Medical Glacial

February 28 - Medical Glodwka Morning - preparations for the trip. I woke up quite early, but around 5:30 am I started getting ready. I was a little afraid of what it would be, in addition I was cold, but I practiced a bit, I drank warm water and there was a guitar. Mom got up around 6:00. I was afraid of the confrontation with her, it's good that I left a note earlier. I also brewed a nettle on the road. I hesitated to take a thermos or not. On the one hand, I would have an additional ballast to carry. On the other hand, nettle would speed up the body's cleansing. Okay, I'm on my way. I was on the 6:45 bus. I still thought that I was fasting in such stinking places. Nothing special happened during the trip, apart from the fact that I got off at the end. This bus did not pass through the hospital. Moreover, I also hoped that I would meet Tomek Bereznicki at this time. I thought that he probably has to take an earlier bus to go to college. Well, unfortunately he wasn't there. Or maybe that day he had classes at a different time at university ... In the bus I also thought: today it is fast - it is worth losing precious life energy. I don't feel like masturbating at all and I don't feel any excitement whatsoever. So I decided that I would give up the spermiogram and delayed a visit to the Urologist. I was in the hospital very early, as if there weren't many people. I must have gone to Urological Registration first, wanting to change the date. Above me there was an elderly gentleman who wanted to have a deadline (he had just registered). So I offered him my deadline - I did a good deed by the way. This blonde with a nice hairstyle was also registered. I even liked her a bit. I went to an ophthalmology clinic. I spoke for a moment with a woman who reportedly has a cyst in her spine. I thought to myself - it's good that I don't have such a cyst. These cysts in my brain are hard to heal, let alone cysts on my feet and testicles. Apparently he writes that a starvation device is able to cure it - but somehow it does not work out very well. I waited a bit for an appointment with an ophthalmologist. I also thought that I would go to the blood donation center for the blood test results, but ... but I got old and did not go ... I was already there at the entrance, but I did not go. So I went back to the ophthalmologist's trough. I waited a long time patiently for my turn. There was a slight delay. The ophthalmologist and her assistant examined the eyesight, put some drops on them, let them out into the corridor and told them to come in 30 minutes. It took a little longer. I think in my head: I am fasting today, and I used chemical drugs for my eyes: I drank a lot of nettle to cleanse my body of these toxins. My head hurt a bit too, but I didn't panic. I also felt temporarily that my eye was very dry. Very dry, but faded quickly. I was also doing brain wave vibrations (head nodding) standing up. They were great for me, they gave me relaxation and a pleasant yawn, but in my head I think - it is a hospital, in addition I fast and unnecessarily breathe in the stale air: D I stopped so and I promised myself that I would do these vibrations at home on a pillow. On the other hand, now I'm thinking - it's still cold at home in my room, and I'm supposed to make brainwave vibrations on my pillow? I will wait for the spring, then there will be better conditions for this exercise. The fact is that an erect spine is very conducive to making vibrations! Aha, after these drops the light also made me dizzy. The ophthalmologist found a good left eye and 0.5 for the right eye. Prescribed glasses. I also wanted to ask for the result of the Dry Eye Syndrome consultation, but - I got old again. So why did I go to this ophthalmologist today ....? Then I went to the kiosk at the hospital. I bought grapefruit juice, felt hungry, so I decided to stop starving. There I met Kasia Skrzypczak, she was probably with her parents. Not much has changed in appearance. I saw her for the first time in 7 years, since the end of junior high school. I haven't seen her even once. And here it was now necessary to get to Stara Wieś beyond Limanowa, so that Mruk would set my backbone. 11:30 departure from Nowy Targ, 12:15 departure from Rabka with grandfather to Mszana. In the mszana I bought 2 grapefruit juices in Tesco - one pink and the other white. As I saw how much delicious food there is, I wanted to eat! I was also in a tesco toilet. Of course, I paid PLN 1, and I wanted to pee - in the end I drank 1 liter of grapefruit on the way. He was a nice guy whose daughter was in the ladies' room. He proposed that we will not pay and we will use it for free. Even when he was leaving, he looked after my net, he waited for me, but I didn't ask for it. It was very nice of him :) At 13:00 I left for Limanowa. Unfortunately, the bus went to some other stop, although I found a small market square. It was quite nearby, I asked local residents. I was looking for Stara Wies - I also asked busiers, it should be Stara Wies Wola. Aczkoliwek such a bus was not. I was also under a bit of stress because it was already around 2 p.m. and I had it at 2:30 p.m. Luckily, some bus driver told me to go through Opalane. I did the same and the bus driver dropped me off near Mruk. Another old lady told me on the bus. Fate and luck were on my side :) There was a tall guy at Mruk's. I entered almost immediately. The mruk was very accurate and solid, but at the same time nice. I used to have a personality like him, so I understand him. He asked to put the phone on the table instead of a chair, and hang the clothes on a hanger. I complied with his request, but he did so in a polite manner. I was glad on the one hand. I could tell you how solid and accurate you are in such tinsel, I think you will put me in a good position here :) He ordered to call on Tuesday and ask if it is possible to make an appointment, because, as he says - he is ill, his wife too and which week will be free because they are waiting for the hospital. He was such an old man when he was going out. I talked to him somehow, he seemed to be quite cool. A bit persuasive, I told you how I had 4 changes to get here. I managed to get in touch, finally I asked if he was going through the mass and if I could give me a lift. He agreed, just said I had to ask his son. I asked, agreed - such a villager by nature. The conversation started with Driving license and exams, then everything in the car. And in the car - what a shit. Cigarette smoke, garbage everywhere. Fuck, and I'm fasting today: D But think about it, I'll save a lot of money and time. He talked to me a lot, and I just wanted to be silent and not say anything. He blew me off in a mszana. In the mszana I took the bus to Rabka - quite new. I stood in the back where it was impossible to sit on these hard seats. There were also 3 cute girls in the back, but I didn't have the courage to talk to them. I don't think they are with me either. In the rabka I bought Maslanke and oatmeal in stescal. I moved on too. I breathed a bit, but I was depressed, but I was slightly deteriorated in my eyesight. After all, it was so beautiful, what is the reason. The eyes were tearing, the starvation tube was going well, and I hadn't regained my full vision. Maybe I'm sitting on this laptop too much and these electromagnetic waves ... Oh, I also pissed at the landlord. Why pay for a stescal toilet when it's free. I used to come back to the health resort of Rabka. I wanted to wait there and come home late, but as it was closed, I headed towards the house. While still in steskal, I bought two mesh - I was afraid of the spine, it was hard for me to carry so much in one hand. I felt cold needles, I was a little afraid ... At the back of the road, I stretched a little, pissed and headed home. At home, I ate a few apples, I was wrong. I tested WFM on a pillow, but briefly I was concerned: the weight was great, tomorrow I will do a summary of the results, but the biceps went to a puffy face. Only 36cm !!! Could your muscle mass also drop. In the morning the waist was only 78cm and the hips 81cm. Outstanding results. However, the books said that during the regeneration, the loss of muscle mass returns quickly. Tomorrow I want to exercise and check if the loss of muscle mass returns to normal. We'll see. After all, since I lost so much weight in the waist, I also had to burn fat, although it may also be the effect of intestinal contraction. We will see I signed up to weigh myself tomorrow and take measurements. Apart from that Today I offered 2 or 3 ads with my order: "In case of dissatisfaction, I will return 100% of the cost." Now I think so and I could write: "If you are dissatisfied, I will refund 100% of the cost." This is a much better persuasive text. One guy called me. I valued the order at PLN 797. I can write it, but my phone just fucking fell, hehe: D At home, I also tested WFM on a pillow. Great on a straight spine, just a little bit more in the neck. I hope it will cure it all someday. A long day full of adventure. As I read it now until I feel better, how many interesting things have happened today :) What I have learned today: During the conversation with the guest about the offer program, when I did not understand something, as if I was repeating the sentence: "aha, the program is to download tables, click here and ..." these three dots at this point I just stopped. I spoke slowly, slowly, and he finished it all over again. Guitar, simple.

