3 Fingers

Dream: I remember a dream that I was at the Laryngologist's in Rabka. I asked him to prescribe me because he helps me a lot. He agreed and prescribed some new prescription. January 31 - 3 fingers. At night Meditation method of self-hypnosis + Radio. Watching all thoughts as they arise. I was kind of on the side. In addition, my hands were exceptionally placed on the bed and not on my hips as I had recently done. I clenched my hands as if in 3 fingers which actually made meditation easier. This trick was prompted by a user. In the morning training 15 repetitions Today I read a book about healing. I have prepared a healing decree necessary to heal the soul. A set of super affirmations that I developed myself. I ate in the afternoon. Until you are too full. Indeed, abundant food makes you sleepy. Has anything else important happened today? I read Radoslaw Balwierz about creativity and took notes. I need to get my creative mind back. I also called a psychotronic school in Krakow. I was supposed to call the director after 6 p.m. but I didn't want to. At that time, I practiced and somehow postponed it.

Warning Asu

January 30 - Aseu Warning. Bronek, I don't want to interfere, but something tells me that I should tell you something, it's as if someone gave me a thought and wanted me to pass it on to you. It's so strange (...) I thought, and it actually came to me that your father is actually a victim of lies, that you both suffered a lot, although you probably more and he wanted to protect you too, the system got you into a trap ... I'm very sorry that it happened and I apologize if I said too much, if these words offended or touched you. These are the words that ester welcomed me during today's conversation around 1:00 or 3:00 when I woke up. It is allegedly from the angel Aseu. Ester checked that some sources say it is an angel, another and a fallen angel or a demon. In any case, I liked these words ... Which, however, does not change the fact that my father is still hating my father a lot !!! Throughout the day, due to fear of feet, I did not run. Only around 9:00 am I supposed to go for a run, but I was afraid of running. It was also when I started walking with breathing. I jumped to the post office and returned home. At the post office, I picked up a boxing bandage. Today I read The Book of Immediate Healing. I tested quite a lot of techniques on myself. One of the first was the Healing Blanket - I thought it helped my feet, although later I was still living in fear that the pain would return. I feel my feet "crack" and the traveling pain / chlamydia began to cling to more damaged areas. Besides, I also tested touch and imagination. I imagined a bit that I was kissing and I love Kaja. This is a nice visualization. Perhaps I will use it now for evening chakra work. When I was cold, I imagined myself exercising on armrests. I felt warm. After such visualization, I was proud of myself, calm and composed. Cool! The affirmation thread was very useful. I created my own beauty, thanks to which I had good mental and physical well-being for the whole day: "My body is enjoying tremendous health like never before." I blessed my body, thanked him. Blessings are similar to affirmations, but you are thankful for what your body is doing. These techniques, although discreet, I felt they worked :) Affirmations plus visualization of the exercises gave some sort of peace for a good part of the day. Like after breathing exercises or meditation. Oh, at night, then in the morning when I was doing the breathing exercises, my mom came in and fucked me up that I was breathing so loudly. Today I also watched a movie on YouTube - Cruel people - leaders of sects. Until I wanted to have super powers myself, but only because at the moment to send my father to a mental hospital. Hypnotize and manipulate it! This is probably all the most important things today. What I learned today: Visualization and some healing techniques.

Electro Acupuncture

January 29 - ElektroAkupunktura A day written on time. I got up quite early, somewhere between 00:00 and 01:00. I woke up, did some mind exercises, and went to sleep again. I think it is due to the fact that I went to sleep quite early the previous day, around 21:00. 4 hours of sleep perfectly regenerated my body. After 1-2 hours of such mind / awakening exercise, I went to sleep. I was still waking up / getting up. In the morning I went to Rafal Pawlik at 8:30. As soon as I entered his block, he knew it was me. As he claimed, he did not expect anyone else. Today we explained a lot about what we think of each other. We also changed places to see what it's like to be in a different place. Return home, quick breakfast and departure to Nowy Targ. Today I had an appointment with a Rheumatologist. Today I was terribly worried about my feet - probably too much effort from running. She feels new lumps growing on her .... Coming back to visiting dr. Feathers - I lied that something hurt me, that there are cramps in the groin etc ... I lied. I don't know if I did the right thing. I learned that my hip might hurt my knee. I also left the original consultation result by Dr. Sebastianowicz. This is my tactical mistake, but I thought to myself - it's alright. One day I will ask at registration to make photocopies of me. I made an appointment with Dr. Pierzg� on March 20, she said that she would be able to do treatments then. I went to the Buffet, earlier I bought grapefruit juice in the shop at the entrance, I drank it in the buffet. Being in the buffet, I was thinking about Wojciech Panz, hoping that I would meet him, and on the other hand, having a little fear of meeting him ... Today I received an electroacupuncture device, but seeing such a large book on this subject I don't want to read it. I still think of an ordinary book - I don't want to read it. Today I was worried about my feet. I can feel new bumps growing at my heel. What to do? Gotta get some neurological diagnostics. How neurologists analyze such things and then I can go to a neurologist who will make the diagnosis I know that the footwear and spine are bad. I KNOW IT, I AM SURE OF IT. But the neurological tests suck! From your difficult condition, she can heal you like in the Department of Social Humiliation. At 4 p.m. I made an appointment with Łukasz Lopata. I gave him my book - Balance of body and mind. Today I was not running. I'm not okay with it. I ate 3 slices for the night and then a little sweetness. Feelings of guilt again and ate a bad meal. I have read Tombak's Road to Health. It is like a conglomerate of readings that I have already read. I enjoyed reading this lesson. Somehow I'm afraid to move forward and read other books, I preferred to go back a bit. I do not know why, maybe because reading the book about bioenergotherapy recommended by Wampirek I have some strange conviction in me that I will not learn it anyway? I do not know.

