PLN 150Poszlo

January 18 - PLN 150 I woke up quite early in the morning 3-4 am. Again full of hatred, regret and anger towards himself and towards his father. What I did? Something on the computer. I tried a bit of a lucid dream recording with a focus on failure. Somehow at 8:00 my mother came. She pressed my medications, brought them to my room. And that's a whore !!! my heart beat harder and I had to swallow it. I quickly took 2 tbl of NAC to neutralize the effect. I went to unload my anger, fear and hatred by practicing. On the one hand, I didn't feel like it, but hatred gave me strength! Somehow, when I got home, I went to lie down for a while. When I got up I was quite sleepy and dull. Was it the fault of a short nap or psychotropic drugs? And so I lived almost all day. At 12 o'clock I was scheduled to channel with Elen, although to tell the truth I was disappointed. I spent PLN 150 for a chat and I got methods that I know won't work on me. Again some fucking meditations, visualizations etc ... FUCK. I lost PLN 150. I wanted to choose unknown, I could choose Wiolette. Now I have a dilemma whether to make an appointment with Wioletta, because it will be an expense of PLN 150 again. Well, but I will at least write what I found out. According to her numerology, I have to work on 3 things in life: 1) Low self-esteem - I have to regain my own worth 2) Drug against changes and losses 3) Working with finances Moreover, during meditation, say the words: I am consciousness of the Buddha, Christ, the Universe, the All-Existence. And what a FUCK IS SUCH A FUCK for? I also got my own channeling technique which I won't use anyway: - take a pen and paper - Say: I am asking you, Angel, for a message for me - 3 breaths, write on the 3rd exhalation. And I guess that's fucking it. I slept the day. What I learned today: I got to know something new and it's better to go back to my previous fairy.