Electro Acupuncture

January 29 - ElektroAkupunktura A day written on time. I got up quite early, somewhere between 00:00 and 01:00. I woke up, did some mind exercises, and went to sleep again. I think it is due to the fact that I went to sleep quite early the previous day, around 21:00. 4 hours of sleep perfectly regenerated my body. After 1-2 hours of such mind / awakening exercise, I went to sleep. I was still waking up / getting up. In the morning I went to Rafal Pawlik at 8:30. As soon as I entered his block, he knew it was me. As he claimed, he did not expect anyone else. Today we explained a lot about what we think of each other. We also changed places to see what it's like to be in a different place. Return home, quick breakfast and departure to Nowy Targ. Today I had an appointment with a Rheumatologist. Today I was terribly worried about my feet - probably too much effort from running. She feels new lumps growing on her .... Coming back to visiting dr. Feathers - I lied that something hurt me, that there are cramps in the groin etc ... I lied. I don't know if I did the right thing. I learned that my hip might hurt my knee. I also left the original consultation result by Dr. Sebastianowicz. This is my tactical mistake, but I thought to myself - it's alright. One day I will ask at registration to make photocopies of me. I made an appointment with Dr. Pierzg� on March 20, she said that she would be able to do treatments then. I went to the Buffet, earlier I bought grapefruit juice in the shop at the entrance, I drank it in the buffet. Being in the buffet, I was thinking about Wojciech Panz, hoping that I would meet him, and on the other hand, having a little fear of meeting him ... Today I received an electroacupuncture device, but seeing such a large book on this subject I don't want to read it. I still think of an ordinary book - I don't want to read it. Today I was worried about my feet. I can feel new bumps growing at my heel. What to do? Gotta get some neurological diagnostics. How neurologists analyze such things and then I can go to a neurologist who will make the diagnosis I know that the footwear and spine are bad. I KNOW IT, I AM SURE OF IT. But the neurological tests suck! From your difficult condition, she can heal you like in the Department of Social Humiliation. At 4 p.m. I made an appointment with Łukasz Lopata. I gave him my book - Balance of body and mind. Today I was not running. I'm not okay with it. I ate 3 slices for the night and then a little sweetness. Feelings of guilt again and ate a bad meal. I have read Tombak's Road to Health. It is like a conglomerate of readings that I have already read. I enjoyed reading this lesson. Somehow I'm afraid to move forward and read other books, I preferred to go back a bit. I do not know why, maybe because reading the book about bioenergotherapy recommended by Wampirek I have some strange conviction in me that I will not learn it anyway? I do not know.

Tombak hypnosis

January 28 - Tombac Hypnosis Wake up at 4:30, although I lay in bed for a long time and woke up an hour later. Standard mind training, but I had no time for meditation or lucid dreams afterwards. Workout 8:00 in the morning. 14 repetitions in the open air. I have completed another part of the healing of the soul for Mirriel today. Exceptionally in the afternoon I trained in the kitchen. At that time, my mother was practicing in my room. I started another book by Michał Tombak. Somehow, I am afraid to reach for another esoteric book, so I started with Michal Tombak, Road to Health. Of course, I haven't read 2 books a day again. I read Andrzej Rakowski and about 30% of the current book. Got a foot / tongue massage mat today, spike. A bit soft, but as long as you walk it can be. Mom complained that she couldn't walk around like this because of her finger and corns. Michal Tombak mentioned a bit about hypnosis. He recommended relaxing then issuing commands sharply in a gentle, affectionate form. I was wondering if I should try it on myself. In December last year, when I was in a great mental shape, having excellent conversation, I was talking to myself such beautiful words and I was able to make suggestions. However, briefly. I fell into such a manner and quickly everything returned to its original state - that is, disease. I started to train the fish as if with a massage mattress. I put a massage mattress on my bed and it vibrates. I do not want to do fish, and this form of exercise is easier for me. I guess as much as happened today. For tomorrow I made an appointment with Łukasz for 4 pm. In addition, tomorrow I also have to go to the Rheumatologist. Maybe on the way he will stop at ul. Orkana 19 explore your testicles.