Tombak hypnosis

January 28 - Tombac Hypnosis Wake up at 4:30, although I lay in bed for a long time and woke up an hour later. Standard mind training, but I had no time for meditation or lucid dreams afterwards. Workout 8:00 in the morning. 14 repetitions in the open air. I have completed another part of the healing of the soul for Mirriel today. Exceptionally in the afternoon I trained in the kitchen. At that time, my mother was practicing in my room. I started another book by Michał Tombak. Somehow, I am afraid to reach for another esoteric book, so I started with Michal Tombak, Road to Health. Of course, I haven't read 2 books a day again. I read Andrzej Rakowski and about 30% of the current book. Got a foot / tongue massage mat today, spike. A bit soft, but as long as you walk it can be. Mom complained that she couldn't walk around like this because of her finger and corns. Michal Tombak mentioned a bit about hypnosis. He recommended relaxing then issuing commands sharply in a gentle, affectionate form. I was wondering if I should try it on myself. In December last year, when I was in a great mental shape, having excellent conversation, I was talking to myself such beautiful words and I was able to make suggestions. However, briefly. I fell into such a manner and quickly everything returned to its original state - that is, disease. I started to train the fish as if with a massage mattress. I put a massage mattress on my bed and it vibrates. I do not want to do fish, and this form of exercise is easier for me. I guess as much as happened today. For tomorrow I made an appointment with Łukasz for 4 pm. In addition, tomorrow I also have to go to the Rheumatologist. Maybe on the way he will stop at ul. Orkana 19 explore your testicles.

HomeFather

Dreams: Today I had 2 saved dreams. There were more, but I saved only two. The first one I called "a dream with a neighbor with a Polish dog". However, I have no idea what I might have meant. The second dream I remember was a lucid dream and I woke up quickly. I was running by the river at night. I was running and running and at one point I realized that I was having a lucid dream. January 27 Father at Home. Today I woke up quite late, a little before 6:00. I did mind exercises. Daddy slept on the couch at our house. I was worried about the drugs, whether I had to take them or would I get splashed. Finally in the morning I managed to smuggle them and went for a run. When I got back I made breakfast. We ate them together with my dad. Ba ... We even talked to each other. I made breakfast. About 12.00 Mum came. Dad has been here all day until now. I tested the InTuFlow day today At 6 p.m. I ate Pizzas. Today Dawid was repairing a damaged car in Malenka and bringing pizzas. A moment ago I had an inspiring conversation with Michał Staniszewski. I asked him today if he would like to become my mentor / spiritual guide. He replied that there was no time to say that you can learn everything from books yourself. That's how he learned everything he can. He talked a little about himself, he learned hypnosis in his childhood and he probably had a talent for it. Now I wonder a little - I was stupid. The angel told me to look for a spiritual guide, and here Michael tells me to learn by myself. What should I do? Oh, running in the evening I met this guy in goggles who sometimes practices in the park. We talked for a while. He showed me an interesting exercise with red handbags to grab the "blocks / cubes". Then the upper part of the chest also works during the exercise. I wonder if dad is staying here for the night? Today I started reading the book Kregoslup w Stresa. I also downloaded instructional videos for this book. Again I have not read two books a day, even if I have not read one ... Would you change the affirmation to "I read one book a day?"

