poniedziałek, 5 lipca 2010
ConversationSubconscious
Today I woke up much later, just before 12 o'clock. I wanted to exercise, unfortunately the protein was over and I had to help, so there was no time. I hope I will buy protein in Ostrów for PLN 35 tomorrow
After breakfast, I went upstairs to check how it was downloading. Router was disconnected, Raphael and dad knew nothing about him. Luckily it was hidden in the room, probably David had disconnected it. There are 2 files left of the szuba files to download, and that's what they do. After breakfast, it turned out that I should come to my dad, because he had a job for me today. He went to get my grandfather, meanwhile I went to the post office to check if Bogdan had sent the disc. However, there was no parcel. By the way, I bought a large Italian ice cream for PLN 3. He was big and great. I'm back, we just missed my grandfather and dad. We went upstairs, painted behind the radiator in the kitchen and the whole little computer room. Then I was free.
I don't remember what I was doing right downstairs. It took a long time to reheat a pig, but despite many attempts it was still cold. Mom sent me from the course, then I went to get my laptop and added a bone of the ram. Fortunately, the computer detects all memory without any problems. David brought back dirty socks and left mum to wash, as if he couldn't work out for himself. My mother discussed this with my grandfather. David should be ashamed. Piotrek came from Sylvia - earlier they called that they had a problem with the laptop. I checked and said I would do it tomorrow. The system is not logging in - there must be a lot of viruses. I will need to find an HBCD disc.
Jack came in at 6:00 p.m., but I put it on 19. Found a script for a subconscious conversation. I used today - the mission was a success! My subconscious was talking to me. She spoke a little nonsensically, but I have a lesson for today: I have to ask questions much faster because the subconscious mind gets impatient. Jacek shook terribly, but I asked the consciousness and said that everything was ok. Then we posted his case on the forum.
Then Jacek and I watched cool things on youtube: I paste links
http://www.youtube.com/vikuserro#p/f/91/2bJRcp1iSEk
http://www.youtube.com/user/KRAUSERulez#p/u/32/PsCE2PYD6oQ
I have just finished talking to the poet, Łukasz at the GG. He was in English training in 6 days worth 2700 PLN and he is very happy. He is also done with hypnosis, he is angry with a sinister and a badboy. I still need to download some files from the hamster while I have the transfer.
PS now I download the Brain_Workout program to exercise my brain with andydep
Tramal
Yesterday also describes the next day. Once again, I ran out of time.
I don't remember exactly what time I got up, but in the morning my mother asked me for help in handling the new cell phone. We transferred the sim card, I show her how to get text messages. And there were a few messages from a similar number, the content: good night Ania ... Then he says, it must be some kind of a mistake. Yeah sure, I bet it's a text from a lover
After this situation that morning, I think around 12 Arek called me. For the first time in a long time, we had a good chat. I also told him about the morning situation, I asked if he was still willing to train kickboxing. At that time, I was on the health path, my mother was probably going to sunbathe.
I returned home, dad let me walk around the new apartment, I set the router on fire, at the beginning I gave David to play the water. My dad asked me to check my e-mail and the allegro, although Dawid had already discharged me from these obligations, but just in case I checked again.
Later, somehow Dawid went somewhere with his dad, mum left, so I decided to take a tram. I took a half tablet of 150 mg and ate half of it. The day before I did not swallow Zyprexy. What did I feel ?: energy and willingness to act and a little feeling of well-being. It was not a euphoria, but I think that in a week I will repeat the experiment, this time with 150 mg. I was a bit afraid that something would happen to me, but luckily it was only positive.
Then I went to lie on the mattress for a while (I was alone at the bottom) and listened to music to an oobe from a vampire (the sound of the lake). I quickly gave up, but I was able to hold a position of stillness. Then I went upstairs and searched the computer, sending files to the hamster (Szuba - show what you can do). Downloading the entire page of the cerebral pacemaker to disk, I wrote a broadcast post asking for death meditation. I also wanted to take a silva course for my omni, but somehow I didn't.
