Psychoanalysis of the Boy

January 25 - Boyka's psychoanalysis The psychoanalysis of the buoy - has poor responses, is full of fear. Fear uses in combat. Even a long time ago, when I watched the film, I saw undisputedly in the fight a man who causes fear. Now I see something else. He can't talk. He is a great fighter, but has problems with communication and with sharp retorts. Fear is mixed with anger. By using these feelings in battle, he becomes invincible. I remembered the scene where he was so pissed off in the ring and taking the blows. Once, I would have thought that I wanted to disregard my opponent, now I can see it and he made an incident suggestion. Anger, adrenaline made him feel pain. Today's day: I slept quite late 6-7 am. I was glad that I was able to enter meditation. Of course, in the morning I went for a run. During the morning run I asked about the pharmacy in carefour, I asked if there were already guaranose tablets. Unfortunately it was not. I returned home, somehow a day passed. I downloaded the movie, you are the god of pactophones. I really wanted to see his version of what it means to be a god. Unfortunately ... I was unable to download a smooth episode which I regretted. I explained to myself - maybe fate wanted so ... Wioletta wrote back to me. When I read her description, I felt sorry for myself again and I used this feeling for running. Something beautiful. I like to feel it, as if I like to hurt myself. She wrote at the end and a bit sad and doesn't want to give herself a chance. In the afternoon I was running again ... While running I remembered that I had an appointment with Łukasz today. He drove me a little by text message. I wrote back to him. I imagined a little scary thing and he will become my enemy and he will vengeance, for example, by spreading things about me. I was a little overwhelmed by this fear. While I was running, a certain telephone number was calling me. I did not answer because I thought it would be Lukasz. At home it turned out that he was a guest from Elektroakupunktury. He wanted to explain why I bought two devices and paid for one. I told him I would buy one thing and pay commission for the other and it would be fair. He agreed, although I do not hide and I hoped that he would say that he would bear the commission costs. My mom was really on this. She was screaming at me, panicking. I answer her - you panic terribly and make a big scandal. After the telephone conversation, I even spoke in a contemptuous voice: the matter is solved, nothing big happened, we got along well culturally. It's not that bad. For dinner I ate 2 bananas and a little chocolate. I liked the chocolate and nutella so much, I felt it was a meal for me. I didn't want cottage cheese, I felt I needed chocolate. Although, on the other hand, I was not even hungry, I wanted to stick to 3 meals a day and that my mother would not be bothered by me. I don't remember any more sins. I used a new interesting technique, namely - deleting a day in the calendar. However, I do not want to describe its beneficial effects. That night - meditation + Valerian :) I feel a little sorry for myself again and I haven't read any book today ...