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6:00 am in the morning. Cold but very rested. Traditional activities, Nichi, herbs etc ... I did it all! Go out to practice and return home by 9-10. As always, my mom pissed me off. She made me cocoa in this bad milk. Ah, he relishes no pain, not even his tailbone. You can see herbs and affirmations are working :) I have enough, I want to rest because the pain is much smaller. Nothing works, just listen to music and read books. That's my whim. Parents are chuje, in the end when mom this slut married dad because he worked in peweks. I have never seen her love him, I have never seen her kiss him or hug him, but all my life I saw how you despised him and you pushed him around like a rag !!! About 17 Jacek Gabis came. We played together. Then dinner and remorse, and I ate enough. Burn quickly and quickly to the beat of the music. On the way back, around 10 pm I met the boss, zazi and the crew. I greeted them. In Ddzien, my mother irritated me with the word: everyone said that you only walk with poles ... but it offended me, the tension in your body. I quickly discharged my chest with vibrations and it passed :) Wow, it was amazing. In the afternoon, a guy called a second time about a porn site program. I gave a cosmic price of almost PLN 1000, exactly PLN 987. And the guy was interested: D That's what you have to do. High prices and don't get fucked. What I learned today: you have to value yourself, give high prices, sell people.

South with Jack

Ah, those sweets. In the morning I don't think I was in training, but I had a terrible desire for something sweet. I ate so many candies that dad bought for dad's birthday that the holes in my teeth got bigger. On the one hand good - I wanted something sweet as my body said and ate it. I try to stick to 14 hours of fasting. On the other hand: I regretted it. The pain in my teeth and the holes got bigger. Two conflicting views are in conflict. I started practicing in the Nichi system yesterday. In the afternoon I played with Jack in the Wii. Kirby was a fun game, the music made me emotional and somewhere deep down there I wanted to cry. Perhaps it was because of an unhappy childhood, and the music was also a joy to children. I wanted to go back to those moments ... I wrote down to psychoanalyze people. Jacek is very tolerant and understanding. A bit childish - but I know what he really feels. After all, according to psychology, I have something like Borderline Disorder, I am an actor, and in fact, being in so many different situations I can understand a lot of people. I can understand him too. I know what he feels, because on my own skin I was also in his skin. I like him very much, I think he likes me too. From the book, a complete healing system, I learned that: Thoughts are also things, only at a different frequency (different energy, maybe more or less depending on thoughts). I have sent too many thoughts into the universe. Too many, and now there are a lot of random tiles in Tetris. I think I can arrange them according to my principles and thoughts, and one of them is TRUE !!! A strong truth is the key to clearing up this great mess in the life of a narrative. According to what I talked to Rafal Pawlik, he gives himself higher levels. I wrote it on the blackboard what to do, I added Nichi, for 2 days I have to read 1 book which will give 3 books a week, so a huge amount of knowledge. Thanks to these higher levels I have become addicted to the movement and slowly I am becoming addicted to reading books;) What I learned this day: Remember also about the psychoanalysis of people I have met.

Taoism

Nothing special again. A completely boring day, although the pain was really minor today. I enjoyed this freedom from pain :) Such a kind of rest Even though I started my day with Nichi, I didn't practice today. I felt that my muscles were tired and they refused to obey anymore. I measured the biceps. Az 37cm. Wow, nice :) In addition, the muscles are again as hard as before, and maybe even harder. In the afternoon I met Karoline. I haven't seen her for a long time. She was with some boyfriend. She even greeted herself first. Was she trying to make her boyfriend jealous? Usually she didn't deign to answer, and now - come on. I continued to listen to Taoism. I did everything in the morning. I even made the bed. While rinsing my mouth, I was doing other things at the same time. This is a very good method. I took a nap in the afternoon - it gave me some kind of rest. Similarly in the evening. God, when I sleep, I feel so sorry for my father and because of him I could not sleep for so many years: family atmosphere, my neglect, inadequate bed - what led to it all. I'm so mad at him !!! if at least I had received an apology, I would forgive if he had admitted his mistake, but he is Cipa and Drip and he cannot admit his mistake. What I learned today: Thoughts are things. Power of thought plus imagination plus self-confidence are miracles. I keep learning. Do I really need all these spells of Mary? When will I find a doctor to cure me? Will it be a Tibetan medicine doctor?

