Cold 2

March 31 - Colds2 It's 4:37 for the new time (old 3:37). Since my mother entered the Room I have been suffering from a slight insomnia. The symptoms of a cold for the night worsened. Gee why? There is nettle, echinacea, good diet. But I was pissed. Well, I have to live with it, and so I had enormous ambitions to heal myself in one day. In 2 days I was successful. I feel like I have a fever. Ever since my mother came in to look for a teaspoon, I am suffering from insomnia. But I can handle it. This is some kind of stress reaction of the body. During this time, I am watching the Death Note. I almost fell asleep, but I still haven't fallen asleep. I'm cold, I think I have a fever. I closed the windows. Maybe I got colder through the open window? I do not know... A little before 8:00 for a new time. I woke up twisted, in a strange position. Cancer and head ischemia. I went to "take the medication". Sucking on a lemon slice - it helped my throat but had a side effect of hypersensitivity to my teeth. The citric acid just burned away the enamel. I brewed sage. I was playing the old hacker Gre UPLINK for a while. I enjoyed it for a while, but at the same time I think about the spine. I raised the lapotpa a little again. Good for the eyes and head, but slightly worse for the hand of the thoracic spine. At the same time I think about the spine. In addition, the game has already crashed twice. Interestingly, the game is in Polish, which makes it much easier to use. A warm armchair is very relaxing for reading ... Speed ​​reading on the computer, of course. I am reading a book by Elen Kanicka about channeling. So far, a lot of fuck about love, after all, somehow I absorb these words to the rhythm of the music - although I know that I do not need love for anything - I want hate !!! I drank the whole lemon juice. It was delicious. I felt that this is what my body needs now! I'd like another one. I came up with the idea of ​​speed reading hypnosis: SpeedReader, a warm armchair and the right music for it. Only then the scripts would have to be really very long! Mezo Revenge. Great song on youtube. I had just finished hypnotizing Esther the night before. He put together a great script to stimulate Lycanin. Very rich in vocabulary, simply POETRY. I was finally reading a book in my Speed ​​Reading program: The Secret World of Energy!

Cold

March 30 - Cold I woke up a bit before 2:00 am like 1:25 am. I feel that I have a slight runny nose, a slight cold. I went to eat an apple and a few kiwi fruit - a natural antibiotic and lots of vitamin C to strengthen the body. For this I also brewed a nettle which I did not have time to drink. During this time, I was thinking about the number that I once took, and najzszychodbezpieczowan.pl. I imagined the conversation with the lawyer to whom I present my whole situation ... Colds under control. A really proper diet, cleansed organism, nettle and echinacea made me go through this cold quite gently. Almost nothing hurts me, I feel them quite delicately! Incredible. My body is really healthy like never before. I just ate 2 more onion sandwiches. I feel like the onion has improved my health. My head is getting better, my throat is in better condition, I hardly have a runny nose. COOL!!! :) After lunch, I felt weak. The meal was like "poisoning" me. The body had to use extra energy to digest the food. The angel wrote back. I think he's starting his adventure with esotericism on the Internet. It doesn't have its own website. The prices are quite low. I hope that he will finally give me his account number and will help me. Today I added a new photo on facebook. In addition, I removed Kaje from contacts on facebook. I want to forget about her, I don't want to think about her. I shouldn't have gotten a notification, we checked it on two of Esther's fb accounts. In the evening the ester hypnotized me. I had the impression that my hand was gently lifting, I don't know - I'm not sure. However, focusing on them, I think I felt her lightness. I wrote down notes on 12 ways to get super brain. Oh, it is worth adding that Echinacea probably helped the heart and tailbone. Today I did not feel practically wandering pain in these places. It was only in the evening, during hypnosis with Esther, that she slightly attacked her tailbone, but I was calmer. Echinacea is AWESOME! I was going through a cold gently. Little mucus shows that my body is fairly well cleansed of toxins. I am glad that I have such a powerful and strong body as never before.

