czwartek, 9 maja 2013
Urologist Fun
May 9 - Urology Fun
Sleeping sideways - tired hands. Lots of cheese for breakfast. Short breathing training, picking up packages from the post office. I picked up the shorts and the Magic Herbs Book. There, herbs actually serve for Magic: D I like this book: D
Home, preparations for the Urologist, On the way to the hurricane, test results and joining everything after 2.50. Buying a lot of things.
At the urologist, someone was messing with me, but I had no complaints. I had a lot of discussions with the urologist about the health service, asking for an internist. Referral for the treatment Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday.
I wonder whether to use this referral for testicular surgery ... I don't know ... I found out a little how the public health service works: and once the public health service in Poland was one of the best in the world. However, I did not have time to take a referral and a copy from the rheumatologist and neurologist files. I had to go home for dinner.
Coming home, I bought juice earlier and drank too much as much as 1l of multivitamin. Along the way, I was afraid of the spine, especially the neck
In the park, I met this woman with great Artur, I just greeted myself and said that I have to go because I'm in a hurry :)
At home, I ate doves abundantly. Mom bragged about her shoes. I feel as eaten as a dragon, gut pushed forward. I don't like that feeling.
I had an idea to write a computer current optimization program, something like IBM Power Manager.
After lunch, I was so driven and did at least 15 minutes of WFM, but the tailbone pain prevented me.
I put up my tablet on Facebook. I decided that I do not need it for anything.
Idea: Internista Nowy Targ Well-known doctor
A moment ago I was doing the WFM Meditations while standing. The legs are slightly extended, and the hands are resting on the table with the fingers. This relieved tension and relieved the tailbone!
After afternoon training in the sun. I was still thinking about eating a big dinner. It was not good in my stomach, I also drank 2 cups of coffee with milk and honey. I felt a little vomiting ... Ah, how I regretted it.
After 18-19, walking across the river, I met my husband, Patrycja Czyszczon. Wow as the saying goes: husband. I don't even know what the guy's name is. He talked to me that I lost weight and I took it for myself ... I was a bit afraid of this team and I really wanted to go home. I wanted to finish quickly. He also said that I'm done with "fun". I was wondering what he meant with this game ... Przemek, fun? Sex? I don't know, I didn't know what he meant. It was only after a few minutes in silence that I associated: he is Patrycja's husband, and I talked to Patrycja about various things, such as DXM and summoning spirits. I suppose that's what he meant. Good, I don't even know the name of the guy, but he already has an opinion about me ...
In general, I felt a slight fear and discomfort in their company. I wanted to leave quickly. And at the same time leaving the hatred for my father. Even more hate! More anger! For fucking up the most beautiful years of my life.
I avoid people, I don't like the goods of all people. I like being alone.
At home, I ate 2 apples and a carrot. I didn't want this carrot, but I promised my mother that I would eat it. Then a hearty dinner around 8:30 pm, 2 slices of chalka and butter and a lot of cheese. After that, I felt like eating somehow. It's been a long time since I had such bouts of marriage. He controls himself. But now I would eat something else to fill myself. To stuff and to purge from hatred - as H. Louse claims to keep such people "merry".
Yes, I haven't had it for a long time, but sometimes you can sin! I feel stuffed right now, but I don't feel such remorse that I ate so much!
Earlier, I went to bring the dinner to Szymek. I had fun talking to him, but I had to go. He's tired and I have to write a program for Jarek. How about going to the kitchen and eating another slice
Heh, about the operation jader: I don't know. I asked for this referral. I think to myself: an additional procedure: something will be added at least to the file, always some proof. But on the other hand, I'm worried about my testicles. I am afraid that I am screwed up with this procedure, although I told the Pomeranian that I am not afraid of the operation there. I lied. I'm afraid that they will hurt me. What to do? I don't know fucking ... Ask a fairy, an angel, a channeling? Anyway, I have already asked about this procedure ... I could take a risk, but I would like to have an answer from the card + from an angel that the procedure will be successful ...
Eh, I think I know what hurts me right now. I feel sorry, I feel sorry that people remember me as Cipe, as a huge tight fat pussy, and that's how I feel now. I want to show, regain my honor, build a powerful body and muscles, straighten my spine and learn to fight like Uri Boyka. Supposedly I feel strong enough to achieve everything except the last one: the science of martial arts. I hate you fucking father
środa, 8 maja 2013
I got a job
May 8 - I got a job
I woke up after 6:00 am. Pelen toxin in the body, eyes stuck together. Although I slept on my stomach, I woke up on my side. The neck is a little taut at the side. The prone position I think would have been successful if it had not been for this and the legs were too loose. In addition, I can be full of toxins because yesterday I ate up to 3 buns + 2 slices, right?