Sad Glow

February 27 - Sad Glodowka Shoulder tiredness after sleeping on the side. The first day of the fast - we'll see how it goes. I see a lot of food everywhere, I have an appetite. I don't feel like starving to tell the truth, but I continued my hunger. Rafal - a child in the car. Little hair I didn't talk about sex. Today, a conversation about how feelings flow through me I got a message from Parsley for chlamydiosis. I told Rafal about it and I feel helpless that I can't help my boyfriend. We talked today about how feelings flow through me. After I left I called home to check if they were at home. They also called me. Fortunately, they were already leaving Starvation diet I was in town. I bought: nettle, urine containers. I saw a guy in town with a cool mohawk. He was walking with some blonde girl. I wanted and next time I also want to have such a true Mohawk! In the morning I threw out the food. In the afternoon too. I cooked dumplings for disguise. I hope these entries will never get into the hands of the family. I even started to analyze everything as in death note, but when I did, I had a lot of fears. So I preferred my chaotic tactic - to do everything haphazardly, somehow it will be. Now they fucking come. Stress grabbed me. I take a deep breath to control my stress ... Finish. I can't write anymore. I was so sad for the day. So sad, such a pointless life again.

Super Belly

February 26 - Super Belly In the morning in the morning I listened to the Diary of Maj. Earlier I was doing Rebrithing, I endured for quite a long time about 40 minutes, although I did not feel anything special. I listened to the diary very pleasantly - I was so happy then, in such a life euphoria. Was great! Today I was solving puzzles from mozgowiec.pl. It was fun and I managed to solve some of them on my own. It was actually the title of today's post, but so much happened today and I changed the title Tomorrow my parents are leaving. Meanwhile, I am preparing for a starvation. I want to do a 2-day fast. Day 3 will be a juice / butter diet etc ... Showing David's belly - I was shocked myself, as in the photo the radiator came out great Garlic and apple at 6pm. As a light meal before the starvation season. Today, the second dose of Azitrox. It should be done for 3 days, but due to this and tomorrow's starvation, I will give up tomorrow's dose. One tablet left to spare. Already in the afternoon I felt the first effects, as if the journey was "going back", it was only on the outer parts of my body cells. I had an old testicular ache and also half of my wrist which I felt many times during the gym. It is a relatively pleasant pain, much smaller compared to the aches traveling through the body. I think azitrox helped me a bit I also made a plan for a 2-day starvation :) Ah, how great, I hope that everything will work out. Parents leave in the morning, I will go to Rafal in the morning. When I come back, I hope they won't be there anymore. However, what about breakfast? I will procrastinate, stretch myself, go wash myself. I can also come home much later. Yes, it will probably be one of the best solutions, come a little later even at 11:00 and then procrastinate. However, when I am leaving in the morning, my mother will tell me if I should take the key with me. It will be a signal and when I get back there will be a good chance and there will be no more. How do I check if they are at home? I will call you on a landline :) If David's gone, he'll test a lemon enema. You will need to wash the enema container, rinse it with hot water - I think that's enough. Washing with lotions is probably a bad idea, cleanse with lemon juice. I don't feel like doing this enema, somehow I have a negative attitude towards it - I'm afraid it won't work again. But it is worth teaching this wonderful method of unconventional medicine. I think that's enough of the plans for tomorrow. I can't wait - starvation :) Although I am still thinking - how will I spend tomorrow so that it was interesting? E there, I'll be home alone. My mom doesn't have a neurologist until 3 p.m., let's assume that at least until 4 p.m. plus the journey home. But what if he arrives earlier? I have to get rid of the dinner earlier, even somewhere between 12-13. And David? If he was home at this time? hmmm ... I'll wait until he is sitting on the PC, or wait until he goes somewhere. We will have to be vigilant. However, we think positively that the starvation will definitely succeed. It is the first time that he analyzes and predicts life in this way. I don't feel pain, azitrox soothes it. However, I always thought that somehow it would be and I was good for it ....

