Get to yourself

January 17 - Feel to yourself I did not write down today's dreams. I did not feel like it. I do not remember a stay 4:00 or 5:00 either. I sat a bit at the pc, doing pseudo meditation. I felt enormous pity for myself and nothing was working out for me, and a bloody hatred for my father. I went for a run around 7:00 am. I also unloaded nervous tension on the back of the track. I didn't run for a long time, I didn't want to. Oh, before I went for a run I was looking for information on channeling again. I have found a new fairy who also has this skill. I made an appointment with her tomorrow at 12:00 I was at the bank twice today. Pay yourself 400 zlotys once, and then 150 zlotys for this fairy for tomorrow's channeling conversation. I was going to transfer from my account to her account afterwards, but I was in such a hurry and impulsively went to make a second separate transfer to her account. By depriving me of almost all the pension I received today. The nonsense of living today. I still think about my father and want revenge on him. Fucking fuck. Mirriel completed a certain soul-healing questionnaire. And so I lived almost all day hating my father. Several times I read 3 different channelings about me. As if I would like to feel this pity for myself or for the angels in heaven. WHORE!!! I don't know how to pick out of this whole situation. I was asking myself what I FUCK TO DO! And I told myself one thing: I don't want any fucking love, I want power, revenge and hate. I wish to take revenge on my father! And for that it needs a lot of power! For that I need meditation, martial arts - only if I'm fucking meditating. Angels there in heaven, call the FUCKER if you said that I am so important to the future! I felt so special when I talked to you, and now where have you gone?

Klotniaz Mom

Dreams: 2 days ago I had a dream with my hips. I woke up with two legs. I realize it was a kind of warning Today: I talked to my mom about a hoodie I got lost. January 16 - Klotnia with mama I woke up between 4:00 and 5:00 am Full of hatred for my father. I couldn't control the hate that was inside me, I felt anger spread through my blood. I had to unload it, that's why I went to exercise early because at 6:00 am. By the way, I did something new. When my mother was leaving, she scared me a bit when I was in the hall and I turned on the light. during training I missed the push-ups on the bars. After training, I got tired of it. The training was fun because I finished practicing at 8:00 in the morning. Maybe I'll start training early. However, the downside to such training is that you cannot practice lucid sleep. Being at home, my mother pissed at me for water in the bottom cupboard. She was looking for a bomb envelope. It's good that she did not notice antibiotics or, worse - drugs in coffee :) I boiled, but I was able to withstand this stress. Then I unloaded it when mom went hitting the pillow and calmed down. I also tried sleeping on my stomach. This position is great for discharging minor nervous tensions. Being on my stomach, I listened to 2x Adam Bytof's LD induction, which made me sleepy a bit and regained my strength. Mom went to the funeral of Ms. Beatka's husband today. At that time, I read the book Take care of your spine. I did not prescribe exercises, the book was general about back pain. I ate dinner, my mother, when she returned, asked what so little. In the evening I ate a cup of coffee. I did it mainly for a show to my mother. Mom encouraged me to eat chocolate. Then I had a grudge and I felt sorry for myself, in addition I ate it with a meal, and I strive to eat light and live without food. Dawid and dad came back from Germany today. David bought himself a car. I guess that's it. Today I dealt with my father hatred and the stress after arguing with my mother. I am really resistant to stress compared to what used to be. I can turn this negative energy into something positive. I spoke to Mirrel today. She did not agree to the screenings so that Donata Bargiel would arrange my apartment for free. I was about to quit her services. I kind of wanted to hurt myself. She wrote me back quickly today. However, we agreed that he would bring me purification of my soul so that I could live on my own and in what way I would get an apartment, it will be my only business. What I learned today: deal with stress.

