I feel

July 20 - I feel - A day written with a one-day delay. A lot has happened, a lot has happened, even though I spent most of the day alone. I don't even know when I'm going to write it all down. - Morning Fruit, I went for a run listening to Intuition. I chose places that I felt I should choose: for example, I found 2 nice places by the pitch where there were nettles, by the pool my intuition automatically directed me towards where there is grass instead of concrete. At Maciejowa I saw Karolina gacek with friends when I was returning. I also burned the card there. I hesitated to go to the mother herself, because I still wanted to buy a gift for my mother. I did it "almost that" because I felt it would be better that way. And so I was guided by the voice of my intuition. This is my theory, no book - do what I feel. To integrate it with the mind. By the way, I got to know a new place through the fields, and coming back an even earlier way to the pollack. It was just this that I felt that this road would lead me there. I felt it! - While on the pollack, I was returning through the streets on the left side, next to the sheet metal trapezoid. It felt like this again. I do not know why, the only advantage of this decision was that I found out that there is a lot of concrete there and the road is moderately conducive to running. I was hoping to meet Maks or his family - that's the only thing I was running for, although I didn't meet him. I was also in his aunt's shop - I hesitated to buy grapefruit juice, but from what I saw the store was closed long ago, unfortunately ... - I walked towards the market looking for a present for my mother. I ran nervously across the tracks as the train rode, I wasn't afraid. I was even thinking: without fear and without pain, life is BORING! It is as if you are still playing some computer game at the lowest level. BOREDOM! I bought these delicious gray cookies from my childhood in a store by the fitnesland. They cost 5.07. The lady gave me a terrible change, I broke my fear and asked her to give me 5 zlotys, and in a moment she would notice her. Probably reluctantly, but at least she agreed. Then I tested the new Lewiatan store. There I bought the cheapest ice cream as a gift, but at least it matched the gift and a multivitamin juice for myself. I was hesitating between the white grapefruit and the multivitamin. I chose my mind and took a multivitamin, and unfortunately I made a mistake here. You should have taken Grapefruit - I felt so, and this choice would have been much better! Then I reported even 10 groszy to this lady. During this walk, I was a bit afraid of the lumbar spine. After all, I was running on the asphalt, I was tired after this run. And so I was running after the dupes, mainly in this flower shop, together with your florist, we prepared a really incredibly attractive visual gift. Everything looked great together. It was a real work of art! :) What a true gift is a root not out of love for the mother, just because it is appropriate to give a gift. Besides, I wanted to have a holy peace and a stress-free day to organize my own affairs in life. After I finished, I ran towards the house. Along the way, this feeling again - we may not be there, something suddenly dawned on me that she was about to eat. I felt that it would be best to call David and that's how I found out ... My mother is gone, she is in Nowy Targ. So I ran further home, on the way (and probably several more times a day) listening to my intuition, such as correcting items, telephone, shopping - in the way I feel. Quick cut on the stick. I thought to keep this gift for this time at Mrs. Basia or Monika, but I chose Monika because I just saw her, at the same time I probably wanted some rumors to spread what a beautiful gift I bought ... That's what I had in mind. In addition, returning through the rust without pain and ailments, I had another thoughts again: when I fight Kais, I smash him with my strength and sharp retorts. Riposts suddenly came by themselves and I hadn't had them for a long time ... It's interesting ... Even very interesting ... - Shower at home, then breakfast, and it's very late, after 1 p.m. And I think again because I ate breakfast too late, in a moment, what to do for dinner? But I had a feeling it would be fine. And I was not wrong. When my mother arrived, I went to Monika to get a gift. I returned and my mother was delighted. With this gift, I bought her well-being for the whole day and mental comfort for myself. Yes, I was extremely calm that day. Dinner was later anyway, but I just calmly put it on my desk. Mom didn't pick on and scream like she used to do every day. I just put dinner and said that I would eat later and so did - I ate dinner somewhere around 5 p.m. when Dawid was packing up to Mielno. By the way, today, when he writes, I felt it would be nice to steal some nice pants from him. I just felt it! And so I did, backing up the cool blue jeans. They feel good in them and look great. - What next after dinner: I also talked to Szymek by phone. It was