Hypochondria

May 14 - Hypochondria I woke up well rested 4:30. Slight pains in the vertebrae resulting from the position on the stomach. The next 2 hours I lay flat, resting. Only a head fight, no other pillows. Brilliant, after these 2 hours my muscles relaxed. Apparently, the condition of the spine has improved so much that I can only sleep in a fight under my head. We have been testing this method since today, I remove all other pillows. And in the morning it is already standard: stress on the spine, herbs. Today Tuesday, I'm going to do stretching breathing at the tsnia and stretching the spine in the dangle. It's a pity that I didn't get up right away. I had a great desire and willingness to work, but one thing was blocking me - fear for my spine, especially my neck. Training for a while, dude was mowing the grass Selling a tablet to Marta Interview with Marcin at 4 p.m. in the office. On the way, I bought flaxseed in the shop next door. 500gr for 2.20 and the same amount of protein as nuts. Fear for the spine. Free breathing, tiredness and sleepiness. The breath softened the matter. Until 20:00 I was completely hungry. Maybe I didn't. soreness, Pleasant soreness after yesterday :) Now back at 10:00 pm I ate a lot of cake. Maybe I wasn't hungry but I felt like I wanted them. Earlier, I ate a lot of apples. Before going to bed, I will do a lot of breathing so that the body absorbs this powerful musculature. And fear at the same time: it's 22:00 in addition, it's sugar, but I think there is also cheese protein, but also with sugar. All day long you have nice sore muscles :) I just changed the title from Pleasant Sourdoughs to Hypochondria. I still think about the Pie. Is it rough, will the body absorb it properly? Before, I thought I didn't eat dinner: will I gain muscle to build a powerful body? In addition, I ate 6 more cubes of chocolate. Now it feels like remorse. But I know the breath will destroy it, but will I last that long breathing? Now I have this unpleasant feeling of overeating, like after a big dinner ... I haven't had this feeling for a long time ...

SuperTraining

May 13 - SuperTraining 6:20 wake up, I woke up earlier but I was lying sideways. My body must have tilted to this position at night. Today there was a resumption of training: herbs, guarana. In the morning I woke up feeling a little hungry. And I went to training, earlier buying bread in adas, as my mother asked me yesterday. Nice feeling to go to the store this morning. I left at 7:40 am wanting to be before 9:00 am. It almost worked. A quick warm-up, the training was divided into 2 parts and I finished a little after 9:00, probably 9:15 but I'm not sure. Great training, I felt mega power, a slight feeling of hunger. Cool! Mega muscle tension. I felt great in addition to giving out affirmations: - Good body, we are building together a powerful upright body! The training was really great, I felt the power. I was very pleased with myself. At home, a light meal, then around 9:30 am I ate breakfast. I felt hungry. 2 slices + 4 scrambled eggs. I feel pleased with myself. I feel mentally great! I provided what the body needed. I also saved the shells for later. I am glad that it finally succeeded :) Shower immediately and then too! K. Szafranowskeij's suggestion worked - I remember that ... Nice for mom = peace at home. Nice to dust, do some chores ... In the afternoon I worked with Esther and talked to him. Supposedly, multitasking does not exist, and while talking to him at the same time I was working much better! I suppose that is because the team works better, although we talked about other topics. That's how it was multitasking - doing anything myself I don't want to do anything. It was like a split attention! It relaxed me like a background radio. I don't write down the rest of the day. I felt great eating a meal every 5 hours. Super mentally and physically. Feeling a little hungry. Simply great!