HomeFather

Dreams: Today I had 2 saved dreams. There were more, but I saved only two. The first one I called "a dream with a neighbor with a Polish dog". However, I have no idea what I might have meant. The second dream I remember was a lucid dream and I woke up quickly. I was running by the river at night. I was running and running and at one point I realized that I was having a lucid dream. January 27 Father at Home. Today I woke up quite late, a little before 6:00. I did mind exercises. Daddy slept on the couch at our house. I was worried about the drugs, whether I had to take them or would I get splashed. Finally in the morning I managed to smuggle them and went for a run. When I got back I made breakfast. We ate them together with my dad. Ba ... We even talked to each other. I made breakfast. About 12.00 Mum came. Dad has been here all day until now. I tested the InTuFlow day today At 6 p.m. I ate Pizzas. Today Dawid was repairing a damaged car in Malenka and bringing pizzas. A moment ago I had an inspiring conversation with Michał Staniszewski. I asked him today if he would like to become my mentor / spiritual guide. He replied that there was no time to say that you can learn everything from books yourself. That's how he learned everything he can. He talked a little about himself, he learned hypnosis in his childhood and he probably had a talent for it. Now I wonder a little - I was stupid. The angel told me to look for a spiritual guide, and here Michael tells me to learn by myself. What should I do? Oh, running in the evening I met this guy in goggles who sometimes practices in the park. We talked for a while. He showed me an interesting exercise with red handbags to grab the "blocks / cubes". Then the upper part of the chest also works during the exercise. I wonder if dad is staying here for the night? Today I started reading the book Kregoslup w Stresa. I also downloaded instructional videos for this book. Again I have not read two books a day, even if I have not read one ... Would you change the affirmation to "I read one book a day?"

InTuFlow

January 26 - InTuFlow Wake up at 4:00. I recovered enough after yesterday's training. I got up and started training my mind. Left hand, of course. Zonglujac even feels my brain "grow" as if I were exercising the strength of the muscles, so it exercises the strength of the muscles of the brain. Around 6:00 am I went to bed for meditation. Still in the corpse position, I listened to the Chakra Journey. This is probably the most pleasant music for meditation with HemiSync for me. She is brilliant and also regenerates chakra. I also had an idea to test something else. LSD was in motion. but I didn't listen too long. About 8:00 training. 10 return home. David wasn't here today, he was at work. Today I wanted to maniacally achieve hyperventilation by breathing. However, I failed. The fuck how do you do that ??? Once upon a time it was good for me the first time. Today I watched youtube InTuFlow. I took notes, it was very enjoyable training, I don't think I do all the exercises correctly, but I will test this training. However, it seems to me that performing it as a warm-up will probably take much longer than 10 minutes. Mom went somewhere today. I don't know where, but I thought tomorrow is the perfect time to go hungry. On the other hand, I thought: maybe we will clean the colon with apples? A whole day on apples? Choose new ones and I think I will choose it. Tomorrow a lot of running, we will check how my body will behave in the new situation. I'm worried about my feet lately. I have a bit of a pain from running where the bumps are forming. I did quite a tidying up in the room. It took me about 1 hour. I listen to music better: Kazik na zywo - Plamy na soncu. A moment ago there was quite an interesting situation. Mum was gone, dad asked me to take medication. I hesitated to swallow or spit out. Eventually I spat out. I felt fear. I went with Kaw to the room and then my dad asked a question about whether I would be able to remove the simlock from any card there. Oh fuck - my heart was beating again. Stress as hell will catch me. I tried to control my breathing and I said a random word: I think so ... The conversation started, I moved a lot to relieve the tension, my breath, my body is stronger under stress. I made it, I managed :)

