JustSit

June 26 - Just sitting - 3:00 wake up. It's probably because of the fresher air at night. Entering into meditation - After 4:30 am you go to sleep and wake up at 6:00 am - Departure for training before 8:00. Calling Zakopane - I didn't really feel like running that day. - I tested the fruit in the morning, then the protein. I felt great! Great! Full of energy! - Meeting with Michał Sornat around 9:00 am near thesis. I was a bit embarrassed and he had pants like pinocchio :) Fortunately, we learned meditation in a secluded place. I was just sitting, or rather we were sitting. I was enjoying this moment. She was beautiful in her own way. Although it was more daydreaming and imagining than the silence of the mind. Kind of like my state of mind from 2 years ago - I was just sitting there. I would feel it like that - I continued reading for the day at home, I finished reading Kurt Tepperwein's book The Creative Power of Thinking. Holy book. Later I read it again in photos and again in my TurboReader - Tomorrow at 10 to GerlandToys. And I did not prepare myself in the field of photoshop. Still kids to finish the program. But on top, and I go about my own business. And I feel good with it, I do what I want :) - What else happened during the day? I was going to run to the post office to check if my mother had received the varnishes, I wanted to run, but I didn't want to, and in addition I started lacing. I met the ark with some crew. I will not write more because I do not want to. - In the evening I also read Andrzej Bednarz's book in photos. But I won't read it normally anymore. I sit down to meditate.

Thoughts of suicide

June 25 - MysliSamobojcze - 4:00 wake up automatically, preparing for life - 4:30 or a bit later WFM - 6:00 or so I went for a run. But because of the fact that I ate watermelon first and then as many as 4 slices of garlic while running, I felt a mega drop in energy compared to yesterday. This resulted and I developed a new meal schedule: 5711141721. I made a mistake in the morning. I stuck to my rigid rules / procedures. I should eat the sausages I ate later in town in the new green container. In addition, in those high-rise sweatpants and Uncle Jack's long sweatshirt, I felt a bit like a skinny freak. - In the afternoon around 2 p.m. sadness, slight sadness. Thoughts of suicide. I thought to myself: either it would be nice to die, or to have finally diagnosed with cancer in the brain and die, so that my father would lose his reputation !!! HUJ FUCKED! - He's thinking about dinner again, because I ate an egg with potatoes. It's still nothing, but I feel terribly fed up about what my stomach signals. But what's good about this situation: - Today I felt much more confident in making "outing meals" as I call them. To do your best, you first need to make a mistake to know how to do the right thing. So let's put it this way. - but I want the tramal today. A beautiful sadness to enjoy yet the tram. - Radiation in the fight against chlamydia? I uploaded files to the hamster all day long. I named the hamster Hemi-Sync. I felt so stiff, so tight, it felt like a radiation effect! - I have enough, the pain is wandering, I have not even finished this book. I have everything in my fucking ass, I want to go to sleep now, only dinner! Fuckin 'meditation - I wrote to Michal Sornat today. He has agreed to meet, he has free time - In addition, I wrote to Elen, a little persuasively, to agree: what would happen if I committed suicide? Probably I will not agree to such an answer, but it will not hurt to try. At least I tried to convince her to get an answer. - Before dinner, I ate 3 apples. A total of 2 would be enough for me, and after 3 I feel a little stuffed. And fear and guilt again. I will eat: I will get fat and I will be sick. I will not eat: lose weight and burn muscle mass. Eh ... I have to bear in mind that eating a meal with half full stomach absorbs the food well, as if I were thinking half full with my mouth. Try to wash your mouth fully - you can't. You have to pour out a little water because it is blocking you. Yes, yes, and now I feel after eating as many as 3 apples, and you still have to eat dinner. Container unwashed. And I would like to go to sleep. Well, I will eat only cheese, I will eat sandwiches tomorrow, and this will motivate me to spend more time at the computer. - PS I didn't go to sleep. It's dinner time. About 9pm I took 3 slices of petticoat and cottage cheese. I had the intention to eat the slices in the morning and now cheese. And as if looking at this food, I felt that I was producing the right gastric acids in my stomach, as if the body had prepared itself for this food, and at the same time I still have undigested apples in my stomach. Stomach acids got mixed up and I started to feel bigos in my stomach, you could even call it some kind of pain: D - I felt that sugar and cocoa would be a good medicine. Yes, there was cocoa. Yes, I drank guiltily, because in addition it's milk, mixed with sugar ... God, real hypochondria. After all, 2 of my affirmations would be enough in those situations that I did not say: - I eat when and only when I'm hungry - this fucking whore does not impress me at all, on any level of body and mind. - poison in a small dose is a cure. - By the way, today and probably yesterday after the run, expressing this affirmation, I feel very resistant to the age-old stress associated with the mother. - Heh, now, as I even told myself about it all, I felt better mentally. I'm going to wash, we'll see if I can smuggle food in the morning. Mom left earlier and saw him washing the container. She left earlier because there was only cold water. - And so reading Kurt Tepperwein's Book, it came to me to use his methods in conjunction with mine to create two things simultaneously as part of the experiment: - The first thing is a beautiful death of your own - Second - to be a superhero who will save the world from destruction with his power. Now I am thinking, how about combining these two things and writing them down in my notebook? hmmm ... Why don't you? And we'll see if it happens. According to kurta, you can't do anything wrong with these methods. So theoretically, if I devour all my thoughts to take revenge on my father - I am not able to do him any harm. In fact, I do not even want to, I want to unload my anger and hatred towards him and ridicule him in public. He can also show his pain to others, show off ... How strong I am. Yes, I think so I was watching Dr. House. I wanted to meet such a guest and be super sick. Has become. It happened in part because dr. I haven't met House yet. An easier thing happened, and after all, I didn't use any technique, I just watched, visualized. And it happened quite quickly.