In the meantime, I went to jack. I met him at his place in the stairwell. I made an appointment with him on the 18th, because on the 19th I would go to church. I also scoured people (jurek, zazi, bartek) to print the script. Today I wouldn't be able to use my laptop due to the download, but I was good at improvising anyway.
After Jacek's visit, I spoke to his sub-consciousness. She said she was in a trance enough already that we could induce a regression state. I was glad, however, as it came out of the conversation (Questions on the hand, Yes and No), my eyes were not quite relaxed. We made an appointment again at 20 because I had to go to church. A call from my mother interrupted a bit, but Jack was still in a trance.
I went to change (pants) and went. On the way, I stopped at the office to vote, it was open downstairs. One gentleman looked at me (grim or a little surprised). I asked where I vote here, he sent me back to the lake. There, for the first time in my life, I voted, my choice was Jarek Kaczynski, somehow I like his character better. I went to church, although I hesitated to see if I could go buy something (I wanted peanuts). But I did go, I was in the field, on the right side outside I saw papa with Darek
After returning from church, Jack popped in and I hypnotized him again. However, I was not prepared to suggest a painting, so I improvised. Jacek did not see the picture, but he saw it with his imagination. I have been asking a lot of subconscious questions, I do not remember exactly. I promised my subconscious that I would prepare myself thoroughly for today to evoke the images. The eyes, the position of the head, the subconscious mind said that there was a possibility of imaging, Jack, however, saw everything with his imagination, but at least more and more accurately. The subconscious also said that there was a possibility of imaging, but it was unable to speak through Jack's mouth, which she also said on her hand. The hypnosis lasted one hour and 10 minutes. In the meantime, my mother, who came to take the keys, interrupted, Jacek stood up and we started from the beginning.
After parting ways, we met with Arek. I called him, he had previously called me, but I turned off my cell phone during the screening. We talked in the basement, smoked a pipe, talked about what happened at the construction site, a song without end, and how today you make love after a long time with your girlfriend, with whom he had no contact for a whole week. After a long conversation, I escorted him (PS I had taken the garbage earlier and on my way back I met Arek with David at the bridge). I took him to the chapel, we talked, Arek also said (it's still in the basement) that he doesn't like philosophers (I think he meant me). At the chapel, during the parting, we also met a salty team: Marka, Jakna, and some third guest. They were drunk. I went home, from my mom downstairs I took the keys upstairs, I uploaded the files to the hamster, I came back, I changed and went to sleep.
Now, the next day I am writing this report. It's 12:53
PS Mom has started a beauty course since today. Must go to the new market 5 hours a day
sobota, 3 lipca 2010
I am a hypnotist
Today is Saturday, I set my alarm clock to 9:00. A few minutes earlier, however, my dad woke me up with words, so that I would go upstairs now if I want to use the Internet. However, I preferred to sleep a little more. I got up very early after 10. I killed some ant that was walking after me. I went upstairs, it turned out that the worker Rafa� only smeared the parents' room and it was still possible to get to my room. I ate some breakfast, went upstairs (which I already mentioned). There was a problem with my mother, she wanted to go to the river and had to leave me the keys, but there were no keys. I went to my dad, it turned out he had the keys. I went to exercise, today it was the back, my mother still went downstairs and whined to inform dad and david about my stay in the basement. I said that I don't feel like chasing so much. Earlier, she asked me to take the cubes from the freezer in my room for tomorrow. I brought them all to my mother so that she would separate it - somehow I couldn't cope.
After training, a cocktail, Friday bread and I wanted to go to the river. I thought to leave my daddy the keys, but he wasn't supposed to leave for half an hour and mom would stay by the river without the keys. Ultimately, however, he was supposed to bring the keys to me to the river, but I think he gave them to my mother - because it was definitely not to me. I was still looking for a towel to sunbathe. Dad suggested that I take his blanket from the trunk. By the way, I also took his damaged glasses. Dad gave them to me, said I could take them or even throw them away because he bought a new one for night riding.