It's 6:40 and I'm supposed to go to the interview at 9:30. The weather is so beautiful that I think I will be tempted and I will go sunbathing earlier :)
I am after the interview, I was accepted. I used to sunbathe before :)
I had an additional idea related to drugs
- placebo tablets
- Chewing gum # in case of problems
- Stock of lemon juice
- NAC
For chewing gums, I just wrap the tablet in chewing gum and swallow it. I would have to look at the tram first, for example, will the tram work for me then. If it doesn't work, the rubber has been neutralized
Gosh it is now 3:20 pm. I feel so excited, excited :) Excited about the new job, I imagine how I work with people, how my job gives me satisfaction, and how I give out self-suggestions explaining what I am doing.
And here, after all, for Jarek we have to finish the program: D
Being in the afternoon training session, I fell into my dreams again. I imagined myself buying a multimeter and a device for measuring electricity consumption and a similar backpack / bag on spikes in which I keep my tools and laptop, only this time slightly smaller than the one I bought. It is supposed to be a company backpack: tools and a laptop, CDs ... Ah, what beautiful dreams :)
I think I'm about to go to the Allegro: D
Heh just weeks after payment I read Channeling from Elen
When asked what I was doing incorrectly in the breathing exercises, I was given metaphors, maybe nice, but I don't understand it ...
When asked if Markicz suffered consequences for how he treated me: No, there was a conversation with his superior, who is his colleague, nothing more.
When asked how to regain my actress's gift: (...) I was an enthusiast who wanted to show who is in charge ... Write down on a piece of paper what lies on my conscience in connection with this hospital and burn it!
Oh fuck mac, nothing practical !!! Absolutely fucking nothing!
However, I bought this backpack on the Allegro. I will keep my tools and laptop in it. Black color thanks to which it is unobtrusive.
wtorek, 7 maja 2013
Honey regeneration
May 7 - Honey Regeneration
I woke up at 4:00 am. I went to pee, although I still didn't want to eat. In the morning after 7:00 am I take measurements. Complete no change. JUPI: D I think the spontaneous Honey Glodowki is the perfect solution for me!
Then the training, only after 11:00 am I started to feel a little hungry. To unlock again 2 Inka Bean Coffees with milk and honey. Cool thing. And before 12 o'clock I had a hohland sandwich with onion and tomato. It felt like a great meal. In total, this spontaneous honey fast took me 21H. Interestingly, this 21H does not make me feel hungry, and I feel much better.
The training was nice, a lot of sun, I stretched it well. Better and better the spine, only those circles in the neck and chest give the ass. In some places I even felt that My hands were in better condition
Krug Baumen Watch Manipulation - I recently bought a watch on the Allegro. Krug Baumen Sportmaster - my favorite model, only with a yellow dial, but for PLN 100. The guest probably asked a friend to raise the auction to PLN 99. I gave PLN 100 and won. However, I wrote to the guest and brought it to his attention (with a sense of humor but firmly) asking for a well-secured package. Today came a package. Better secured than NASA's government computers: D
I didn't manage to do the enema planned for today, unfortunately ... Maybe another time, but I'm very happy with the course of the starvation process;)
Ok 15 I went to the hairdresser to fix my hairstyle. We have dressed the mohawk on the back. Now it looks much better, and I had this haircut for free :)
3:30 pm I ate lunch. I wasn't hungry yet, but ate. It's still a better time than 2pm. At 4:30 pm I went to Martin that from GerlandToys. We talked for a while about my work. Tomorrow I have an appointment at 9:30 with their boss.
Honestly, I don't want to work ... I don't feel like working, I'd like to move out of the house, but I don't want to work. He dropped me off back home. After all, I have absolutely no photoshop experience. I see it poorly ..
Coming home.
Somewhere around 6:00 p.m. I ate as many as 3 jelly beans and washed them down with carrot juice. But I felt stuffed. Then at 7:30 pm I ate something like dinner: two sandwiches. Here, I felt that I was exaggerating. I didn't want to eat it! I was not completely hungry even more stuffed and now I regret it ....
Maybe I can go for a walk? Oh ... I haven't been for an evening walk for a long time. He's at home during these hours. I will be burning this supper a bit, because I don't want to do the program for Jarek completely now.
Ah, my parents returned a moment ago. They bought fresh buns. I tried two. I'm fed up but I want one more :) Like a drug :)
Well, one did not end as dad said. I wonder if he gave me some self-suggestions? I ate or the buns. I feel super heavy, my belly is huge. But what's good about this situation? I remembered what it means to make a mistake ... Now too, breathe and burn it. Ba ... I just have to get the hell to vacuum it. Come on shit .... Why will David never ask him to vacuum?