I Feel Perfect 2

June 24 - I feel great 2 - Wake up at around 4:00 am, standard preparations for the day - 4:30 am I started my meditation. WFM vibration on the floor in the diamond position. I felt it was a great ritual for me - I wrote to this Michal Sornat about meditation. He wrote back and said that we could meet on a bench in the park one day and talk. - Around 5:30 I went for a run. I took breakfast on the road. In total, I made myself an extra pie and had yesterday's slices. Earlier, at home, I ate an apple, which then turned out to be not very tasty, as I felt while running. Every now and then something rotten inside but I didn't care so much about it. Fear of pain and ailments seemed to come back again. My mediocre affirmation worked. It was a preliminary run and I looked around the rabka. I left Torbe under the roof on the playground. I ran to PPU, I pissed there, so I know that it is already open around 6:00. This guardian of the law agreed to let me in. I wanted to get the ligole as the first breakfast, but Marcin was still closed. I ran towards NaSkarpie. The thought came to me to break into Donata's computer, see what is written down in the files. The files are probably kept both in the computer and on paper, and even if not, I can break in for fun. Skarpie network55. I was already thinking how to do it. Download your phone number to the phone and leave it there in your bag for a few hours in the process of reporting the results of your tests. Then I'll pick it up. Another way to do a fakeAP Then I was running towards the teznia, the river, the park, after some time returning to the playground, stretching my muscles and finally breathing. My shoes were incredibly wet - socks too. It's good that I haven't decided to use new shoes yet. Oh and most importantly, I did the fountains test. There are a lot of coins, I put mine in to see if the fountain will be cleared tomorrow. On my way back, I burnt my card with the plan of the day in a metal basket near the river. I was paying attention that no one could see me yet. At home, my mother is still sleeping. I made a mistake, I did a little research. Man, I thought how beautiful the morning had begun, how much free time. I only had in my head: fear of ailments and, moreover, thoughts about food = I did not want to eat breakfast yet. I said that I would go buy my dad a tree of happiness and I knew that then I would eat breakfast when I wanted to. In addition, my mother asked me to buy a card for Aunt Jasia for a name. I did so at the post office. There was so much going on with a shortcut: a gift for a piggy bank, a tree of happiness at a kiosk and a dog nodding his head, a paper florist, also breathing and breakfast for cardiology, losing a container ... Yes, I lost the bitten heel can which I realized when I got home after 12 and looked into the bag. Unfortunately, at the same time I wanted to rest and so I did in bed. After 1 p.m. I told my mother that I had lost the headphones and went to look for them. I also took the keys to the basement, I didn't take my bag. Then I wanted to smuggle this container into the basement. And I was looking for: I asked in cardiology - Ada Grzybacz, the best friend of Iza Draganowska, in whom I loved a maxim, worked there. Sympathetic in character. And I was looking for this container, but I did not find it, I also returned home, unfortunately. I was telling myself - if I can't find such a fuck, how am I supposed to find the more serious things in my life? I called my mom, lied that I had to wait until 2pm. I really didn't want to eat yet and wanted to wait out the time and the moment to start feeling hungry. I returned home after 2:30 pm and then ate dinner - pasta with topping. I was saying that I would add some cheese, but I wanted to avoid combining proteins with carbohydrates. I also ate the same pasta with strawberries. And what's next - well, I lost my keys while searching: D It was also after lunch, even though I did not want to eat, in addition to drink and sleep, and dinner even more than a day worsened my sleepiness, I started to use the keys to prepare yellow cards with contact to me. And I distributed it everywhere, fortunately I found in a prokom where I bought a phone case with a strong clasp. I bet that they will also be in Malgosia, I also left a contact note for me there. In addition, when I was leaving, I put on this blue shirt that I bought in a rag for a few zlotys. I felt very confident in it, very handsome, well suited to my figure. I liked it. I felt outspoken, I felt I could do anything! It was a brilliant feeling! Unfortunately, when I returned home, the house was closed. I used the help of Friday so that I could call because I didn't even have a phone. After messing around, I found my mom in the park and gave me the key. As always, her fucking and whining and fucking for anything. Moreover, I got 4 bottles of 5l mineral water. I wanted 2 and I got 4 because I think they wanted to get rid of them. Someday they will be perfect for exercises with water canisters. I found out from this lady "Lucky God" who I like very much :) I went for these bottles as if for free. On his way back with the bottles he met me and asked why I needed them. Here I made a psychological error, as if I farted my mouth and showed that I want to have them for exercise. Well, it remains to believe that he will not shoot any more such blunder. At home, I went to bed, I was tired, exhausted, exhausted, I wanted to drink. I quenched my thirst and went to bed, unfortunately a moment later he called to open the door for him. Then my mother came over and they interrupted me a bit. Fuck the basket not taken out again. I went back to bed, I went to the sound Healing on my stomach and somehow rested until 7:00 p.m. In addition, for the day I felt a pain in the place where the nodule had grown. Such strange sensations as if you were a redhead. I was worried about it. When my dad arrived, I gave him a gift and gave him false wishes. I did it just to get the fuck off, I hate him! And after 7 p.m. I started looking for a book that she disgraced me. I also had an idea to create a new hamster account with HemiSync and then a sub-account with saved Hemi-Sync-Collection files. Likewise, other Hans-Zimmer Hans-Zimmer-Diskograpy and Within-Temptation-Diskography accounts I did not find a book about Kurt Tepperwein's diseases, but I did find other books of his that I was reading that evening. The title of one of them (the one I am reading now) is Creative Thinking Power. And I started reading on Hemi-Sync BrainPower. And I got into the same state I entered yesterday: I didn't care about the pain, I was focused on the book, I was reading really fast. something beautiful again. It made me happy again. Get yourself a steamer for tomorrow after your run. There are watermelons in the morning will be perfect. With 4 slices of butter, I feel like I want these sausages now, although ... already so late that I would rather give up. Maybe I will eat them in the morning after the watermelons, maybe then the body will make up for the hunger for steamers that it feels now and will use them well? Who knows, we'll see this experiment.

