środa, 11 grudnia 2013
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March 1 - Football Table
Suddenly I woke up in a terrifying and interesting dream:
there were 2 dreams at once
In one, as if it were yesterday. There was a period of fasting and I was tempted like Adam in the Garden of Eden and ate the forbidden fruit - sweets. My stomach ached and it ruined the beneficial effects of the healing fast. I was devastated by this
Second dream - I was in a temple of Zen. It seems to me that it was located in Rafal's apartment. I walk into the room, and here the drugs are arranged in an interesting way. Psychotrop medicines. The drugs were stacked upside down so that they would stand. I was looking at these drugs and accidentally stepped on my hand on these drugs, which left a lot of pills on my hand.
After a while some "students" came. Everyone in the Buddha position meditated in front of such beautifully arranged tablets, and then, after a short meditation, You, our Master, told everyone to swallow these tablets. The only one who did not take pills, which made me feel honored, was me, but on the other hand I think: whore Rafal what are you fucking off: Do you worship psychotropic pills in front of the buddha statue and you tell your students to eat them? Have you been fucked up healthily? Some pills stuck in my hands, I couldn't look at it all - I wanted to help them not to do it, but I felt like helpless. Because you said the content of the words: "you are sick, you must be aware of it, you have to take pills to be healthy again." I threw this part of the tablets into the toilet, I also looked at them carefully. But one of your students attacked me on words, I pissed off sharply, I repelled his attack, I fell into an incredible fury at the same time not feeling hatred. This student was a friend of mine from kindergarten with whom I did not become friends or colleagues. Then he physically attacked me - and I was terrified - one fucking punch and my vertebrae in my spine are getting rearranged. I already feel the pain of their forging. Alc hurts me, hurts me ...
I wake up and it turns out - I sleep on my side - in a position where my own spine hurts, my hands hurt, my neck hurt, my collarbones hurt - there was no big pain, but I was after adjusting the spine and I should lie on my back to get it all it put together nicely. I thought - what a fucking dream, and good thing it was a dream. Eat sweet during the fast, worship psychotropic drugs in front of the Buddha Monument. The best thing is that you say such words - I also seemed to believe that we are swallowing it all to be healthy. Because on the one hand I wanted to help them, but on the other hand I thought - maybe they really need these drugs if you say so?
In the morning Oatmeal - a little worse sugar. Traveling pains again full, in desperation training, taking measurements. Order - application appearance. Bartek's mom - she lost weight exceptionally.
Morning penis on alert - great feeling. A sign of health, it was long gone
Wandering pain attacks sharply, after the starves have redeemed themselves.
Laptop extension - great
Forging in the spine - panic ...
Conversation with parents about the procreation of children. I haven't spoken to them for a long time.
Today I worked on this project in general. I made its appearance similar to a hamster shell. I really liked it. Epic!
I was also at the post office to send something about garbage and I live here.
I wasn't hungry for dinner. I stuffed myself like a pig with my dinner, but still got tempted and poisoned myself with a huge amount of sandwiches. Whore! Now I have to rinse off the Ink coffee again, even now I like it very much. Traveling pain travels as hell as possible. And it was so beautiful during the fast ...
In addition, the spine is sharp. I may have practiced unnecessarily today. In the morning I took the measurements, the weight dropped 8 kg and all dimensions to a tight snout. Oh, I'm worried about my spine ... March 2 - Rakowski's training
In the morning, when I got up, I had a great desire to do back exercises. So I went to practice, but I didn't remember too many exercises for the spine, and the training was not very successful. In addition, every now and then forging in the spine. Whore...
After the pseudo-training, I went to the store with everything for the student. I bought 2 pens there, then I bought garlic and baking soda on the market. Soda cost 70gr per pack - so I bought 2. In addition, for the 1.40 it was much more than when I bought a few packs of 1.50 from the farmer.
On my way back, I met Adam Paternoge on the street, but we didn't talk very long. We practically just said hello
Today is Saturday - so I cleaned the room.
A phone call from Marta for her help. Anyway, she already called me yesterday. As a last resort, however, I canceled today's meeting. I had an incredible desire to watch Andrzej Rakowski's film about the spine. Although the movie is old-fashioned and the quality is poor, the information contained is very valuable. I did spine mobilization exercises, I felt how the condition of my spine and convex circles in my spine improved
Machine Supremacy Euphoria. I found Playlist Machine Supremacy and listened to the first track which made me feel a little euphoric for a moment. To the rhythm of this music, I did the afternoon training according to Andrzej Rakowski. I found that maybe I could put off Lafay Stretching for at least the 2.3 weeks and then do it in reverse order from head to toe. So that the mind becomes set to something new.