Become a Young God

May 12 - Become a Young God I woke up relatively late. 7:15. A few minor wake-ups during the night. I got up in the sideways position, however, I find that with these 3 more broken vertebrae it is not a very safe position. I feel my whole body tense, especially the vertebrae in the cervical spine But at least I checked this item. Today, in such a case, the product positions lying flat, the side of the orthopedic pillow is turned. Before going to bed RB + pleasant muscle tightening (positions that I learned on yoga + hands on the back). Hah, now I'm thinking about my cervical spine. I had a few interesting dreams before I woke up - I was with dr. Feathers - I said that Dr. Sebastianowicz ordered hip resonance imaging. In addition, my hips were balancing a lot, and I was in pain. - I was like Uri boyka in prison, I was looking for a way out of prison. - something about a psychiatric hospital, saying Zarwskie, and I haven't been taking drugs for a year, but I don't remember very much what it was about. No, a definite mistake with this side position, I'm done with it, now I'm trying to sleep on my back with RB15 + tense muscles at the same time! Eh, I'm a bit worried about the vertebrae. I feel that I have jumped a little ... A moment ago I tried WFM on an orthopoedic pillow upside down. Smaller under the shoulders, larger under the neck. Quite a relaxing position. I think I'll try it today! At 8:30 am I ate a very rich breakfast. I feel a little guilty. Az 4 slices of petticoat with butter and then finally cheese directly. A bit of guilt, because I was not hungry, first and secondly I ate a lot - Okay body, no more guilt. Build a mighty body out of it! In addition, from tomorrow, I am resuming training. I was planning a breakfast at 7:00 am, right? so you have to do at least 1 day getting your body used to the new situation. There was no training today. A moment of hanging on the line and breathing in tsnia. I was breathing with intention / affirmation: - Body, build a mighty body out of this meal, that we may take revenge on my father! Then back home, mom went to church and here I came up with an interesting thing. Dawid is then in college, my mother goes to church, so: - I can do the enema on Sundays, even every other week as planned! Then again, too, I met Lukasz Lopate underneath me. I didn't really want to talk to him, but I did. Tezna, I listened to osho and returned home. I was worried a lot about my neck today. From the very morning. So far I'm worried. At home, dinner, for a quick dinner, I brought dinner to chic. After the meal I had eaten, I stood for about an hour and went to sleep to breathe. Breathe with intention, affirmation - Body, fuck that chlamydia! It is true that it failed. It is in my psyche that this traveling pain is impossible to get rid of, although in combination with the vibrations of the chair and SadSongsChannel1 I entered quite a pleasant state of blogs + a bit sleepy, a bit similar to the tram! I was also worried a bit that I was sleeping, my food was going to rot: /: D However, the vibrations of the chair + breath should do their job. Pleasant sleepiness blog, this experience was somewhat similar to the tram. Oh, and the orothedic pillow upside down, which makes the neck tense again, but smaller. But I had another idea. After all, the vibrating armchair makes me a bit taller when I sleep, the pillow is slightly lower on the bed. Let's check it out, so I put it in the normal position and we'll see how it will be tonight. After all, I missed my afternoon training session. And not in the morning either. There is nice music, so maybe I'll do it in a minute at home for a change instead of in the park, because it's raining in the field anyway. Hah, I gave my hunch on a project for Jarek. I did the tag removal on an ongoing basis and it was a bull's eye. I have already written how to solve this problem here and I felt it and it worked;) My mom and I had a little fight about her finger. She said touch me when it hurts. I said: circles in my spine also hurt, did you touch me when I asked you? And she: you don't want to touch you, after all, everyone says you have a good backbone! But I was pissed off. I went to my room to practice because it was raining! I unloaded my hatred and it occurred to me to think of something, moments later, when ester wrote to me. Will write a new script. Hypnotic script combined with either rebrithing or cw. respiratory 4-4. plus music. It will be like a prayer for me, like a beautiful affirmation. I put it in points, when the ester comes back, we'll refine and arrange the text together! I'm going for a drag and also because stress is taking me over the spine and vertebrae. I just came up with an idea for another business. To sell nuts, yams etc and not to sell on the road, put up an advertisement, just like the advertisement people put up for honey.