There were some people by the river, I listened to some music from Valentine's Day, then chapter 8 and beginning of chapter 9 of this girl with schizophrenia. It was about how she wanted to commit suicide, how she was tied on a leash so she could go for walks. It was humiliating. She also mentioned the doctor who apologized to her and the policemen who treated her with such kindness, but it was mainly about how people use their authority to humiliate other people. One nurse was fit and let her walk without a leash, but warned that if she wanted to run away, he would catch up with her. I was also sunbathing while walking on the river, to make it more sunburned, I also took an hour old man, he did not answer by showing me his watch. He had no sympathetic expression, although I did show a smile. After yesterday's approach to the girls I feel much more confident.
I went home, ate a tomato and a second egg with cauliflower. In the beginning, it was on television about the tallest man in the world who had a tumor in his brain, but somehow miraculously the tumor disappeared. The guy was huge and he had great hands. I think he was Russian, because the names of the places were signed in Cyrillic. Then there was a match. David made a comical situation by accidentally overturning the mattress for dinner. We laughed :) Play Argentina-Germany. The Germans dominated, and I am their supporter. They won 4: 0, they scored the first goal about 3 minutes, the rest in the second part of the second half. The Argentines were crying, no wonder their coach, maradona, was once a great footballer, but now he failed to lead the team to victory. However, he himself says that he may not be able to train, but there is an amazing family atmosphere in his team. I'm glad the Germans won. Between 1 and 2 half there was a break for a super expedition, as usual about the elections, unless I vote for Kaczynski.
Jacek came by at 6:00 p.m., but I reminded him that we had agreed to 7:00 p.m. Dad said that I could connect the router upstairs for a while, it turned out that he lied and said that we can only walk on Monday morning. He was walking himself, the mortar was ready, well almost, but it was long to walk. We connected the router and sat for a while on the internet downloading regression scripts for jack.
Before 7 pm I waited on the bridge for Jacek, but earlier Przemek and M�odi came by. They're starting to piss me off !!! I ask without asking, I made it clear that we didn't have an appointment and I'm set for today. They made fun of Jack a bit, I took him to my place, the sneaker was surprised that I made an appointment with such a friend. When will I go!
I tried to put Jack into a trance, first suggesting sticky eyes, he didn't work, so I got him out of the trance (to be sure, although he was already conscious). Then I put him into a trance again, but this time standing. The hand raised a little better than yesterday, although not so much. Just like yesterday, I introduced myself into a trance by blinking my eyes and then relaxing the whole body using the autogenous method. Unfortunately, the regression failed, but I spoke to his subconscious afterwards. He is not sufficiently introduced into deep trance by the relation of the results. I felt great that my hypnosis was getting better and better. As it came out after hypnosis, Jacek said that the subconscious still wanted to talk to me, even though his consciousness said otherwise. I also think that Jack is fidgeting too much, which may make it a bit difficult to put you in a trance. I offered to bring a deckchair tomorrow to make it more comfortable. Then I talked to the mess about the importance of the voice in communication, body language, cults and psycho-manipulation - a friendship so great that it is greater than love for a girl. Jack and I broke up.
At home in the evening I watched an interesting movie - derailed. The guy met a woman on the train, paid for his ticket, had an affair, and then they were extorting money from him. And they did the same with the next one. He got the money back by accidentally killing everyone on their next bounce. One survivor met in prison. He killed him too. Perfect movie for the evening
I feel like a better and more self-confident hypnotist. I liked it very much. Jacek agreed to do screenings with him every day at a similar time.
Today I wrote to you, for the first time in a long time.
piątek, 2 lipca 2010
Receipt of Certificates
The alarm clock woke me up at 9:30 am but I fell a little more. And as always, I would get up around 11, I was home alone, I came upstairs to help my dad, he also encouraged me to go for the final exams. I went to school. On the way, I listened to BadBoy and learned some new things:
Do not ask more than 2 questions in a row - you have to start talking after that, try to have feelings with the woman (have at least 5-7 reports during the conversation, not only 1 topic) To lead a relationship but also to be democratic (choose a place and a day, she and an hour), an example with a dog that is pooping on the couch - how to know that he can't, experiment with monkeys and a banana, Kiss drowns out logic Say what's up instead of hello.