Jarek Projekt - I got more information on how to make a project. I think I already know how to do it. He wants a lot of it. I was even wondering if I should offer a facilitation, but I want to earn 1000 PLN and I visualize this amount. I do such a piece of work for such money. I have more motivation.
CosmoBlocks instead of Tetris. In the morning I played this game and changed the icon on the desktop instead of the tetromino. Very addictive.
While cleaning, I mixed all the herbs together. I was also considering adding the purchased Rhodiola rose to them ... I also asked the cards about it, but I didn't really understand the answer.
I woke up early - quite a lot of energy. Lots of soreness after training, which is just stretching. This probably only proves how the last muscles of the spine were found
Jng music, juggling with Morning
Measurements - I gained a lot of weight and 74.1 kg. Oh fuck, this is really weird. Get up to 3-4 kg in 2 days? Perhaps this is a proof that the body after starchies has an amazing power of regeneration. It is a pity that I used to say nothing, maybe then I would regenerate better. But the measurements are not over yet, we will see what Friday brings. In the meantime, I'll be monitoring the condition. But I also found a way for gluttony, 2 new interesting affirmations:
- White bread is fucking Poison!
- White sugar is destroying my beautiful body
and the third one replaces 2 of the above
- A light healthy meal gives me HUGE ENERGY!
I did not get tired all day, I did not eat sweets. I am really pleased with the result of the new affirmation.
An interesting persuasion is offered by the application edition, which makes it stand out.
I took up a new order in C ++ for PLN 177
I was working on ProgramowanieNaZlecenie.pl. I edited a little Slider, unfortunately I did not know how to make smoother transitions, because the current default ones are terribly eye-catching.
The Inka Coffee was ending today. So I decided to go to the store - this is my weapon against psychotropics. However, I bought a Kawe Kujawianke, something new for a change. Better in taste, plus only 2.50. However, it has a few downsides. It does not dissolve completely, it is weak, you need to boil strong water. I was wondering how I would smuggle drugs then, but quickly figured out a few ways:
- pour 3 teaspoons to make it stronger and not to see the drugs
- A teaspoon always in the center of the cup
- You can add a little milk
Monika's meeting after shopping. We talked for a while, but there was nothing to talk about too much. I only know that he works in Krakow.
New Place for Start Bar - guesses at the bottom. I changed the wallpaper to give the mind a new experience.
A phone call and a tram will be sent tomorrow, erasing the blackboard, then training the spine
My laptop fell off. A broken key, a small plaque and spilled coffee on the black liner.
In the morning I also felt a bit like the Brain Wave Vibration. I took about 20 minutes to the rhythm of hemi sync Guided Meditation. 4 January - LekkieWedrowanie
Sleeping on your stomach - hand slightly upwards along the pillow. Unfortunately, the pain in the back of the neck is blocking the neck a little.
Measurements - weight loss, circumference increase.
In Eska Rock I heard about a girl whose ambulance refused to help. They came the second time, unfortunately it was too late.
Attacking by mother: Krystianku You exercise and walk in this sweatshirt (in the evening, think about the cut riposte)
and the fuck I don't want to think about retorts. I have lost my precious gift
A guest from Tramal called me today - today he sent me my sweetheart :)
Today I imagined how I earn a lot of money and finish my portfolio :)
Today I was working all day on the Football Tables program. I wanted to use a SQL database because the typed files are completely unsuitable for this, but unfortunately I gave up on this idea because you need to install an additional sql server. So I decided to get HOLFiles from 4programmers. There is a kimponent included, but a bit underdeveloped, I had to improve / redo a lot.
In addition, today I was letting up lightly. The affirmations worked - I wasn't eating any sweets
The traveling pain almost did not bother me at all today.
Theory: Pain is when you do something wrong with your body. Today he almost did not bother me, because recently he is wandering as much as possible.zarabiam.com
Free hosting, reading about starters ...
Conversation with Rafal Pawlik about my acting skills, I also met Dad Arek there
Mom discovered the tram, stress but moderately contained. You can't see anything from me, although everything is shaking in me.
From today, when someone offends me - I come up with 5 counter replies in my diary.
Riposts: Why did you buy a tramal, why do you need it:
- because morphine is a pink prescription, and vicodin is too weak - does not impress me at all.
- and maybe thanks to him I can function normally
- and what will you complain to daddy?
