Psychodelic

March 28 - Psychodelic Nothing extraordinary happened since this morning In the morning I was able to sneak in my breakfast. I ate nuts for breakfast. A nutritious meal, I felt I needed it. Apart from that: Although I am ashamed to admit, but since I broke up with Kaja - I started to think about her constantly ... Well fucking good, I didn't want her a few days ago. She writes nothing, changed nothing in her description. Nice tactic. It really works for me. I would like to write to it, but honor does not allow me ... I found cool psychedelic music to listen to on youtube. Really great! I took, about 2, and even more than 2 hours to listen. My head nodded pleasantly in its rhythm. What mentally: I don't know what to do with myself. This fucking chlamydia wanders here, here I want to exercise, regain my super-fast mind, and on the other hand I want to do nothing, give up and have everything in my ass. Here, from the next page, I want to meditate, have great great power. What the fuck am I supposed to do. I'm calling you fucking angels and telling me what the fuck am I supposed to do? Listening to this psychedelic music during another attempt at meditation, I had an idea: how about writing to Kasia Szafranowska asking for help? At the same time, the pain wandered, and at the same time I ate a lot ... At the same time I got rid of the slices, but ate a lot of cheese and nuts. I literally stuffed myself like a pig. Whore. My stomach was full and I was still eating and stuffing myself like pigs. Whore. Because it's already 18 because you have to eat dinner. Well fucking mac ... What to write Kasia? I have lost my power of words and I do not know how to ask her to agree. What can I write to her? Well, now I stuffed myself like a pig. Time to go for a walk and breathe. Time to burn it all down. This is already a sick pale colour ... For the night I wrote again on the Allegro, this time instead of channeling: clairvoyant. I bought auctions from some tramp who has been clairvoyant for 50 years. I asked 6 questions I wrote to 2 more fairy. One can communicate with the dead. The second writes that she has a gift from birth and can contact Angels. I also wrote to her by email wrozkaanielica@interia.eu I also talked to Karol Olszak just now. He offered me cooperation on his website: nowybrzmienie.pl. I wonder whether to cooperate with him ... I would get to know a lot of interesting pieces It is worth adding that listening to this music gave me an amazing experience. Interesting imagination again, imagining a fight with my father, and I even imagined my sharp retort in action. It was just great for me.