InTuFlow

January 26 - InTuFlow Wake up at 4:00. I recovered enough after yesterday's training. I got up and started training my mind. Left hand, of course. Zonglujac even feels my brain "grow" as if I were exercising the strength of the muscles, so it exercises the strength of the muscles of the brain. Around 6:00 am I went to bed for meditation. Still in the corpse position, I listened to the Chakra Journey. This is probably the most pleasant music for meditation with HemiSync for me. She is brilliant and also regenerates chakra. I also had an idea to test something else. LSD was in motion. but I didn't listen too long. About 8:00 training. 10 return home. David wasn't here today, he was at work. Today I wanted to maniacally achieve hyperventilation by breathing. However, I failed. The fuck how do you do that ??? Once upon a time it was good for me the first time. Today I watched youtube InTuFlow. I took notes, it was very enjoyable training, I don't think I do all the exercises correctly, but I will test this training. However, it seems to me that performing it as a warm-up will probably take much longer than 10 minutes. Mom went somewhere today. I don't know where, but I thought tomorrow is the perfect time to go hungry. On the other hand, I thought: maybe we will clean the colon with apples? A whole day on apples? Choose new ones and I think I will choose it. Tomorrow a lot of running, we will check how my body will behave in the new situation. I'm worried about my feet lately. I have a bit of a pain from running where the bumps are forming. I did quite a tidying up in the room. It took me about 1 hour. I listen to music better: Kazik na zywo - Plamy na soncu. A moment ago there was quite an interesting situation. Mum was gone, dad asked me to take medication. I hesitated to swallow or spit out. Eventually I spat out. I felt fear. I went with Kaw to the room and then my dad asked a question about whether I would be able to remove the simlock from any card there. Oh fuck - my heart was beating again. Stress as hell will catch me. I tried to control my breathing and I said a random word: I think so ... The conversation started, I moved a lot to relieve the tension, my breath, my body is stronger under stress. I made it, I managed :)

Psychoanalysis of the Boy

January 25 - Boyka's psychoanalysis The psychoanalysis of the buoy - has poor responses, is full of fear. Fear uses in combat. Even a long time ago, when I watched the film, I saw undisputedly in the fight a man who causes fear. Now I see something else. He can't talk. He is a great fighter, but has problems with communication and with sharp retorts. Fear is mixed with anger. By using these feelings in battle, he becomes invincible. I remembered the scene where he was so pissed off in the ring and taking the blows. Once, I would have thought that I wanted to disregard my opponent, now I can see it and he made an incident suggestion. Anger, adrenaline made him feel pain. Today's day: I slept quite late 6-7 am. I was glad that I was able to enter meditation. Of course, in the morning I went for a run. During the morning run I asked about the pharmacy in carefour, I asked if there were already guaranose tablets. Unfortunately it was not. I returned home, somehow a day passed. I downloaded the movie, you are the god of pactophones. I really wanted to see his version of what it means to be a god. Unfortunately ... I was unable to download a smooth episode which I regretted. I explained to myself - maybe fate wanted so ... Wioletta wrote back to me. When I read her description, I felt sorry for myself again and I used this feeling for running. Something beautiful. I like to feel it, as if I like to hurt myself. She wrote at the end and a bit sad and doesn't want to give herself a chance. In the afternoon I was running again ... While running I remembered that I had an appointment with Łukasz today. He drove me a little by text message. I wrote back to him. I imagined a little scary thing and he will become my enemy and he will vengeance, for example, by spreading things about me. I was a little overwhelmed by this fear. While I was running, a certain telephone number was calling me. I did not answer because I thought it would be Lukasz. At home it turned out that he was a guest from Elektroakupunktury. He wanted to explain why I bought two devices and paid for one. I told him I would buy one thing and pay commission for the other and it would be fair. He agreed, although I do not hide and I hoped that he would say that he would bear the commission costs. My mom was really on this. She was screaming at me, panicking. I answer her - you panic terribly and make a big scandal. After the telephone conversation, I even spoke in a contemptuous voice: the matter is solved, nothing big happened, we got along well culturally. It's not that bad. For dinner I ate 2 bananas and a little chocolate. I liked the chocolate and nutella so much, I felt it was a meal for me. I didn't want cottage cheese, I felt I needed chocolate. Although, on the other hand, I was not even hungry, I wanted to stick to 3 meals a day and that my mother would not be bothered by me. I don't remember any more sins. I used a new interesting technique, namely - deleting a day in the calendar. However, I do not want to describe its beneficial effects. That night - meditation + Valerian :) I feel a little sorry for myself again and I haven't read any book today ...