Hania (3)

May 29 - Hania There was also quite a lot going on today. Really much. I did not write the diary on a regular basis because I simply did not have time for it. Let's start: So I woke up quite early in the morning, well rested and rested. I slept almost nonstop on my back, maybe that's why this was the effect, despite the fact that the day before I ate a lot for dinner. Light preparations for the new day and around 6:30 am I started to pick up the herbs. I was especially concerned about the nettle. is the end of Maja and I wanted to get it. As part of self-confidence and building a muscular body, I went to Adaś to take 3 fresh bags. I think and I do it in order to build a muscular body broke my slight fear. I felt great with it. Going up along the motley, I saw Darek who was probably walking in the company of some nurses From 7:00 am it was really warm, although the morning was quite cold and I was still after a cold. After 7:00 am I already took off my shirt, put on short shorts and walked up the mountains. I met an old man who was also shirtless so early. I was also still worried about the spine - instructions from the purr to save my right arm. The walk was quite long when I got a lot of horsetail. Then going down I went to see how Kaja and Strasko were doing. Kaja is a bit low, but the leaves sprouted, I couldn't find it. I also wanted to pick up the nettles later, but somehow I was afraid and I didn't. So I transferred it to another day. I was going down, fearing for the spine, because in one hand a bag, in the other a sweatshirt + herbs. When I went downstairs, I went to the playground to stretch my spine. Wonderfully crunchy circles, I felt relaxed. And home. There was no one, during this time I was thinking whether I was eating breakfast. Yesterday I ate so much for dinner. I missed breakfast: I drank the juice, ate a few bad champions' apples, which made my stomach ache. I laughed that no one was home. I quickly prepared Marcin 7 visions of the website so that I was doing something there. I was also going to make a laptop and partition Tomek. I lied that I did it because I was really just starting out. Yesterday I said that such an operation would take me about 1 hour. I also have to value my skills, which is why I said so. In the meantime, I was wrong, I prepared my laptop, Russian dumplings and Tom came to pick me up at 12.30 at Adam's place. We went to the office together. With Grzegorz, we agreed on a new look for page 2 - without this blue border. Besides, he told me how the catalogs should look like. I noticed he has a Cool black KIE. Great car. I set up something else for Tomek on the laptop. It couldn't read .pdf files so I installed FoxitReader. I feel like a computer specialist here. It's good that I took the pillow, it calmed me down about the spine and tailbone. In addition, I also set up a printer. I dressed well, hairstyle, black appearance gave me confidence. When we finished making arrangements, Marcin drove me back. I had to go upstairs confidently tell a guy to repark the truck because we couldn't leave. Tom slightly hooked the fender on the gutter, but luckily nothing serious happened. I was in a hurry at 2 p.m. because I had an appointment with this fairy Hania. Tomek could see that he was in a hurry and every now and then we had some obstacles on the way :) I missed the interview, but Hania was not upset. Nice old woman. I still had a thought if she wasn't reading my mind now. I did not get an answer to my questions but wrote down her things. What captivated me was that her son committed suicide six months ago because he was labeled a mentally ill person. FUCKING DOCTORS !!! I really wanted to end this conversation asap. She said that I should treat my family not as a brake, but as a bar for my growth. But I don't want to grow anymore. I just want to survive in peace. In her opinion, it would be good if she did not quit her current job at the present stage of her life. Although I don't want to work. I want to do nothing. And by doing nothing, I mean not to worry about expenses, receive a decent retirement due to mental illness, travel and do whatever I want. To live alone, feel free as a man. It would give me joy in life! :) I also talked a lot about this subject. After the conversation, I ate dinner, and at the same time it wanted to shit me. First, I was able to shake myself off because when I ate these delicious dumplings I had a stomachache. But the breaths eased it quickly. I also had to clean the house. Somehow I only started around 17 when my mother came in. The last few days had been quite quiet on her part, but now there was an argument. I cleaned it up, but I was angry with myself again that I couldn't tell her. I couldn't and in addition I fell into a slightly depressed mood. So I took the tram. As I watched, I did not take almost 12-13 days of this remedy. And after the tram, when I went to training, I felt like a young God again. I felt outspoken, my thoughts were full of sharp retorts. I felt I could do anything. I wrote down to look for natural methods of stimulating serotonin and adrenaline. Maybe testosterone too. Tramal is a miracle medicine. I did training in black pants and a black T-shirt. In this outfit, I felt confident! After training, after 9 p.m., I ate dinner. I don't think there was any feeling of garlic due to the fact that I ate the garlic at the very beginning and then 3 sandwiches. It might be late for dinner, but I was quite hungry. In addition, I increased my breakfast and dinner slices to 3. I have a feeling that I am still lean and decided to increase my food to build a strong body. I do not know if the effect of the tram is still holding. I have the impression that it has stopped working for 30 minutes. But we will see. I have planned to listen to Hotara's music for the evening. Ah, end of the day and Tramal. Tramal is a great tool. I promised myself that I would use it next time for Donata Bargiel to make myself feel more confident and convince her to my opinion.