- call the police, let them come here with the dogs and put me in a pot
- I have to somehow protect myself in the future if something happens to me, because I cannot count on the help of my family and doctors
you are like ulcers on the ass that hurt me more than they help
- some drink alcohol, others marry for money to ensure a better life, I take a tram - everyone has some deviations
Light meals - great eyesight today. My body is in mighty health like never before.
In addition, during the day I worked on the TabelePilkarskie program. In the evening, I wanted to sleep terribly - not enough that the tram was still working all day
but
I fell asleep late. Such a slight insomnia. However, it was not the worst. I don't know what caused this insomnia.
I also remember situations where I heard something about doctors on the radio. Suddenly stress, mobilization to fight. I didn't feel like going to sleep very quickly. March 6 - Good job
Today, chlamydia a little. Gripping under the heart. I panicked a bit about that. Besides, I noticed that since I eat small light meals again I feel better and in addition chlamydia is not going anywhere :)
Further work with the program. It was good for me to work. I am proud of my appearance.
Advertising on earn.com thanks to which I gained some posts. I counterattacked a little with retorts
Think with snickers and post-boosting.
But I was engrossed in the imagination of how I earn 4,000 a month: D I imagined how I write programs and in addition I run my additional businesses with websites. Today I was consumed with these dreams
It was great working for me. When I was tired I breathed, when my spine ached I exercised. Working alone is really fun! March 7 - goodRobot2
Today is another day of work at the PC. I spent most of the day here. I did a loop for downloading everything, filtering in TreeView, and an update form
Every now and then some errors that also needed to be corrected.
From 2 p.m. to 3 p.m. I started to eat today. In the morning I took measurements, we'll see what will come out on Saturday again March 8 Purring Shopping
Prepare at 9:00, 14 glodoweczka the day from yesterday, question at the bus stop in Rabka about the bus to Limanowa (Nysa), go to the Mass, then straight to Limanowa. Getting to know the new road to the small market, long waiting for the bus to the mruek
I was at mruek's before, I told him to set 2 circles in the neck and chest. Some blonde woman, I wanted to ask them to take me back later, but just behind me a country of 2 people came. An elderly woman and a man - probably a husband. The woman was the first time - I told her about my back problems and how the growl helped me. I also tried to calm her down, although I was not honest with her until the end. I gladly gave her information, I smiled, I was cheerful because I wanted to go back with them.
Oh, and being at mruka's place, he set the pectoral so neatly and that something "crunch" in it.
They gave me a lift in front of the small market, I walked the street to the small market, then to the bazaar - at the bazaar I saw nice sports shoes for PLN 35 but they had a terribly hard sole. I also bought two silver insoles there to help me walk better.
Then I went to the bus stop at the street behind the blue bridge, but I waited for over an hour and the minibus was not there, despite the fact that it should go 2-3. There was also some guy with me who was also trying to get into the mass. He was 18 years old - which is 4-5 years younger than me. After an hour, we went together to a stop at the station. I was glad that I got to know a new way and had some new experiences today. There we went to Mszana.
In Mszana I went to Tesco. I met Artur Antosz on the way, but I don't think he met me, didn't notice or didn't want to say hello. Since our last meeting I lost some 20kg so ... who knows.
In tesco, I broke the hunger. I was also in the toilet, unfortunately I paid 1 PLN. I went to EuroMix - but I was fucking hot to buy a small tablet with a keyboard there. I even wrote down its name: "Goclever r83.2" but I got horny so I wanted to buy this tablet. I enjoy shopping. I also met this guy outside with whom I was traveling in the bus.
I ate a few apples there, the last 4 I ate in Rabka. I went to Rabka and got off at the statue of Mikołaj. I saw this lady "God bless you" but I didn't greet her. You could say - I pretended not to see her.
I went to this fruit and vegetable store next to the lower church. I wanted to buy apples there. I also saw nuts, but they were expensive as much as PLN 35 per kg, which made me very discouraged. The Lord, however, offered the second cheaper for PLN 25. We weighed and 7zl came out. Somehow he pressed them, but I bought them - in the end, on the other hand, I wanted to eat something new. It is true that the nuts from the ladybug would yield me 4-5 PLN.
I went to Janosik. There I bought 2 nice wallets and a gray sleeveless jacket that I am wearing now. In Janosik I discovered something interesting - namely: In the mirror my muscles looked amazing !!! I took a few photos to paste into my training diary. As for the wallets outside, there was one I liked very much, but a bit torn. Then I looked at the very bottom underneath and found the same model without any flaw. Probably they have to put the broken ones outside so that they sell first, and then the better ones for the bottom. They do the same with groceries in hypermarkets.