Psychodelic

March 28 - Psychodelic Nothing extraordinary happened since this morning In the morning I was able to sneak in my breakfast. I ate nuts for breakfast. A nutritious meal, I felt I needed it. Apart from that: Although I am ashamed to admit, but since I broke up with Kaja - I started to think about her constantly ... Well fucking good, I didn't want her a few days ago. She writes nothing, changed nothing in her description. Nice tactic. It really works for me. I would like to write to it, but honor does not allow me ... I found cool psychedelic music to listen to on youtube. Really great! I took, about 2, and even more than 2 hours to listen. My head nodded pleasantly in its rhythm. What mentally: I don't know what to do with myself. This fucking chlamydia wanders here, here I want to exercise, regain my super-fast mind, and on the other hand I want to do nothing, give up and have everything in my ass. Here, from the next page, I want to meditate, have great great power. What the fuck am I supposed to do. I'm calling you fucking angels and telling me what the fuck am I supposed to do? Listening to this psychedelic music during another attempt at meditation, I had an idea: how about writing to Kasia Szafranowska asking for help? At the same time, the pain wandered, and at the same time I ate a lot ... At the same time I got rid of the slices, but ate a lot of cheese and nuts. I literally stuffed myself like a pig. Whore. My stomach was full and I was still eating and stuffing myself like pigs. Whore. Because it's already 18 because you have to eat dinner. Well fucking mac ... What to write Kasia? I have lost my power of words and I do not know how to ask her to agree. What can I write to her? Well, now I stuffed myself like a pig. Time to go for a walk and breathe. Time to burn it all down. This is already a sick pale colour ... For the night I wrote again on the Allegro, this time instead of channeling: clairvoyant. I bought auctions from some tramp who has been clairvoyant for 50 years. I asked 6 questions I wrote to 2 more fairy. One can communicate with the dead. The second writes that she has a gift from birth and can contact Angels. I also wrote to her by email wrozkaanielica@interia.eu I also talked to Karol Olszak just now. He offered me cooperation on his website: nowybrzmienie.pl. I wonder whether to cooperate with him ... I would get to know a lot of interesting pieces It is worth adding that listening to this music gave me an amazing experience. Interesting imagination again, imagining a fight with my father, and I even imagined my sharp retort in action. It was just great for me.