Czeslaw's refusal

March 29 - Czeslaw's denial From the morning, quite a strong attack on the tailbone. I cried out In the morning after 5 WFM of the hips to the rhythm of this psychedelic music. During the morning training, I felt a clear hunger. Today is great Friday. I didn't eat sandwiches again, some 300g of nuts for breakfast. Great meal. I felt that my body needed it. I read a bit about nuts today. They have anti-inflammatory effects, A lot of vitamin E, arginine. I ate them with the intention of regenerating my tailbone. And I remember that it has a similar effect to the Japanese RDest - they contain a lot of Reservatol. I found Elen Kanicka's Channeling guide. Converted to txt and put it into my speed reading program. In the morning, I had a great desire to read this guide. Being some 30 minutes ago while shopping, buying intimate insoles, my mother in a chemical store, I met a tutor Ewa Kurzejewska. Moments ago, literally a minute due to attaching chlamydia to the heart and tailbone, I started Echinacea therapy. I have very nice memories of this drug! Echinacea also heals injuries. A moment ago, while I was taking a second cup of Inka Coffee with milk and honey, my mother remarked to me: Krystian, enough, Lord Jesus spent 40 days for our hens ... Fuck, I thought to myself: you also do not know what the truth is, that this Bible is one big lie and a bulshit like the National Health Fund. Jesus took 40 days for fasting to give him strength before an important life mission !!! But I kept silent about it in my mind, thought my own way and only said to her: Yes, but Jesus had divine power. For him, it's a good idea to go through 40 days without eating. In a moment I am planning to go out to town for Echinacee or Echinacea. I just got back from my trip for Echinacea. I ordered from this cheap pharmacy. In addition, I checked at the pharmacy in stescal. They have Echinacee there if needed. I also ordered a purple hedgehog in a herbalist's shop. It will definitely be cheaper than tablets and probably much more effective. Echinacea stronger than antibiotics. I still think about my heart. Chlama began to cling to her heart intensely ... Moreover: I was talking to Szymek now. I was at his apartment. He has no money, he doesn't know what to do with his life. I would like to help him somehow, but I don't know how ... He says: I have it well with him ... I feel how. As if I didn't eat nuts too much. Fortunately, there will be dinner in a moment :) A beautiful gift of hunger. I want a few breaths. A moment ago I watched the world according to the bad ones, but I laughed. Unfortunately, due to the fact that the chalmydia clung to my heart while laughing, my heart ached. As if for a moment the part of the body under which it is attached is weakened / damaged. Wlansie got an answer from Mr. Czeslaw: Clairvoyant. He said: I am sorry, but I am not receiving bright pure energy from the Lord. Scare can harm you more than help ... Fuck mac ... When you're happy people don't need any kind of shit like meditation. Such things are reached in times of need. I know because I was happy once and felt no need to meditate. I feel now! Because I'm angry, full of anger and hate! Hates of Father and Mother! Shit, such a good shit, 50 years of experience and unfortunately I lost it. How can I convince him to myself? Got an idea: we'll do as we get the girls back. I won't be writing to him for a while! Let's say 2-3 weeks. I'll be back in these 2-3 weeks! Then he will feel as if he has lost something, and until then he will write back with the explanations of this negative energy full of non-aversion to my father! Maybe then he can help me. At least there should be a better chance of that. I watched the Death Note a bit Now, between 5 pm and 6 pm I am training. But depressing weather. Simply depressing, supposedly a few degrees above 0, the sun is shining, but it is depressing and depressing. I long for darkness, let the sun finally go down, I prefer darkness. I feel great in the dark. I feel safe in the dark! In the dark I feel myself! After training, I was going to buy butter. I drank a liter in the cold air so that my mother did not see it. On top of that, I was a bit cold. Coming home, now I have the impression that I have had a cold. My nose is dripping, I feel like the first symptoms of a cold. But then I'll take Echinacee, and I should help for that too. In addition, my stomach hurts a bit after the butter. The last fairy wrote back to me. For PLN 30 he can channel me. Jupi: D I promised myself that my first question would be to ask for affirmations to get rid of the traveling pain. I'll figure out the rest. I also did it so that she sent me her account number first. I will give her an advance so that she feels a certain obligation towards me and does not refuse me like Mr. Czeslaw. I hope he doesn't sense hostile intentions towards me. Maybe now resend some extended message?

TramalowaLikanina

In the evening of the previous day, Ester hypnotized me. Channeled again and didn't come out as usual. In addition... In the morning I woke up with a headache on the side of my head. He feels there is something there: a trobel or a cancer. I even thought ... It would be even fun if the doctor made such a diagnosis ... If my revelation found out about it, I would like to die already. I want to fucking show him ... Fucking dick !!! I wonder what zarowski would say then if he found out that there was a tumor in the place of the head where I reported pain! I hate you fucking motherfucker !!! I recently returned from morning training. I also planned to jump to the ladybug for apples, peanuts and baking soda. However, I did not want to. So then I went to Adam, but it does not spread out. I met Damian Wnekowski. He kept talking to me. We talked a bit about health care, about his and my health problems. I found out that there are similar sensations with lumbar puncture. Anyway, we talked about Dece - the steroid. He said he could help me. Not only in health problems, but I will gain 5-10 kg. Fuck as he said it, I wanted to get this steroid, but I could only take it under medical supervision. Moreover... I was wrong mentally. How the pussy listened to him. Now, as I think and analyze, I should say firmly and firmly: I will check it! But again in the morning I imagined how strong, healthy and powerful I am thanks to steroids. As my spine regenerates ... I fucking want Dece. I would get to know another arsenal of modern medicine, I would have more medical experience. Oh, in the morning around 7:00 I took the tramal. Now it's 10:45 and I don't feel its effects yet. Strange, the first effects were always after 2 hours, and now one big ass ... I have to wait a little longer until I am positively drunk :) Oh, there's something else. Wneku told me how he lay in a hospital in Zakopane. They refused to let him go, even though he wanted to. In the end, he escaped from the hospital, because he did not want to stay there any longer. Fuck and they only kept me for one day in the addition of wild boar with an unknown disease giving heavy drugs without any problems on their own task! This is life. Not only with women but also with people. When you want them to help you, they don't want to. When you don't want help, they want to help! This world is strange :) l The whore is after 12:00, 5 hours have passed since consuming the tram and somehow I do not feel any effects. By the way, I drank some 1-1.5l of Coffee with milk in an interval of 1 hour. Maybe too much fluid for the drug and it dissolved badly? In the evening, Ester sent me Energie Likanine. I don't know if that was it. The feathers did not crackle or the forks flew in the air, although I felt the pleasant warmth of my whole body on the blog. A great feeling. I had to unload it, do squats, dips. Wow, Adran and Esther said: This is it !!! Then I still had to run. I jumped to the ladybug for nuts and discharged myself. I want to run a little in the morning too. I feel great. I think I met Damian Wnekowski again with some visitor to the river and then when I returned close to the drazka. Today I only ate 2 meals. I felt great strength thanks to it! Light meals give me a lot of energy! In the store I felt adrenaline, self-confidence, failure to adapt to society. Quite what I felt in the past! Extra! Tomorrow morning, if I don't forget, I'll go for a run again. I think my feet have regenerated already!