Azitrox

February 25 - Azitrox As always, a light nonsense in life. I didn't want anything. Today I watched the dexter, I ran a bit - but because of the long break I was terribly tired. Besides, I had to register for a spermiogram today, but so far I have not done so. Cramp now I think - I started azitrox therapy - so that something in the spermiogram would not work out. Traveling pain rages through the body. Since then it started to attach to the intestines, prostate, throat, that is, the digestive system - it goes crazy. It does not budge for a moment. Out of horror, I started the azitrox therapy that I had bought an hour ago. I wonder if something will help me or at least keep this wandering bacteria chlamydia. In the morning you will need to buy a trilac during training. And in addition, I will support myself with NAC. what about baking soda. Brother can he leave her alone? I was also in the herbal store for Rhodiola today. I met Darek Michalak. I don't think he noticed me. I felt stupid to say hello to him. I have lost my ability to communicate with people. I lost ... and therefore I chose to avoid talking to him. I have lost my sharp retort, my creative abilities and in addition I do not want to exercise my mind. I eat a lot, too much. But on Wednesday we will make a decent post when the parents are not home :)

Connecting under the brain

February 24 - Growing eyes under the brain Today, chlamydia began to attach from my throat to my brain and eyes. She has not traveled there for a long time. However, the only ailment is wandering pain in different parts of the body. For this headache and right eye pain, back pain - joints are already great. Lump on the testicle and nodules on the feet. Today I was looking for a careful spiritual master. I wrote to RichZonePL, although he did not have time to help me, he declared that he would be happy to answer my questions. Final state wrote to me today. He asked me one exercise, but due to the pain that moves, I am not able to think normally. Whore... But it is better .... My body is not poisoned with toxins and thick blood ... Something else today: workouts in the morning and evening, some breathing but as usual I gave up. She wrote to me a fairy from which I bought a fairy for the whole year. Such a scandal. The first half of the year is good and you go ahead, love triangle, going abroad in autumn. So-so, this scandal very short ... For my 4 questions - breathing exercises according to her, she does well, but I do not accept thoughts. I am not going to renew my friendships by far. Mirriel, according to her, is lying to me, she is not sure what she is doing ... I offered Esther to undergo hypnosis especially for me - but he refused. Has anything else happened today? In the morning I even wanted to exercise my mind, but now since chlamydia has attacked my brain and eyes again - I don't really want to do that.

AttachingPodProstate

February 23 - Prostate attachment In the morning I left the house. I ate 2 bars of chocolate. One from cheap, the other from Carefour, white chocolate. I liked it very much. Then I bought Kodeine at the Pharmacy - I had a great desire for it today. I ate at home. The effects were already after 15 minutes, so I became convinced that chocolate must strengthen the codeine - it worked great. That tram guy called today. He pledged to take a risk and send me a letter Tramal, and then I would send him money. Amazing - what a gesture of trust :) I hope he will send it to me. The change of skin to perfect health resulted in drastic declines in visits Laptop extension - more willingness to work. I have been working on my blog a lot today, although I think it is also the effect of codeine. Traveling pain in the prostate - today chlamydia began to attach to the prostate, and with it the intestines, esophagus, throat, testes ... Cramps ... And it was so good, the traveling pain was practically limited only to the knee and ankle , rarely hips and leg muscles. Fuck ... In despair I eat garlic, soda soda - I think about that fucking traveling pain, about my defeat. Although, on the other hand, I told myself that I crave for wandering pain - to pay attention to the sick parts of the body that I am supposed to heal ... Clotnia with my mother that my heart hurts - it's to a cardiologist! Further tests the baking soda. Mirriel had just written - she asked if something was wrong. I think he'll write her back with something twitching. I tested breathing with this weight on my stomach today. Breathes much better, even brilliantly. However, I still do not feel the energy in the form of tingling. Today I also practiced my mind - specifically juggling balls. For moments to sleep, maybe I'll do rebrithing on the occasion.

CoZaKurwaNoss

February 22 - What a fucking nonsense Oh, how would I like to regain my mental skills that I lost a year ago since I was in the hospital ... fucking psychotropics. The whore doesn't want super psychic powers anymore, but regain her amazing good fucking mac !!! Today I tried to repair the computer of our neighbour's chairman. I cleaned the entire keyboard, but when I asked something, I had a problem speaking ... In addition, I really wanted to give me peace of mind, I don't want to be known as an IT specialist anymore ... I tried to do something on my website, commissioned programming, but I gave up. I did not feel like it. I don't give a fucking shit !!! I was late for dinner - up to seven slices ... FUCKING FUCKING MAC !!! WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO FUCKING ANGLES? WHAT THE FUCK IS ROBICCCCCCCC ????

Fight with creativity

February 21 - Fighting Creativity In the morning I resumed running. However, I was quite tired and didn't run much I bought nothing dental today and I'm starting to wash my teeth today. I also bought new super shoes in Alberta for only 58 PLN. A bit too big but at least they don't get wet. Looking further at DeathNote, I noticed my resemblance in L due to the times of strong back pain. Maybe he also had serious problems with the spine, he was harmed by fate and life, which made him decide to become the best detective in the world and administer justice. In the evening I talked to Mateusz the business. I helped him a little with his website and I earned 20 zlotys. After that, I felt like starting another blog about programming. And so I did, but when it came time to write an article, I tried to write something - but nothing came out ... It's too beautiful to be true for me to break out of this vicious circle ... Will this cleaning of the aura help me at all? Probably not... Revenge, force, anger, hatred, power, intelligence, creativity.