Entering the school around, I met Schmit, good morning, what's up - he replied. I said that I came for high school graduation and went up. I was stopped by the deputy director, he asked if I had received the certificates: we went to his office and looked for certificates for a few minutes, then I went to the secretary's office to get the results. The deputy headmaster entered again, giving my testimony (I had left it with him by accident, I had my own briefcase with me). I also asked about the problem with the specialization on the certificate - the secretary replied that it did not matter - the professional paper I received in August counts. I went towards the minibuses, the deputy director was just leaving. I still trumpeted by the road, I turned, and a little further turned to the side. I drove Grandpa (his son) and listened to badboy too.
When I arrived crossing the square, there were 2 girls, I think so, maybe it's time to start building communication. Closer to them, I gathered up my courage: Sorry, do you have a watch? (I could exchange the word sorry for hey girls - the rule not to apologize). The girls were smiling - one of them took a cell phone out of her purse and said: 14. - Thanks. And I went on. I was a little nervous, but not that much. In addition, I had a watch on my hand, only today I stood :) I wanted to try again with the old lady who I met further, but I did not
PS I went to buses earlier, when I was leaving Rabka, I met my friends from the gym. I greeted them, I felt a little different, there were more of them.
At home, I ate Dinner, I went to help my dad. I also carried the TV upstairs for my dad to test.
PS In the morning, my dad was hanging around with this blond man - he wanted money, dad said that he had an appointment for Saturday, and if he gives him now, he will drink it all. Mom also met him by the river.
I watched the Brazil - Netherlands match, initially Brazil won 1-0, but later lost 2-1. It is a pity that Ronaldo is not playing anymore, I was for Brazil with my heart, although the Netherlands is playing aggressively and it could be an interesting match.
After 6 p.m. Jack came. I said come on 19 because dad needed me. As it turned out, my dad wanted me to say I would be needed at 7pm, so I followed Jack. He was on a bench with the kids, I invited him to my cellar. There were also problems with the chair, previously I gave the last good chair from the basement. I took my mother's deckchair from the ground floor, they are dusty on the beds. Jack's position was comfortable. I hypnotized him with 2 methods - one blink about which I read yesterday, then I deepened the relaxation with the autogenous method. The hand went up, but the suggestion to forget the numbers was not made. For tomorrow we made an appointment with Jack to suggest glued eyes and regression.
After 7 p.m., I helped my dad to ground the floors. David is helping too. At one end, Dawid tried to get out of the job for me to complete it. Cwaniak, dad, fortunately, this time reacted to this trick. We finished, went down and write this diary
czwartek, 1 lipca 2010
Jack's hypnosis
Today I woke up exceptionally exhausted. I had a problem with falling asleep, I was thrilled by yesterday's Arak Jadzi. Whore! I even imagined a counterattack situation. I got up, I wanted to eat a nutritious breakfast, but there was nothing in Aunt Jasia's glacier, so I ate Nutella with David. There was also a sandwich with egg paste, or rather a half roll. Then we went to help my dad, I helped, Dawid sat at the computer. The blonde laborer has not come to work again today. I mentioned to my dad that I would like to go to the gym, he was pissed that I was pointing my fingers at David - he said he didn't like something like that. I replied, sure, I work, give no and still blame me. After lifting the carpet, retrieving the rubble bag, he allowed me to go to exercise. Today there was a chest with shoulders, I exercised the shoulders in the fall of the back.
Cocktail after training, Dinner, old ros. I talked overnight with the guy from Olanzapine and the tram. It turned out that he had benzo, but never olanzapine. And ... I wrote back a text message from Anita in the morning, she also wrote back quickly. I would like to finally meet her. I also had to jump to the store earlier to buy a top-up for PLN 5
My mother and I took the desk, I wanted to put it in the corridor, my mother insisted on taking up unnecessary space inside. I also broke the puree in the refrigerator, slipped off, I wanted to eat ketchup. I bought a new one, but it was rotten afterwards. And somehow the day passed, today I did not download anything, I did not want to. My mother and I watched, Guillotine, the password was: a lamp, my mother guessed.
