I conquered the fear

January 14 - I Defeated Fear Dream: I was dreaming about Japanese knotweed. I had a drink on Liszka and Jurek Wolf. Jurek shouted: you are sitting, you will dig the mucus ... Should I return to the Rdest? That day I woke up at 3:00 a.m. well rested. Maybe it is the effect of using the recordings of the synchronization of the cerebral fields. I got up, wrote down the dream and did the wake up, a little longer than 15 minutes, over 20. I was playing tetris nicely then. I went back to sleep playing the recording of the synchronization of the cerebral fields. Unfortunately, I did not fall asleep for a minute. I think I slept so well the night that I felt no need for more sleep. Unfortunately, I also felt the cold - but it is probably worth closing the window and revealing the towel to make it warmer in the room. But I'm glad that at least I started :) 8:00 training, I exercised exceptionally without water and a thermos. David took him to Germany yesterday. I felt a little stress related to today's visit to Kalemba, which was partially unloaded during the exercises. I came home, I made a mistake, ate - it was probably 10:30 then and it was 11:00 a.m. which made my stress a bit worse. When I left the house - loads of cortisol in my blood - stress. I'm going to kalemba, stress like hell. Cortisol or adrenaline, anyway paralyzing stress. And then this: I started RUNNING! While running, I was breathing deeply - which relieved the stress perfectly. When I got to the clinic, I was a few minutes before 11:00 Kalemba called me, I was only a little afraid. I entered as some scared Pussy, but I did not let it know after myself. I had my cynical smirks on me, but I couldn't summon the courage to talk to Dr. Kalemba. Today I was thinking about taking a tram, but somehow I managed without it. Kalemba was a bit stuck that he didn't have to write me out. I have to convince him that it hurts me. He ordered an EKG and some blood tests. He also ordered photos to be delivered. As if I should be up. He was at fault, and I was afraid ... In any case, when I left I felt great satisfaction and it worked :) I summoned up my courage. I went to the hospital to get an EKG, I was in the blood collection center, an old lady patient hacked me downstairs in the hospital. There I talked to some doctor, he directed me to the door with the trauma. I knocked - I broke my fear again and was proud of myself. Nobody opened it, so I went to Ziemianski. At Ziemianski, I was told that the cost is PLN 20 and I do not respect the clinic. Back to the clinic. I missed dr. Gabis, but I was afraid to meet him, so I avoided him. I asked the Lady again in the window where the EKG is. This time I was explaining to myself: after all, for her it is a daily job to listen to the moans and complaints of patients. They are already bored with it and used to it. I also just observed how the patients communicate with the staff. They tell long, complicated stories - and here they would like to hear something briefly and to the point. I missed a certain blonde lady, although I should be alone, but I had no regret or grudge against her. Well, maybe 1% was stuck there somewhere, but at least I heard her communicating with the staff. It was my turn, the Lady referred me to office number 3, where blood is also collected. There was one guy in front of me and it was finally my turn. The examination was quick: in the position of the electrode to the legs, and the cancer, and something to the heart. Then she measured my pressure. It came out 150. So I wonder why Kalemba ordered me a rather expensive EKG test. Maybe he has suspicions that the spine may radiate to my heart, or he wants to check my performance. Or maybe it is required for a spa treatment? Who knows... I left, I was already walking towards the house, when it reminded me that I still need to register for tomorrow. I did so too. I was a bit stupid again, I was scared, because in the EKG I told you that I was registered tomorrow. But again I said to myself: conquer your fear. I did great and I was proud of myself again :) I went, I had a great desire to run again. Oh, I will add that being in the clinic I was very relaxed. I think it was thanks to this run before - I unloaded my nervous tensions. I was running in the park, I reached the pharmacy under the carefour, but there was a terrible queue. Before I ran there, however, I was running along the river. The weather was beautiful. There were two dogs, one on a leash and one behind the fence. And again with pride I overcame my fear and ran with them :) Then I ran to my father's trusted pharmacy and bought a urine container there. I was also in this petty store wanting to buy a calendar and a glass of scented lamps. I met Rafal Pawlik's wife with children. There was no calendar, so I went to Manhattan to the traffic kiosk and there I bought a calendar with flowers for 9 PLN. Earlier, I also asked about the calendar in Photographic, they said that they can print from the photos. He cost as much as PLN 47, but I did not have the courage to say that it was a bit too much for me. I was stupid and I like it - although I did like these calendars, I did not take the courage to buy it anymore. I was also at the cemetery. I bought candles. They had a red plastic shell that could also be used for scented lamps. Uncle Kazek and Sebastian were at the house to visit. Sebastian said that he was finally gaining weight, uncle Kazek talked about his hard life when he was making some extra money. As a young kid, he rode his bike to the seaside. Hahaha: D We made an appointment to go cross-country skiing on Sunday. I do not know if I was assertive, on the one hand I wanted to do something new, on the other hand I am a bit worried about my joints and feet. I ate dinner with soup. Feeling guilty and ate so much ... My stomach felt it. Then I was on the 15th day to make an appointment with Łukasz. I needed an XP disc. It's terrible to go there, I didn't want to, but I made a commitment. I wanted to go fast, he shared his views on food and exercise. He motivated me to talk about some guy who used InTuFlow to rehabilitate the spine and straighten it. Maybe now I start spending some time watching this video on youtube. I went home, exercised my legs and stomach. I wanted to read, but I practiced. The time flew by when I finished, because it was between 17-18. I remembered that I still have to send a lottery coupon, I went to Wick, but this time calmly and did not listen to the music. I moved slowly - I was after training. I went to Manhattan, there I hesitated to enter the casino - I overcame my fear again and went in. It wasn't that bad, the guy referred me to carefour. There, I still kept the lottery ticket and returned home. It was terribly cold in the field. I tested meditations, or rather a self-hypnotic recording of Adam Boduf. It made me sleepy. I also watched the fight vegeta vs goku first time kamehameha. This music made me drive, it gave me adrenaline. I'm too tired after today, so I'm going to wash up and sleep right away. I will test the recordings in bed, learning to meditate again. What I learned today: I overcame my fear!