Sending Hate

February 20 - Sending Hate A day written on time. I will shorten, however, because I do not want to write: Today I wrote a poisonous text message to my cousin Ola. There were words of shame that I am now unable to help anyone and I am not mother teresa. I think I hurt. In response, I received something like that and she just wanted to ask how is it healthy, etc ... Exactly ... I would like to believe it, but why would I ask? Yesterday she really wanted me to contact her? Just to tell you how's my health? Some nonsense ... Maybe she wanted to ask how healthy, but she probably wanted me to help her more - and now I'm not going to help anyone - I have my own problems. Second text message to Kaja: I wrote something like: I'm sorry, but I won't take these pictures of you because I hate taking pictures of myself. I received a nice return text message and she wanted to take pictures of Krakow's architecture ... Third text message to Adam Paternoga: I said I won't come today. I also consulted with the fairy how today's meeting would look like. Apparently it would be nice if I came, although I decided that I would not go anywhere! End and period. One that I do not want to pay for the Christian religion and two: I wanted to hurt people today ... Emanate hatred. In the afternoon I slept, practiced something, continued the therapy with baking soda. I increased the garlic to 2 balls for the evening. I don't remember any more sins. And, as usual, inefficient breathing.

KrakowskiTaste of Freedom

February 19 - Krakow's Taste of Freedom Today is Tuesday, so like every Tuesday meeting with Rafal Pawlik. So I went to him at 8:30. As always, the door was slightly ajar. I go in and ask if there is anyone. So I enter a large room and it turned out that our neighbor was a drug addict and a drunkard from Jadzia zaryTY. I have nothing against him, I even think he's cool guy and I like him. So I entered the room where we usually have our talks and Rafal Pawlik came in a moment. He even asked, "I guess are you nervous?" I answer him with no. I could also add that it may seem to him because of this and I was running. For this guy (his name is Leszek from what I remember) he was doing driving tests. Traditionally tea - I chose green with cranberry and raspberry. We talked today about the fact that I cannot read the book, The Gift of Fear. He said it was interesting and in my words there is hate, anger, love, joy - but fear never appears. So he wonders what am I afraid of? I told him about my experiences in meditation in 2011. How I felt creativity, intelligence, power of mind then, I had to clean the room, tidied up the mess in my mind ... It was a beautiful experience, and it was going for it. I also mentioned how I am stuck in a vicious circle of experience for meditation. After the session was over, I went home. I ate 2 more onion sandwiches. In the morning I ate a lot of Nutella. I think I forgot to write in yesterday's report that I ate codeine last night. It was divine, I felt that codeine was better than Tramal. Returning, however, to today - we went to Krakow - I prepared temporarily - money, documents, telephone. It's good that my pension came today. My dad dropped me off almost directly at Bonifratrov, but when I saw that there were 14 people in the line before me, I decided to go and do other things. I got on the first tram no. 13 and I was met by the ticket control ... I showed my documents entitling me to a free ride. The first one I went to WSZIB to collect a certificate. I was surprised by the fact that there was only a copy of my certificate ... Strange, I was determined to attend this school and I was sure that there is also an original there. Well, I did not argue, I bought a plastic bag in the meat shop for 80 groszy to be able to store this document in what. Then I went to the Dietl Hospital, where they treated me with a neurotic heart attack two years ago. I took an x-ray of the spine for which I paid 11 zlotys. I was surprised that the spine seemed to "shine" in the photo. Interestingly, then, as if under the influence of a mental shock from my head, toxins / dead bacteria passed through my spine and spread throughout my body, giving you the training of blood density. To get to the hospital, in the street, I asked a girl for directions. I felt a bit of fear - after all, I hadn't picked up girls for a long time. Next direction Ochikara. Here I had a lot of thoughts - I imagined the conversation with the director, then I imagined him fighting for me, how he wanted me to stay. Eventually the conversation ended with a conversation with Mrs. secretary. There were no major problems. I felt a bit of regret, sadness that I could not study here - it was the school of my dreams! I imagined the director calling me tomorrow and asking why I left. I went to Tesco with stupid things. It was around 1pm - 2pm, the Bonifraters were open with Jolanta Palen from 3pm. I don't know why I went to Tesco, something my instincts guided me to. In tesko I received a message from Kaja "Hey Kotku: * I passed the exam !!!!". I congratulated and wrote that she would come to me. Then I thought, after all, I did not write anything I'm doing, and I was glad when Kaja wrote what was going on with her. So I wrote a second correction text message that I'm in Krakow and I'm dealing with a few things today. I think she did it nice because of that, and besides, she received 2 text messages from me. She also asked me for a few photos especially for her - but I hate taking pictures so much ... What should I send her? She might just write about it tomorrow, I don't know ... In Tesco I also got a message from Adam Paternoga. He was inviting me to a meeting tomorrow at their home. Cramp to go or not to go? I like the Christian religion, on the other hand, I would like to meet them - I like them, I like Maks's family. What to do? Maybe I will ask cards now? I just checked - I don't understand the interpretation of these cards ... I don't understand ... PS Oh, while I was in Wszibus, I threw a tegretol tablet. I was a bit afraid that there are webcams and it may be some kind of scandal with me. There was also a draw for a number for the dean's office. In general, the dean's office was moved up. In the waiting room I asked how I should behave - the students were eager to answer me. Coming back to the trip around Krakow - perhaps I will forget the fact that I went to Ochikara through the Debnica market and there I bought gum and coffee yoghurt with white poison or sugar in a nearby store. But he was good, and also kopiko. At Bonifratrov I met two interesting guests. I asked them how old they are, one is 23, the other is 29. I made an appointment with the one who was 29 on Facebook. He was a graphic designer, fasted 10 days, loved poetry - nice guy. I am glad that I was able to make a new acquaintance. We talked well. He also had a problem with his spine, he was helped by vitamin B. He took me to the fennel hospital. Maybe a little, and that was not on my hands, because I wanted to investigate the operation of the wifi network in this hospital, but since he went with me to the hospital. In the hospital, in the nephrology clinic, we also pissed in the toilet. Oh, you really wanted to pee. Awful. I was also afraid not to meet Martyna - my dad's friend, a nephrologist who also referred me to a psychiatrist with my problems ... I broke up with my new friend Sebastian, hoping that we will meet again. Walking around Krakow, he probably met 2 of his friends. I bought cookies in a nearby shop, I think they were called Klementnki - cookies made of various grains and sugar. It is a pity that there was this fucking sugar ... I also saw my dad and my mum near Copernicus, but they probably didn't recognize me ... In the gallery, I ate these cookies at McDonald's upstairs, watched a few people. Then, on foot, I went to the ZEN center, although I got lost a bit and had to look for a way. Being in the center I didn't know how to say hello to new people, especially girls. God!!! With one I greeted somehow stupid, somehow I was ashamed and when I am ashamed I make a strange grimace on my face as masking this feeling. But shame :) I meditated a bit and after the second series I left with Antoni. Today I was sitting on a red mat - I had a slight problem with numbness in my legs, my spine was much better. I talked to Antoni what meditation is for him and what he wants to achieve by it: he wants to be good to people, get to know himself, be a kindly good person. I don't think he knows the real powers of meditation! I told him about my experiences with meditation. We spread out on the market square, I went to the galleries. While still meditating, Ola Kosmider called me 2x, and in fact Hunka already. I was wondering what she could want from me - because she called twice in a row, I suppose it was something urgent. Black thoughts already in my head - what should I say, I must hide it from my family that I am going to meditation. Then phone calls from my dad, luckily they weren't in the gallery yet and we managed to get there on time. PS Oh, being, or rather leaving from the Bonifraters, we had to go back to the pharmacy to buy drugs, or rather herbs :) In the gallery I had a slight problem finding Dad's car, but I found it at stand A. We drove home, and on the way we stopped at a petrol station. I was sitting in the back of the car exceptionally, it gave me such a stable meditative position in which I fell asleep. I guess I'll be in the back seat in the future. At home my feet hurt and they called for help. The cold water gave them energy. I ate cipsy, chocolate - what the hell ...