I feel the tip

January 15 - I feel like a tip I woke up today at 3:00 am fully rested. I slept exceptionally by one window to keep it warm. I woke up and went back to bed. I played the recording of Adam Bytof and the recording of the gaze.net cos ala hemisync. I fell asleep, although I did not have a lucid dream. I fell asleep again, fell asleep. I woke up around 6-7. But I got up after 7. At eight o'clock, I accidentally swallowed one ablify tablet. Whore!!! I took NAC quickly to neutralize the effects of the drugs. I went for a run and then I wanted to go to the institute to do blood tests, but I forgot my urine. I went home to get the container and pee. I also added creatine - quite a lot for such an amount. I took it to the institute, took my blood and rushed to Rafal the Pawlik. Earlier I called him and I will be a little late, which is practically 30 minutes. I praised Rafał about yesterday's success and went to Kalemba. He congratulated me. We talked about fear, about the fact that he feels insecure everywhere - he says and he also feels insecure when he goes into a new area, especially where there were some thugs. Running back home, I ate 3 slices for breakfast. After reading the book, I swore to myself whether it is possible to live without eating, and I will also acquire such an ability. At home, I started reading the book I take care of the spine. Unfortunately, I did not fulfill my resolution. Somewhere, it is subconsciously stuck in me and it is a book and I will not be able to read it ... I have read a half of this book. I learned how important the feet are in the spine posture. At 4pm I went to Dr. Kalemba's. I brought him the test results. He prescribed me a referral for rehabilitation. He also asked discreetly if I was under psychiatric care. I answered politely like some pussy: yes, here at the donut bargiel. He asked if I was taking any medications, I replied with ablifa and tegretol. And I felt like going out like a fist, I was sad. I still had to stamp the registration. I was sad coming home. I had to relieve my stress somehow. But I held up quite a lot of sadness. It was beautiful how I adapted to this situation. I went to the park to laze on the lane closer to the river and do the WFM ala Yoga exercise to relieve the tension in my chest. Relief, but the sadness remains. Then I went to breathe too. It was nice to breathe. And so until 18 I was angry with my father, with myself. Life's nonsense again. At home, I ate 2 bananas for dinner, drank carrots and ate potatoes. I had an appointment with Adrian on the 19th for hypnosis. However, I transferred it to 20. I felt a tension with regret, I had to go to bed and lie on my stomach. This position is a good way to relieve the tension in the body. At 8 p.m. we started hypnosis. Oh, for lunch, I swallowed tegretol especially because I was afraid that my mother would catch me in the eye. But my mother used to tan her teeth for dinner, this time I managed to smuggle some drugs. The trance with adrian lasted 10 minutes. 30 minutes of photographic reading coaching that I conducted for him. We used a cool affirmation as the target: "He knows Bruce Lee's fighting methods." We have used a similar affirmation to program today's lucid dream. Lotto draw today. I am still waiting for the results to add this event to my diary. Heh, not a single number has fallen :(

