Courage

01 February - Courage Nothing special happened during the day. I was not running for my feet for fear. I'll be training tomorrow. I read a little bit of esoteric psychology and finished reading it the joy of a dangerous life. Throughout the day I was engrossed in books. Mom today is cutting her finger into juicers. A moment ago now in the evening she went to Morczyna for some reason. Probably from Tat. I'm going to meditate in a moment. I will use the 3-finger technique again, but I will lie on my stomach because I feel that this position will be perfect for me today. I will use the technique of self-hypnosis and I will imagine the golden aura that will give me energy. In this position, the muscles will be taut, which will allow me to imagine the golden aura more easily, like in DragonBall. I had a lot of sweets and cips and sandwiches at night, although I did not want to eat ... What did I do, this feeling of guilt again. In my head, metlik and chaos: learn to live without food, no, it is enough to keep a 14-hour fast to stay healthy and slim, tomorrow I will be hungry if we are gone .... God ... What to do. I feel bigos in my stomach, I've mixed it up too much. I'm sorry my body. Sorry .... I'm lost in my life and I don't know what to do ... When will I learn to meditate?

3 Fingers

Dream: I remember a dream that I was at the Laryngologist's in Rabka. I asked him to prescribe me because he helps me a lot. He agreed and prescribed some new prescription. January 31 - 3 fingers. At night Meditation method of self-hypnosis + Radio. Watching all thoughts as they arise. I was kind of on the side. In addition, my hands were exceptionally placed on the bed and not on my hips as I had recently done. I clenched my hands as if in 3 fingers which actually made meditation easier. This trick was prompted by a user. In the morning training 15 repetitions Today I read a book about healing. I have prepared a healing decree necessary to heal the soul. A set of super affirmations that I developed myself. I ate in the afternoon. Until you are too full. Indeed, abundant food makes you sleepy. Has anything else important happened today? I read Radoslaw Balwierz about creativity and took notes. I need to get my creative mind back. I also called a psychotronic school in Krakow. I was supposed to call the director after 6 p.m. but I didn't want to. At that time, I practiced and somehow postponed it.

Warning Asu

January 30 - Aseu Warning. Bronek, I don't want to interfere, but something tells me that I should tell you something, it's as if someone gave me a thought and wanted me to pass it on to you. It's so strange (...) I thought, and it actually came to me that your father is actually a victim of lies, that you both suffered a lot, although you probably more and he wanted to protect you too, the system got you into a trap ... I'm very sorry that it happened and I apologize if I said too much, if these words offended or touched you. These are the words that ester welcomed me during today's conversation around 1:00 or 3:00 when I woke up. It is allegedly from the angel Aseu. Ester checked that some sources say it is an angel, another and a fallen angel or a demon. In any case, I liked these words ... Which, however, does not change the fact that my father is still hating my father a lot !!! Throughout the day, due to fear of feet, I did not run. Only around 9:00 am I supposed to go for a run, but I was afraid of running. It was also when I started walking with breathing. I jumped to the post office and returned home. At the post office, I picked up a boxing bandage. Today I read The Book of Immediate Healing. I tested quite a lot of techniques on myself. One of the first was the Healing Blanket - I thought it helped my feet, although later I was still living in fear that the pain would return. I feel my feet "crack" and the traveling pain / chlamydia began to cling to more damaged areas. Besides, I also tested touch and imagination. I imagined a bit that I was kissing and I love Kaja. This is a nice visualization. Perhaps I will use it now for evening chakra work. When I was cold, I imagined myself exercising on armrests. I felt warm. After such visualization, I was proud of myself, calm and composed. Cool! The affirmation thread was very useful. I created my own beauty, thanks to which I had good mental and physical well-being for the whole day: "My body is enjoying tremendous health like never before." I blessed my body, thanked him. Blessings are similar to affirmations, but you are thankful for what your body is doing. These techniques, although discreet, I felt they worked :) Affirmations plus visualization of the exercises gave some sort of peace for a good part of the day. Like after breathing exercises or meditation. Oh, at night, then in the morning when I was doing the breathing exercises, my mom came in and fucked me up that I was breathing so loudly. Today I also watched a movie on YouTube - Cruel people - leaders of sects. Until I wanted to have super powers myself, but only because at the moment to send my father to a mental hospital. Hypnotize and manipulate it! This is probably all the most important things today. What I learned today: Visualization and some healing techniques.