Then to the ladybug. I bought delicious apples in the ladybug! For this also butter. I left my things for safekeeping with a nice lady who sold bread.
Shopping was such a joy for me, and I also got to know new interesting places. My mind was not bored. After the ladybird, I went to a nearby shop / kiosk where I read computer magazines. There was some program to download MP3 files for free. It was also about the best android applications - I took pictures.
The pain has almost nothing to do with me today. I have noticed how wonderfully my mind works when I am not thinking about pain. Nothing bothers me, I had a lot of dreams, imaginations - it was great. I am stuck in such a pleasant fascination.
At home, my mother left a candy for me. Then I remembered how in Limanowa, next to the stop where we were waiting with this guy, I met a girl in the store who looked like my mother. A short gypsy woman, about 9 years old, had her breasts and she took the child by the hand. It felt like it was her baby. She was also with some other child. And in the store, the saleswoman pointed out to the child that it was sweets on the occasion of Women's Day.
Now it passed me as if I wanted to this tablet, fascinated by its wallet. In addition, I am a bit tired and I still need to train my spine. Maybe I will do some breathing exercises? March 9, 4-4-4
4-4-4
Work on optimizing the program and fixing errors. No time for QT
He was horribly eaten - I didn't want to eat today.
Buying pens on the Allegro
Urgent C ++ PLN 227
I think how people write stupidly. The guest gave all the necessary details, and you also write: "Hello, I would like to work, please send more details to the e-mail I amstudentem@zrobiezadarmo.pl"
I felt guilty at night and ate a lot. However, I had to make a good appearance. Dad drew my attention to the thin slices.
Tomorrow you will have to weigh the 2nd day of regeneration and we will see what the results will be. Overall weight for the evening was 71.5 kg, the biceps was 36 cm. But it is terrible to eat, I did not want to spend the night after lunch. Even though the dinner was of a normal size - I nevertheless eaten it enormously.
I used to write so many wise views, and now somehow I feel crazy when I philosophize in such a way, if only with this project for PLN 227.
Well, it's not the worst physically and mentally. It remains to believe that someday I will reach the state of meditation and gain the god of POWER! March 10 Adidas Boost
Adidas Boost - I got hot on those running shoes again, just like the last time I got hot on the tablet.
In the morning, light the pitch from the client, but we managed to undo it. It was cool. Today I wrote exporting data to Excel.
Someone called us last night. We thought it was a simon.
By day of programming. In the evening it was very pleasant for me to program. I wanted to program, but I stopped it on purpose, because I finally wanted to practice the vibration of the brain waves.
Again, I regret that I ate as many as 2 large pigs while I was full, then I ate apples and then even dinner, although at least only 2 slices.
Tomorrow is Monday. I hope that david wants to lend me 200 zlotys, in the end I can transfer the money to his account right away.
Ester also wrote today that the girl quit him and asked me for help. I advised on breathing exercises, moreover he asked me for hypnosis.
I am glad that I have planned that I will be programming by 22:00 and I have finished my goals for today. I still have to remember about the QT project for this student. Guest who uploaded 17 pages of algorithms - I didn't want to read it all. Just like the doctors to whom I presented my views
WFM at night. Fasting in the morning too.
Today I gained as much as 1 kg, 1 cm bices drop. WHORE!!! Fucking doves!
Beautiful music from youtube
I chose the Tramal. I drank 2 cups of coffee with milk, of course, grain Inka because healthy. I will see if milk actually reduces the effects of drugs. Theoretically, many drugs contain Lactose
I wrote a new interesting affirmation: "I don't let this whore feed me like pigs." She is really strong.
A light morning meal = tremendous adrenaline and a boost of energy. No pain wandering :)
In addition, today I took 0.5 tbl of tram from 1 week ago, maybe it got mixed up. For breakfast cereal with milk, cayene pepper and honey. I feel great !!!
Oh, it should also be added and in the morning I did over 1 hour of breathing session in the 4-4-4 system at thesis
Finding a free meditation on Thursday 18:00 Krakow
joga-medytacja.pl
Strasko - my new nickname
Tomorrow morning at 8:30 to Rafal, earlier meeting with Łukasz and giving him the book, then to Mszana and buying a tablet.
I have just tested the Brainwave Vibration in the Diamond Pose - wow. This item is PERFECT for me. The spine is simple and does not get tired. For this we could use 3 more candles on the sides, music. My hands are very taut so that I can discharge my hatred. This is something for me !!! You just want to sit like this !!!