Predicting the Future

January 13 - Predicting the future Morning 5:00 AM. For that night, I tested the recording of 4 hours of sleep in 40 minutes. I woke up at 5 rest, but whether this is the intended effect that this recording was supposed to give me - it's hard to say. However, the tape is very pleasant to listen to. Morning jogging, then sit in front of the PC and read books. I tested Adam Bytof's exercise to stimulate the right cerebral hemisphere. It consisted in describing as many uses of a given item as possible. I chose Notebook as my subject. I have described 50-60 different and interesting applications: D. Today I read the dreams of winners and the art of getting rich. At 7 pm I was hypnotizing adrian. I released future prediction inductions. I installed him a program to predict the future. There were pictures. The numbers are 6, 14, 12, 18, 23, 2. I wonder if it will work: D To make sure it works, we have predicted the future of today 22:05 what the TV program will be. He said that a bit as if it were correct and it was a great success!

Radical Affirmations

January 12 - Radical Affirmations Yesterday was written with a delay. I got up late, at 6:00 am. 8:00 I went to exercise. Somehow it was during this period that I had the idea to write an Affirmation. I did this in my old red notebook. They are beautiful, they turn me on and I like them very much. eg: I love my spine. It is straightened by my stubbornness and strength of determination Or: I live for free in my lovely 30-45m2 apartment from Donata Bargie�. I read only one book that day: Radical Forgiveness and I exercised half of Adam Bytof's books - The Winning Dreams. The problem was caused by removing the password from this file. Some program was successful, but it's a trial version and unfortunately I had access to the first 50 pages and that's all I read. In winning dreams, 3 exercises to stimulate the right hemisphere of the brain were interesting for me. In addition, I downloaded 2 recordings from the store: one is 4 hours of sleep in 40 minutes, the other is to achieve the oobe state. I began to test the Rzhen-Chen alone as a remedy for my disease. I had a hypnosis appointment with Adrian Green at 8 pm. Earlier he admitted to me around 12:00 and he feels unloved and has complexes about his own personality. I thought that day quickly, even lightning fast to the floor. In the evening, my mother cried that Mrs. Beatka's husband had died. I tested the first one that night with the African dream root. I woke up well rested at 5:00 am, but is this what I expected? The video is highly praised as opposed to the recording of the oobe achievements. Today I had a dream with Patryk Kocaj, we talked about the gym What I learned today: exercises to stimulate the right cerebral hemispheres.

