Porn

Climbing compared to my life situation. In the end I got to the top and then only gully. In the evening and in the afternoon I watched porn. Interestingly, I did not masturbate, I practiced endurance. Again, I didn't feel like anything. But the push-up rails came today, but they stinked terribly. I have finished reading The Rebirth of the Phoenix by Nicodemus Marshal. Today workers have come to do with the radiators. I was breathing a lot too. I felt great. So hydrated. They finally cracked the muck in their mouth and they bleed heavily, but they come back again. What is this? Maybe it's from the spine? I do not know. I also tested Nicodemus Marshal's CSS meditations to stay motionless for 30 minutes. I also listened to the diary from May and June last year. Today I look at myself how much richer I am in new life experiences. It's amazing how much I learned, how much I got to know myself, what I discovered. How the acquired knowledge allowed me to rebuild muscle mass in a short time. What I learned today: use music to read books and diary. Music is a wonderful medicine as I have already mentioned before.

Peak of Opportunities

Wake up 4:00 total insomnia. I meditated in the intention that the expedition would not take place, I even created a special notebook which I called deathNote. Romek came for me, we went for Bartek and Olge and to beech wood. The expedition only made me feel like I didn't want to walk, but I did. I even climbed sharp rocks. I was very afraid that something would happen to me, both my life, my tailbone and my health. Today, however, when I look at the photos from the expedition, I think it's really worth it. It was a fantastic trophy. I don't want to write the details of the Expedition. In the evening, Kaja wrote and broke up with her boyfriend and is in despair.

Meditative Affirmation

Yesterday was written with a delay Just write a few things Meditative Affirmation - I did it more or less like this, making the affirmations "tomorrow I am having a pleasant trip down the hill" while meditating at the same time. The meditation does not flare when read from the book Rebirth of the Phoenix In your mind, say the word "I like you" to the interlocutor in order to have better contact with him. I couldn't sleep at night. I meditated, I even set up my own Death Note. In the morning 4:00 a.m. wake up after a sleepless night. The rest in a moment.

After the shock

I feel great The breaths took the matter out fantastically. I do not know if it was the acceptance of feelings or their suppression, but it was not. Maybe acceptance, because my body needed more oxygen in this state. Wow, 15 min was enough. In the morning I checked the email from arletta. I was wondering what the cards will do. As he says: The cards indicate that Kaja still has feelings for me and it is worth fighting for. And the fact that the other man is interested is due to the lack of contact, I neglected the contact. I got up today exceptionally early. I think even 6 and I went to exercise. I came up with the idea that I can practice push-ups on the handrails that I ordered today. Likewise, triceps. I did a full training session with two warm-ups and breathing. Today I talked with Rafal. I made an appointment with him on September 3. A moment later Roman called. I made an appointment with him in advance on Wednesday with Bartek and his girlfriend. There will be great company :) Besides, what happened today. Darek came, I gave him the ring, he was amazed at my progress in walking. I guess that's it. I did not write to Kaja. Somehow I didn't feel the need. What I learned today: probably nothing. The affirmation for today was: I am a user of my mind full of love :)

BlowOdKaji

Morning only Stretching. I missed training because of a lot of soreness. I met Kube the hare. We had a nice time together while walking. I didn't do anything special in the afternoon. I was a bit fascinated by looking for the GetElementsByTagName function ... But that's the ass of it Kaja just wrote that she has another ... She gets to know her friend better. So who I was all this time, those sweet letters and texts. Well, I'm not without blame either. However, I believe that only something good will come out of this situation The affirmation for today was: my heart beats with the rhythm of love ... PS After writing the diary, I followed suit. I was breathing very deeply only 4 steps. After many breaths, the stress of losing a loved one was almost abolished. Breathing is brilliant !!! I found quite a lot of metal gothic music. For a moment I felt something like this: I have to take a hand, I have to start changing something in my life, I have to start earning money to regain it. My breaths, however, made me reluctant to regain it. I relieved the tension. Weird... I also saw a guy who was running and meditating. He irritated me, I wanted to go over and ask him if he was meditating but I didn't have the courage. Pity... I met Bartek Ose and Roman. We had a great time. I like them very much. Bartek has a great girlfriend, very nice and nice with character. Today I have learned to overcome a very strong psychological shock. Perfectly leveling.

WordsMogSail

Yes, words can hurt, hurt a lot, destroy and even kill. They have so much power. I have found out about it, more than once poisoned by the words of my own father, my own mother, on that day when an unknown state triggered me by Markiewicz. I never blamed my father for that. I understood him that my mother despises him, ignores him, does not love him. I understood, but from the moment I started getting sick I hate him. Words can even kill. Today I had an argument with my mother about the vacuum cleaner. In this panic I had to take some drops to calm me down. Surprisingly, they helped me a lot. I took about 30 drops. Brilliantly calms down, in case of problems I will have my weapon. Accepting the state, pain - it doesn't work for me. Let's compare our condition from December - by not taking drugs, I have brought myself to a beautiful state. Then he quarrels over drugs. It took my good talk, although I tried to grunt something: you better be careful because I can take a noose, hang myself and then people just think about you !!! Besides, in the morning I did Streatching + exercises. After a thorough analysis of all the exercises, it seems to me that I can do all of them in the field by changing push-ups on the chairs to the usual push-ups :) I have also written all the stretching exercises that I am able to do. I also learned how useful brain wave vibration is for the feet. It took away all the stress in the body. First a few relaxing kivans to the sides, then very long feet. It was like a hydroxyzine injection in the Dietl hospital. I forget about the music for the diary again, which makes me not want to write it, I will turn it on in a moment. It's better now. PyroZone's madtracker music is brilliant electronic music. The mother feels stress again. I repeated the affirmations: I believe that only something good will come out of this situation. I created negative situations in my life myself. The negative situation is there to meet the inner need. What is the inner need - love? I also read the rebirth of the Phoenix today. A really interesting audiobook. I found out about outstanding people, how the author had passed with the wind to 32 publishers with her book. Nobody wanted her. And yet she finally found the publisher of the book that found something in it that the others did not find. The filming of the film became the greatest cinematic hit of the 20th century, and the novel became a bestseller. Einstein was one of the worst students in school, and today he is recognized as the greatest mind of all time. I also believe in myself. I believe that I am physically ill, my mental problems persistent a long time ago. And I hope the strong truth destroys the lie and I will eventually find a doctor to cure me. Today I learned a lot. PS I would like to forget I had a moment of slight euphoria after alcohol. Music for the diary makes me really want to write.

Stretching

Morning wake up at 6:30, however, I did not perform any affirmation or prayer. Weight below 74 kg, some 73.7 kg. Brilliant In the morning I resumed my physical exercises in the park. I felt great after stretching, I got to know my great exercises that could replace yoga or brain wave vibrations. I felt so fascinated again :) I did half of the training, then I went to the last treatments. I did not sunbathe due to cloudy weather. Recently, however, I have noticed I have a very low self-esteem. When, however, I wrote something in my notebook or programmed and came up with something new, I felt better again and I came up with something new :) Throughout the day - I stretched a lot, read this book, completed my training book. I met a guy who accosted me and asked where I was from. So I'm wondering now if he was with the police. He said he would go to dr. Zbigniew, ask for a prescription and sell it on the black market. Suspicious for me ... In the evening I was carrying jars with a hammer. In the afternoon I finished my training. Drugs in a moment. I hate them. Yes, I would like to contact Rafael, get the answers to my questions ... Today I learned to stretch. I am a sect leader ...