Czeslaw's refusal

March 29 - Czeslaw's denial From the morning, quite a strong attack on the tailbone. I cried out In the morning after 5 WFM of the hips to the rhythm of this psychedelic music. During the morning training, I felt a clear hunger. Today is great Friday. I didn't eat sandwiches again, some 300g of nuts for breakfast. Great meal. I felt that my body needed it. I read a bit about nuts today. They have anti-inflammatory effects, A lot of vitamin E, arginine. I ate them with the intention of regenerating my tailbone. And I remember that it has a similar effect to the Japanese RDest - they contain a lot of Reservatol. I found Elen Kanicka's Channeling guide. Converted to txt and put it into my speed reading program. In the morning, I had a great desire to read this guide. Being some 30 minutes ago while shopping, buying intimate insoles, my mother in a chemical store, I met a tutor Ewa Kurzejewska. Moments ago, literally a minute due to attaching chlamydia to the heart and tailbone, I started Echinacea therapy. I have very nice memories of this drug! Echinacea also heals injuries. A moment ago, while I was taking a second cup of Inka Coffee with milk and honey, my mother remarked to me: Krystian, enough, Lord Jesus spent 40 days for our hens ... Fuck, I thought to myself: you also do not know what the truth is, that this Bible is one big lie and a bulshit like the National Health Fund. Jesus took 40 days for fasting to give him strength before an important life mission !!! But I kept silent about it in my mind, thought my own way and only said to her: Yes, but Jesus had divine power. For him, it's a good idea to go through 40 days without eating. In a moment I am planning to go out to town for Echinacee or Echinacea. I just got back from my trip for Echinacea. I ordered from this cheap pharmacy. In addition, I checked at the pharmacy in stescal. They have Echinacee there if needed. I also ordered a purple hedgehog in a herbalist's shop. It will definitely be cheaper than tablets and probably much more effective. Echinacea stronger than antibiotics. I still think about my heart. Chlama began to cling to her heart intensely ... Moreover: I was talking to Szymek now. I was at his apartment. He has no money, he doesn't know what to do with his life. I would like to help him somehow, but I don't know how ... He says: I have it well with him ... I feel how. As if I didn't eat nuts too much. Fortunately, there will be dinner in a moment :) A beautiful gift of hunger. I want a few breaths. A moment ago I watched the world according to the bad ones, but I laughed. Unfortunately, due to the fact that the chalmydia clung to my heart while laughing, my heart ached. As if for a moment the part of the body under which it is attached is weakened / damaged. Wlansie got an answer from Mr. Czeslaw: Clairvoyant. He said: I am sorry, but I am not receiving bright pure energy from the Lord. Scare can harm you more than help ... Fuck mac ... When you're happy people don't need any kind of shit like meditation. Such things are reached in times of need. I know because I was happy once and felt no need to meditate. I feel now! Because I'm angry, full of anger and hate! Hates of Father and Mother! Shit, such a good shit, 50 years of experience and unfortunately I lost it. How can I convince him to myself? Got an idea: we'll do as we get the girls back. I won't be writing to him for a while! Let's say 2-3 weeks. I'll be back in these 2-3 weeks! Then he will feel as if he has lost something, and until then he will write back with the explanations of this negative energy full of non-aversion to my father! Maybe then he can help me. At least there should be a better chance of that. I watched the Death Note a bit Now, between 5 pm and 6 pm I am training. But depressing weather. Simply depressing, supposedly a few degrees above 0, the sun is shining, but it is depressing and depressing. I long for darkness, let the sun finally go down, I prefer darkness. I feel great in the dark. I feel safe in the dark! In the dark I feel myself! After training, I was going to buy butter. I drank a liter in the cold air so that my mother did not see it. On top of that, I was a bit cold. Coming home, now I have the impression that I have had a cold. My nose is dripping, I feel like the first symptoms of a cold. But then I'll take Echinacee, and I should help for that too. In addition, my stomach hurts a bit after the butter. The last fairy wrote back to me. For PLN 30 he can channel me. Jupi: D I promised myself that my first question would be to ask for affirmations to get rid of the traveling pain. I'll figure out the rest. I also did it so that she sent me her account number first. I will give her an advance so that she feels a certain obligation towards me and does not refuse me like Mr. Czeslaw. I hope he doesn't sense hostile intentions towards me. Maybe now resend some extended message?

TramalowaLikanina

In the evening of the previous day, Ester hypnotized me. Channeled again and didn't come out as usual. In addition... In the morning I woke up with a headache on the side of my head. He feels there is something there: a trobel or a cancer. I even thought ... It would be even fun if the doctor made such a diagnosis ... If my revelation found out about it, I would like to die already. I want to fucking show him ... Fucking dick !!! I wonder what zarowski would say then if he found out that there was a tumor in the place of the head where I reported pain! I hate you fucking motherfucker !!! I recently returned from morning training. I also planned to jump to the ladybug for apples, peanuts and baking soda. However, I did not want to. So then I went to Adam, but it does not spread out. I met Damian Wnekowski. He kept talking to me. We talked a bit about health care, about his and my health problems. I found out that there are similar sensations with lumbar puncture. Anyway, we talked about Dece - the steroid. He said he could help me. Not only in health problems, but I will gain 5-10 kg. Fuck as he said it, I wanted to get this steroid, but I could only take it under medical supervision. Moreover... I was wrong mentally. How the pussy listened to him. Now, as I think and analyze, I should say firmly and firmly: I will check it! But again in the morning I imagined how strong, healthy and powerful I am thanks to steroids. As my spine regenerates ... I fucking want Dece. I would get to know another arsenal of modern medicine, I would have more medical experience. Oh, in the morning around 7:00 I took the tramal. Now it's 10:45 and I don't feel its effects yet. Strange, the first effects were always after 2 hours, and now one big ass ... I have to wait a little longer until I am positively drunk :) Oh, there's something else. Wneku told me how he lay in a hospital in Zakopane. They refused to let him go, even though he wanted to. In the end, he escaped from the hospital, because he did not want to stay there any longer. Fuck and they only kept me for one day in the addition of wild boar with an unknown disease giving heavy drugs without any problems on their own task! This is life. Not only with women but also with people. When you want them to help you, they don't want to. When you don't want help, they want to help! This world is strange :) l The whore is after 12:00, 5 hours have passed since consuming the tram and somehow I do not feel any effects. By the way, I drank some 1-1.5l of Coffee with milk in an interval of 1 hour. Maybe too much fluid for the drug and it dissolved badly? In the evening, Ester sent me Energie Likanine. I don't know if that was it. The feathers did not crackle or the forks flew in the air, although I felt the pleasant warmth of my whole body on the blog. A great feeling. I had to unload it, do squats, dips. Wow, Adran and Esther said: This is it !!! Then I still had to run. I jumped to the ladybug for nuts and discharged myself. I want to run a little in the morning too. I feel great. I think I met Damian Wnekowski again with some visitor to the river and then when I returned close to the drazka. Today I only ate 2 meals. I felt great strength thanks to it! Light meals give me a lot of energy! In the store I felt adrenaline, self-confidence, failure to adapt to society. Quite what I felt in the past! Extra! Tomorrow morning, if I don't forget, I'll go for a run again. I think my feet have regenerated already!