Baking soda

February 18 - Baking soda Morning workout in the park. I also played Bubble IQ. Today I didn't want to exercise my mind, I preferred to lie in bed Today I started the baking soda treatment. We'll see what happens Shopping in the afternoon. I bought flip flops, a hair razor and headphones. panic because of sight. Cold needles again. I was preparing a bit for tomorrow's trip to Krakow. I showed David the belly. He liked my slightly muscular radiator. In the evening I ate 4 slices with butter and garlic + 2 rolls Tomorrow I'm going to Krakow. Lots of things to do.

Meditation TV

Dream: some grandmother, I was suggesting ointment for the joints. I felt sorry for her I slept in my clothes, February 17 - Meditation TV Laptop in bed - completely new interesting experience. Thanks to this, I don't think about pain. I spent almost the whole day in bed. I turned on Dr. House today and then watched many episodes of DeathNote. It made me relax in bed meditatively, maybe more hypnotic. In addition, I kept repeating the mantra: my body is hot, my body is hot ... Written by Drops and Mateusz Labuda. Mateusz wrote what's going on with me. In a way, I dismissed him, I didn't want to talk to him. It seems to me that I felt a surge of energy momentarily, but I quickly wanted to suppress it. I wanted to be creative again, create computer programs to earn money, but when I went to the computer I think to myself: crap I don't want to ... I have to suppress it, get rid of it, I want to be lazy and go to bed. Today I'm going to sleep with my clothes on again. It's a new experience for me, it's something else.

HymnKu GloryTramalowi

February 16 - Hymn To the Glory of Tramal A day on time. Walk in the morning, breathe, but I didn't feel like anything. Then a hearty breakfast of 5 slices, but a whole onion to kill the bacteria in me. Guilt again for eating so much. this conflict again - I would like to switch to light feeding, I don't need food. How much money would I save on scorching, how much time. That would be cool. on the other hand, I succumbed to the temptation to taste and stuff my stomach. But yesterday afternoon I was stuck in a beautiful feeling of light hunger where I felt a lot of energy. It was so beautiful Today I feel sorry for myself again. In the morning I had a bit of energy, I wrote an article on my website about vitamin C, I made a new logo, then I went into a state of sapascia, self-criticism, feeling that nothing will fucking help me and everything shot. At the same time, while writing this article, I was thinking about my physical ailments, about traveling pain, about cold needles ... Yes, I knew I was taking a tram today. In the afternoon I took it, but also went to the alberta store, but it was closed. Today I had an interesting conversation with Esther - it was great talking about the NLP Scam artists in this King Arthur, about medicine, about the tram. Tramal drank Inka Bean Coffee, but it worked great. For the evening: I fucking ate all the chocolate. FUCK feeling guilty again, but she was so delicious. When not in exercise feels stagnant power, I feel that I have to eat. And when I'm exercising my energy is positive and I don't feel the need to eat sweets. You have to exercise and run, but on the other hand, I'm really afraid to run now. I'm really scared ... About the heels, those cold needles. Tramal worked divine. DIVINELY! Maybe the coffee enhanced the effect, even though I read that it does not contain caffeine. BOSKO and blogo. Washes effects after 1 hour, and after 2 hours a total departure in a crib. My mother interrupted me about 20 for obvious reasons. Then this chocolate, a dot dot made it impossible for me to go to bed now according to my principles of healthy eating. Even the food will rot in my stomach, and in addition I felt like a pig before going to sleep. Whore. I was also going to put my masturbations aside to feel the energy, but whatever. It is like chocolate to me, like candy. What will I regret. Ester just wrote about some technique of raising energy. I'm already looking at the gg.