I FEEL PERFECT

June 23 - I Feel Perfect - Morning 4:00 - Training somewhere from 8:00 - Training Pro 2 series. The idea came to my mind that I do not have any gains, I feel poorly at 6 sets. Maybe they were wrong that you need so much practice. As a rule of thumb, I have decided to reduce the number of series to 2-3 series and now I am taking a week off. I felt great today - physically and mentally! Something amazing. At home, I was calm and composed. I do not know if it is due to Affirmation, training, Allen Carr's breakfast diet or maybe everything but I felt very well physically and mentally - Near cardiology, I found a bench where I could eat a meal alone. I ate broad beans, left the cheese for later. I felt great! - In addition, I decided to do the squats on one leg with my back to the ladders - I was home after 12:00. My mother probably left the house open on purpose. I got hold of myself and didn't eat anything until 2 p.m. and I did the right thing. For dinner I ate raw potatoes, I ate the cutlet Later. I felt great again. I felt crunchy, my eyes were soft and luscious. I felt great. I felt my body! I ate the cutlet around 5:00 p.m. then I felt like it. Then he sends me a desire for cheese. I felt great. Calm, composed, the pain was there, but it was as if on the side. I felt great, I felt great. I was with Mrs. Basia today. I had a great time giving her auto suggestions about her burned laptop. I sat on the computer for a long time - During training, I thought to check how much you can earn by drawing coins from the fountain in the morning. I already imagined how I could earn a double as much to my pension a month this way. 20 PLN a day from 3 fountains would give 600 PLN. It would be nice :) Tomorrow I will go for a run and do this experiment - In addition, I need to change my home calendar, for example to StarWars. I don't really like these flowers. I don't like them at all. Either stick something on top or print your own. I don't like this one. I do not want to note anything in it. - I burned the pages a moment ago. But it got drunk at home. I think I need to stop doing this here at home, and I have to do this fire ritual somewhere in the field. Here at home he is not suitable for this, yet my mother will tell me for some spells or magic. Because she asked what it was all about - Tomorrow in the morning I also have to buy a tree of happiness for Father's Day. - One of my plans for today was to make a calendar in goose. I feel like doing WFM more.