After 6 p.m. we met Jack for hypnosis. Earlier I met him on my way back from the store. We confirmed our meeting and tomorrow we made an appointment again at 18. I put Jacek into a trance, loosening every part of his body, he fidgeted a little, which made it a bit more difficult. But the hand rose, half said consciously. He doesn't know whether he did it consciously or subconsciously, but I felt confident and believed in my abilities. I also supported my laptop, I was supposed to run into tomorrow to print, but somehow I ran out of valuable time. Then the man and the young man came, we practiced, talked and went our separate ways.
Now I was reading the hypnosis course that Luke had bought. Interesting articles and simple methods. I'm going to test one tomorrow on jack. I would also like to deepen the state of hypnosis. I also watched an interesting Polish film at Dw�jka with Andrzej Grabowski and other Polish actors. Lots of action, shooting, mafia, great. There was also a lousy grandmother. Now I was watching dr. Hausa
Krzysiek also wrote to me, he mentioned an interesting dream with me, he has to tell me on Sunday. I mentioned the success with Jacek.
PS
Dr. hause has great dialogues, I think I'm going to download the series from the internet and start watching. I have also prepared a sheet for printing with induction. Today I felt exceptionally confident
Ps2
I also learned about REFA from the course. The best hours for trance. It would be best to hypnotize around 15 and 19
środa, 30 czerwca 2010
Attack
Today I am writing my diary much earlier, and this is because a certain situation pained me. It's around 18.
From the beginning of the day: Wake up at 11am, at 12 o'clock my dad and I were going to Nowy Targ, they filled out the forms for ZUSU. Before noon we watched a teleaudio program on TVN. It was necessary to invent an animal for S. I suggested that Salamander call. As it turned out after returning home - my mother called and received a message - all lines are busy. Although the cost per call has not changed, you pay once. Then it was necessary to enter the first name with the letter U - indifferent where. We went to Nowy Targ, listened to music from Omnia on the way, we drove to Zus. I went to the bathroom and dad quickly gave the papers in the registration window. Then we went for some tiles. Here I listened to the entire first part of BadBoy - write the conclusions in the evening because now I do not remember them, and certainly not all of them. In the meantime, I was sunbathing. There was a nice pool. Then we went to Castorama, David turned on the air conditioning, but we were here for about 5-10 minutes.
Ok, I mention what I remember: a guy should be unpredictable, lead a relationship, he must feel relaxed himself so that the girl is also, the girl shows feelings non-verbally - NOT in words. In the meantime, I jumped on the phone and rewrote everything from today's science.
We drove to the store. Dad gave us money for dinner, there was a discussion of what to buy. I went to Jaga to buy a devolay and a shake, Dawid bought Jaga pizzas. Then we went to the store. On the way I bought some gum at a kiosk. I was also looking for Cola zero, finally I bought Pepsi on the curve. my stomach crumpled. We went to the store. He was the guy who extracted 5 zlotys from me. He tried to ask dad separately: boss for a while. On entering, he said that he would buy shoes here tomorrow. He walked away with nothing. I could tell Ripost� - Caritas around the corner.
Finally get to the point. Jadzia attacked me mentally. She asked me how my final exams went - I don't know, I didn't even look. She in a sharp voice: what - do you want to impress me? This is your future. I said nothing, still staring at her - the least I could do. I tried to keep a smile on my face, but that was a mistake.
At least I could have said: what do you care? And you want to impress me by touching me, hugging me? You are after school and you work here for a paltry PLN 800. Oh ... that would be a good retort. I should also be speaking with a sharper voice. I wanted to complain :(
I could also ask: what do you mean? that would probably be a better retort. Then: I don't understand what you are talking about. And finally the famous: Think better about yourself.