Invitation

February 15 - Max's invitation I woke up quite early. I noticed that chlamydia started attaching to the heart and kidneys. She has not attacked there for a long time. Trial of Valerianov - Lipa. The only advantage of the valerian test was that it was breathing at night. I felt a slight slight tingling sensation, especially concentrating on the exhale. I do not create breath on rigid rules, it is important that it be calm, deep and diaphragmatic. Baking soda test to refresh the air. Just in the evening, Dad said that it smells like a hospital here. In addition, after the morning training, I cleaned the room. How beautiful and clean here now. At 2 p.m. I felt a little hungry. This is probably the effect of a light morning breakfast and lack of food and training. After the morning training I felt a mega positive energy boost. In the afternoon around 4 p.m. mum went to church to pray. She complained about her finger. I started with intuflow and training legs and abdomen. I wanted to start using baking soda today, but I postponed it to tomorrow. After today's training day, I didn't feel like sweets at all. Something incredible. I even threw out the Rafaello my mom gave me. The feeling of a slight hunger for lightness in my stomach was very pleasant for me. At 6 p.m. I went to Maks, he invited me for today. We ate scrambled eggs which his dad made especially for this occasion. She was great. We watched the Avengers movie together with the max - pretty cool lyrics and special effects, but the story was so-so. Still, I'd rather talk to Max and talk to him instead of watching movies. It's good that I sat down next to him on the couch. Thanks to this, I felt his closeness. He also showed me tons of chops they keep in the bathroom. Max's dad invited me to their house, I didn't understand exactly, but their house was as if chosen by the representatives of the attic. That's how I understood ... But, I want to stay away from the Catholic religion, and on the other hand, I like Maks's house, his parents' house and this unique atmosphere. Now I got a joke: Honey, I would eat you with potatoes and cabbage�: D In addition, there was also the situation with Ola. Ola greeted me, but I didn't know what to do. Maks took me to the house after the movie. I think there were the most beautiful moments here. At my place, we talked about college, about what he wants to do in life, and that Maks is jealous on the one hand for being alone. It was a fun conversation, I felt we were together again. I came home, there was chocolate. And cramps, I ate an inch, 700kcal per night. Fuck me, if I don't eat sweets here. But I was successful. I see that physical exercises make me feel like I don't feel like sweets, but for the night this desire came back. Weird... PS A moment ago I had quite a lot of positive mental energy. So I started moderating the blog. To my surprise, the goo results went up a bit despite my 1.5 months of laziness and lack of website positioning and in addition some wedge on this dynamic template, although I only earned 2 cents. Now I found a really nice cool and clean template. He's moderating his blog. I am proud of it, the ads also compose nicely. I think I finally found a template for myself :) Oh, most of the visits come from google.

I asked for everything

February 14 - I asked for everything - I got everything ... Free planet. Today I read about UFO 50 PLN from a neighbor for a laptop Writing a letter to Kaji. Now I'll be testing Valerian droplets in the evening. My attitude towards lucid dreaming is small, although after DXM also my attitude is small and various strange things are happening ... I don't feel like writing much today. I asked for everything, I got everything. I wanted to suffer - I suffered. I wanted to be like Wojewodzki - I was like House - I was Dr. House and I had super indestructible retort. I wanted to be like Sawyer, like Maksym - I was too. I was like a chameleon - whoever I wanted to be, I was. Now I want to get it back because I still feel like nobody despite these affirmations. I am not able to play anyone. I feel like nobody. Now I see what a great gift I had. Fucking Ablify!

Hopono (2)

February 13 - Hopono In the morning I argued with my mother about how many slices I can eat. Today is a great strict post so only allowed me to eat one slice. I put some cheese on myself, it still clung to the fact that there is cheese, it should be eaten without cheese because Jesus suffered terribly on the cross. Later, even out of anger, I ate snickers and peanuts. It is true that without her presence, but there was something about me to anger her. morning training I saw an eagle shade. I didn't do all the exercises. Today I resumed training. I also resumed my mind training a little. In the afternoon I did not do sit-ups, I did not warm up, but it made me overcome this great laziness. adrian - hopnono - as he claims saying these five words changed his life. I feel happy, I do not hate. And as he claims, he read many books for 2 years and shit changed his life. 1 is that you say in your mind the words: I'm sorry, forgive me, please, thank you, I love you Captain Bomba - Driving without a ticket is like driving without a rubber band - cheaper but more dangerous. Hehe: D In addition, in the evening I read a book a little, it was about the miraculous power of garlic and onions. About color therapy. In addition, I was unlucky enough to pour the coffee on the recipient and my notebook with notes got a little wet. Dad tried to help find a thief on the Allegro. I wrote today with Kaj�. Something was hard to make this conversation. She wrote me that she missed. I too ... - I replied. I was thinking to write her a text message

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February 12 - Borderline Suggestion The morning after cleansing. I woke up many times during the night and finally slept on my stomach. In the morning I went to Rafal Pawlik. Today I revealed to him the secret of my personality: I am an actor and I am able to play anyone. We discussed this for a long time. In addition, for the day I was downloading a movie about a girl who had a similar personality disorder, but because I did not identify with her and, moreover, I had already watched this movie - I interrupted it and deleted it from my hard drive, following the Polish law. I also listened to a little radio broadcast, but I didn't like it either. I accept my personality. I like who I am. I don't want some psychotropic to take away my acting skills.

Today, cleaning

February 11 - Today it seems like a Purification The day was mainly spent at home. I am still gorging myself on sweets and food, and the situation has been going on somewhere since the day I gave up my blood. On the one hand, I want to be scared, and on the other hand, I have a hard time feeling guilty. I wrote back to the Gracians a moment ago. In just over 2 hours, the aura will be cleared. And I ate a lot, I was overwhelmed with sweets. But fuck with it, at least I will read the decree 20x That's probably what I have to say today ... But I feel depleted - I ate so much for dinner a moment ago, still at 20:00. How not to get pissed? Probably when I get up to weight and see that I will get fat ...

Shambhala

February 10 - Shambhala Sleep: a bleeding lump in the foot. Yesterday was written with a delay, so I will shorten it as much as possible. I entered the Shambhala Meditation Center. I remember talking to a girl when I was leaving about my health. Generally, I was taciturn in company. In the evening, Gracjana wrote to me, today I wrote her something back. I ate sweets like a pig. I even thought about the tram, but today I have a clean-up ... FUCK, What to do? Fuck Wam In Dupe Aniolki !!!