I releaseSieOdBolu3

June 22 - ReleasingSieOdBolu3 - Wake up 3:15. Reading Allen Carra EASYWEIGHT. After 5:00 drowsiness, slight headache and eye pain. Go to bed. - 7:00 breakfast. 3 rolls with butter and garlic. I liked this meal very much. Az I want more. Eyes soft and moisturized, I feel great! :) Only my mother, of course, bothered that the whole house smells of garlic and I will not go out to people: D Strange because yesterday she did not feel anything ... I think I will go for one more bun, at most I will eat cheese as a breakfast. - Washing my container with salt water - wonderful smell! fresh and spotless :) - Training - 7:00 4 rolls - great energy, a feeling of light hunger despite 4 rolls with butter and garlic - 8:45 - protein - white cheese with tomato and horseradish. Also feeling a little hungry but ... - During the training, there is a huge drop in energy ... - Conclusion: check carbohydrates before training and protein after training. - Affirmation development: This fucking whore doesn't impress me at all. At any level of body and mind! (a tight fist helps to relieve psychophysical tension) - A. Carr's book finished - Lunch, separate diet. A bit of a stress with hiding the cutlet, although I managed somehow. I'll eat it later. - Cleaning the floor - OK 16 WFM diamond with pain relief affirmation. It is true that I did not free myself from the pain, but I entered into such relaxation that I feel calm and relaxed. Hands on the floor relieve the tension. I felt great. - Later I wanted to read H. Louise's book Healing Breath. It was, however, a book You Can Heal Your Life. While reading it, I had some loathing for the word love and its affirmation. I was pissed off and chlamydia was attacking me hard, strange sensations from my spine. Lots of anger and anger it gave birth to in me. FUCK, I kept saying. I lay down, fell asleep and woke up exhausted. I also went to breathe to eat this cutlet. - On the way, somehow I didn't want to breathe. Eat also no. Eventually I felt exhausted and wanted to go to sleep. It was probably not a time to breathe. It was time to sleep. - But walking a different road down the street I came across an advertisement. Apparently nothing happens by accident. Announcement: Meditation and Spiritual Counseling. Michal Sornat 516 735 216 sornatmichal@gmail.com - However, I threw this cutlet, or rather in the intention that some animal would eat it. Moreover, I did not like it, and I did not want to eat it. I stuffed myself quite well with potatoes for a raw lunch. Probably because I ate an apple unnecessarily before dinner. It's good that I've read the entire book by Allen Carr - I'm going to sleep. Tomorrow I will take notes, wake up earlier refreshed. Since today I woke up at 3:00, it is interesting what time I wake up refreshed tomorrow if I go to sleep so early now. - Good night - Oh, during training, I also had 2 projects to think about. One to write a script on the final shell that will notify me about the weather via text message. Similarly, on the website mozgowiec.pl I would have a riddle once a day. - I read yesterday's post. Yesterday also ate 4 slices separately. I had the energy and then I ate cheese with tomato and horseradish. Effect - energy drop during training. My theory, tested on myself, can work: carbohydrates before training and delicious protein after training! Finally, going on an empty stomach for guarana training, I have a lot of energy, but I'm just a little hungry. After training, I'm not anymore. - I feel that sandwiches before training and protein after training will be an ideal method for me, which I discovered completely by accident. I am so eager for butter sandwiches in the morning. It's probably even logical - as a child, I loved butter sandwiches. My instincts told me so, I hated all hams, cheeses for sandwiches. A taste of childhood - sandwiches with butter :) - But tomorrow I will only check 1, maybe 2-3x allen Carr's method, instead of sandwiches: strawberries and maybe apples. We will see what his method will be :) After the training protein protein :) I can't wait for tomorrow, I'm going to sleep :)

