When I was God

January 24 - When I was God I start this post quite unusual, because I start typing 9 minutes right after the day starts, and I barely wrote the Endorphin post. I watched the movie: You are God, but the one from 2011, which inspired me extremely. He tells how the main character used a pill that activated 100% of his creative mind. He writes down an interesting quote, which he treats from now on as affirmations: "Everything I have ever heard, seen, read is logically connected." And I started to wonder: what did I do that at the beginning of 2011 I was indestructible, I had a fast powerful mind? What have I done? I remember that I once wrote an entry which I titled: "Euphoria". I think so. It was there when I naturally induced a state of euphoria. February, March, April and May, and even June and later 2011 of the period before Skawinska was invincible in words. I was a true master of Cietta's retort. I also took Rhodiola for a long time, which I think helped me a lot. Krzysiek also praised this preparation. And the creatine stuck in my brain. I suspect I was invincible then. Indestructible. Take creatine again? And I started to wonder what they suspected on Skawinska Street and when I called an ambulance. It was written: The patient recently consumed large amounts of creatine and guaranose. Well, guaranose was also brilliant. My doctor at Skawinska Street said to defend me against Markiewicz: it could be from the head, from the spine, it is Lyme disease ... But where is this Reiter? Here are the quotes I remember. It was one big mess. And I will only focus on the brain. Tomorrow, when I get up, I have to analyze the entries from this period of time. It's quite important, maybe I can think of a cure for my present low self-esteem. I want to be God, a young god ... Quote: the brain cannot function all the time at this high speed. Gee, this video motivated me even more to meditate and ImageStreaming. as far as I can remember, ImageStreaming was even more powerful than meditation. Dr. House that fascinated me is nothing compared to this divine pill. I started to imagine going back to Rhodiola again, looking for this pill and learning to meditate and imagestreaming. Morning is a standard mind training. Then training. I chose a new place for training. Those red rails by the river. The training was going quite well, but I was a bit weak - I was hungry and then had little strength. I think I remember two homeless people, one was showing me how to breathe. he also demonstrated a technically nice punch karate. At 12 o'clock I had an appointment with Wioletta for channeling. Earlier, David and I dismantled the Christmas tree, although I took it apart to a large extent. I was a bit disappointed while channeling. Again, I unnecessarily spent PLN 150 here, 120 here, in total 270 I went to pasture. And it was possible to have so much fun. I got answers and the backbone is unsettled. When it is done, it will gradually straighten. Yoga from an angel is also recommended. Wioletta also recommended yumeiho, jonas and salvia methods. All in all, that's all that I found out to be useful. I'm done channeling and fairy. I will only ask Arleta questions because she is cheap and effective with her tarot cards. About 2 pm I went for a run. I had so much regret for the angels, it gave me extra energy that I used for running and burned it up quickly. I feel proud that I have learned so well to deal with my own psyche. My hips and lower back hurt a bit today. The pain was relieved by a stick - a spine decompressor and my own developed hip exercise. I was after pharmacies asking about guaranoze and Alc. At the pharmacy under the carefour, I ordered guaranose during an afternoon jog. Coming home for dinner - mom a little pissed off that I came back so late. She was practicing in my room then. I ate baked beans and went back to the city, or rather to the park, then to pharmacies in Poniatowski Street. In the pharmacy where Tomek Glab takes, I ordered the preparation "session". I like the name on average, but after watching "I am God" yesterday, I want to protect myself with hemicals to top up and regain my mental potential that I had before Wroclaw. I joined Marcin Farmer in Kefirk. We had a lot of fun talking. I also bought baking soda there as a reserve. When I run out of hair, or in a month or so, I will switch to baking soda - this is how I like to try different treatments on myself. I also wanted to buy creatine at a sports store, but somehow I forgot. I was also in this gambling shop. I wanted to play about money, but there were new machines on time, so I gave up such an investment. I had my own slow tactic and I decided I wouldn't play that way. From March back home, and at home, I decided to take 100 mg of Tramal on an empty stomach. I drank Rzenszeń to stimulate the body. Finally, the tramal puts you to sleep and stimulates you. In the meantime, my mother started buying baking powder. Tramal worked great. Blogostan + Euphoria, but the key moment that gave me a great mental well-being and euphoria was the juggling of the LEFT HAND balls. In this way, I should stimulate the right cerebral area responsible for paranormal phenomena. It was an AMAZING BLOG EXPERIENCE. Pleasure that I would like to juggle and juggle :) I had quite a long training, somewhere between 8:00 pm and 10:00 pm Including a warm-up before and after training. Tramal made you sleepy, but also very resistant to pain. A brilliant dope. 14 repetitions of the squat on one leg did not make any impression on me. Great! After training, the blog is sleepy, very pleasant and satisfying. I felt great! I even imagined it was the same tablet as in the movie "You Are God". By the way, I wonder what the Polish edition of this film from Paktofonika looks like. After training, I was very resistant to cold. I took a cold shower for 6-8 minutes. I drank a lot of green tea with swelling, now I feel so eager to drink that I also made myself