Meditation Test

January 11 - Meditation Test Yesterday was written with a delay. Wake up at 3:00, read books. Around 6:00 am I went for a run. It was dark and cold, I was a little scared, but the music from the Krakow radio gave me courage and encouragement. She was perfect for this climate. I was running in this square between the post office and the monument to the paper. In the afternoon, between 12-14, I slept, or rather lay on my stomach in such lethargy. Probably not enough sleep. The position was perfect, although I didn't sleep, I regenerated my strength a little. On the negative side, however, I made a hole in the mattress and my lumbar spine feels a bit like this after tonight. I lowered the laptop table one step. Better to read, the position is more comfortable for the spine, even now when I'm standing and writing it's pretty cool. I did something new, I met a new slaughter. I read the Phoenix Rebirth yesterday, 52 effective psycho tips, and started reading radical forgiveness. Somewhere in my subconscious I set myself a goal to learn and read at least 3 interesting books a day. An ambitious goal, although if I had set a smaller goal - 2 books a day - it would have been more realistic. I will try to say: I read two books a day! About 17 I tested meditations from Angel Elavi. Running and exercising released my tensions in my muscles and mind. It worked like active meditation. Osho argued that active meditation is like adjusting the strings of an instrument to make it sound better. I fully agree with him! I was at peace, breathing finally became silent. I wrote down how I achieved it: - Well dressed and nicely dressed - Youtube Relax Music (meditation is boring without music) - Fragrance lamp - Low seat - Stuck in motionless CSS (previously useful running) - Diaphragm breathing a few minutes - Third Eye I tested the root of dreams for the night. I brewed it, but I haven't seen it melt unfortunately. I ate it too. Whether it worked - I don't know. Today I'll try to eat it without brewing it. Dreams I had were: driving a car with Szymek and Dawid. Szymon had some troubles and was about to be transferred to another prison and wanted to stay with his prison. I told him he had a powerful weapon, and that was Meditation! I will meditate to stay with my prison. I also made some affirmations in my mind, unless: Brother, you feel insecure. It was like a signal to me: not true, I will show him that I can meditate. Hehe. And I felt incredible self-confidence in my dream and I will be able to meditate. The next dreams were: I was a soldier and shot down by mannequins / robots. They were armed in several places: knees, head, etc. I aimed at these places so that they wouldn't shoot at me. In the morning I woke up with a tension in my lumbar spine and a daze from radiation from my mobile phone at 6:00 am. I slept for a long time, but I am glad to meet two other factors that are harmful to health: holes in the mattress and how harmful the radiation of electromagnetic waves is. What I learned today: meditation, radiation is harmful and holes in the bed. I also learned about the psychological advice and techniques of the rebirth of the phoenix.

ManiaReading

Dream: I dreamed that I bounce endlessly. I woke up with horror, and then still felt like a shock in my brain. I was wondering what it resulted from: Radio plus music, radiation waves? I do not know... January 10 - Reading Mania Morning practice, I also finished reading the Magic Journey book and I felt like having another one. The training was great, I went home and ate a light meal, only two slices of tomato and cucumber. I felt a little hungry and felt great about it. I was sitting at home, somehow before dinner my mum and dad went to see my grandmother with a moraine. I was hungry again before 2:00. I ate a light meal and it felt great Today, while reading the book quickly, I felt euphoric when I reached 700 words / minute. Euphoria like weeds, a high sense of worth. Cool! Then I had moments of swaying, it seemed to me that I was falling into the psychosis I had on the Skawina, but I used auto-suggestion and breath. It took over. I have to be careful now, I stopped taking my medication completely, but I believe it communicates very well with my body. This second book was: Get Rich While You Sleep. And so it was a day of reading mania, when I finished reading after 2-3 hours, now in the evening I started the Phoenix Rebirth. He's hungry again. I had my last meal at 6:00 PM. After 8 p.m. I exercised intensively, maybe that's why. Oh, I got the African root of the dream today :) I wanted to test it today, but I don't want to, so I put it off until tomorrow. PS, being able to be creative, I came up with a brilliant name for my program for free calls: the telephone and the telephone, but the telephone is definitely better.