Electro Acupuncture

January 29 - ElektroAkupunktura A day written on time. I got up quite early, somewhere between 00:00 and 01:00. I woke up, did some mind exercises, and went to sleep again. I think it is due to the fact that I went to sleep quite early the previous day, around 21:00. 4 hours of sleep perfectly regenerated my body. After 1-2 hours of such mind / awakening exercise, I went to sleep. I was still waking up / getting up. In the morning I went to Rafal Pawlik at 8:30. As soon as I entered his block, he knew it was me. As he claimed, he did not expect anyone else. Today we explained a lot about what we think of each other. We also changed places to see what it's like to be in a different place. Return home, quick breakfast and departure to Nowy Targ. Today I had an appointment with a Rheumatologist. Today I was terribly worried about my feet - probably too much effort from running. She feels new lumps growing on her .... Coming back to visiting dr. Feathers - I lied that something hurt me, that there are cramps in the groin etc ... I lied. I don't know if I did the right thing. I learned that my hip might hurt my knee. I also left the original consultation result by Dr. Sebastianowicz. This is my tactical mistake, but I thought to myself - it's alright. One day I will ask at registration to make photocopies of me. I made an appointment with Dr. Pierzg� on March 20, she said that she would be able to do treatments then. I went to the Buffet, earlier I bought grapefruit juice in the shop at the entrance, I drank it in the buffet. Being in the buffet, I was thinking about Wojciech Panz, hoping that I would meet him, and on the other hand, having a little fear of meeting him ... Today I received an electroacupuncture device, but seeing such a large book on this subject I don't want to read it. I still think of an ordinary book - I don't want to read it. Today I was worried about my feet. I can feel new bumps growing at my heel. What to do? Gotta get some neurological diagnostics. How neurologists analyze such things and then I can go to a neurologist who will make the diagnosis I know that the footwear and spine are bad. I KNOW IT, I AM SURE OF IT. But the neurological tests suck! From your difficult condition, she can heal you like in the Department of Social Humiliation. At 4 p.m. I made an appointment with Łukasz Lopata. I gave him my book - Balance of body and mind. Today I was not running. I'm not okay with it. I ate 3 slices for the night and then a little sweetness. Feelings of guilt again and ate a bad meal. I have read Tombak's Road to Health. It is like a conglomerate of readings that I have already read. I enjoyed reading this lesson. Somehow I'm afraid to move forward and read other books, I preferred to go back a bit. I do not know why, maybe because reading the book about bioenergotherapy recommended by Wampirek I have some strange conviction in me that I will not learn it anyway? I do not know.

Tombak hypnosis

January 28 - Tombac Hypnosis Wake up at 4:30, although I lay in bed for a long time and woke up an hour later. Standard mind training, but I had no time for meditation or lucid dreams afterwards. Workout 8:00 in the morning. 14 repetitions in the open air. I have completed another part of the healing of the soul for Mirriel today. Exceptionally in the afternoon I trained in the kitchen. At that time, my mother was practicing in my room. I started another book by Michał Tombak. Somehow, I am afraid to reach for another esoteric book, so I started with Michal Tombak, Road to Health. Of course, I haven't read 2 books a day again. I read Andrzej Rakowski and about 30% of the current book. Got a foot / tongue massage mat today, spike. A bit soft, but as long as you walk it can be. Mom complained that she couldn't walk around like this because of her finger and corns. Michal Tombak mentioned a bit about hypnosis. He recommended relaxing then issuing commands sharply in a gentle, affectionate form. I was wondering if I should try it on myself. In December last year, when I was in a great mental shape, having excellent conversation, I was talking to myself such beautiful words and I was able to make suggestions. However, briefly. I fell into such a manner and quickly everything returned to its original state - that is, disease. I started to train the fish as if with a massage mattress. I put a massage mattress on my bed and it vibrates. I do not want to do fish, and this form of exercise is easier for me. I guess as much as happened today. For tomorrow I made an appointment with Łukasz for 4 pm. In addition, tomorrow I also have to go to the Rheumatologist. Maybe on the way he will stop at ul. Orkana 19 explore your testicles.