teas. What I learned today: juggling my left hand plus a tram. And tramal 100mg is a sufficient dose for an empty stomach with a hairline. PS I forgot. Impulsively I ordered the allegro eletkoakupuntkure, terry cloth and spikes / tongue for noki as acupressure for feet. I can't wait :) Wioletta invited me to Warsaw for her training. Even Angel was telling her to give me a boyfriend discount. Besides, the Angel also told me to find a spiritual guide. I was supposed to meditate, shut myself up at home and get to know the world through meditation. I have been doing this for 1.5 years and now I am suddenly supposed to find a spiritual guide. I thought to myself: where the fuck will I find a spiritual guide? What? At the beginning, she even encouraged me to come. I was a bit inclined to come. But after a while, when I read the program of classes: Love ... Joy ... Tantra ... I said - I don't give a shit, I will not come. Tomorrow I will write an email and I will not come, justifying that it is not about money, but I am afraid that I will not learn anything, I am afraid to go into the unknown with my health condition and that I listened to so many people for 2 years and I am already stupid. Meditate here, not meditate here, breathe here, chakras here, chiropractic here. I don't know what to do anymore - I was stupid. That's why I only listen to my body's voice. He will heal himself, and I am looking for a doctor only to regain my honor! I asked an angel to ask when Lyme tests are revealed. Wioletta knew this disease, although she did not ask the angel. She just told her about this disease. In addition, I also wanted to write in this way to additionally hurt myself. I feel sorry for myself. I like it, for some reason I like to listen to these channelings and blame you angels that you are fucking talking to me here. On the other hand, I would like to be God - to have divine power! Besides, I want to be angry! Full of hate, destroy and bring justice. What an exceptionally long entry. Maybe I still have time to write this email to this Wioletta? It would be great. However, I also imagined an angel giving a 50% discount. Choose the unknown, choose something new, talk in a calm state as I am now on the tram with people, tell your story. But no, I'd rather suffer, I'd rather be sorry for these angels! HUNGE YOU IN YOUR DUPE! These fucking meditations don't work! I trusted you fucking, locked myself at home, tried to meditate and what. This motherfucker my father has locked me up at the top. I am not studying, I lost 2 years of my life. I am to bring peace and mediation in this world. I don't give a shit! I want to be sinister and hateful. God those needles in the brain. I'm scared. I know that these are pressures from the spine and such bables are formed as on the tongue, as on the testicles. I'm afraid of this. When will the spine's nightmare end? Write a letter to Violetta? I think I'll write it now. Oh, what else to say. Regarding the channeling technique that I asked Wiolette for myself - Wioletta refused to say that in this state as I am, where I do not distinguish good from bad (here she interpreted me a bit badly, because I hesitate whether I want to be good or bad, recently I prefer to be bad) he won't give me this technique because I can summon dark beings. They can be good, friendly, show me a lot of good. And that's not the point. And then I wanted - since the angels do not help me, maybe I will summon such a dark being? I will sign a pact with the devil and gain divine immortality. Just ... What consequences could it have later? On the other hand, there is no good and bad, if I choose evil it is neither a good nor a bad choice. It's just a choice - right Raphael? Yes, I want to be like that sith on my avatar. I am actually him. I am a good fighter with the dark side. Now I prefer to be like this avatar of the early sith, the dark sith. Entirely black. Now I want to be like Unshelated 2 a dark sithem emanating hatred, a sinister desire for revenge. But I like today's post. He writes so much about his feelings. I feel great about it. I am listening to the chakr hemi sync sounds now. It feels great when I write my dark feelings into my diary. Satan's Bible? Maybe I can find interesting things there? PS 2 00:40 I wrote an email to Wioletta. I feel something beautiful. Such pity for myself, such pity for angels, the universe. This feeling of fucking regret towards the angels is overwhelming my whole body with joy. Until I stopped sleeping. I don't even want to discharge this feeling. I feel good about it. It's a beautiful feeling, and the effect of the tram is gone a long time, so I know I can feel it. Now still wandering pain, even more regrets. My body is already strong compared to what it used to be. It is really strong and I can take that feeling. I have a beautiful regret. And I want to say FUCKING, HUJ with MEDITATION HUJAM YOU ANIOKI, FUCK YOU FUCK. AND YOU BELOVED DADDY, YOU HATE YOUR FUCKER FUCKING! -------------------------------------------------- After discharging emotions: A very interesting technique that I discovered by accident. I wrote down all the dependencies that lie on my heart and note: I think I was meditating. Yes, I guess. Being overwhelmed with regret, I felt his beauty. In addition, by attaching the breathing technique, I felt even better while lying in bed in sasavana. I turned on Osho's Foreword, as if it put me in a light trance. And then I breathed a long time. A long time yet. Each thought was as if on the side. I had no need to contact angels or attain higher states of consciousness. I accepted everything! I was watching it from the side. I was in the middle of myself. When osho is over - total silence. Emptiness. The beauty of being alone. Every feeling, the hormone spread through my body giving me strength. I think that in addition, drowsiness, early time and taking tramal 100 mg contributed, in a way, to deeper meditation. Wow ... I feel great....