I releaseSieOdBolu2

June 21 - I releaseSieOdBolu2 - Wake up quite early at 4:00 as well. 30 minutes to prepare myself, I almost made it and by morning I was writing a program for Malgosia. I was doing pretty well. In the afternoon I finished almost everything and finally sent her. Finally, I felt so freed from this problem :) - 8:00 Go to training. Earlier, around 6:00, I was caught by hunger. I ate somewhere 4 slices of butter. I added garlic to the first one. My method works - my mother did not smell the garlic at all :) Later, before leaving, I ate cottage cheese and tomato. I felt that I wanted such a meal - Training - terrible heat. I haven't been so sweaty in a long time. During training, I had the idea to: - Check that they accept a gas bill when donating blood. If so, I could get some and buy myself 200 PLN for donating blood. - Practice sharp retorts in your imagination. Today I even had 2 such imaginations - Moreover, thanks to my affirmation: "I release my mind and body from ailments and pain. The pain disappears. Everything is fine." I felt like a free man today. I could act, make programs. As soon as I thought that some problems would be coming back, I used my affirmation and felt calmer. Well, chlamydia traveled really rarely today. Maybe about 3 times. Just enough! Something beautiful. I like this affirmation very much, I think it is effective, but at the same time it is hard for me to believe that it is so effective ... - In addition, I read my encrypted notebook before going to training. I felt the power when I read it, the joy of reading it. Thanks to the affirmation, I was able to read it calmly and without stress. I think I can safely say that I was happy to spend at least 10 minutes on it. - Return home shirtless and barefoot. On my way back, I met my mother who was just going out by the river. I was glad that I would be alone at home, although there was still David, but at least he did not disturb me. I was calmly writing a program for malgosia - Pancakes in the afternoon, but it was so hot that I did not want to eat. So I put it in my container and ate around 4:30 pm. I thought whether I should go to Maciejowa today. I wanted to look for nuts and check out our babies. However, I did not do it, I stayed at home and read books. I was glad that I have a lot of time and enough health to easily read books :) - I read one about vitamins, but here the author stuck to strict scientific rules: you have to eat as much as you need, for example, 10 apples a day (exaggeration), so it's better to take natural vitamin supplements. WHORE! but there was some compulsion in me to read this book, so I set close to 2200-2400slow / min and it flew faster. I just stared, but it made me feel free of this book. At least valuable are the footnotes / difficult deadlines that he can prescribe himself in his free time, e.g. in the morning. - In the evening I started reading Allen Carr's book - The EasyWeight Simple Method. Perfectly written book, nice to read, but I haven't reached the climax yet where it describes what this method is. I hope that thanks to this method I will eat whatever I want without feeling guilty, as the author assures Because again in the evening I did not eat dinner, I ate ice cream. And again he is thinking or feeling guilty: I will not gain weight if I do not eat supper and on the other hand I am not hungry - it is hot. I want a drink. Finally, after 9 p.m. I ate ice cream which I liked very much. Before that, a lot of apples. I don't feel like doing anything else right now. But I think to myself - maybe I'll make up for it in the morning. If I'm hungry I'll eat some delicious buns my dad bought today. - I think that's it for today.

I releaseSieOdBolu

June 20 - I releaseSieOdBolu - 1:30 wake up. Eating strawberries, then watermelon with seeds. I checked later that the fruit seeds have a lot of vitamin B17. Health itself. This vitamin is said to be a miracle for cancer, so it also heals all diseases. I wanted them - 6:00 breakfast. Only sandwiches. Great pie plus 2 yesterday. I felt a huge aptitude for them. Sandwiches with butter - 7:30 to start training. I hesitate to eat the cheese I took for the road. However, I decided that this time I will check if it will be better after training and now I will drink green tea. I ate at the end of training, then too, going home. I met my mother by the river. Fortunately, she was in a good mood. - At home, I made a mistake, I lay down and fell asleep for a while with breathing exercises. This is probably because I got up really massively early today ... - 2:00 p.m. a delicious lunch. Egg, cauliflower, and potatoes. Then I did wfm + soundHealing with 3 affirmations. - I forget about pain and ailments. The pain is gone. Everything is fine - The second for the tailbone Third: My body builds a powerful body from this meal. - This is how I felt today that I want to return to the affirmation: I am building a powerful body, I just wanted to change the photo to Arnold. - They called from Tauron today. like a sms to reduce the cost of accounting. - From noon I started writing a program for malgosia. This time I did a lot. I missed my afternoon training session. Good that the sun was not because I would be tempted to go out - But that's not the most important thing. I changed the affirmations to - I am relieving myself of pain and ailments. The pain is gone. Everything is fine. - I spoke this affirmation, or if you prefer, in a quite strong tone, composed with breaks in a state of relaxation. Chbya succeeded. And that's for quite a long time. Now this pain is bothering me again. But there was an improvement. I am glad that I was successful I think that's the most important thing today, I'm done because chlamydia is starting to wander again. - There is brilliant music on proton radio. I record it all day - In the morning I also downloaded Hans Zimmer's discographies. - Oh, and quite an important issue today. At this 01:30 am I wrote my notebook in code :) It took me a long time because it took me a long time to do it, although I did it calmly and it was pleasant to burn the pages - as if I had freed myself from it or gained these skills!