Psychoanalysis of the Boy

January 25 - Boyka's psychoanalysis The psychoanalysis of the buoy - has poor responses, is full of fear. Fear uses in combat. Even a long time ago, when I watched the film, I saw undisputedly in the fight a man who causes fear. Now I see something else. He can't talk. He is a great fighter, but has problems with communication and with sharp retorts. Fear is mixed with anger. By using these feelings in battle, he becomes invincible. I remembered the scene where he was so pissed off in the ring and taking the blows. Once, I would have thought that I wanted to disregard my opponent, now I can see it and he made an incident suggestion. Anger, adrenaline made him feel pain. Today's day: I slept quite late 6-7 am. I was glad that I was able to enter meditation. Of course, in the morning I went for a run. During the morning run I asked about the pharmacy in carefour, I asked if there were already guaranose tablets. Unfortunately it was not. I returned home, somehow a day passed. I downloaded the movie, you are the god of pactophones. I really wanted to see his version of what it means to be a god. Unfortunately ... I was unable to download a smooth episode which I regretted. I explained to myself - maybe fate wanted so ... Wioletta wrote back to me. When I read her description, I felt sorry for myself again and I used this feeling for running. Something beautiful. I like to feel it, as if I like to hurt myself. She wrote at the end and a bit sad and doesn't want to give herself a chance. In the afternoon I was running again ... While running I remembered that I had an appointment with Łukasz today. He drove me a little by text message. I wrote back to him. I imagined a little scary thing and he will become my enemy and he will vengeance, for example, by spreading things about me. I was a little overwhelmed by this fear. While I was running, a certain telephone number was calling me. I did not answer because I thought it would be Lukasz. At home it turned out that he was a guest from Elektroakupunktury. He wanted to explain why I bought two devices and paid for one. I told him I would buy one thing and pay commission for the other and it would be fair. He agreed, although I do not hide and I hoped that he would say that he would bear the commission costs. My mom was really on this. She was screaming at me, panicking. I answer her - you panic terribly and make a big scandal. After the telephone conversation, I even spoke in a contemptuous voice: the matter is solved, nothing big happened, we got along well culturally. It's not that bad. For dinner I ate 2 bananas and a little chocolate. I liked the chocolate and nutella so much, I felt it was a meal for me. I didn't want cottage cheese, I felt I needed chocolate. Although, on the other hand, I was not even hungry, I wanted to stick to 3 meals a day and that my mother would not be bothered by me. I don't remember any more sins. I used a new interesting technique, namely - deleting a day in the calendar. However, I do not want to describe its beneficial effects. That night - meditation + Valerian :) I feel a little sorry for myself again and I haven't read any book today ...

