niedziela, 4 listopada 2012
RadioBioslone
Yesterday was written with a delay. Briefly:
Workout at home in the morning. Intense. I was doing great.
While on a walk, I met a guy who drinks. I advised him to drink plenty of water, lemon water as a detox.
In the evening I gave up Radio Bioslone - that's how I gave the title, I don't know why.
I was at Maks' family for dumbbells. I sat there quite a lot, as long as 2-3 hours. I broke the Super Mission 0.5 rules - so unfortunately I ate some sweets, and I was treated with broth.
We talked a lot about various topics, related to health, doctors, etc ... I really don't want to talk about it anymore, but nevertheless the conversation with them was very pleasant. Max's mom is an amazing woman, yes she is wise. They stopped me a bit - they probably wanted to be hospitable, but I wanted to go very quickly - I didn't want to interfere with their family life. It's a real family, loving each other, talking at home - not what in my home. I listened to something like this when they were locked up on their own: don't worry about him, don't show your sympathy - was it about me? Now I think so - even about me - this is what I wanted. I don't want sympathy. Max's mom did well and cheated me well
sobota, 3 listopada 2012
Mission0.5
Mission 0.5 - I put my candy aside completely for this one day. I did not eat the kesa sweets.
A day like a day. Exercise in the morning. In the afternoon I tested Rebrithing for 1 hour with the vibration of the brain waves in a sitting position. It was much better for me than lying
I wasn't hungry for dinner. I only ate fruit
czwartek, 1 listopada 2012
SuperMissions
Blood sugar - chlamydia !!!, Cards - put away the sweets. I learned to feel the sugar in my blood - sucrose, then when I ate too much sweets. Then chlamydia started to feed on this sugar and attack me. I had a terrible craving for oatmeal cookies too. I bought two more cips in Malgosia :) I thought it would be an entry today, but ...
Morning training at home, came in the evening spruce cub to see clothes. Today I saw Patryk in the Park, next to another drazku. He showed me his new Exercise which he developed. It's good to feel triceps.
Super Missions - because that's what I called today's entry - I found the Phoenix e-book with Super Missions, which was recommended to me by Lukasz Lopata. Really interesting missions: clean the house, set up a separate bank account for a black hour, lock yourself in a hotel for 24 hours. I decided that I will be the first to do a Super Mission: do not eat sweets :) The name itself already: Super Mission, makes me want to do it :)
What I learned today: when you don't want to do something - give it a cool name so that you want to do it, challenge yourself: Super Mission! :)
środa, 31 października 2012
Tarot
Oh if you want to sleep. It is probably because I eat a lot at night and, in addition, psychotropic drugs. Already after 20-21 I am exhausted with force ...
Today all saints. Morning training. On the back of the bar I was pulling normally. Besides, I only put on one sweatshirt vesper. I felt much more comfortable. Training at home tomorrow. I wonder how my brother will react to that, but I'll try to stay close so as not to wake him up.
Today I made a bot-free download again. I wrote to the client and because of all saints I am dragging it until Sunday / Monday.
I continued testing the tarot program. I made a lot of conspiracies. It turned out that my mother is crying today, and the reason why she is crying is precisely my dad. It turned out that she was making love to another man. Nice program to travel :)
I watched the Tarot Film, Image Streamin and Super Strong Affirmations.
Listening to the Fool card, I felt like this fool when I was on the Skawinska street. Contrary to appearances, this is a positive card. The fool is cheerful, daydreaming, overjoyed, but he stumbles, gets up and continues to be dreamy and a happy fool. It was me :)
Throughout the day, my dad and I lit candles on the graves. Mame's leg hurt after the procedure. In addition, when looking for a pharmacy, I hoped that the night duty was not full of a pharmacy under the star. It was, however, the pharmacy, but somehow it went.
What I learned today: practiced tarot, got to know the Streaming image and super strong affirmations. Simple things thanks to which I have grown a lot.
wtorek, 30 października 2012
Communication
because of this, and from today I am again injected with psychotropics and I am already getting sleepy, I will shorten this day to the most important events.
In the morning after training, when no one was there, there was a lot of physical stress. Cold in the room, weakness, burnout, hunger. Fear, I thought it was from drugs. I was already wondering whether I should take the pills that I put aside for one day, but I took a short hunger. I could only fuck more with pills.