The chair has bad associations. It is simply not suitable for meditation!
PS next Day:
I hypnotized Esther for the night. I made him anchors for stressful situations, one of the WFM chest, the other of the Mundra toes. I was going so well, I no longer have the power of words that I had before. In turn he later hypnotized me. I was under the influence of the tram and I absolutely did not want to move. I was a bit distracted by quarrels at home.
I found that for hypnosis in bed, headphones with a microphone in the phone would be perfect. Maybe I will buy them, because the original ones have screwed up. March 12 - TwamySekte
Morning from meditation, quite early 5:00. The effect of a healthy lifestyle and light meals.
A trip to the rafal - a conversation about my techniques of "manipulating on offers", the beginning of the conversation - sauna, taxes, fees, adult life.
Expedition for the tablet, measuring shoes in a mszanie. Then in koperniak - the visitor knew something there, he said himself that he was running. Earlier, probably registration for treatments at PPU. Coming home, my mother called in the meantime.
Yesterday and today I lied to a client and we had breakdowns in our area.
In the evening, Kaja wrote, thanking for the delayed wishes on the Women's Day. She wrote that she is worried that we speak so seldom.
In the evening, also Adrian wrote to me. He said he wanted and willing to learn hypnosis and meditation. Together, we decided to civilize together and master esotericism. After all, in a group it is better, more pleasant, one in quotation marks "pagans" or rather enters the other's ambitions. Oh, I made an appointment with ester to channel 22 or 23, I'm not sure anymore. Until then, I have to write a proper script. March 13 - The Pope is elected
Morning - life's nonsense again
Dream: I had a dream and my mother made tea for me to drink my medications. I couldn't spit it out. Maybe it's a warning ...
WFM meditation + back pillow = relieves the legs.
Satisfaction of my client.
I have finished the project for PLN 1000
The paper was selected today
During the night I made an appointment with Esther, although this time he got drunk and he did not develop hypnosis.
On fb kuba wojewodzki gave a nice photo regarding the choice of paper "this time they chose two: D"
The day before I read about healing fasts as it heals even cysts. I wrote a new interesting affirmation:
"Hunger regenerates my body, destroys all diseases, eliminates cysts, rejuvenates and prolongs my life, gives energy and power" March 14 - Gouranga
On the night of a dream where my dad discovered that I was hiding psychotropic drugs in my coffee.
Today, excessive fantasizing. Since I eat well - pain practically does not go through. My thoughts run towards fantasizing because I keep focusing on the error.
Prepare yourself emergency medication in your wallet.
In the afternoon I went to Krakow
I was finishing my SEO course earlier.
In Krakow I learned 3 meditations, but the only one I liked was Gouaranga. Can fully clean the lungs. She is great! I could feel this volume of my lungs. Just how to do this meditation at home. We were also treated completely for free with delicious herbal tea and vegetarian cake - healthy! No gluten, some kind of healthy flour. It was delicious. I have registered for a vegetarian course.
On the way back, I met Ole Paternoge. She came back from Katowice with her studies. March 15 - SolidneObzarstwo
Hearty breakfast 4 slices
I will have to correct the program and write a new one for the next guest.
Software update
Conversation with Mateusz Labuda on Skype.
Buried rabka
The nonsense of living in the afternoon
Falling in love with Kaji.
I like the name Nathaniel
Hearty dinner - pity yourself
Today I was supposed to do 2 orders, but I neglected this matter.
Despite the heavy binge eating for breakfast and dinner, at least I didn't stuff myself with sweets. David noticed this and said: what sweetness are you not eating? I said in my mind: more for you. Fuck, where is my cut retort, this diary writes so much and I can't get them back ...
Now that I stuffed myself like a pig for dinner, the pains began to wander through me.
Today Jerzy Krupa called me again. I avoid talking to him like a coward.
PS a moment ago, out of this nonsense of life, I decided to take Tramal 100mg of course. This is the perfect dose. Although I took 5 days ago, but fuck with it. I pissed myself off like a pig, but fuck with it. I really want a tramal.
By the way, he will write down how this drug worked for me with such a large meal. And why not take a 200mg probe to check something new, see what I have to deal with then?
Ok dear diary. New experiment - I have now taken 200mg of Tramal. This is against my rules, because at 150 mg I am already mega sleepy. What will happen at 200? In addition, I chewed well. It's 20:22, after biting what I remember, the first results were after 30 minutes. We'll see what happens ... March 16 - Opioid Fumes
In the morning Ester hypnosis, unfortunately it failed.