After a Breakup

March 26 - After the Breakup. In the morning I thought about Kaja, about how I broke up with her. I was still thinking about it. I feel good about it, full of hatred, full of power of the dark side - that's what I would call it ... I didn't want to hurt her, I only wanted to finally get rid of her life, end it all and have holy peace. He does not want her, let him find another prince from the fairy tale - so my heart thinks. On the other hand, if I had to consider my mind - maybe I am doing something wrong. Maybe it is a temporary crisis and it should be rebuilt somehow? I don't know ... I chose my heart, although my mind also doesn't want anyone. I want to be alone, give my ass up and live a quiet life. Throughout the day - panic over the spine. Chlamydia has traveled through my body frequently. In the morning I practiced my outstanding training. Tomorrow, father and mother are leaving. Supposedly the perfect day for a hunger, but ... I think I'll let it go. I am so tempted to move it, but I don't think I will. David will not be there either - he goes with them to Krakow. So cool :) I read Kaji's blog. She wrote in it that she made cupcakes, a little smiling smiley. Its description has not changed in general. He does not let you know that he is probably suffering. Or maybe he hates so much? Maybe even on her hand that I wrote something like that. I listened to that song Snowman most of the day today - invariably. In addition, the Horizons 12dbi Antenna came today. The Cable is missing. I took Ms Basi's laptop back, accepting a £ 20 loan.