I conquered the fear

January 14 - I Defeated Fear Dream: I was dreaming about Japanese knotweed. I had a drink on Liszka and Jurek Wolf. Jurek shouted: you are sitting, you will dig the mucus ... Should I return to the Rdest? That day I woke up at 3:00 a.m. well rested. Maybe it is the effect of using the recordings of the synchronization of the cerebral fields. I got up, wrote down the dream and did the wake up, a little longer than 15 minutes, over 20. I was playing tetris nicely then. I went back to sleep playing the recording of the synchronization of the cerebral fields. Unfortunately, I did not fall asleep for a minute. I think I slept so well the night that I felt no need for more sleep. Unfortunately, I also felt the cold - but it is probably worth closing the window and revealing the towel to make it warmer in the room. But I'm glad that at least I started :) 8:00 training, I exercised exceptionally without water and a thermos. David took him to Germany yesterday. I felt a little stress related to today's visit to Kalemba, which was partially unloaded during the exercises. I came home, I made a mistake, ate - it was probably 10:30 then and it was 11:00 a.m. which made my stress a bit worse. When I left the house - loads of cortisol in my blood - stress. I'm going to kalemba, stress like hell. Cortisol or adrenaline, anyway paralyzing stress. And then this: I started RUNNING! While running, I was breathing deeply - which relieved the stress perfectly. When I got to the clinic, I was a few minutes before 11:00 Kalemba called me, I was only a little afraid. I entered as some scared Pussy, but I did not let it know after myself. I had my cynical smirks on me, but I couldn't summon the courage to talk to Dr. Kalemba. Today I was thinking about taking a tram, but somehow I managed without it. Kalemba was a bit stuck that he didn't have to write me out. I have to convince him that it hurts me. He ordered an EKG and some blood tests. He also ordered photos to be delivered. As if I should be up. He was at fault, and I was afraid ... In any case, when I left I felt great satisfaction and it worked :) I summoned up my courage. I went to the hospital to get an EKG, I was in the blood collection center, an old lady patient hacked me downstairs in the hospital. There I talked to some doctor, he directed me to the door with the trauma. I knocked - I broke my fear again and was proud of myself. Nobody opened it, so I went to Ziemianski. At Ziemianski, I was told that the cost is PLN 20 and I do not respect the clinic. Back to the clinic. I missed dr. Gabis, but I was afraid to meet him, so I avoided him. I asked the Lady again in the window where the EKG is. This time I was explaining to myself: after all, for her it is a daily job to listen to the moans and complaints of patients. They are already bored with it and used to it. I also just observed how the patients communicate with the staff. They tell long, complicated stories - and here they would like to hear something briefly and to the point. I missed a certain blonde lady, although I should be alone, but I had no regret or grudge against her. Well, maybe 1% was stuck there somewhere, but at least I heard her communicating with the staff. It was my turn, the Lady referred me to office number 3, where blood is also collected. There was one guy in front of me and it was finally my turn. The examination was quick: in the position of the electrode to the legs, and the cancer, and something to the heart. Then she measured my pressure. It came out 150. So I wonder why Kalemba ordered me a rather expensive EKG test. Maybe he has suspicions that the spine may radiate to my heart, or he wants to check my performance. Or maybe it is required for a spa treatment? Who knows... I left, I was already walking towards the house, when it reminded me that I still need to register for tomorrow. I did so too. I was a bit stupid again, I was scared, because in the EKG I told you that I was registered tomorrow. But again I said to myself: conquer your fear. I did great and I was proud of myself again :) I went, I had a great desire to run again. Oh, I will add that being in the clinic I was very relaxed. I think it was thanks to this run before - I unloaded my nervous tensions. I was running in the park, I reached the pharmacy under the carefour, but there was a terrible queue. Before I ran there, however, I was running along the river. The weather was beautiful. There were two dogs, one on a leash and one behind the fence. And again with pride I overcame my fear and ran with them :) Then I ran to my father's trusted pharmacy and bought a urine container there. I was also in this petty store wanting to buy a calendar and a glass of scented lamps. I met Rafal Pawlik's wife with children. There was no calendar, so I went to Manhattan to the traffic kiosk and there I bought a calendar with flowers for 9 PLN. Earlier, I also asked about the calendar in Photographic, they said that they can print from the photos. He cost as much as PLN 47, but I did not have the courage to say that it was a bit too much for me. I was stupid and I like it - although I did like these calendars, I did not take the courage to buy it anymore. I was also at the cemetery. I bought candles. They had a red plastic shell that could also be used for scented lamps. Uncle Kazek and Sebastian were at the house to visit. Sebastian said that he was finally gaining weight, uncle Kazek talked about his hard life when he was making some extra money. As a young kid, he rode his bike to the seaside. Hahaha: D We made an appointment to go cross-country skiing on Sunday. I do not know if I was assertive, on the one hand I wanted to do something new, on the other hand I am a bit worried about my joints and feet. I ate dinner with soup. Feeling guilty and ate so much ... My stomach felt it. Then I was on the 15th day to make an appointment with Łukasz. I needed an XP disc. It's terrible to go there, I didn't want to, but I made a commitment. I wanted to go fast, he shared his views on food and exercise. He motivated me to talk about some guy who used InTuFlow to rehabilitate the spine and straighten it. Maybe now I start spending some time watching this video on youtube. I went home, exercised my legs and stomach. I wanted to read, but I practiced. The time flew by when I finished, because it was between 17-18. I remembered that I still have to send a lottery coupon, I went to Wick, but this time calmly and did not listen to the music. I moved slowly - I was after training. I went to Manhattan, there I hesitated to enter the casino - I overcame my fear again and went in. It wasn't that bad, the guy referred me to carefour. There, I still kept the lottery ticket and returned home. It was terribly cold in the field. I tested meditations, or rather a self-hypnotic recording of Adam Boduf. It made me sleepy. I also watched the fight vegeta vs goku first time kamehameha. This music made me drive, it gave me adrenaline. I'm too tired after today, so I'm going to wash up and sleep right away. I will test the recordings in bed, learning to meditate again. What I learned today: I overcame my fear!

Predicting the Future

January 13 - Predicting the future Morning 5:00 AM. For that night, I tested the recording of 4 hours of sleep in 40 minutes. I woke up at 5 rest, but whether this is the intended effect that this recording was supposed to give me - it's hard to say. However, the tape is very pleasant to listen to. Morning jogging, then sit in front of the PC and read books. I tested Adam Bytof's exercise to stimulate the right cerebral hemisphere. It consisted in describing as many uses of a given item as possible. I chose Notebook as my subject. I have described 50-60 different and interesting applications: D. Today I read the dreams of winners and the art of getting rich. At 7 pm I was hypnotizing adrian. I released future prediction inductions. I installed him a program to predict the future. There were pictures. The numbers are 6, 14, 12, 18, 23, 2. I wonder if it will work: D To make sure it works, we have predicted the future of today 22:05 what the TV program will be. He said that a bit as if it were correct and it was a great success!