ChujWamWDupeAniolki5

February 9 - Fuck You In Dupe Angels 5 Dream: szymon got a flat in the Rabka hospital. One little green room like in the basement of a hospital. Today I was doing interesting things: I marched a lot in the park, trying to perfect the hate march with my original technique of deepened breathing. Clenched fists for me are a brilliant uniform, they wonderfully discharge the hatred that is inside me. I was in a science institute to do something new A moment ago I took a tram, some 50 minutes ago, around 9:00 pm Fuck your ass angels! Fuck I still think about pain, cold needles in his heels, spine. I'm afraid ... But the tram will surely ease the matter ... I am waiting for the full power of the tram, I juggled a little to strengthen its operation. Today I watched a bit of a fairy, a bit of Krzysztof Jackiewicz, the famous clairvoyant. Now I'm talking to the ester. After all, after the tram I have a great desire to talk to people. I found PLN 20 in my jacket today. The extra money will definitely come in handy. Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to a Zen center in Krakow, but somehow I don't count that she will help me the first time. 15:40 I'm supposed to be there. I still have to check the timetable of buses in Krakow. Although my technique is: do everything in excitement, anyhow. Maybe it's bad, but it feels good. I like to be impulsive, chaotic and irresponsible. I like to do everything haphazardly. I listen to vegito1089 music all the time. She is great. How vegeta turned into Majin Vegeta, that hate! She's beautiful. I like that feeling. I only want to be angry, hateful, only when I regain my full mental potential. I feel suck, I feel bad. Ritalin? Meditation, breathing didn't help. He can get this Ritalin. Can Donata Bargiel prescribe it for me? FUCK YOU IN DUPE ANIOLKI !!! FUCK YOUR FUCKING PROPHECIES AND MEDITATIONS

March of Hate

February 8 - March of Hate dream: These friends of my aunties from vacationing countries offered me work on a construction site. strange because somehow in the car still in the toddler I explained what I can and gives up. Matthew said he would have to find someone on the offer. March of Hate - breath and tight fists Mrs. Gosia's laptop with a dog. Vegito1089 music full of hate. Marek Truczka and others ... malgorzata Rakowska backbone. Today I was also looking for a doctor from Nowa Sól. I wrote down a 20 point plan to find it. I have also read the instructions for cleaning the aura on Monday. I took notes. I just called Arek about a PLN 200 loan. I need Malgorzate Rakowska. What is interesting is probably the daughter of Andrzej Rakowski. He conducts classes in Zakopane and probably also has an office there. Cramps because he's alive with these cold needles My tailbone started teasing me too. I took the Codeine pill out of fear. Tramalu I only have 4 tbl so I prefer to save on pleasure or unpleasant moments, while Antidol probably relieved the pain perfectly. I also used the ointment from Bonifratov. I lived so much today Malgorzata Rakowska - spine specialist. Besides, I ate loads of chocolate again today. PS Being on a walk in the afternoon, I reached the top of Albert. I was in a clothing store where there was a lot of nice things that I liked. Shoes fastened on the side for about PLN 65, flip-flops, earphones and many other interesting things that I would like to buy at a really decent price. When I get an ejection I have to go up there.

Donate Blood

February 7 - Donate Blood Sleep: taking blood from Marta. Marta stuck needles in the wrong. In the morning, I woke up around 5:30 but of course I was still lying in bed. I got up in the morning, brewed a thermos with herbs, prepared a pillow for sitting, ate a light breakfast and went to the bus stop. I got on the Red bus, a moment later Marta joined. We went to the new market together. When we got out, I forgot to take my gloves with me. First, we went to the labor office which was located at the back of the hospital. Very nice clean. However, we quickly left and headed towards the blood donation station. I think I saw Rite Jozwiakowska on the way. I even thought about her, I was a bit afraid of contact with her. While we were there, we filled out the questionnaire. I mentioned that butcher's disease and that I pose a risk of infectious diseases. Ladies reading this poll were a little scared. I tried to keep myself calm. I was controlling my breathing. I was also a little nervous about what it will be. Numerous questions about the butcher, the doctor then examined me. Throat, eyes, glands, she said fine. She was probably a little scared by the pressure of 160 / xx, but she said it was nervous :) My blood was drawn. When I was still looking at what was typed into the computer - my case of the butcher was described. In some qualifications, I think I got a red -1 instead of a green one. hehe 8 chocolates, juice and canned food as a reward. I went out and ate some chocolate in the corridor. Earlier, the ladies also treated me to tea. We moved towards the gallery. We walked a slightly different way through the cemetery. We went out through the halls and into the gallery. There we missed 1 bus, for the second we had to run to the stop. We made it. Home later, nothing special. I played a bit of these stick insects. Being on the bus, I plunged into the world of imagination. I imagined how I was finally in the hospital in Nowy Targ, I found dr. House z Nowa Sól and I dismiss him, saying: I'm fine, I'm healthy. I'm fine ... These my fantasies and dark imaginations lasted quite a long time, most of the journey until I started talking to Mart. At home, I tested Rebrithing a little while I slept. I ate a total of 3 chocolates today, a hearty dinner of 7 slices. This remorse again. In addition, my feet hurt a lot today ...: ((Terrible, maybe I exaggerated, but the pain is quite clear. I'm afraid of this pain) To ease the pain, I soaked them in cold water with affirmations. After getting wet, however, I got a slight cramp in my lower legs. I forgot to warm my feet at the end and hence the cramp. But I thought to myself - no panic. We will use something new. I have tested the fast repetition of affirmations over and over: my legs are hot. But something was working poorly, I just kept repeating like a parrot. I wasn't sure it would work. I changed my auto-suggestions to: my calves are hot as fire. A slightly sharper tone of the voice, and the word fire somewhere in my consciousness and in my subconscious, produced fire in my feet. Ah, this pain stop ... I also tested a bit of rebritning today. It was supposed to be classic breathing, but it turned into Rebritning. Oh, at 3 p.m. after lunch, I went to buses. I got my gloves back. I saw the guy and he was proud of himself and he could help me :) Thanks mate! :) Something else important regarding the imagination http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSgcixeadn8 I'm listening to it now. There was a story from Majin Vegeta, this music made me hate. I had such stupid imaginations that I was entering Skawinska, stabbing my own blood in the shoulder of a Marksman, and hypnotizing him by making a plant out of him. Markiewicz falls into madness, a psychological shock caused by hypnosis, and my infected blood ... Blackmailing doctors that if they want, let them save their most outstanding specialist. I leave them my notes and my observations on this strange unknown disease. Act. for him they certainly did everything to save him ... I haven't had such visions for a long time. It really is a long time since I plunged into the world of imagination. It moved me to a completely different world, when I was happy and lived with my grandfather. Imagination... Ah, those feet, I'm scared. What to do now? Rebritning, auto-suggestion ?? Right to sleep, maybe start with 5 minutes of auto-suggestion and then Rebritning. Oh, they wrote back to me today from the Shambala Zen Center. I have declared that I will come on Sunday 15:40. I think I only had 20 zlotys left for the trip to Krakow. I will have to go down the bus so that I can stay a little bit.