HomeFather

Dreams: Today I had 2 saved dreams. There were more, but I saved only two. The first one I called "a dream with a neighbor with a Polish dog". However, I have no idea what I might have meant. The second dream I remember was a lucid dream and I woke up quickly. I was running by the river at night. I was running and running and at one point I realized that I was having a lucid dream. January 27 Father at Home. Today I woke up quite late, a little before 6:00. I did mind exercises. Daddy slept on the couch at our house. I was worried about the drugs, whether I had to take them or would I get splashed. Finally in the morning I managed to smuggle them and went for a run. When I got back I made breakfast. We ate them together with my dad. Ba ... We even talked to each other. I made breakfast. About 12.00 Mum came. Dad has been here all day until now. I tested the InTuFlow day today At 6 p.m. I ate Pizzas. Today Dawid was repairing a damaged car in Malenka and bringing pizzas. A moment ago I had an inspiring conversation with Michał Staniszewski. I asked him today if he would like to become my mentor / spiritual guide. He replied that there was no time to say that you can learn everything from books yourself. That's how he learned everything he can. He talked a little about himself, he learned hypnosis in his childhood and he probably had a talent for it. Now I wonder a little - I was stupid. The angel told me to look for a spiritual guide, and here Michael tells me to learn by myself. What should I do? Oh, running in the evening I met this guy in goggles who sometimes practices in the park. We talked for a while. He showed me an interesting exercise with red handbags to grab the "blocks / cubes". Then the upper part of the chest also works during the exercise. I wonder if dad is staying here for the night? Today I started reading the book Kregoslup w Stresa. I also downloaded instructional videos for this book. Again I have not read two books a day, even if I have not read one ... Would you change the affirmation to "I read one book a day?"

InTuFlow

January 26 - InTuFlow Wake up at 4:00. I recovered enough after yesterday's training. I got up and started training my mind. Left hand, of course. Zonglujac even feels my brain "grow" as if I were exercising the strength of the muscles, so it exercises the strength of the muscles of the brain. Around 6:00 am I went to bed for meditation. Still in the corpse position, I listened to the Chakra Journey. This is probably the most pleasant music for meditation with HemiSync for me. She is brilliant and also regenerates chakra. I also had an idea to test something else. LSD was in motion. but I didn't listen too long. About 8:00 training. 10 return home. David wasn't here today, he was at work. Today I wanted to maniacally achieve hyperventilation by breathing. However, I failed. The fuck how do you do that ??? Once upon a time it was good for me the first time. Today I watched youtube InTuFlow. I took notes, it was very enjoyable training, I don't think I do all the exercises correctly, but I will test this training. However, it seems to me that performing it as a warm-up will probably take much longer than 10 minutes. Mom went somewhere today. I don't know where, but I thought tomorrow is the perfect time to go hungry. On the other hand, I thought: maybe we will clean the colon with apples? A whole day on apples? Choose new ones and I think I will choose it. Tomorrow a lot of running, we will check how my body will behave in the new situation. I'm worried about my feet lately. I have a bit of a pain from running where the bumps are forming. I did quite a tidying up in the room. It took me about 1 hour. I listen to music better: Kazik na zywo - Plamy na soncu. A moment ago there was quite an interesting situation. Mum was gone, dad asked me to take medication. I hesitated to swallow or spit out. Eventually I spat out. I felt fear. I went with Kaw to the room and then my dad asked a question about whether I would be able to remove the simlock from any card there. Oh fuck - my heart was beating again. Stress as hell will catch me. I tried to control my breathing and I said a random word: I think so ... The conversation started, I moved a lot to relieve the tension, my breath, my body is stronger under stress. I made it, I managed :)