It's 22:00. I was breathing for almost an hour at the same time. It does not feel a particularly stronger voice, but it feels as if it were a blog. And chlamydia travels like crazy. In addition, today, during an interview with Marcin from GerlandToys, I cut my tailbone and it hurts today. Pain ...
But the breathing exercises were quite successful I must admit.
Eating the buns for the night made me feel like eating. I want ice cream or chocolate ... I have broken my own rules.
While breathing, I focused almost all my energies, concentration and thoughts on revenge against my father!
Even for moments I thought how to get rid of the work tomorrow. I will simply say that my earnings are probably higher and I have a lot of free time for myself, which suits me very well, that's why I would rather work on commission!
I have been thinking lately about gaining weight, getting some creatine or even taking steroids.
Ah, since I've eaten like a chlamydia pig travels like crazy ....
poniedziałek, 6 maja 2013
HoneyFlower
May 6 - Honey Glodowka
Dziena somehow unique instead of writing during the day, written almost at the end ...
I got up quite late, 6:30. I took the measurements. Weight: 69 kg, you can say that I recovered a bit. Belt 77cm, but Biceps ... At the beginning, probably after training, it showed less than 36cm, and then 35.5cm ... Later, it is only 35cm ... Well fucking: D I fell ...
These starvations are not conducive to muscle gain, or something I'm doing wrong? Perhaps this phase of regeneration?
So I switch to short 16-18h fasts. It will be easy to carry out. Practical: it's enough not to eat dinner!
In addition, I change my meal times. It is not healthy to eat in the morning, but in my case, when I get up on average 5:00, I could plan this:
- 7:30 am breakfast
- 10:30 apples or something light
- 2:00 pm lunch
- 17:00 * / possibly something light / *
- 19:30 dinner
Total Fasting time between meals would be: 12h. I think I will try this new method next week! I have already written my new thoughts in my diary.
Surprisingly, today I realized almost all my decisions which I wrote down in the calendar. Jupi: D
7:30 training. 8:30 I went to the appointment to Rafal Pawlik. I mentioned it to him and I got the Latpopa T60. I was also wondering whether to mention the Affirmation card that my mother recently found. I even wanted to talk about it, although the conversation was focused on the subjects of my Post-Secondary School of Psychotronics. Talking whether I get in or not ... How do I plan to play etc ...
And so almost our entire meeting.
Then I stretched the spine a little more in the playground.
Coming home, having breakfast and then I had to act fast. I need a Spermiogram, I have an appointment with Pomorskie on May 9th. I took my wallet on an impulse basis, I was wondering if I might not call earlier, but I don't like to plan. I like to be impulse. I did the same, I went to Nowy Targ on an impulse basis. There I asked an elderly lady where the pharmacy was. In the pharmacy I bought a container for ... urine: D and I headed towards the Orkana Laboratory 19. On the way, I think I met Rite Jozwiakowska. I avoided her eyes, although I felt that our thoughts somehow faded away.
On the spot, I told you in the registration how the matter looks like. Before that, I was in the bathroom to pee. The lady called a colleague who deals with it. He was gone for a long time and I started to wonder: he was a mess with me. There's a toilet here, a long time he was gone, I could give my semen. But due to the fact that I am waiting for the next 2 minutes and it is not there yet, I decided: I will take a risk and I will do it now. And I went to the toilet. It worked, yet when I left he was gone for a few minutes.
The guy was really cool, nice, he treated it like ... Seriously. The laboratory is 20 years old - lots of time! There was only a question about the testicular trauma in the last 3 months: I said 2 years ago, although I did not say in detail that it was a Venereal disease.
Looking around the lab, I saw that a doctor was visiting: the father of Kais and Hakam. Dr. Mohaisen. He had a doctorate. He must be good if he still works in such a good laboratory with tradition. The laboratory had a lot of diplomas.
On my way out, I went to the post office. I wanted to ask for a PO box, but the line was so long and I gave up. I bought some chewing gums on the market. I started towards the hospital. I saw one bus go to Rabka. I wanted to run before, but I was afraid to run, still in these heavy shoes (those light ones still dry on my windowsill)
As for the shoes, I can give here a metaphorical power of the sun. In the sun they would dry up in a few hours, and here on the windowsill it is drying one day :) The sun really has power and gives energy!
On my way back to the hospital, a bus was just leaving to Rabka, I stopped it and luckily it stopped. I went to Rabka, went home and ate dinner.