Dynamic WFM

May 11 - DynamicWFM Yesterday around midnight, as I wrote, I was doing WFM meditations in the intention of cleansing, and today I will post until 14:00. So I'm not eating breakfast. I'll take Kawe as an unlock later. I felt the vibrations. At first I nod my head upright, then my hips, when I got tired, I sat up. I just felt what to do to make it as good as possible. In addition, I did it in clothes, thanks to which I felt better mentally. However, I could not stand it, as planned until 3:00, even until 2:00, but just after 00:00 I went to sleep sideways. One night I woke up on my side. It was not so bad, but I felt like the effect of "restless heart" with which I lived for many years suffering from insomnia and stuffed by my father with ineffective psychotropics. I hate you fucking huju !!! Then I lay down on my back with my hand behind the orthopedic pillow and fell asleep. Until the morning, only one hand suffers, the rest of the body is almost OK. However, I am as if sleepy. Too much food for the night did its job. Toxinized teeth, eyes, heart, tired shoulders - I suppose it was because of this pillow and it was too high. Today, fast until 14:00, that is until lunch. I'll start with some breathing exercises, but first, bean coffee. I feel like bitter. So I think what good is in my well-being now: I got to know how average people feel every morning who live unhealthy lives. All in all, I have felt this way for many years, and even due to insomnia, poor bed and family atmosphere, I can say boldly and I felt 10 times worse. A few days ago, on the Bieganie.pl profile, someone posted a demot with the text: "To feel reborn - first you have to feel like you are dying" - maybe that is also about me. Today I have not exercised much. However, I was breathing a lot at the same time, thanks to which I slowed down a little and calmed down. It was nice to breathe, I felt the blogs relax but as usual without these ants / energy. But still not too bad. At the same time, I had an idea. Well, that my goal of building a powerful body can be issued as Affirmations of conversation with the body, such as: - Okay Body, I provide you with a healthy, light meal and you build a Mighty Body from it! - Me and my Body are building a POWERFUL BODY! - Body, I feel I need fasting today - Body, I feel you need to fast today after yesterday's horror! Use yesterday's excess meal to regenerate. I was wondering whether or not to use the words I, my mind and my body, although I do not know why the word Mind fits him strangely here. I don't know, maybe it even has bad associations, such as love? It's hard to say, that's why I stayed with the formulation of Me and my body! Oh, coming home, I felt a choke like a cervical spine. I thought it was from a circle, but I touch it is not the place ... I immediately thought, hoping that it would not be a tick ... Being at home, I noticed this pest upside down on the floor in the living room. I did not want to kill him, he is also a living creature. So I took it for a tissue and "blew it" on the balcony ... But mom gave the sheets to air and it feels like blowing into the sheets when blowing ... well ... Also throughout the day: I cleaned the floors after lunch. Wogole Dinner, not counting coffee, was my first meal today. I felt a bit cramped but started doing a Head Vibration with my hips. I could feel the rhythm of the vibrations, as the author mentioned many times. I felt what I was supposed to do and how to perform the vibrations. I improved Jarek's program after I finished wiping the floors. I fixed 2 main problems related to the service of binary states, e.g. united-states and the problem with the Schedules Table. It was missing and I had to manually add this tag to the code. There was still a problem with the England Championship table. I thought to program as an exception, but made a change so that every table should now work. Now after 8pm I found out how to do nice Rebrithing on the bed so that you want to do it. Hands must be on the back as if lying taut on the back. Rece is as if leaning against the wardrobe. Perhaps that is why anger has two ways out according to Osho: hands and teeth. Until I wanted to do this rebrithing and I can't wait to go to sleep today.

