I feel the tip

January 15 - I feel like a tip I woke up today at 3:00 am fully rested. I slept exceptionally by one window to keep it warm. I woke up and went back to bed. I played the recording of Adam Bytof and the recording of the gaze.net cos ala hemisync. I fell asleep, although I did not have a lucid dream. I fell asleep again, fell asleep. I woke up around 6-7. But I got up after 7. At eight o'clock, I accidentally swallowed one ablify tablet. Whore!!! I took NAC quickly to neutralize the effects of the drugs. I went for a run and then I wanted to go to the institute to do blood tests, but I forgot my urine. I went home to get the container and pee. I also added creatine - quite a lot for such an amount. I took it to the institute, took my blood and rushed to Rafal the Pawlik. Earlier I called him and I will be a little late, which is practically 30 minutes. I praised Rafał about yesterday's success and went to Kalemba. He congratulated me. We talked about fear, about the fact that he feels insecure everywhere - he says and he also feels insecure when he goes into a new area, especially where there were some thugs. Running back home, I ate 3 slices for breakfast. After reading the book, I swore to myself whether it is possible to live without eating, and I will also acquire such an ability. At home, I started reading the book I take care of the spine. Unfortunately, I did not fulfill my resolution. Somewhere, it is subconsciously stuck in me and it is a book and I will not be able to read it ... I have read a half of this book. I learned how important the feet are in the spine posture. At 4pm I went to Dr. Kalemba's. I brought him the test results. He prescribed me a referral for rehabilitation. He also asked discreetly if I was under psychiatric care. I answered politely like some pussy: yes, here at the donut bargiel. He asked if I was taking any medications, I replied with ablifa and tegretol. And I felt like going out like a fist, I was sad. I still had to stamp the registration. I was sad coming home. I had to relieve my stress somehow. But I held up quite a lot of sadness. It was beautiful how I adapted to this situation. I went to the park to laze on the lane closer to the river and do the WFM ala Yoga exercise to relieve the tension in my chest. Relief, but the sadness remains. Then I went to breathe too. It was nice to breathe. And so until 18 I was angry with my father, with myself. Life's nonsense again. At home, I ate 2 bananas for dinner, drank carrots and ate potatoes. I had an appointment with Adrian on the 19th for hypnosis. However, I transferred it to 20. I felt a tension with regret, I had to go to bed and lie on my stomach. This position is a good way to relieve the tension in the body. At 8 p.m. we started hypnosis. Oh, for lunch, I swallowed tegretol especially because I was afraid that my mother would catch me in the eye. But my mother used to tan her teeth for dinner, this time I managed to smuggle some drugs. The trance with adrian lasted 10 minutes. 30 minutes of photographic reading coaching that I conducted for him. We used a cool affirmation as the target: "He knows Bruce Lee's fighting methods." We have used a similar affirmation to program today's lucid dream. Lotto draw today. I am still waiting for the results to add this event to my diary. Heh, not a single number has fallen :(