When I was God

January 24 - When I was God I start this post quite unusual, because I start typing 9 minutes right after the day starts, and I barely wrote the Endorphin post. I watched the movie: You are God, but the one from 2011, which inspired me extremely. He tells how the main character used a pill that activated 100% of his creative mind. He writes down an interesting quote, which he treats from now on as affirmations: "Everything I have ever heard, seen, read is logically connected." And I started to wonder: what did I do that at the beginning of 2011 I was indestructible, I had a fast powerful mind? What have I done? I remember that I once wrote an entry which I titled: "Euphoria". I think so. It was there when I naturally induced a state of euphoria. February, March, April and May, and even June and later 2011 of the period before Skawinska was invincible in words. I was a true master of Cietta's retort. I also took Rhodiola for a long time, which I think helped me a lot. Krzysiek also praised this preparation. And the creatine stuck in my brain. I suspect I was invincible then. Indestructible. Take creatine again? And I started to wonder what they suspected on Skawinska Street and when I called an ambulance. It was written: The patient recently consumed large amounts of creatine and guaranose. Well, guaranose was also brilliant. My doctor at Skawinska Street said to defend me against Markiewicz: it could be from the head, from the spine, it is Lyme disease ... But where is this Reiter? Here are the quotes I remember. It was one big mess. And I will only focus on the brain. Tomorrow, when I get up, I have to analyze the entries from this period of time. It's quite important, maybe I can think of a cure for my present low self-esteem. I want to be God, a young god ... Quote: the brain cannot function all the time at this high speed. Gee, this video motivated me even more to meditate and ImageStreaming. as far as I can remember, ImageStreaming was even more powerful than meditation. Dr. House that fascinated me is nothing compared to this divine pill. I started to imagine going back to Rhodiola again, looking for this pill and learning to meditate and imagestreaming. Morning is a standard mind training. Then training. I chose a new place for training. Those red rails by the river. The training was going quite well, but I was a bit weak - I was hungry and then had little strength. I think I remember two homeless people, one was showing me how to breathe. he also demonstrated a technically nice punch karate. At 12 o'clock I had an appointment with Wioletta for channeling. Earlier, David and I dismantled the Christmas tree, although I took it apart to a large extent. I was a bit disappointed while channeling. Again, I unnecessarily spent PLN 150 here, 120 here, in total 270 I went to pasture. And it was possible to have so much fun. I got answers and the backbone is unsettled. When it is done, it will gradually straighten. Yoga from an angel is also recommended. Wioletta also recommended yumeiho, jonas and salvia methods. All in all, that's all that I found out to be useful. I'm done channeling and fairy. I will only ask Arleta questions because she is cheap and effective with her tarot cards. About 2 pm I went for a run. I had so much regret for the angels, it gave me extra energy that I used for running and burned it up quickly. I feel proud that I have learned so well to deal with my own psyche. My hips and lower back hurt a bit today. The pain was relieved by a stick - a spine decompressor and my own developed hip exercise. I was after pharmacies asking about guaranoze and Alc. At the pharmacy under the carefour, I ordered guaranose during an afternoon jog. Coming home for dinner - mom a little pissed off that I came back so late. She was practicing in my room then. I ate baked beans and went back to the city, or rather to the park, then to pharmacies in Poniatowski Street. In the pharmacy where Tomek Glab takes, I ordered the preparation "session". I like the name on average, but after watching "I am God" yesterday, I want to protect myself with hemicals to top up and regain my mental potential that I had before Wroclaw. I joined Marcin Farmer in Kefirk. We had a lot of fun talking. I also bought baking soda there as a reserve. When I run out of hair, or in a month or so, I will switch to baking soda - this is how I like to try different treatments on myself. I also wanted to buy creatine at a sports store, but somehow I forgot. I was also in this gambling shop. I wanted to play about money, but there were new machines on time, so I gave up such an investment. I had my own slow tactic and I decided I wouldn't play that way. From March back home, and at home, I decided to take 100 mg of Tramal on an empty stomach. I drank Rzenszeń to stimulate the body. Finally, the tramal puts you to sleep and stimulates you. In the meantime, my mother started buying baking powder. Tramal worked great. Blogostan + Euphoria, but the key moment that gave me a great mental well-being and euphoria was the juggling of the LEFT HAND balls. In this way, I should stimulate the right cerebral area responsible for paranormal phenomena. It was an AMAZING BLOG EXPERIENCE. Pleasure that I would like to juggle and juggle :) I had quite a long training, somewhere between 8:00 pm and 10:00 pm Including a warm-up before and after training. Tramal made you sleepy, but also very resistant to pain. A brilliant dope. 14 repetitions of the squat on one leg did not make any impression on me. Great! After training, the blog is sleepy, very pleasant and satisfying. I felt great! I even imagined it was the same tablet as in the movie "You Are God". By the way, I wonder what the Polish edition of this film from Paktofonika looks like. After training, I was very resistant to cold. I took a cold shower for 6-8 minutes. I drank a lot of green tea with swelling, now I feel so eager to drink that I also made myself teas. What I learned today: juggling my left hand plus a tram. And tramal 100mg is a sufficient dose for an empty stomach with a hairline. PS I forgot. Impulsively I ordered the allegro eletkoakupuntkure, terry cloth and spikes / tongue for noki as acupressure for feet. I can't wait :) Wioletta invited me to Warsaw for her training. Even Angel was telling her to give me a boyfriend discount. Besides, the Angel also told me to find a spiritual guide. I was supposed to meditate, shut myself up at home and get to know the world through meditation. I have been doing this for 1.5 years and now I am suddenly supposed to find a spiritual guide. I thought to myself: where the fuck will I find a spiritual guide? What? At the beginning, she even encouraged me to come. I was a bit inclined to come. But after a while, when I read the program of classes: Love ... Joy ... Tantra ... I said - I don't give a shit, I will not come. Tomorrow I will write an email and I will not come, justifying that it is not about money, but I am afraid that I will not learn anything, I am afraid to go into the unknown with my health condition and that I listened to so many people for 2 years and I am already stupid. Meditate here, not meditate here, breathe here, chakras here, chiropractic here. I don't know what to do anymore - I was stupid. That's why I only listen to my body's voice. He will heal himself, and I am looking for a doctor only to regain my honor! I asked an angel to ask when Lyme tests are revealed. Wioletta knew this disease, although she did not ask the angel. She just told her about this disease. In addition, I also wanted to write in this way to additionally hurt myself. I feel sorry for myself. I like it, for some reason I like to listen to these channelings and blame you angels that you are fucking talking to me here. On the other hand, I would like to be God - to have divine power! Besides, I want to be angry! Full of hate, destroy and bring justice. What an exceptionally long entry. Maybe I still have time to write this email to this Wioletta? It would be great. However, I also imagined an angel giving a 50% discount. Choose the unknown, choose something new, talk in a calm state as I am now on the tram with people, tell your story. But no, I'd rather suffer, I'd rather be sorry for these angels! HUNGE YOU IN YOUR DUPE! These fucking meditations don't work! I trusted you fucking, locked myself at home, tried to meditate and what. This motherfucker my father has locked me up at the top. I am not studying, I lost 2 years of my life. I am to bring peace and mediation in this world. I don't give a shit! I want to be sinister and hateful. God those needles in the brain. I'm scared. I know that these are pressures from the spine and such bables are formed as on the tongue, as on the testicles. I'm afraid of this. When will the spine's nightmare end? Write a letter to Violetta? I think I'll write it now. Oh, what else to say. Regarding the channeling technique that I asked Wiolette for myself - Wioletta refused to say that in this state as I am, where I do not distinguish good from bad (here she interpreted me a bit badly, because I hesitate whether I want to be good or bad, recently I prefer to be bad) he won't give me this technique because I can summon dark beings. They can be good, friendly, show me a lot of good. And that's not the point. And then I wanted - since the angels do not help me, maybe I will summon such a dark being? I will sign a pact with the devil and gain divine immortality. Just ... What consequences could it have later? On the other hand, there is no good and bad, if I choose evil it is neither a good nor a bad choice. It's just a choice - right Raphael? Yes, I want to be like that sith on my avatar. I am actually him. I am a good fighter with the dark side. Now I prefer to be like this avatar of the early sith, the dark sith. Entirely black. Now I want to be like Unshelated 2 a dark sithem emanating hatred, a sinister desire for revenge. But I like today's post. He writes so much about his feelings. I feel great about it. I am listening to the chakr hemi sync sounds now. It feels great when I write my dark feelings into my diary. Satan's Bible? Maybe I can find interesting things there? PS 2 00:40 I wrote an email to Wioletta. I feel something beautiful. Such pity for myself, such pity for angels, the universe. This feeling of fucking regret towards the angels is overwhelming my whole body with joy. Until I stopped sleeping. I don't even want to discharge this feeling. I feel good about it. It's a beautiful feeling, and the effect of the tram is gone a long time, so I know I can feel it. Now still wandering pain, even more regrets. My body is already strong compared to what it used to be. It is really strong and I can take that feeling. I have a beautiful regret. And I want to say FUCKING, HUJ with MEDITATION HUJAM YOU ANIOKI, FUCK YOU FUCK. AND YOU BELOVED DADDY, YOU HATE YOUR FUCKER FUCKING! -------------------------------------------------- After discharging emotions: A very interesting technique that I discovered by accident. I wrote down all the dependencies that lie on my heart and note: I think I was meditating. Yes, I guess. Being overwhelmed with regret, I felt his beauty. In addition, by attaching the breathing technique, I felt even better while lying in bed in sasavana. I turned on Osho's Foreword, as if it put me in a light trance. And then I breathed a long time. A long time yet. Each thought was as if on the side. I had no need to contact angels or attain higher states of consciousness. I accepted everything! I was watching it from the side. I was in the middle of myself. When osho is over - total silence. Emptiness. The beauty of being alone. Every feeling, the hormone spread through my body giving me strength. I think that in addition, drowsiness, early time and taking tramal 100 mg contributed, in a way, to deeper meditation. Wow ... I feel great....