After a Breakup

March 26 - After the Breakup. In the morning I thought about Kaja, about how I broke up with her. I was still thinking about it. I feel good about it, full of hatred, full of power of the dark side - that's what I would call it ... I didn't want to hurt her, I only wanted to finally get rid of her life, end it all and have holy peace. He does not want her, let him find another prince from the fairy tale - so my heart thinks. On the other hand, if I had to consider my mind - maybe I am doing something wrong. Maybe it is a temporary crisis and it should be rebuilt somehow? I don't know ... I chose my heart, although my mind also doesn't want anyone. I want to be alone, give my ass up and live a quiet life. Throughout the day - panic over the spine. Chlamydia has traveled through my body frequently. In the morning I practiced my outstanding training. Tomorrow, father and mother are leaving. Supposedly the perfect day for a hunger, but ... I think I'll let it go. I am so tempted to move it, but I don't think I will. David will not be there either - he goes with them to Krakow. So cool :) I read Kaji's blog. She wrote in it that she made cupcakes, a little smiling smiley. Its description has not changed in general. He does not let you know that he is probably suffering. Or maybe he hates so much? Maybe even on her hand that I wrote something like that. I listened to that song Snowman most of the day today - invariably. In addition, the Horizons 12dbi Antenna came today. The Cable is missing. I took Ms Basi's laptop back, accepting a £ 20 loan.

