niedziela, 2 grudnia 2012
HydroPost
In the morning, toxins after DX, a short hydropost for dinner, rubbing the floor, a lot of herbs, reading more mantaka, Manchester - Letter, drHouse father's son in a coma
1 day HydroPost
Mr.WPark
December 2 - Ladies in the Park
A day written on time.
I did not write, but for several days my left knee hurts - like a kneecap.
Workout at home in the morning. In the afternoon I went to the park to breathe diaphragmically. I met some ladies who asked me about this breathing. Older people value their health very much.
I continued reading the mantaka chia.
I watched the film materials of the Academy of Natural Therapies. They are quite encouraging
sobota, 1 grudnia 2012
Today DXM
2 dreams - the first when I was here in the room and woke up dad the second related to MYSQL and hacking. Unfortunately, I do not remember Snow exactly.
Today: I wanted to do my CV but quickly got discouraged.
I made my decision impulsively and today I will take DXM. We'll see what comes out of it.
In the morning I woke up with high pressure and was terribly sleepy. Bad body position contributed to this the late notion of sleep. I settled into a sitting position and was breathing deeply. I passed quickly.
I don't think anything special happened during the day. My mom and I had a fight about the broken mouse. I hate when he uses the words: Don't be nervous. Tomorrow he gets up early in the morning and leaves.
Now I managed not to take the evening psychotropic pills, of course. I brewed herbs, Andrographis, I have batteries, relaniums, good music. There will be an ester. It promises to be great :)
01:51 Time Trip Report:
Based on a skype conversation around 10:53 pm I went to sleep. I did not fall asleep. There was tension in the lumbar spine. It seems to me that there is a hole in the mattress so it got really soft. It will have to be transferred to the other side.
Overall trip report I would describe as follows: after 15 tablets dxm I felt a momentary euphoria, quite intense and pleasant. However, there was no euphoria while listening to Assemblage 23 lying in bed, but I felt the pleasure of listening to Polish Radio London music.
About 00:38 I wrote to Esther. They were after less than 2 hours. I didn't sleep quickly. The organism is slightly disheveled and muddy, the balance is disturbed, the nervous system is relaxed as after alcohol, but I do not feel very muddy. It's ok :) I drank 3 cups of herbal cleansing composition, then I took NAC, I urinated a few times. The urine, interestingly, was almost white. I feel that the toxins are still inside me. I also drank first-class grapefruit juice. I don't feel like sleeping.
When communicating with my body, I feel energy and to do something about the lower spine that feels heavy. I dream of an exercise on a bench in the park, I will do it in the morning during training. And I will sleep on my stomach because the mattress is too soft.
PS the body after dxm is soft like jelly. It is as if chlamydia is getting under the capillaries. I have not felt this for a long time. Maybe DXM is a breeding ground for bacteria. But it is not as tragic as last December. I'll get out of this quickly. Mom leaves in the morning, she will use a starvation :)
piątek, 30 listopada 2012
Dentist
November 29 - Thursday - Dentist
Today is written with a delay of 25 minutes. Just like the good old days at my grandfather :)
In the morning I measured the circumference - decline in form. Less than 38 cm in the bicep, barely a centimeter showed it. I got up with weird stools too. I guess the effect of my gluttony at night was yellow cheese with bananas.
Training in the open air. I trained there where I once met Patrick who developed a new technique of pulling up on a stick. Unfortunately, these bars were not completely suitable for pull-ups or forearm exercises - I didn't feel any muscles at all. But at least I chose something new :)
Throughout the day, I was able to avoid taking psychotropic drugs at all. I was proud of myself and I did it :)
Today I was at the dentist, hence the title of my diary / report. At the beginning, I told Tom Glab why he was giving a pillow. He understood me, he told how he fell on the spine himself. He fixed my tooth and told me to make an appointment with him after the new year. I was calm and composed, and I bravely endured all the drills and screams. I was not afraid of pain, I wanted even without anesthesia.
I had a great urge to take DXM spontaneously today. However, I was looking for in 4 DXM pharmacies. I bought my mother a nettle near the spa, it was renovated at Poniatowski, I bought only tetanic spirit near Gazda because they did not have acodine. I bought a dopoero near Albert. Going this far, I was afraid to ask for a pharmacy under the Star, where I have not given a prescription for Cipronex so far.
I studied MySQL today. I took notes in the notebook. He will then copy them into his notebook. I also learned the basics of attacks on MySQL Injection servers in the evening.
I really wanted to find some brilliant way to earn money again. That mania again. I was on earn.com - unfortunately, again a crowd of thoughts, a billion ideas and no desire to implement.
In the morning at 5:00 am I practiced the Cheat Engine program, but I quickly got discouraged. I added hacking, dangerous, uw-team, earn.com to my favorites.
A moment ago I also watched the Pimp My CV course. This is probably the first part of the course. Just notes and sleep.
środa, 28 listopada 2012
Psychotronics
A day written on time. In the morning I finally had a dream and there was something to drink in my previous post. I will not repeat myself here. Mom got up at 4:30 in the morning today. She went with her grandfather from Morczyna to Krakow to visit the copernicus.
