Better and better But

July 18 - Better and better, but - Wake up after 5:00 spontaneously. A slight sensation of toxins, the feeling of peanuts in the stomach after yesterday evening - I have the impression that a laptop on plastic heats up more. I will test it for a while (without saving) and compare it in the office and on the table. - I was in the shop twice because I ran out of money. Nasty apples, no matter what compared to the rest of the day - I wasn't for a run. I felt that I did not have the strength, but I was very eager for intuflow. I was kind of tired, I would only burn out running by running. On the other hand, the intoflows in the sun increased my mental and physical energy - At home, I ate 6 thin slices of grams with onion and then tomato for breakfast. To the office I took quite a lot of cheese + egg shells + broad beans that I didn't eat. - As for the morning meditation: it was exactly 15 minutes. It ended with the end of the chair vibration - I came to the office around 10:30. On the way I was walking without a shirt, catching a little sun, although there were also a lot of clouds. I was not even afraid of my mother, who almost went out with me, all thanks to my self-suggestion, i.e. positive affirmation from the red notebook. - In the office I was doing great: I was tired: I was doing WFM for my head and I was energized. Water, stretching the muscles. By the way, I developed a great exercise to stretch the biceps - this is what I needed, because recently I feel that I have guts in my biceps. I had neglected stretching them for several months, I accidentally missed this muscle in my warm-up. When I was too relaxed, makeshift intuitive stretching of most muscles and I am already full of energy. I think I can do it. - I went to everything for a student to get a marker, then to the new StrafaNiskichCen store. Some great wallets, including one I especially like for 12.50. I wish I had money, I have to get it tomorrow. In total, I left the office twice: once for chewing gums, and once for the underliner - Today I read Andrzej Bednarz's book about meditation. Really great read! Brilliantly described the basics of meditation step by step, only in the mind of the mind: it is a pity that someone did not say that. It seems to me that the Cooper described the Meditations better than OSHO, and in my head I think: it is a pity that it is not someone ... - Now it is 4:41 pm and despite all day in the office I am full of energy. Because I listened to my body. The body is a temple, I care for my body and my body cares for me. And this is beautiful! - Practical, the only thing fully done today, or rather half of it, is reading A. Bednarz's book. Great book! - I was afraid that there would be a lot of writing, but at the moment that's probably all. Do what you want. Follow the stream of the river, not against the current, because it is much heavier upstream. - In addition, I listened today and yesterday to my intuition opening the keys to the door. I felt intuitively which keys would match. I felt it! - Coming back from work without a shirt, I was tired after a whole day. Intuitively or subconsciously, I moved towards the thesis. Then, as if on the bridge, I woke up and wondered what I was doing - after all, I was supposed to go to the playground to practice. But I found I was listening to the subconscious and I was not disappointed. There I breathed my diaphragm and also walked barefoot on stones. Oh, my feet were hot, the mine was energized by the negative pole of the earth, as Tombak used to say. And I went on to the playground, but found that I will not exercise now and do exercise after the meal. After 7 pm I had a meal, meat with 4 cucumbers. I decided to leave it for 21, but I was afraid that the meal would be too late. But when I plan to schedule [7-9-xx-19-21] I feel like I should eat meals like that. Where xx is a protein during the day. This is my feeling that it will hit the mark. I watched my mother not to warm me up, I was afraid of it less and less, probably for affirmations. Wogole coming back just in front of the house, next to the red drazka, cokes from RBK or WRU were staring at me. Also nicely carved, including this michael from David's class. - I went to training after 8 p.m., before that I did a lot of shopping for the night. I have to report 11gr, preferably in the morning :) When I was going to the playground, I met my grandson. I walked tired and wondered if I had done the right thing with this meat. But then, during the training, I gained a lot of energy for exercise. I suppose it was the effect of the sun going down, fresh air and I really got a lot of energy for exercise. I thought that I would only do 2 series, but I did the full training. Wneku has delayed him a bit, he wants to practice with me. We guessed for tomorrow, but I don't really want to exercise with him. I prefer to practice myself ... He admired me a little when I was stretched, he also said that I looked better packed. - And now for the evening the question: to eat rice or not to eat? Maybe I can do an experiment, that is: I'm not that hungry, in addition I'm full of energy and I want to rest and stretch, right? So I will leave the rice until tomorrow, and I will eat only the tomato before going to bed. I also drank the Inka Cereal Coffee - I wanted it. Yes, an experiment because recently I get up after 5:00 to eat at night. There will be a reap for tomorrow. Yes, EXPERYMENT! to know if I am doing well. At most, in the morning I will wake up with wolf hunger, then the body will make up for the loss and eat this rice or apples ... We'll see ... - Gee there is energy and at the same time pleasant exhaustion. And at the same time fear of pain and ailments. Head again, a moment ago I caught my mother that nothing hurts me when she looks at me as I take the droplets. - I forgot to note 2 quite important events from today. Being in the store before the evening training was quite a long queue in the store. At one point, the Lady from the other lady says: "Cash". I changed Kase almost without hesitating, even though I was second in line. People waved and I did. I was also a bit afraid of it, although it is important that I did it. Maybe this fear will pass with time :) - The second situation a moment ago, but first, when I was watching my mother so that it did not heat up my meal: as usual, she pretended to be a stupid type: and what would you heat yourself up, I say: dinner. And what kind of dinner will you get this dinner from? (...) and such a fucking conversation. I do not have such bright, sparkling ripostes anymore, but at least I said something and I was not afraid, as I used to, thanks to my affirmations. Excellent! - A moment after the shower, just before going to bed, my mother asked me to the computer to help her with something. As usual, not enough that I want her help, I still get away from her. But somehow I managed to defend myself: I told the translator's technique (my favorite) that not enough that I want to help you, I still get the fuck out of me. I finished with my word, I feel like the winner of this battle for words. The last word belonged to me. And I think to make my success even better. Well: mom is good to me and cute only when she needs money from me. I'm done giving her money, I won't give you any more. Now I owe it PLN 9, so I will not give PLN 10, I will give exactly PLN 9 Because when something doesn't work, do the other way around. I give her money like a fool, try to be nice, and this fucking whore attacks me at every turn. Enough of this. When you are nice to someone, someone is not nice to you. I will not give her a penny more arguing with words like: you already know why ... Guess. Juices - you can not do what you don't want (and here's a great persuasion because there are chances and I will continue to do them). I forced her not to do something, so her subconscious pride will shout NO and let her make lenses, and I will emerge victorious from it! Got contact lenses and she's fucking mentally!