great talk. I informed him with self-suggestion that I have free calls and we can talk without fear. In this way, he felt calm that he didn't stretch me and I felt calmer because we could talk. He asked for a movie of higher quality. I thought that he has a bigger screen and that is why he may have such a problem. I looked for him the same author in HD quality. And downloaded from some warez. Today, as I watched, the quality was excellent - What else for the day? Hard to say. I was breathing a little freely on my stomach, just deep. The stronger voice was also much stronger and at the same time calm, but of course for a while. - In the afternoon I started cleaning the house. This continued until evening. Until the circles in my spine began to worry me. Generally it has been cleaned up quite nicely. 82% of me are satisfied with myself. I also destroyed old research and documents. I felt that some of them are no longer needed for me, so I fired them all. It just felt like that, and so did it! I felt it. I have prepared old bags for the basement of things that I do not use and which I want to sell. I want to experiment how much I can earn by selling unnecessary things. - And so the time flew by. Mom was calm. Oh, and something else important. Before dinner, my mother treated me to a wafer. Feeling guilty and wanting to shine the next oh how delicious. But I made my affirmation / self-suggestion and I was sick of the next one. It breaks down the weaknesses (...). I managed to defeat myself. For an evening with chocolate, it was not so good for me, but it was still pretty good. After a few lumps of chocolate I could feel the energy, but with time it turned into a slime. At least I got to know another error. I wanted dark chocolate as if it was the best medicine for me then. I did so too. - At night, especially before going to sleep, instead of meditating, I wanted to watch a movie. But I didn't know which one, but now I know - I'd like to see a dexter. Yes, a dexter would be what I need. However, I watched adrenaline 2 from youtube. I couldn't sleep for long. I didn't feel like it. Finally 1:30. I was afraid of it a little because I had not suffered from insomnia for a long time. This is also what I got up and started reading Andrzej Bednarz's Meditations. Despite the poor cover, I have to say that his book is much better than OSHO - it shows the meditation better. I told myself that I have to give this book some special frame. - I woke up at 6:00 am, I wanted 2 Inka coffees. I did so too, drinking slowly. Then after 7:30 2 apples, then more Guarana yoghurt. And somehow after 9 o'clock I went for a run, fearing for my circles. But along the way, I didn't feel like running. I don't have this energy to run. I stopped for the motley. I felt it was an ideal place. I felt it! So, first I started intuflow, then stretching, and finally I thought and when I am already and I don't want to run, I did my morning training and then I run. I was not disappointed. After training, I was full of energy at home. This energy freaked me out so much that I had to eat a good garlic clove to calm down. During the TRAINING I learned that - Squats holding one hand on the slipper - better feel legs / thighs - Push-ups on handrails at staircases - quite a different exercise - I tanned my thighs without fear (only panties). I even thought of where to sunbathe naked here. I felt that I could find a place like that somewhere on Maciejowa Street. Now I think to myself to lie on the end and if someone was it just put my panties back on. - Drazek as a goal - it was quite thick in the handle and I exercised well I think that's it from training. I will add that in the morning I made myself an injection with milk and breast. She was really DELICIOUS. Yes, inka with milk and breast, only these thoughts about a separate diet. And I took care of myself. Carrots, I waited eagerly, breaking the weaknesses, and took a shower. Then I ate my breakfast potatoes with garlic and then after a while slices of bread with butter. An excellent meal, despite such a dose of carbohydrates, after 2 p.m. I felt a light hunger back. I felt pleasantly full and energized. Just fear for the spine, I didn't know what to do with it. I called Rakowska impulse and typed to call tomorrow. - Oskar came spontaneously between 1pm and 2pm. Again I felt, somehow it just felt that he was parked here. I think he demanded too much from this laptop, but at least I helped him with something. He's a lot of urusl, he's much taller than me. - After the protein dinner, which I liked and I ate red meat with beetroots almost without fear, I did an experiment because of the fear of the vertebrae in my spine. I went to lie on my stomach in the vibrations of the chair. It made me feel sick, and I fell asleep and woke up drowsy with a sense of fear and guilt, and I made the mistake again. And I think about it again. - Now I want to run, but I want to go run to my dad ... I already have a route set through my old kindergarten. I feel it. the weather is beautiful, i'm going to run there.