During the morning jog, a dog accosted me, but did not hurt me.
I found a ICT hamster. Lots of interesting knowledge about computers. Computers, hacking, hacking and scripting started to make me happy again. When I came back from running, I even wrote one own script to translate words from google translate mobile. I was proud of myself and I enjoyed it. However, I lacked the coloring properties.
I read a bit of one chapter from the Hacker Vademecum. Overall the title sounds great Hacker's Vademecum, but I am disappointed to say that the book sucks. Little knowledge, little details. Lots of text. I couldn't turn it into a negative number in the calculator, I had to use the program prepared by the author.
Today I read on about creativity. I am stuck in the memory of the fragment about the diary. According to osho, it does not create anything new, it only saves. I understood it so and I have to introduce something new to my diary - create!
Today I had a stomach ache after lunch. I knew it was due to the extermination process. Reflexively, I felt a desire for andrografis and bitter grain coffee.
In the afternoon I was excited at home - unexpectedly pissed mom came in. I put my pants on quickly :)
I got the message from Mirriel. It's just that I will not write. However, I went on to read this: weird, feel sorry for these esoteric tricks! I hate this.
I found a cool ICT hamster. I downloaded a few books like Hacking the Art of Penetration and Hack Wars on the Trail of Hackers.
I wonder what the dream will be tonight :)
DrSebastianowicz
Wake up 5:00 a little sleepy, no conscious sleep, bitters, an appointment with Dr. Sebastian, the busier's insult to himself and I did not answer him, eating two sandwiches and a multivitamin juice in the hospital, going to Marta Tomalczyk, installing Marta Huda's office, -team MySQL support
I woke up at 5:00 am slightly sleepy. Unfortunately, I was not aware of my dreams, so I did not write anything to my diary.
Today I was neither training nor running. About 10 am I went to Pierzga. She wanted to refer me to Dr Sebastianowicz - an orthopedist. She wrote out a referral, so I went to the clinic, unfortunately the lines to Dr. Sebastianowicz were closed until next year. Only Dr. Wolski could see me on Friday.
I ate 2 sandwiches in Nowy Targ. Being at home, I asked my mother not to give me soup. Such a dinner was great for me. Perfect portion, I didn't feel overeating.
On his return, the bus driver insulted me when changing to another bus. I was not offended by this, but only felt sorry for myself and could not answer him anything. I am a former master of a cut retort, I cannot express myself ... Fuck. !!! Fucking psychotropics !!!
Today I installed Microsoft Officer 2007 by Marta Huda. I also went to Marta to help her with speakers, unfortunately I did not help. Returning, she called and told her to solve the problem herself.
What I learned today: I lost the power of a sharp retort ... :( Fucking psychotropics!
wtorek, 27 listopada 2012
Today (2)
jogging at night. Lending Łukasz a book for taichi and talking to him under a sling. Aunt Krysia's emails. You will begin reading Hacker's Vademecum
Yesterday's day: Monday, November 26 written with a one-day delay
I woke up exceptionally well between 5:00 and 6:00 am. During this time I was sitting in front of the computer. At 8:30 I went to Rafal Pawlik. Actually, I missed a few minutes - he was used to always coming early, and then suddenly a few minutes late.
He told me about my pension and talked about it with Dr. Prochyra. Doctor prochyra said that everyone may have a psychotic episode in their life and the diagnosis is still ongoing and this does not mean that this is the final diagnosis. He proposed to leave this mess that I should go to Zus and admit that I had never had schizophrenia. Get a psychiatrist's paper confirming that I am not mentally disturbed. Unfortunately, I would have to return my entire pension for all years. Rafal suggested that I should do it only when I go straight.
As I once thought about it, I had a much different idea. Reversal of the diagnosis of sciophrenia and retrieval from another title.
Besides, we talked about my feelings. He was surprised that I didn't feel the stress of Dr. Prochyra. He asked what he feels: when he feels fear, stress. I said that only at home I feel fear and stress - so I don't feel fear or stress on a daily basis, apart from my home now.
While in the store, I met Dr. Gabis. At first I looked away from him in fear, but I thought - I was supposed to do at least one activity a day that I was afraid of. So as part of training and shaping my own character, I went to Dr. Gabis next to him and stood next to him in the line. So I think now that I could still say nicely good :)
About 17 I met with Łukasz Lopata under the drazkiem. We talked for a while. I lent him a TaiChi book. In the morning I also started reading Hacker's Vademecum. So far I remembered number systems and how to create negative numbers.
We got several emails from Ciocia Krysia. My mother and I looked at the news.
I am still on "celibacy" :) I feel an amazing surge of energy which I felt during the evening jogging :) Thanks to this, I fell asleep elegantly on my back at night and woke up like that.
I had a rather realistic dream that I finally write down in my diary. I remember there were 3 dreams one after the other, but I only remember this third part. In the third part, I had a silencer pistol. I was at the same time, but everything was a bit different. He fell into the river, I went to the river to get him out. Being in the river, someone drained the water into a trough and flooded me. I was a little afraid. Finally, some other dream than the doctors :)
What I learned that day: I overcame my fear of Gabis. I am celibate :)
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