Bulimia

July 6 - Bulimia - Wake up 3:57. It's interesting, yesterday I ate some 1500-1700 kcal and I woke up well rested a bit before 4:00. In addition, a feeling of light hunger, probably because I did not eat very friendly food. I sat down to repair Mateusz's computer and WFM meditation with writing in the notebook what he felt (the old window was actually open yesterday). - Dishing up to 7-9 slices of chalet + bread. At the beginning, I ate it with a sense of pleasure, and this is also the affirmation I wrote down for myself. However, later I was guilty and decided to try vomiting it. So I left the house, I induced vomiting, but after 2 attempts I gave up. I couldn't. Maybe I did it too late, or maybe I don't know how to do it yet. I threw up something in there, but way too little. - In the morning I also made Matthew's computer fast. What I could have done was So I decided that I would go up to run for 1 hour and when I came back I would breathe. It always burns something, in addition to 2 p.m. I will not eat anything anymore, I will only drink water and coffee to clean myself of it. The needles in my head also made me feel slightly after my gluttony attack. How to prevent this from happening in the future: - I experienced what it means to have a big belly in the mirror - I experienced what it means to neutralize the hard results of my work (decrease in the bicep, maybe 34.8 cm) - I have experienced what it means not being able to fasten the buttonhole at the waist - I got this terrible guilt for making me feel like a pig - Affirmation for the year: life itself loves me, nourishes and supports me. I'm safe. I'm safe. It's safe to feel. My feelings are normal and acceptable! Benefits: - I was motivated to catch up for the next 2 days (Saturday and Sunday) and - To devote the next week to running and training your mind. He immediately enters his plans into the google calendar. - Today I chose to run to Maciejowa to the shelter itself. It's not even that far :) Going uphill is really fun. I was in the morning and in the afternoon. In the morning I landed on salt. I thought to learn to hitchhike, but I realized now I am taking a break and I do not want to associate it with bad consciousness, so I will start with the next training week. I got into some old man's car and showed him where the school was. - Moreover, I was to check our plants. Either I don't see them or someone fucked us up - Thanks to the food, I focus on the pleasant tingling instead of the ailments. - Tattoo? - Creating a new account krbroniszewski@gmail.com - I hate you Fucking Father! - Activation (speed reading 1200) I think I was paying attention to the words that interested me - I read about syphilis, Lyme disease in the book on Neurology. Now I feel more confident, as if I am more able to convince the doctor of my opinion - Running Up That Hill and Epica - The more you know, the more confident you are!