Breakup of ZKaja

March 25 - Breaking up with Kaja Two wake-up calls at night at 02:00, 05:00 and 07:00 At 7:00 am I was still sleepy. I think it's the effect of it and I slept on my stomach. The neck stiffens, the fingers are bloodless and in addition I slept with the window closed, which probably caused the body to regenerate more slowly. It's good that I remembered that today I have planned a Tramal. In a moment I am going to brew herbs, change my clothes, for a short 20 minutes of meditation. Yesterday I was listening to meditation on Radio Paranormalium. Fuck, but I hate this meditation, and on the other hand, how am I going to defeat all those who have destroyed me? Especially my father !!! I need to learn meditation !!! Then I blow everything off: tetris, brain challenge, balls, because I have to learn to meditate and discover my psychic possibilities! Report - Knowledge and reading books are closer to life success. I didn't feel like anything again. Thread. Fuck everything. I also got a reply from Kaja this morning. Devastated by the fact that I wrote so little on the gg, what's up with me, that I did not spend even 10 minutes on it. And that she would like to meet, but as she sees it is probably not the right time. Man, I don't want Kaja anymore, I just don't want her ... I want to be alone, live for free for some 800 PLN and do nothing all day. Lie in bed, exercise, do nothing. I want to be alone, I don't need Kaja. I have to break up with her somehow. I wrote to her and by the evening I will write back something longer on the gg. Just what? Lie to meet someone? no, that's a lie - I hate lies, right? I think... I do not know how to write it, I emphasize that I want to do it gently. Well, I never actually did, never broke up with a girl. In fact, we were not together, although we felt something for each other, these tender words, letters - somehow made you seduce me that I fell in love with you again. But I don't think I love you anymore. I'm sorry you. He continues to say that you are the greatest woman I have ever met in my life and probably your future boyfriend will be a true lucky one, but I do not feel anything for you anymore. I am writing it right now, because when I logically analyze it, I know that the longer I wait, the more harm I will do, keeping you in hope and uncertainty. It's hard for me to call a little and say it, let alone see and say it in person. Of course, if you would like to meet, I don't mind, but only as cousins. You know that it's hard to say it directly, moreover, you broke up with your boyfriend in the list too. I am entering the stage of adult life. I had to think seriously about many things ... What he wants in life, what he wants to do and who to be. Forgive me, I hope if there was anything, it won't turn into hate. We can always write to ourselves from time to time, exchange a few sentences. You are pretty, kind, tolerant, loving, bright, you have beautiful feminine shapes - you will surely meet some prince from a fairy tale. But that prince won't be me. I wrote today for the first time to Rafal Pawlik regarding the cancellation of tomorrow's meeting. He hasn't written back to me yet. In addition, today wrote Maksym. He wrote that he really liked the music that was attached to the card. But somehow I don't care so much about rebuilding our friendship either. I believed I was going to do this fucking meditation - but the fuck from this fucking fucking meditation. Tramal gives me what I need. But on the other hand ... I don't want to take the tram. Biarac tramal and replacing it meditation feels like a loser. Yes, I lost the fight against life and myself. I felt great and invincible. Yet I was beaten by the public health service and doctors. In total, man is responsible for his own fate. I wanted to be sick ... it happened. I'm sick.... If not for the psychiatrists, everyone would see doctors until they were successful. Until who will find outstanding and wonderful and heal you. Each. However, I made mistakes for which I paid a HUGE PRICE !!! HUGE!!! But as I told Rafal Pawlik recently, it's not that bad. There are -2 degrees Celsius. Now I listen to Yurim - those beautiful love songs that Maksym gave me two years ago. Oh, you could fall in love ... Those were the times. Today I came up with a nice comparison to the disease. Illness is like a fire in your home. Fire poses on its way everything it can: walls, furniture, rooms, roofs ... Health services are like firefighters who put out a fire. They give medicine. The fire is put out and they say: the house is safe and sound. But that's shit true. Because the house has to be rebuilt. My body, especially my bones and spine after a spinal cord attack, were brittle and weak. Burned out by disease. But the fire was extinguished (inflamed) so it was cured ... A moment ago, during the evening bath, there was a leakage from the coil. At the same time, such discomfort when urinating and in the testicles. Acid leak. Eh, I immediately thought that I would report the matter to the Urologist in May. We'll see what he says to that. All in all, I remembered that chlamydia began to attach to the prostate today ... About 1-2 hours ago I wrote to say that I broke up with Kaja. I consulted with Drops and Esther. Marta said to my letter that if she had gotten something like that, she would not be offended. Ester said that he would probably start crying after that from the second sentence. I wrote this to Kaja at 21:14. For fear of her reaction, I turned off the phone. And I have to write something else here. There are two sides to me. On the one hand, I do not want to hurt her, and on the other, I want to show her a little what it is like to suffer out of love ... I used to want to hurt her, as she hurt me, although I forgave her. After all, I received the most beautiful apology I have ever received in my life. They were really beautiful. Now I just don't want to be with her anymore. Maybe he wants to suffer too. Suffer from love. I don't want her anymore ... I would even like her to have a boyfriend whom she loved and be happy with someone. On the other hand, I would like to have me hidden in her heart somewhere. Maybe I'm too immature for mature feeling.