We drove quietly home. I was leaning against the large black car in front of the store. Jadzia said she likes Subaru Party. David was leading, we went to the techbud, but it was already after 5pm and closed. At home I watched the guillotine program, after the program I started to write today's report. I also talked to the bowl on the gg: he passed his final exams. Helmet - also a cousin away. And finally, I also dealt :) computer science solution. 80%, I hope there will be enough for a polytechnic. Comforting message. Walking down the corridor I felt a great aggression. Write the rest later, the day is not over yet :)
Write again. I wrote to Anita - she did not say so yet. I would love to meet her. I talked to Weronika Wabik, but even in the afternoon. In the morning, the arek called that he did not pass his high school exams. I checked my results - I passed. IT 40%, it remains to believe that I can get somewhere. Mum and dad happy, I was supposed to write to my grandfather, but so far I haven't done it. I talked to Beat� - she explained that yesterday's news had come, she wrote me his cousin's data. Tomorrow is fitting
Jacek Gabis fell in: I told him a lot about hypnosis and our little successes. We made an appointment with him tomorrow at 18:00, I hope he won't come. I also asked him to search for pages on lightsaber fighting (in English). I talked with Esther - we were dating the seaside or Masuria, and with the Poet Lukasz - he thought that the ester blocked him, because he has an unusual icon on his face.
Anita wrote back a few minutes ago - it is bad, she is after a suicide attempt. Just write her back, I'm worried about her.
PS
I also talked to Tomek Glowacki - he explained a lot to me about my studies
The tram guy also wrote today, he said that you can combine it with olanzapine, but you have to proportion properly. I gave him a gg, I hope he will speak up
wtorek, 29 czerwca 2010
New flat
Today I learned 2 important new things in life and it was an interesting story.
I woke up after 11 in a new apartment. During this time, my mother was rummaging around the room, I was lying. Today I was awake to sleep. I got up alone, ate broad beans for breakfast, I was looking for also peanuts that were bought cheap yesterday. As it turned out later - he took them to the heart, thinking that he was on the road. He was really just going to treat himself. Then I went up. Mom and Dad were discussing something with the worker in the kitchen. I went to the gym before taking a termline pill. At the gym, I let go of my dad, exercised my back. After silce, I ate a Friday of bread and a cocktail, but it was up. My mother also asked me to bring some cream. I was away for a while, she joked that I must be doing this cream :)
Then I went to the river - the same place as always. There was an Oskar from a friend and a group of people. I listened to Schizophrenia, I got to Episode 8 and Undera. I learned a new thing: during the stories, say what you feel: example with mouth-to-mouth breathing :) I was also interested in one thing in the book about systophrenia: The nurse asked the patient to take medication - he had financial problems, and this would have an impact on his reputation. The patient agreed because she liked the nurse very much. She helped him, when we like someone, we want to help him with all our hearts. I got sunburned, finishing Oskar with my friend, and they were chasing the roots on time.
I came back home, ate a cold dinner - it was very good (potatoes, pork pie). I was also in the basement writing an affirmation - today finally Maria performs the 2nd ritual. In the meantime, I was home to get cards, left in my apartment and had to fly again. On the way, I met my dad, he went down with me, but later he posed no threat. I was also in the store for a lighter - it cost 60gr. After the affirmation was finished, I put the page away, I also listened to the music a little in solitude. I came back, drank milk or rather 2.5 glasses of cocoa (cold of course). And the rest of the day somehow flew away.
I was only temporarily at the computer, downloaded Batko Hypnosis, sent files to the hamster. I made a clean birthday greetings to patrycja, talked to Esther about tetris, as usual I played a little tetris. I'm getting better and better. I recently burned a card with affirmations - discovered a way to make it burn well. Now Dawid was with me in my apartment as well, it turns out that I have closed the house. Mum's probably washing or she's already finished. Go to sleep early today, it's 22.
PS Matthew called me today, by the river, and later again. I was supposed to check information about Netia for him
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