Momentum

May 10 - ChwilaSzczcia Day like everyday. Training in the morning - after training, however, I had a great desire to show my program, but at the same time thinking a lot about the spine. Afternoon and morning training great - the sun was great Mom was at the funeral today, we were home alone for a long time. Online meditation - I entered this password in google before the evening. I found a guy's channel that runs something like this. But the event of the day: In the evening, the simon invited me to his place. We drank one beer at a time. It was really cool, we talked for an hour. Was great! I haven't talked to anyone like that for a long time, I relaxed and relaxed. I didn't think about my illness for a long time. I also imagined how alcohol kills chlamydia. I was in this state of relaxation for a long time and I am until now. Only ... I ate a lot for the night! Not enough that earlier, some 6-7 apples are 22: 2 slices of chalka + probably 150-200g of cheese. In addition, 2-3 slices of plain bread with butter. I was going to eat and eat. I felt a slight hunger after alcohol for 2 slices of petticoat with butter, but I wanted to get drunk like a pig. To do so well. I do not even regret my decision. I'm a little cold. It feels like my body feels bad about it. But I had an idea. I do not want to sleep exceptionally. I just don't feel like it. Maybe it's the effect of physical and mental relaxation after talking to the simon. But I thought I'd go wash myself and then put on my clothes again. I feel great mentally in clothes. And in his clothes he meditates before going to sleep. I feel this is the moment now. I feel this is it. WFM standing, me and my laptop, maybe Krakow radio. Ah, now suddenly I start to regret and I ate so much in the evening, although on the other hand in my head I think that the body will transform it into muscles and at the same time I think that once in a while you can indulge in "such a drug" which is eating! Moreover, now I have a non-training week :) I had a cool idea: Now I set a goal for myself: a purifying meditation until 2:00 am to cleanse myself of the sins I have committed today, specifically solid gluttony for the evening. However, tomorrow, until 2pm, I have a Post :) Only psychological pressure will be on me again and I will have to go through my mother and smuggle sandwiches. But ... In meditation, set a goal for yourself to be successful. Cramp I feel that I have a desire for meditation. I feel like I want to meditate until 2:00 am (3)

Urologist Fun

May 9 - Urology Fun Sleeping sideways - tired hands. Lots of cheese for breakfast. Short breathing training, picking up packages from the post office. I picked up the shorts and the Magic Herbs Book. There, herbs actually serve for Magic: D I like this book: D Home, preparations for the Urologist, On the way to the hurricane, test results and joining everything after 2.50. Buying a lot of things. At the urologist, someone was messing with me, but I had no complaints. I had a lot of discussions with the urologist about the health service, asking for an internist. Referral for the treatment Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. I wonder whether to use this referral for testicular surgery ... I don't know ... I found out a little how the public health service works: and once the public health service in Poland was one of the best in the world. However, I did not have time to take a referral and a copy from the rheumatologist and neurologist files. I had to go home for dinner. Coming home, I bought juice earlier and drank too much as much as 1l of multivitamin. Along the way, I was afraid of the spine, especially the neck In the park, I met this woman with great Artur, I just greeted myself and said that I have to go because I'm in a hurry :) At home, I ate doves abundantly. Mom bragged about her shoes. I feel as eaten as a dragon, gut pushed forward. I don't like that feeling. I had an idea to write a computer current optimization program, something like IBM Power Manager. After lunch, I was so driven and did at least 15 minutes of WFM, but the tailbone pain prevented me. I put up my tablet on Facebook. I decided that I do not need it for anything. Idea: Internista Nowy Targ Well-known doctor A moment ago I was doing the WFM Meditations while standing. The legs are slightly extended, and the hands are resting on the table with the fingers. This relieved tension and relieved the tailbone! After afternoon training in the sun. I was still thinking about eating a big dinner. It was not good in my stomach, I also drank 2 cups of coffee with milk and honey. I felt a little vomiting ... Ah, how I regretted it. After 18-19, walking across the river, I met my husband, Patrycja Czyszczon. Wow as the saying goes: husband. I don't even know what the guy's name is. He talked to me that I lost weight and I took it for myself ... I was a bit afraid of this team and I really wanted to go home. I wanted to finish quickly. He also said that I'm done with "fun". I was wondering what he meant with this game ... Przemek, fun? Sex? I don't know, I didn't know what he meant. It was only after a few minutes in silence that I associated: he is Patrycja's husband, and I talked to Patrycja about various things, such as DXM and summoning spirits. I suppose that's what he meant. Good, I don't even know the name of the guy, but he already has an opinion about me ... In general, I felt a slight fear and discomfort in their company. I wanted to leave quickly. And at the same time leaving the hatred for my father. Even more hate! More anger! For fucking up the most beautiful years of my life. I avoid people, I don't like the goods of all people. I like being alone. At home, I ate 2 apples and a carrot. I didn't want this carrot, but I promised my mother that I would eat it. Then a hearty dinner around 8:30 pm, 2 slices of chalka and butter and a lot of cheese. After that, I felt like eating somehow. It's been a long time since I had such bouts of marriage. He controls himself. But now I would eat something else to fill myself. To stuff and to purge from hatred - as H. Louse claims to keep such people "merry". Yes, I haven't had it for a long time, but sometimes you can sin! I feel stuffed right now, but I don't feel such remorse that I ate so much! Earlier, I went to bring the dinner to Szymek. I had fun talking to him, but I had to go. He's tired and I have to write a program for Jarek. How about going to the kitchen and eating another slice Heh, about the operation jader: I don't know. I asked for this referral. I think to myself: an additional procedure: something will be added at least to the file, always some proof. But on the other hand, I'm worried about my testicles. I am afraid that I am screwed up with this procedure, although I told the Pomeranian that I am not afraid of the operation there. I lied. I'm afraid that they will hurt me. What to do? I don't know fucking ... Ask a fairy, an angel, a channeling? Anyway, I have already asked about this procedure ... I could take a risk, but I would like to have an answer from the card + from an angel that the procedure will be successful ... Eh, I think I know what hurts me right now. I feel sorry, I feel sorry that people remember me as Cipe, as a huge tight fat pussy, and that's how I feel now. I want to show, regain my honor, build a powerful body and muscles, straighten my spine and learn to fight like Uri Boyka. Supposedly I feel strong enough to achieve everything except the last one: the science of martial arts. I hate you fucking father