Also, I woke up around 2:00 am for the opioid. I went to sit in front of the laptop in the diamond position. I spoke to the ester. He revealed to me an interesting technique of searching pictures in google - it's great !!! In addition, I found an add-on for Chrome to have a negative side (so-called night mode) and a linux skin with a conky (blue one) which I liked a lot. Unfortunately, I had problems with both during the installation ...
Today - in the morning I was in bed until 10. I didn't get up. A light breakfast, a light dinner and I feel full of energy. I keep a weight of 72 kg. Is great!
Theoretically, I should start working on a graph program - but I don't feel like it. I came up with the idea to post a fragment on the 4programmers forum so that someone will solve part of the problem for me. It remains to believe that it will succeed, 200 zlotys of infantry do not go.
Today, it is really beautiful winter weather. I look forward to training on Monday. Or maybe I will start training from tomorrow? Finally, on Tuesday I will have to have a break again ... It is also good to prepare a training plan.
I feel really great on these opioids !!!
In the evening I ate a packet of nuts, and then I had dinner 2 slices so hard, because I did not want to eat it. after this supper, my pain began to tremble sharply, because earlier it was quite decent, it was quite ok.
Today I changed the radio station Music Oriental. Pretty cool songs. I really like at least 80 tracks on air.
Tomorrow I have planned and resumed training. Resumption of training - light nutrition in the morning
Ester and the Indigo children.
I ate cereal for the night so that my mother would not be bothered that I did not eat supper, although I did not want to eat anything. I feel like I am poisoned. I didn't feel like eating the 3rd meal. Earlier, I ate apples and ate, in fact I ate those apples too hard. After lunch, I had absolutely no desire to eat anything. My stomach was full of overeating - I ate quite a lot of cereal, in addition to sugar Corn Flakes. Ah, but I regret poisoning my body.
He let me know about it the traveling pain that is now circulating in my body. This is a sign that I made a mistake, because when I was doing everything fine with my body these last days - the pain was not moving, it was all right! Morning Tramal. I started feeling the effects very late, around 13-14. Here are the notes:
10:09 - negligible effects. Maybe because I recently took 200 mg, but on the other hand, now in the morning around 7:00 am I took 100 mg on an empty stomach, but not washed down with milk. But even if it does not work, it will write down the conclusions whether the milk strengthens the tramal. I will be more sure about my assumptions.
11:12 - almost 1 hour later - I still do not feel the effects of the tram.
2:00 pm Tramal entered.
In the morning I went to exercise in the park. I have modified my training. I train my chest exercises, which I did not like to do at home, and I train my legs in the park. This modification turned out to be good for me - I feel that I am doing something new, something different. The mind does not get bored. Today I showed David my chest, although he says nothing special. The photo in Janosik looks really impressive, and now - guts. This David, despite not exercising, has a much harder chest
I registered with dr. Bargiel, on April 9 at 10.20.
15:00 Tramal hypnosis with Esther. Super condition! :)
Put together a pretty cool script. The effect of entering the tram + its presence and script brought me into such a meditative state. It was nice to lie in the crib. I didn't feel lonely. Simply blogging! :) Home and family are my obstacles in meditating. The homely family atmosphere was never too friendly. Fear of the mother. Yes, I could meditate much easier in the presence of the ester. We made an initial appointment at 21.00. Ah, this blissfulness, silence, lack of music and his words. It was really cool. It is true that it was not possible to contact the angel, but I hope that one day it will be successful :)
Now, after the evening training, I feel that the effect of the tram has evaporated. It's a pity because it normally keeps me much longer.
Another event of the evening day. In the evening, my mother insulted me, I had a great Riposte cut in my head, everything was arranged in one puzzle:
- What, mom didn't love you, now you have to challenge me. You hated your father too, but you have to protect your reputation and pretend to be crying at the funeral. I will not cry for you at your funeral, moreover I will not pretend, and even go out in front of the altar and shout: jeah !!! this foul whore is finally dead. Let Christ save her, lest evil souls take her suck off Satan's dicks (oh fucking but strong!) ... And so I rode in my imagination. But I was proud of myself: D
PS
As for traveling pain. I eat light and healthy - I listen to my body, not my mind. Thanks to why the pain doesn't travel and it feels great! Pain does not move and I am happy! :) This pain occurs when I do something wrong with my body, mainly nutrition.
Now for the evening I found the website backtrack.pl
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