Radical Affirmations

January 12 - Radical Affirmations Yesterday was written with a delay. I got up late, at 6:00 am. 8:00 I went to exercise. Somehow it was during this period that I had the idea to write an Affirmation. I did this in my old red notebook. They are beautiful, they turn me on and I like them very much. eg: I love my spine. It is straightened by my stubbornness and strength of determination Or: I live for free in my lovely 30-45m2 apartment from Donata Bargie�. I read only one book that day: Radical Forgiveness and I exercised half of Adam Bytof's books - The Winning Dreams. The problem was caused by removing the password from this file. Some program was successful, but it's a trial version and unfortunately I had access to the first 50 pages and that's all I read. In winning dreams, 3 exercises to stimulate the right hemisphere of the brain were interesting for me. In addition, I downloaded 2 recordings from the store: one is 4 hours of sleep in 40 minutes, the other is to achieve the oobe state. I began to test the Rzhen-Chen alone as a remedy for my disease. I had a hypnosis appointment with Adrian Green at 8 pm. Earlier he admitted to me around 12:00 and he feels unloved and has complexes about his own personality. I thought that day quickly, even lightning fast to the floor. In the evening, my mother cried that Mrs. Beatka's husband had died. I tested the first one that night with the African dream root. I woke up well rested at 5:00 am, but is this what I expected? The video is highly praised as opposed to the recording of the oobe achievements. Today I had a dream with Patryk Kocaj, we talked about the gym What I learned today: exercises to stimulate the right cerebral hemispheres.

Meditation Test

January 11 - Meditation Test Yesterday was written with a delay. Wake up at 3:00, read books. Around 6:00 am I went for a run. It was dark and cold, I was a little scared, but the music from the Krakow radio gave me courage and encouragement. She was perfect for this climate. I was running in this square between the post office and the monument to the paper. In the afternoon, between 12-14, I slept, or rather lay on my stomach in such lethargy. Probably not enough sleep. The position was perfect, although I didn't sleep, I regenerated my strength a little. On the negative side, however, I made a hole in the mattress and my lumbar spine feels a bit like this after tonight. I lowered the laptop table one step. Better to read, the position is more comfortable for the spine, even now when I'm standing and writing it's pretty cool. I did something new, I met a new slaughter. I read the Phoenix Rebirth yesterday, 52 effective psycho tips, and started reading radical forgiveness. Somewhere in my subconscious I set myself a goal to learn and read at least 3 interesting books a day. An ambitious goal, although if I had set a smaller goal - 2 books a day - it would have been more realistic. I will try to say: I read two books a day! About 17 I tested meditations from Angel Elavi. Running and exercising released my tensions in my muscles and mind. It worked like active meditation. Osho argued that active meditation is like adjusting the strings of an instrument to make it sound better. I fully agree with him! I was at peace, breathing finally became silent. I wrote down how I achieved it: - Well dressed and nicely dressed - Youtube Relax Music (meditation is boring without music) - Fragrance lamp - Low seat - Stuck in motionless CSS (previously useful running) - Diaphragm breathing a few minutes - Third Eye I tested the root of dreams for the night. I brewed it, but I haven't seen it melt unfortunately. I ate it too. Whether it worked - I don't know. Today I'll try to eat it without brewing it. Dreams I had were: driving a car with Szymek and Dawid. Szymon had some troubles and was about to be transferred to another prison and wanted to stay with his prison. I told him he had a powerful weapon, and that was Meditation! I will meditate to stay with my prison. I also made some affirmations in my mind, unless: Brother, you feel insecure. It was like a signal to me: not true, I will show him that I can meditate. Hehe. And I felt incredible self-confidence in my dream and I will be able to meditate. The next dreams were: I was a soldier and shot down by mannequins / robots. They were armed in several places: knees, head, etc. I aimed at these places so that they wouldn't shoot at me. In the morning I woke up with a tension in my lumbar spine and a daze from radiation from my mobile phone at 6:00 am. I slept for a long time, but I am glad to meet two other factors that are harmful to health: holes in the mattress and how harmful the radiation of electromagnetic waves is. What I learned today: meditation, radiation is harmful and holes in the bed. I also learned about the psychological advice and techniques of the rebirth of the phoenix.