I really need all these spells of Mary? When will I find a doctor to cure me? Will it be a Tibetan medicine doctor?