Breakup of ZKaja

March 25 - Breaking up with Kaja Two wake-up calls at night at 02:00, 05:00 and 07:00 At 7:00 am I was still sleepy. I think it's the effect of it and I slept on my stomach. The neck stiffens, the fingers are bloodless and in addition I slept with the window closed, which probably caused the body to regenerate more slowly. It's good that I remembered that today I have planned a Tramal. In a moment I am going to brew herbs, change my clothes, for a short 20 minutes of meditation. Yesterday I was listening to meditation on Radio Paranormalium. Fuck, but I hate this meditation, and on the other hand, how am I going to defeat all those who have destroyed me? Especially my father !!! I need to learn meditation !!! Then I blow everything off: tetris, brain challenge, balls, because I have to learn to meditate and discover my psychic possibilities! Report - Knowledge and reading books are closer to life success. I didn't feel like anything again. Thread. Fuck everything. I also got a reply from Kaja this morning. Devastated by the fact that I wrote so little on the gg, what's up with me, that I did not spend even 10 minutes on it. And that she would like to meet, but as she sees it is probably not the right time. Man, I don't want Kaja anymore, I just don't want her ... I want to be alone, live for free for some 800 PLN and do nothing all day. Lie in bed, exercise, do nothing. I want to be alone, I don't need Kaja. I have to break up with her somehow. I wrote to her and by the evening I will write back something longer on the gg. Just what? Lie to meet someone? no, that's a lie - I hate lies, right? I think... I do not know how to write it, I emphasize that I want to do it gently. Well, I never actually did, never broke up with a girl. In fact, we were not together, although we felt something for each other, these tender words, letters - somehow made you seduce me that I fell in love with you again. But I don't think I love you anymore. I'm sorry you. He continues to say that you are the greatest woman I have ever met in my life and probably your future boyfriend will be a true lucky one, but I do not feel anything for you anymore. I am writing it right now, because when I logically analyze it, I know that the longer I wait, the more harm I will do, keeping you in hope and uncertainty. It's hard for me to call a little and say it, let alone see and say it in person. Of course, if you would like to meet, I don't mind, but only as cousins. You know that it's hard to say it directly, moreover, you broke up with your boyfriend in the list too. I am entering the stage of adult life. I had to think seriously about many things ... What he wants in life, what he wants to do and who to be. Forgive me, I hope if there was anything, it won't turn into hate. We can always write to ourselves from time to time, exchange a few sentences. You are pretty, kind, tolerant, loving, bright, you have beautiful feminine shapes - you will surely meet some prince from a fairy tale. But that prince won't be me. I wrote today for the first time to Rafal Pawlik regarding the cancellation of tomorrow's meeting. He hasn't written back to me yet. In addition, today wrote Maksym. He wrote that he really liked the music that was attached to the card. But somehow I don't care so much about rebuilding our friendship either. I believed I was going to do this fucking meditation - but the fuck from this fucking fucking meditation. Tramal gives me what I need. But on the other hand ... I don't want to take the tram. Biarac tramal and replacing it meditation feels like a loser. Yes, I lost the fight against life and myself. I felt great and invincible. Yet I was beaten by the public health service and doctors. In total, man is responsible for his own fate. I wanted to be sick ... it happened. I'm sick.... If not for the psychiatrists, everyone would see doctors until they were successful. Until who will find outstanding and wonderful and heal you. Each. However, I made mistakes for which I paid a HUGE PRICE !!! HUGE!!! But as I told Rafal Pawlik recently, it's not that bad. There are -2 degrees Celsius. Now I listen to Yurim - those beautiful love songs that Maksym gave me two years ago. Oh, you could fall in love ... Those were the times. Today I came up with a nice comparison to the disease. Illness is like a fire in your home. Fire poses on its way everything it can: walls, furniture, rooms, roofs ... Health services are like firefighters who put out a fire. They give medicine. The fire is put out and they say: the house is safe and sound. But that's shit true. Because the house has to be rebuilt. My body, especially my bones and spine after a spinal cord attack, were brittle and weak. Burned out by disease. But the fire was extinguished (inflamed) so it was cured ... A moment ago, during the evening bath, there was a leakage from the coil. At the same time, such discomfort when urinating and in the testicles. Acid leak. Eh, I immediately thought that I would report the matter to the Urologist in May. We'll see what he says to that. All in all, I remembered that chlamydia began to attach to the prostate today ... About 1-2 hours ago I wrote to say that I broke up with Kaja. I consulted with Drops and Esther. Marta said to my letter that if she had gotten something like that, she would not be offended. Ester said that he would probably start crying after that from the second sentence. I wrote this to Kaja at 21:14. For fear of her reaction, I turned off the phone. And I have to write something else here. There are two sides to me. On the one hand, I do not want to hurt her, and on the other, I want to show her a little what it is like to suffer out of love ... I used to want to hurt her, as she hurt me, although I forgave her. After all, I received the most beautiful apology I have ever received in my life. They were really beautiful. Now I just don't want to be with her anymore. Maybe he wants to suffer too. Suffer from love. I don't want her anymore ... I would even like her to have a boyfriend whom she loved and be happy with someone. On the other hand, I would like to have me hidden in her heart somewhere. Maybe I'm too immature for mature feeling.