Mask of Laughter

Rafal Pawlik figured me out very well, which he will write about in a moment. However, is it worth confiding in him? According to the prophecies, these conversations will help me a lot. Should you consult with Arlet? The day, traditionally, early in the morning, wake up, go to training, when by the way I saw Rafal Pawlik running twice. The second time, he hardly saw me. I used walking and breathing and heliotherapy. I made it my goal to read books every day in my spare time. I really have a lot of free time and, most importantly, an extra year of free time. Thanks to Rafal I wanted to jump to a higher level and give myself some supplement. Even anew, in a persuasive way, I wrote my morning schedule on the blackboard today. I also wondered about the aspects when a bargiel diagnoses me with Borderline - Acting Personality Disorder. She is experienced, she knows Lyme disease and chlamydia, so she certainly knows this disorder as well. If she diagnosed my dad's assessment, I would be successful, but the disadvantage would be that I could lose the pension I want to have as well as I was quite harmed by my parents and psychotropics that got into me and at least that's what I deserve. Bargiel probably knows that I do not have schizophrenia and she is stupid herself, judging by the expression on her face. Nothing, so far I have to wait until Zarowski signs the necessary documents, which he will give me this time as much as PLN 840 and the money will certainly be useful. Also apply for a second disability group! Life is hundreds of problems. I can always meditate on the intention to make things go well - it's that simple. I was proud of myself and started to think again and analyze the pros and cons of how he had taught me. For now, one aspect each, with time we will come to 5 ... 10 ... 20 ... At 12 o'clock conversation with Rafal Pawlik. We made another appointment for July 30th. Is it worth confiding in him? He certainly feels like a guy who wants to help people, that's for sure. Is it worth confiding in him in the future with the diagnosis of schizophrenia? I will ask the arlets, but so far I am not saying anything, I must be silent. He wants to help me and I must take this help. I have a psychiatrist who believes in my innocence, and if anyone were concerned that I am not sick, I am formally under the control of a psychiatrist. In addition, I have the opinion of three prsychiatrists and I am mentally healthy :) The issue of pension and insurance, hmmm .... I prefer not to say what I say, and what I say RA is treated at a Rheumatologist in Nowy Targ. The Mask of Laughter - because that was the title. Rafal noticed that he was still laughing, even talking about unpleasant things. He said what are the aspects of a depressed person, and I don't do it, I laugh whatever I say. I noticed it at home. I assume this laugh every time I talk to someone I like. But he doesn't know one thing. I can already be firm, acting - I talk to everyone differently, adapting to a given person, which makes me like each person. I sincerely like every conversation I talk to - I don't know where it comes from. Zarowski is a very similar actor, a military peasant. He is a photocopy of me, I wonder if he knows that I am Borderline and why he wrote schizophrenia - a lie? Maybe I don't want me to move any further, if I was borderline I would have accepted it easily. When I got home I fucked my mother screaming. I think even twice. It was a wonderful experience. I felt masculine. Enough of being an orphan who gets to be fucked up. I will do it each time. I accept her screams because I know that she is right and it is fair to get a mess with me that I did something wrong, but it has a bad effect on my psyche. Myself speaking in a sweet voice only heightens her screams at me. Maybe it's worth fucking her, she wants it subconsciously: GOOD, DON'T SCREAM AT ME !!!!! Regarding strangers, it seems to me that I learned to deal with emotions a long time ago, the parents remain. Here I have to roll, cry, laugh, be natural. Eye for an eye, kill for a kill !!! Continue the day no change, thesis. I practiced nichi exercises, which I added to my Exercise repertoire in the morning. I wrote the rest of the tombac book and I felt a terrible hunger and today I have not read any book! I believe I will come out of this without any side effects. I talked to Szymek in the evening, we made an appointment for a movie on Sunday. I lent him a backpack, he is going to Dusi tomorrow. Ah, this hunger and I haven't read any book today. On the other hand, I do not want to read the full self-healing system, because I am afraid that there will be a lot of exercises and you will have to write them down, but I do not want to. How to fix it? Writing in text messages, oh, I changed the keyboard :)

Nothing interesting

Nothing interesting happened in my life today In the morning I sent a transfer to Szymek. Earlier, traditionally, I went to practice at thesis. I pay even more attention to my planned duties and things. I read about Reiter's syndrome yesterday and it makes me feel more confident. Szymek's head fell on something today. Came bloody. I have listened to a book on the Complete Self-Healing System. Supposedly better than Yoga and TaiChi. In the evening, Kaja wrote to me. It was nice to me. I feel better and better physically. I have more of a desire to read books. Oh, and the most important: I sent my CV to work as a delphi developer. It remains to meditate on the intention that they call me :)

Sandra

Full of self-hatred again. I feel sorry for the prophecy again, for the channeling, for everything. I wanted to go back to the House mask again, finally had his talk. You only need to remember everything and the good species will come back Today: I returned to light shoes. Better for the ankle, but weird for the spine. I'll have to ask the hotar to focus on the entire skeletal system. Traditional morning exercises. I started drinking carrot juice, apples. In the afternoon I met Maks with Sandra. It's been so long since I talked to people and I didn't know what to talk about with them. Maks took pictures for his aunt from the state. He leaves on Friday. He will be back in 2 months, so I will probably not see him again anymore in the near future. I read about Reiter's syndrome this morning. My symptoms are consistent with this disease. Rita diagnosed me well: migrating joint pains - everything is correct! Thanks to this, I imagined my next visit, which was much easier for me. Throughout the day, along with the music, I listened to books, which strengthened me in my search for a Tibetan medicine doctor. Yesterday I do not know if I wrote, I borrowed an armchair from Szymek. Perfect for meditation, the thoughts slow down in this position. Cool! More important things. In the evening, while listening to the channeling, I had a lot of regret towards myself. What to do, I would like to contact Rafael. Maybe one day I can do it through Adrian. But I don't feel like anything. Nothing ... I'm lazy and I don't feel like anything.

PawlikI Hypnosis

Wake up in the morning, training - it was terribly summer that day. Mom asked me not to go anywhere, but I am addicted to effort. I have to exercise and train. I must exercise to gain more and more strength. While walking on stones, one lady asked if it was fun to walk this way. She was nice and nice :) at 13 I had an appointment with Rafal Pawlik. We talked about the organization of time. He rightly said that: -to write down goals -when you want to achieve it -growth your purpose - anticipate possible obstacles. He also asked if Kasia was also for Money. Then, with a smile, I said: No ... I wonder if he sensed me. I want to open up to him, but not completely! We also talked a little bit about healing, The Power of the subconscious - when asked if I firmly denied this belief. I wonder how he analyzed me. That's probably so much of the most important things. In the evening I hypnotized Adrian. It turned out great. This time he felt more confident and I felt more confident. Dad wanted me to do the router for David. I really didn't want to ...