Pelen

January 22 - Pelen Wypas Dream: a falling tree on the church outhouse next to a healthy one, as if there was a divine body there. Morning jogging, Rafal Pawlik talk about masking feelings, about Kasia, my head ached from masking and suppressing my feelings. Coming home, going to the urologist, drowsiness after a sleepless night, no valerian drops effect, a woman who was arguing terribly, reading the patient's rights, meeting Adam IT and saying hello, Urologist - semen tests, smashing Kiji's car, possible surgery, leaving, registration to various clinics, a cool blonde, walking into the unknown after the hospital, meeting a gypsy in front of the bus. Coming home, meeting Lukasz Lopata. Lost his dog again, David and Ford Focus, Ultra Glue. After lunch, David and I went with gifts for my grandfather. We joined the Presencik. There we bought a bomb grandfather and a nice pen. Dawid could not go up there, so I advised him to go to Malgosie. Some guy was talking to us and asking about this Ford. We went to see my grandfather. There was Ola with Wojtek. Eletka has already grown up, they have a second child. We greeted my grandfather. Wojtek at one point said: all life is based on fucking. As if I didn't know what to do with it. I changed the topic to honey ... We also tried something with GPS, in general I was not very talkative Being with my grandfather again, I wanted to live there. Peace and quiet, no people. A great place. After 18:30 he gave me a ride in his Ford to Marta, or rather to the bus stop. There I went to Martha. We smoked the herb with some homies. I was afraid that something like weed would happen to me, but I was in control of the situation. It was not as fun as with Marta herself, but it was cool. We talked about time travel in weed and acodina. Again, I wanted to control my mind so that I had super abilities. Marta recommended a movie to me: you are god, she tells about some pill that stimulates up to 40% of the brain.