Meditation on Death

March 24 - Meditation on Death Now is 6:16 am. Although I woke up quite early, around 5:00. I slept exceptionally with the window closed due to the frost in the field, although they were slightly ajar, which makes the room somewhat fresh. At night I felt a little refreshing to drink. So I decided to test 2 glasses of lemon water. Lemon water weakened the effect of tramal by at least 60%, despite the fact that Tramal had been working for a good 4-6 hours. This morning I have practically no tram hangover. This is proof enough for me that Lemon effectively neutralizes the effects of drugs. Someday, I will have to conduct a similar experiment with the NAC. At Ranem, or somewhere around midnight, I spoke to Esther. He wanted to share his super power with me. Damn, if I had the power I do then meditation. It's something beautiful. Unfortunately, as he claims, there are also some consequences for this. I had to go back to light persuasion, I kept him in suspense, asked a lot of questions so as to make him want to give me this power. Because that's what I want. Gosh it would be nice if it were actually true. If this power really was possible to destroy 20 opponents at once. Wow ... As he says he was born with this power and the only way is to get infected with this power from him. One person has already contracted it, although it does not guarantee that it is also possible from a distance. More will have to tell me on skype. Oh, in the morning I found 2 interesting entries on the backtrack.pl website that could interest me: http://backtrack.pl/2010/04/01/jak-ukryc-zmienic-swoj-adres-ip-tunel-vpn-proxy-tor/ http://backtrack.pl/2010/06/07/linux-backtrack-4-final-instalacja-na-usb-zapiswanie-zmian-bt3-bt4/ Smuggling morning sandwiches Conversation with ester about lycanin - this super power weeb TV Meditation on death. I ate a huge amount of potatoes for the night. I poisoned myself. I felt guilty while meditating on Ester's death on me. Today, moreover, I did not practice anything. I had a nice time in bed, mostly talking to Esther. Ah, how I regret that I ate such a huge amount of potatoes in addition to the evening. WHORE!!! I also talked to ester about when I was being watched by the investigative department. It was fun to talk about it all and laugh at what weakly watched I was. The moment I make a mistake - chlamydia begins to wander for me. So at the moment when I ate too heavy a meal - in this case tons of potatoes - chlamydia started to travel all over my body quite quickly and I suppose it will stay here for a long time ... Fuck. I'm not okay with it. Now in my head I think to expel this poison that is food. Now in the evening I was listening to Adam Bytof about lucid dreams. He mentioned Galantamine and the African Snow Root as a dream aid.

EnterBackTrack

March 23 - EnterBackTrack Morning - stretching of the spine. I woke up at 5:00 in the morning in an uncomfortable position. Then again in a similar position at 7:00. The heart was beating hard, too hard, sideways position full of pressure and ischemia on various parts of the body. I practiced, then went to Alsen to buy DVDs. inter alia, to record a Windows 7 bart for mom and try to repair the system. God, I don't want to fix this laptop ... Being in Alsen, I noticed a nice Credit Card with 8GB Pendrive for PLN 32. But I got horny, I even talked to the salesman about it. However, when I got home I found exactly the same on the 16GB allegro for PLN 36 + shipping 10 PLN. I ordered it. There will be a perfect composition in my portfolio. Such a flash drive for every occasion. Being at home today I was a bit afraid of the spine all day. I was with Szymek for a while. I lent him PlayStation and Pegasus. I was also looking for a Lenovo laptop. I found x201t - a tablet like x220 but with lower parameters, which would be enough for me anyway. Only poor graphics, which are unlikely to be suitable for cracking WPA passwords ... However, think about it. About PLN 2600 After 4 p.m. I took tramal up to 200mg with coffee with milk. As always, the pointlessness of life, I wanted to feel better. I shouldn't, I'm hungry after all, but I'm high with it ... I want to feel good. And the tramal offers just that. I took 200 mg because I was afraid that 100 mg would not work for me. Gzies around 5:00 p.m. I started correcting the TabelePilkarskie program and repairing Mrs. Basia's computer. But I don't fucking want to. I downloaded windows 7 on a DVD, not enough English, the disc does not start yet. Come on fucking !!! I removed all the music from my phone and played Eska Rock Kultowa 500. I wanted to have something new to listen to. Oh, I also tested some of this BackTrack today, and bought the antenna that FoxPeter recommended me 2-3 years ago. 12dbi Dokolna, but I don't remember the name anymore. Hope it will be great for WarDriving. I guess I'm starting to feel the first effects of the tram :) In the evening I was repairing the Football Tables program and Mrs. Basia's computer. Working to the rhythm of the tram was great. Really great. The neck lets you know a little about itself. I got a little new experience today. I'm going to wash.