Meditation on Death

March 24 - Meditation on Death Now is 6:16 am. Although I woke up quite early, around 5:00. I slept exceptionally with the window closed due to the frost in the field, although they were slightly ajar, which makes the room somewhat fresh. At night I felt a little refreshing to drink. So I decided to test 2 glasses of lemon water. Lemon water weakened the effect of tramal by at least 60%, despite the fact that Tramal had been working for a good 4-6 hours. This morning I have practically no tram hangover. This is proof enough for me that Lemon effectively neutralizes the effects of drugs. Someday, I will have to conduct a similar experiment with the NAC. At Ranem, or somewhere around midnight, I spoke to Esther. He wanted to share his super power with me. Damn, if I had the power I do then meditation. It's something beautiful. Unfortunately, as he claims, there are also some consequences for this. I had to go back to light persuasion, I kept him in suspense, asked a lot of questions so as to make him want to give me this power. Because that's what I want. Gosh it would be nice if it were actually true. If this power really was possible to destroy 20 opponents at once. Wow ... As he says he was born with this power and the only way is to get infected with this power from him. One person has already contracted it, although it does not guarantee that it is also possible from a distance. More will have to tell me on skype. Oh, in the morning I found 2 interesting entries on the backtrack.pl website that could interest me: http://backtrack.pl/2010/04/01/jak-ukryc-zmienic-swoj-adres-ip-tunel-vpn-proxy-tor/ http://backtrack.pl/2010/06/07/linux-backtrack-4-final-instalacja-na-usb-zapiswanie-zmian-bt3-bt4/ Smuggling morning sandwiches Conversation with ester about lycanin - this super power weeb TV Meditation on death. I ate a huge amount of potatoes for the night. I poisoned myself. I felt guilty while meditating on Ester's death on me. Today, moreover, I did not practice anything. I had a nice time in bed, mostly talking to Esther. Ah, how I regret that I ate such a huge amount of potatoes in addition to the evening. WHORE!!! I also talked to ester about when I was being watched by the investigative department. It was fun to talk about it all and laugh at what weakly watched I was. The moment I make a mistake - chlamydia begins to wander for me. So at the moment when I ate too heavy a meal - in this case tons of potatoes - chlamydia started to travel all over my body quite quickly and I suppose it will stay here for a long time ... Fuck. I'm not okay with it. Now in my head I think to expel this poison that is food. Now in the evening I was listening to Adam Bytof about lucid dreams. He mentioned Galantamine and the African Snow Root as a dream aid.

EnterBackTrack

March 23 - EnterBackTrack Morning - stretching of the spine. I woke up at 5:00 in the morning in an uncomfortable position. Then again in a similar position at 7:00. The heart was beating hard, too hard, sideways position full of pressure and ischemia on various parts of the body. I practiced, then went to Alsen to buy DVDs. inter alia, to record a Windows 7 bart for mom and try to repair the system. God, I don't want to fix this laptop ... Being in Alsen, I noticed a nice Credit Card with 8GB Pendrive for PLN 32. But I got horny, I even talked to the salesman about it. However, when I got home I found exactly the same on the 16GB allegro for PLN 36 + shipping 10 PLN. I ordered it. There will be a perfect composition in my portfolio. Such a flash drive for every occasion. Being at home today I was a bit afraid of the spine all day. I was with Szymek for a while. I lent him PlayStation and Pegasus. I was also looking for a Lenovo laptop. I found x201t - a tablet like x220 but with lower parameters, which would be enough for me anyway. Only poor graphics, which are unlikely to be suitable for cracking WPA passwords ... However, think about it. About PLN 2600 After 4 p.m. I took tramal up to 200mg with coffee with milk. As always, the pointlessness of life, I wanted to feel better. I shouldn't, I'm hungry after all, but I'm high with it ... I want to feel good. And the tramal offers just that. I took 200 mg because I was afraid that 100 mg would not work for me. Gzies around 5:00 p.m. I started correcting the TabelePilkarskie program and repairing Mrs. Basia's computer. But I don't fucking want to. I downloaded windows 7 on a DVD, not enough English, the disc does not start yet. Come on fucking !!! I removed all the music from my phone and played Eska Rock Kultowa 500. I wanted to have something new to listen to. Oh, I also tested some of this BackTrack today, and bought the antenna that FoxPeter recommended me 2-3 years ago. 12dbi Dokolna, but I don't remember the name anymore. Hope it will be great for WarDriving. I guess I'm starting to feel the first effects of the tram :) In the evening I was repairing the Football Tables program and Mrs. Basia's computer. Working to the rhythm of the tram was great. Really great. The neck lets you know a little about itself. I got a little new experience today. I'm going to wash.