I took many deep breaths - calmed down, stopped trembling. After some time my breath strengthened me, I supplied my body with energy, a lot of warm water - I warmed up. The apples gave me energy, the warm shower relaxed and warmed me up. Thanks to breathing in a stressful situation, I listened to my body, listened to my body and healed with what I had :) I was so fascinated by it :)
I even imagined myself winning the case. Throughout the day, I had a high sense of self-worth after this event.
In the afternoon I found a tarot program. I left that I hadn't used it yet, and that my mother would not be happy with the purchase of the coat.
Mom came today from the hospital. I cleaned the house. I also took photos for the auction, unfortunately I haven't sent the spruce to Cuba yet.
What I learned today: thanks to deep breaths you can listen to the sounds of your own body :)
poniedziałek, 29 października 2012
NoBedeBzykal
Once again the assertiveness of Bot Chomikuj :), a conversation with Rafal about dampening feelings? He said that he picked me up as if it didn't impress me at all.
Showing off to David how my hamster looks - a mistake.
Yesterday was written with a delay due to fatigue
Once again I was assertive with the Hamster Bot :) The guy wanted me to write him an application on FB. I firmly asked what I would get out of it. Then again I said that I can learn what you offer as well. I was proud of myself :)
In the morning I talked to Rafal about suppressing my feelings. He was shocked when I told him that now at his place he smothers his tears telling me when my father ridiculed me and criticized me (an old event regarding a gift for Magda). Rafal couldn't believe it. He said that he perceived it as if it was flowing over me, it did not make the slightest impression on me. He couldn't believe it.
I praised David with my bot - unfortunately my mistake. Never boast about what you have, what you want to achieve. Now he will probably send negative thoughts towards me.
My dad and I went to the gazda to buy shoes. At that time, Dawid went to the hospital for a medical visit. But it pissed me off when David, telling about his dad's knee, gained his approval, compassion and understanding, which I did not gain when I was suffering unimaginable pain. What I got for it - criticism: "Don't be surprised !!!" in my life I will not say that to my own child.
While I was in Gazda, I found nice shoes. I bought them. Although it was number 41, it suited me perfectly. Light, soft sole, insoles fit, they looked like sneakers and were fastened on the side :) Price also decent, only 79 PLN. Cool!!!!
On my way home I met with Łukasz Lopata. We talked somewhere between 5:30 pm and 7:00 pm. God dear, he's still about sex and fucking. He encouraged me to do this in various ways to make me fuck girls with him. I do not want this!!! I love Kaje, at the moment I only think about her and I would only like to love her! I didn't know how to say it to him, I wasn't afraid of this conversation, but I probably couldn't tell him directly why I didn't want to make love. And I could tell you the truth: I have a girlfriend now, or rather, I'm trying to get someone and not just fucking me with other girls. Instead, I dodged myself and now all I am interested in is making money. I was a little ashamed and embarrassed when he spoke out loud about tantric sex when people were passing by, especially my neighbors. Boze: D: On one hand I want to laugh, but on the other hand it makes me a bit embarrassed.
In the evening I slept, I didn't feel like anything. I had a problem with hamster bot navigating to pages when Visible = false.
I did this Visible True; Visible false, which was such a specific flash, fortunately on the internet at: http://www.delphipages.com/forum/showthread.php?t=112508 I found a more interesting solution:
WebBrowser1-> DoObjectVerb (-3); // hide
WebBrowser1-> DoObjectVerb (-1); //show
An alternative is to set Width and Height to 0; but the former works great and I can also see how the bot in TWebBrowser works.
What I learned today: a new experience at TwebBrowser and better assertiveness and I analyzed my mistake.
We have a treatment
Lots of clothes - discomfort during training. Thermos herbs, Washing teeth eliminates the urge to eat - a mint smell. Mum went to Zakopane for surgery. Dawid watched the episode of the bad ones where Halinka sent Ferdinand to the Psychiatrist. morning training plus stretching gave me a lot of energy. Ultrasounds for home heating.
Deathcaptcha, how to do it in a hamster? Yoga, KundaliniMaterac, Onion also has a lot of vitamin C.
Meeting Mrs. Herian again.
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