21hPost

Increase

I woke up very early, 2:27 I think. I decided to meditate with Esther, but that's ass. I am not fucking getting better !!! I really wanted Tramal, this nonsense of life again. I even told myself that: fuck everything, my goal in life is doing nothing !! Just live and exist. Such -2 degrees Celsius. I don't give a shit about everything. I don't give a shit. Even when I write my comparisons in my diary, I feel like a madman. Anyway, I was turned into a madman, a schizophrenic, which is a lot to cheat here. I'm afraid to use my comparisons ... At night, I was worried about the pain in this lumbar vertebra again. Such a pain that is not stinging, but a kind of overload. Today I have planned a healing fast. We'll see what comes out. I met 2 girls in the Park during morning training. I thought it might be Cornelia. They were walking towards me and suddenly turned back. Then, for appearances, I went to the playground at the end of the training to see who it was. I felt that she was looking at me, I felt that it could be Cornelia. The girl was pretty, but it wasn't Cornelia. I think she asked a friend next to the blonde to watch me. I don't know who it was. After the training, I went in the direction of the river - actually, I wanted to do the same, but I guess to make appearances I went too. While I was at the steps before I also met this drunkard. He was talking to me, he said that he also had back problems and I wanted to end this conversation as soon as possible. I wanted to breathe. I wanted to be alone ... On my way back along the park, I also met these crusader girls. I wondered who they were. I didn't want to talk to them, and what's more, after such a long period of abstinence, I can't talk to girls. Anyway, I don't even want to. I do not want. And even if they talked, I would ask them ... Now, when I returned after 10:00, Kaja wrote. In the morning, after many days, almost 2 weeks, I wrote back to her and we lose contact. I wrote back something to get rid of her. Suddenly, as I thought about everything - I want to be alone, I don't want Kaja. I want to be alone. Let him find another boy, let him find a husband, so that I can get rid of her from my head and memory. I don't want her, I don't think I love her anymore. I want to be alone. And at the same time, there is a strange dark side to me: she wants her "a little, but a little" to have me in her memory when I broke up with her. I don't know why ... Maybe just in case. Maybe everyone wants to be loved, adored by someone, and on the other hand, I withdraw and reject her. Yes, I want to be alone ... Even today I was thinking about a new affirmation, such as: I want to do nothing, have a high rent of PLN 800, live for free in my apartment. I want to be alone.... In the morning, in desperation, I also wrote to finalstan, the one who taught me meditation and knows channeling. He wrote quite an exhaustive email a moment ago. I'm going for potatoes, I'll read it soon. I read some time ago. I'm just pissed off even more. Although I imagined how the Angel would tell me something, hurt me and thus forever fucking abandon esotericism, meditation and other fucking fucking. Or he'll even kill himself, oh .... And fuck your ass, we'll see who will be so extremely important for the future ... I think I managed to do it again today with meditation. Because I don't want to write a second time, I'm even afraid to write long things, because of the backbone I will paste the content of the email I sent him: Heh, when I read your email today, I got angry. But it wasn't angry with you. I guess I even have to admit it was angry with the Angels. I even cried, even cursed sharply, fisted with anger. I was shouting words like: "h *** you f *** d *** angels, fuck you. F *** for 2 years I have been doing ig *** out of this" (sorry if I offended you, it was not the purpose of this email). AND: It seems to me that it was a kind of discharge of negative tensions in the body, negative feelings. It's like a technique of getting into a meditative state, just like you can do it by counting, breathing, tightening your muscles ... I felt that I wanted to lie down. And I lay down in the corpse position (in this I try to sleep because I had very serious problems with the spine and this one is the safest for me). I started to breathe deeply. For a long time, I felt quite a long need to breathe, maybe even 10 minutes. I will add that in the morning I exercised and stretched my body. And it was a small success! I did not feel the need to move, I joined 3 fingers, as you once described to me - even if I felt intuitively that I had to do that. Just a dead body position that many find uncomfortable. And as if I entered. I didn't fight my thoughts, I watched them. I even took pleasure in my thoughts full of anger and hatred towards my father! And we did it... It was true that it was not the same effect as 2 years ago when I also managed to enter, but then I was a happy man. Then I felt something else. I felt calm, full of life, composed, a mess of thoughts merged into one harmonious whole. I was extremely creative, intelligent, I felt the need to clean my room after meditation and I felt that it changed my life. I don't think I ever achieved this state again. You watched the movie Jestes Godiem from 2011? There, the main character had pills (drug) called nzt, which stimulated 100% of the brain. When I watched it, I saw in the hero as if himself, who had an extremely creative mind after taking the pill - and I associated this moment of cleaning my room with me. Because how to work in such a mess. Now I felt something different. Well, much smaller than 2 years ago, but it was still interesting. And so it was beautiful. Whole body heavy, I didn't want to move. I just wanted to be in this state. When the hate was stronger, I took a deeper breath with the air still in my lungs. I do not know how to call it. Just THANKS !!! I understood what to do ... I'm just afraid that in the evening when I sit (or rather lie down) to meditation again - I may not get out again ... But thank you. With this e-mail, you evoked in me emotions that allowed me to unload my anger, anger that you can say blocked me, were too strong and not discharged for me to enter the state of meditation. Thanks!!! Oh one more thing. Each time I sat down to meditation, I had the intention that an answer, a clue or an angel would appear to me and tell me again what to do. Now I was just watching, or as you wrote, I was working on working out the hate that is inside me ... But now how do I do to talk to the angel through meditation? Can you give any tips? In the evening I watched a movie on YouTube: Growth. A very interesting film about ufo, renewable, unlimited sources of energy. I fell asleep for a while and didn't watch, but at some point I woke up. Specifically at the time when there was a fragment about society. When you are not subject to social rules and norms - people destroy you themselves and control each other. SYSTEM! I saw it as if I was myself. I was raided ... Yes, I feel overwhelmed by the system, and I thought that nothing in my life would ever threaten me again !!!