I did not want to eat dinner. I felt so full and full again - as is usual in my case after lunch.
After an hour, my mother went somewhere, I went to the park to practice. The weather was beautiful, I practiced barefoot. About 5 p.m. - 6 p.m. return home.
I decided I could use some cereal coffee. I also added milk and honey. I repeated the procedure many times, so from 2 p.m. I called this starvation honey. So far, I do not want to eat yet.
Oh, I also called the growler today, but he doesn't accept it yet. You can make calls only at the end of May.
I also drank carrot juice which was kind of sour.
At the playground, I also talked to an obese woman from Krakow who came with her daughter. She also told the story of a boy who allegedly had asthma was prescribed a lot of drugs and was told how good it felt after them! How do I know it ... We talked for a while, it was nice to talk!
At home I wrote a little program for Jarek.
I was also thinking today to strengthen the effect of muscle mass try Creatine? I don't know, maybe I'll try this next month without creatine. I will use the power of a new diet, sun, 2x a day training and New Affirmation!
Oh, and Marta wrote to me today if I want to run with her. It's great to have a running companion in 2 months :)
Man, I feel that the new arrangement of the hours of meals will be a hit :) Because let's face it, I'm doing something wrong in these posts. I don't want to analyze it thoroughly. I think they are too long and in addition I have badly arranged meal times. Lunch after 3 hours.
Moreover:
Since Tombak and Hipokratez recommended 2 meals a day for health, I think that with 3 meals I am able to build a huge muscle mass!
niedziela, 5 maja 2013
Again, Tramal
May 5 - Trama again
Wake up at 3:00. I ate the apple and went back to sleep. I was even thinking after yesterday that I must act! I wrote down my plan in the calendar, among them to call: Maków Podhalański about Lyme disease, where Donata Bargiel recommended me.
7:00 a little depression, a mixture of different feelings. So I took tramal 100mg chewing well sipping cereal coffee without milk and honey as recently, which in my opinion probably strengthened Tramal quite well. First effects already at 7:30. I'm perfect for training.
Despite being bitten, Tramal held on for a really long time. Somewhere until 17.
Training was excellent with the tram. Adrenaline and speed. Loose months until I had to do a few pull-ups and squats to relieve the tension in the form of "too loose". Then breathe too. It relieved me of this adrenaline, but when I got home I felt that adrenaline again. Mom was just getting ready to go to the church, I went to the store to buy a new sponge and some gray soap. I chose some new gray soap that smells like some fragrance ingredients were added there - I don't know ... I chose something new according to my philosophy. Actually a philosophy acquired by OSHO.
I still gave my mother 2 zlotys to the church. After she went, I jumped in the shower and then went to bed, including the movie about the Anonymous. Blog tramal sleepiness, that was what I needed.
At 2pm I woke up for dinner. I really didn't want to eat it. I ate the dinner that my mother was preparing. It was probably because I slept and ate breakfast late.
After 4 p.m. I went to practice. Earlier, I wrote this program for Jarek a bit. It goes like blood from my nose.
At the playground, I met this Bartek with friends. They played Ping-Pong or table tennis. I practiced, I was still under the influence of the tram, which makes me laugh when I practiced. There was also a kornel hemmer and a lot of people I didn't know. I think Bartek already has a child
Then, on the river bank, you can tan your back a bit. Then moments too, but I didn't breathe very long. Home, dinner, some program writing and now I'm going to sleep. It is 9:35 pm.
I have noticed that I have punched a hole in the mattress, because the lumbar spine hurts in the morning.
Tomorrow's most important: To Rafal Pawlik at 8:30 and still register for Spermiogram. However, registration for Spremiogram is much more important!
sobota, 4 maja 2013
BoCiPrzypierdole
4 Maja - BoCiPrzypierdole
I had 2 dreams today
1) I spoke to my grandfather about his dry eyes
2) I kissed a pretty girl with glasses. She kissed great. A bit similar to Ola Paternogi. I also had some strange ticket to some place that I gave her. She was a cashier. The ticket was in the form of an MP3 player and a memory card
And anyway, today I'm deviating from my routine. He gives up training in favor of: writing a program.
In addition, I am concerned about a decrease in body weight. After the morning weighing, it weighs less than 69 kg. 6 holes in the belt is not enough :) Although if the other dimensions would be kept normal or even increased, I would not email anything against :)
About 11:00 I gave up writing the program. It was cold, in addition, WB did not translate Java Script code
After 11 I was also home alone. Dawid went to work, and I stayed home alone. I watched TV, which I rarely do:
- The first program stuck in my memory when my wife cheated on her husband with her boss so that he would not lose his job
- the other was a bit more like a certain possessive father, a military hand, treated his children. I couldn't look at it. Poor girl
- the third is a Tuesday, when a little boy had no care, because his mother always went out somewhere. The boy was drinking coca cola for breakfast, he didn't know what butter was.