CVAlsen

January 9 - CVAlsen In the morning I read a book on super Mind and took notes. In line with HemiSync, my concentration to learn was really great and I enjoyed reading this book. After I finished reading, I tweaked my speed reading program a bit to interpret punctuation marks. In the morning it turned out that David stayed at home, so I could not write my post. I was hungry for breakfast, not for dinner. I felt as if I had eaten my lunch hard, and so was my dinner - a feeling of guilt was born in me. But at least I didn't eat anything else. Today I was with Marysia to ask if she would print my CV. But they didn't have ink. I jumped to the kiosk, but it only had openOffice there that misinterpreted my doc file. So I jumped to Elena, there they did it to me on a nice satin cardboard paper for PLN 1.20. I took it to Alsen. I chatted a little with the guest. Very nice, actually he was still talking and I was just listening. Before that, I was also taking pictures. I don't know why I paid as much as PLN 20 if I didn't like them. Lack of assertiveness? Money is not so important to me? Hard to say. When I was walking I saw Rafal Pawlik's Car. Oh, I didn't sleep overnight. I was cold, I wanted so much to finish reading this book and I was not able to sleep at all. In the morning with this hunger, my body felt great. Such hydrated, a lot of saliva in the teeth. Cool!!! It nullified all this dinner. I wanted to use my new skills and wrote on my white board what to do with David. He went out to wait, if I don't break my hunger - it's not worth the risk. Today I was supposed to go to this speech club, but I quit. My method for psychotropics works and I also feel very confident when I do it. I have read another book today, I have read almost 40% of Abelar Taisha - The Magic Journey. It is written in a really interesting language. Today I also tried to regenerate SoundHeilting - I felt that my body needed these sounds. At the same time I practiced my breath but ass. ASS!!! my breathing is not going the way it used to be. Why???

SuperUmysl

Dreams: I called the dream strange, pokemons, as if I rode down from a great mountain / vortex and saw a lot of worlds. I called the second dream detoxification, but I don't remember what it is about ... January 8 - SuperUmysl I woke up around 6. I slept on the other side of the bed, closer to the window, because my spine hurts on that side and I wanted to do something new, something different, see how it is different. Morning preparation for training. We managed to smuggle the drugs in my pocket and throw them away in the field. The training was smooth, I did not listen to music exceptionally because of it and I was in a hat. Also some new experience for the mind. Today I was surprised by the fact that my mother was supposed to go to Krakow, unfortunately my father postponed it for tomorrow, which forced me to cancel today's post. After training, I ate 3-4 sandwiches, but quite small. For the first time in a long time, I added tomatoes and onions. The meal tasted divine. I felt a little hungry after leaving the table, and the meal gave me a lot of energy, because I usually feel a heavy belly and choking. In the morning I cleaned up, or rather I brought the room from yesterday's priest. I finished reading the book "Can You Live Without Eating". I recorded that affirmation for listening to readBox, or rather such a prayer of Archangel Michael about the Vision of the new world. I was at the store for a student. I bought two green and red ballpoint pens and two green and orange underliners. I found a job offer at Alsen - just submit your CV. It would be a fun job here and there. I saved myself to jump to Elena tomorrow and do a resume with a new photo I read a new book today: SuperUmysl. Simple techniques, or rather habits, how to learn. I recently discovered a new one: listening to HemiSync BrainMassage while reading a book quickly. I enjoyed it all. I began to imagine again how I would have my own apartment in Zakopane, like dr. Bargiel will try to arrange them for me and I will live by myself, alone, he was educated, he had a pension of 1000 zlotys, he lived without food. Super vision! After the evening training, I was back at the post office. This time they had my 5 books. Lately, the postmen leave avizo instead of bringing them to the house, but I don't think it's too bad for them. I have an excuse to go jogging in the evening. At home, I opened a large collection of osho books. I ate little during the day. Light meals. I felt strength and energy after them. In the evening I ate an apple and a banana, because I felt that my body was going downhill after the leg training. I was also guided by my old belief and my muscles were burned out: D In the evening, test this prayer again, Archangel Michael's vision of the universe. Tomorrow, get an avizo from szymka and go to Elena to take a better picture.