I got a job

May 8 - I got a job I woke up after 6:00 am. Pelen toxin in the body, eyes stuck together. Although I slept on my stomach, I woke up on my side. The neck is a little taut at the side. The prone position I think would have been successful if it had not been for this and the legs were too loose. In addition, I can be full of toxins because yesterday I ate up to 3 buns + 2 slices, right? It's 6:40 and I'm supposed to go to the interview at 9:30. The weather is so beautiful that I think I will be tempted and I will go sunbathing earlier :) I am after the interview, I was accepted. I used to sunbathe before :) I had an additional idea related to drugs - placebo tablets - Chewing gum # in case of problems - Stock of lemon juice - NAC For chewing gums, I just wrap the tablet in chewing gum and swallow it. I would have to look at the tram first, for example, will the tram work for me then. If it doesn't work, the rubber has been neutralized Gosh it is now 3:20 pm. I feel so excited, excited :) Excited about the new job, I imagine how I work with people, how my job gives me satisfaction, and how I give out self-suggestions explaining what I am doing. And here, after all, for Jarek we have to finish the program: D Being in the afternoon training session, I fell into my dreams again. I imagined myself buying a multimeter and a device for measuring electricity consumption and a similar backpack / bag on spikes in which I keep my tools and laptop, only this time slightly smaller than the one I bought. It is supposed to be a company backpack: tools and a laptop, CDs ... Ah, what beautiful dreams :) I think I'm about to go to the Allegro: D Heh just weeks after payment I read Channeling from Elen When asked what I was doing incorrectly in the breathing exercises, I was given metaphors, maybe nice, but I don't understand it ... When asked if Markicz suffered consequences for how he treated me: No, there was a conversation with his superior, who is his colleague, nothing more. When asked how to regain my actress's gift: (...) I was an enthusiast who wanted to show who is in charge ... Write down on a piece of paper what lies on my conscience in connection with this hospital and burn it! Oh fuck mac, nothing practical !!! Absolutely fucking nothing! However, I bought this backpack on the Allegro. I will keep my tools and laptop in it. Black color thanks to which it is unobtrusive.