ChujWamWDupeAniolki4

February 6 - Fuck You In Dupe Angels 4 It continues the series from the Chuj Wam W Dupe Aniolki 4 series I didn't exercise in the morning, I didn't feel like it. Sometime before noon, Uncle Rafal called. He asked me for help in creating a website. I felt so valued, I would like to create a website for him and I will position it. I noticed how my psyche functioned differently then. I forgot about revenge on my father, I plunged into my dreams just like when I lived with my grandfather. I imagined the conversation with Rafal, when I am with him, we talk about these topics, when I know bioenergy therapies and I help them with their health problems. As I flash medical knowledge and they admire me. I imagined it all for some time. In addition, I have played this game related to stick ninja for a long time today. Great little game. My fingers hurt from playing. Today I was at PPU Zdrojowa to register for treatments. I have to wait until this is sent to the fund, a letter will come to me and I can have treatments. I started watching a movie about the spine a bit, but somehow I didn't want to watch it for a long time. I also read the book, or rather read its half of the Bioenergotherapist's Guide, but there is probably not much about bioenergotherapy, but there is a lot about natural methods of treatment. I took some notes.

ChujWamWDupeAniolki3

February 5 - Fuck You In Dupe Angels 3 Yesterday was written with a delay Dream: I had a dream with a psychiatric hospital in the new market again and again. I dreamed that I had registered to the hospital. Discussion with the nurse why I waited for 1.5 months with registration. In the morning I went to Rafal Pawlik's. What I remember from our conversation is about a dream where blood is dripping from my right eye. I didn't do anything for the day. I was afraid of new cold needles in my head. I was afraid of cold needles on my feet and the heels of the spine. I passed in bed. In addition, I was playing this cool little game with the guy. Super game. I listened to the diary from March. I didn't even train my mind, I didn't want to.

ChujWamWDupeAniolki2

February 4 - Fuck You In Dupe Angels 2 I was in bed for the day. I got sick like a pig. I read something there but not much. I didn't feel like anything. I ate even when my stomach hurt, which on the one hand gave me pleasure and on the other hand I felt guilty .... I found a textbook on Neurology. I read a little so that I will know how to simulate the necessary neurological tests.

ChujWamWDupeAniolki

February 3 - Get in your ass Angels! Dream: a narrow psychiatric hospital in a new market. Rooms like wood. My mouth closed after eating a saffron milk cake. Although I could speak very sensitively, I couldn't. Today what happened. Full of anger at my father. I watched a little dr. House. I was doing nothing. I talked to Kaja a little. So I wanted to tell her what I feel, what I think, but on the other hand I wanted to be alone, I don't want to have anyone. I desperately visit the post office every now and then to receive some comforting message from someone. Huj Wam in Dupe Aniolki. I'm reading your scribbles, god fucking what a fuck !!! I found a meditation center on the internet. Interestingly, it is still located at 14/17 Mostowa Street in Krakow, just like a Krakow Zen center. I wrote an email to them and wanted to come in and become their student. We'll see what happens. In dr. Housie was a blonde girl, pretty pretty who felt no pain. There was also the pianist Genius, who became a genius pianist after a car accident. All day long I thought about my father. How I fucking hate him. How much I want revenge !!!

We are resuming Rhodiole

Late sleep, stopping running, Rhodiola, a new mind game - great. A walk, a dinner party, cheesecake, cold needles in the heels and spine. Reading the diary, attempted break-in at the university hospital, Dr. house viewing. February 2 - We are renewing Rhodiola In the morning I did not exercise, I did not run, I did not train my mind. Blogo I was lying in bed. I made myself free from this strict routine. I was lying in the nonsense of life. I resumed Rhodiole today. I watched dr. House. To think that a year ago I had such great talk as he did, and now I can't get it back. I have installed 2 mind training programs on android. I tested one - I liked it a lot, really cool games. I ate dinner at 12 and I was full of sandwiches. A real stew in the pot. Feeling guilty, regret caused me to go for a walk to burn it all down. I met Patryk Kuc in the car. I was walking exceptionally across the river and the end of Nowy Świat. Today I listened to my diary from January and February 2011 when I was the happiest man on earth. I felt a bit of guilt when I listened to Kasia's thread. I feel like an asshole - I hurt her. I would love to make it up to her. Sorry, Kasia ... Today I was afraid of cold needles in my heels and spine ... Today I watched a few episodes of dr. House. It was about a girl who was a dwarf who needed growth hormone, about Fireboy who had broken heart syndrome - and I associated it with myself. It was also about a little girl whose hands were almost amputated. In the evening I was talking to Esther. Somehow I was sad, I played sad music that helped me drown in my sadness and lit a small lamp. I tried to contact Kaja on Skype but she did not reply to me. She turned off Skype. I tried to break into the University Hospital sql injection, but unfortunately I am not a hacker. In a moment, another attempt at meditation. Yes, another attempt will probably fail. From today I changed my breathing technique to 1: 4: 2