Just after 2 p.m., the expectant mother. There is a quarrel again, maybe it's my fault and nothing is done at home
- mother started to crack everything, I decided to wait a moment until she was finished and I returned to the room closing the door
the mother came in and started screaming. I explained to her and closed the door to wait until he was done cracking everything. She said that nothing cracked, that only her keys fell off by accident. I replied that by chance her whole life all flew out of her hand. Some kind of exchange of sentences and I said: I can't stand it in a moment and I will give you a hard time! I looked at her with a look, almost voodo, I wish I was looking in one of her eyes, but in both of them. She will send me to prison and burn in hell.
- Somewhere here again I felt sorry for myself and did not come up with any strong sharp retort. It's a pity it wasn't like a few days ago when I took the tram, but it wasn't too bad. At least I said something. I reacted to the strong stress with vibrations of the chest. I'm going to clean up. Normally I would have left the house, but ... I have to today. Today I have to write a program for Jarek. When I write this program for him .... End! Wait until June for Donata to help arrange a social flat for me and move out of the house! I hope and help me. I'm fucking fed up with this house. I'm fucking sick!
Statham: organization, order, great manipulation, if you kill me you go sit. These are the short conclusions I wrote down today after seeing the transporter. I was most interested in this form of manipulation: if you kill me, you won't get anywhere, you don't know the number of the ignition key. Epic!
In the evening I was able to discover what was wrong with TWebBrowser and HTML code;) I interpret the debugger differently and it is displayed differently. I managed to fix it. Jupi: D
But the most important event in the evening, related to the quarrel with my mother in the afternoon.
Some time ago I took out the Affirmation card. There were type-affirmations
- Glod regenerates my body
- Anger and hatred are in me ...
- I don't let this whore feed me like pigs (that's what struck my mother the most)
....
// I think, god, that there would be no affirmation about drugs ... Fortunately, it was not :)
Somehow I survived this conversation, although under a lot of stress I survived it :) And here I thought: I need to be more secure in the future! necessarily. Because what if the next thing to be discovered is that I'm not taking medication? I'll be turned into a plant again! Because of this motherfucker and these psychotropics, I lost the most beautiful years of my life, I don't want the situation to repeat itself again.
I already had thoughts like:
- Write in the old code R.
- Take a supply of NAC to neutralize drug effects
- Read about something that neutralizes drugs (lemon for sure)
- Tell Bargiel I'm not taking medication
- Change doctor to dr. Prochyr now officially. They are on my side.
I'm fucking scared. Just in case, I chose the lesser evil today. I took the pill. Then I drank some lemon juice, but the ground I chose was the lesser evil. The situation was too serious, unfortunately I couldn't risk it.
French proverb says: never believe a cook!
piątek, 3 maja 2013
Planting Kaja
3 May - Planting the Kaja
A day on time, although for the first time in a long time I did not write it up-to-date.
Training in the morning, lalo. I got sick under the mushroom where I was meditating in front of people. The "sound" of people made me feel good to meditate. There was a girl who had a tiger from GerlandToys. I thought to buy one Elence ... But as much as 800 PLN
And I didn't do anything for the day. Fear of the spine again. Cocks in the neck and cancer. I went to exercise in a panic.
Actually, today I have finished the training on Crucifixion. Now a week off ...
In the afternoon, after lunch, I went to exercise again out of panic.
After 1718 I lent Szymek even PLN 300
After 6 p.m. I went to plant Kaje and Strasko. Puck, it was really wet. On the way, I wanted to give up and plant them somewhere else, but I got to my dream place. I said: I love you Kaju. I really loved this plant, and it also broke on the way; (((
I secured it as best I could.
At home, I ate scrambled eggs in the vicinity my mother made. It wouldn't be a problem. Great meal. But I was hungry and ate 3 more slices of cheese. It is also not a problem, but in the head: separate diet, I will not mess too much? Ah, that tombac ...
But ketchup did me bad. I read there is sugar there. Passing the stool was somehow strange ... Seemingly noble, but there was pain when passing the stool. Color as if not completely digested ...
That means one thing: ketchup is not a very good thing. I could chew on a tomato instead. Actually, I did that later, but ... better late than never. Time to go to sleep in a moment. I'm still worried about the spine. These strange feelings. I can't wait to register for the growler to set these other 3 circles.
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