Nosebleed

March 20 - blood from the nose. Morning Rheumatologist. I hesitated to simulate my hips, but let it go. Maybe it is even better. I will show the first photo of Lototska street, then to mruk Then Bargiel. I felt like a creep. Then I practiced. In the afternoon I took measurements. I had the impression that I got less than 36cm. In the hospital, I also ate 2 delicious sandwiches. Today he wrote mateusz-earning "when you will, write it urgently, because in this script something probably fell, these links do not work" When I read this, I didn't want to write back to him, but if he wrote a little more persuasively arousing curiosity: "as soon as you will, write it!" This would already arouse some curiosity in me and I would like to answer him right away ... Blood from the nose, like michael scofield. Plus cips for the night. There is pain in the lumbar spine, as if it is muscle pain - overworked. I don't even know how to cure it ...

The refrigerator is interrupted

Tramal hypnosis

Morning Tramal. I started feeling the effects very late, around 13-14. Here are the notes: 10:09 - negligible effects. Maybe because I recently took 200 mg, although on the other hand, now in the morning around 7:00 I took 100 mg on an empty stomach, but I didn't drink milk. But even if it does not work, it will write down the conclusions whether the milk strengthens the tramal. I will be more sure about my assumptions. 11:12 - almost 1 hour later - I still do not feel the effects of the tram. 2:00 pm Tramal entered. In the morning I went to exercise in the park. I have modified my training. I train my chest exercises that I didn't like doing at home, and I train my legs in the park. Such modification turned out to be good for me - I feel that I am doing something new, something different. The mind does not get bored. Today I showed David my chest, although he says nothing special. The photo in Janosik looks really impressive, and now - guts. This David, despite not exercising, has a much harder chest I registered with dr. Bargiel, on April 9 at 10.20. 15:00 Tramal hypnosis with Esther. Super condition! :) Put together a pretty cool script. The effect of entering the tram + its presence and script brought me into such a meditative state. It was nice to lie in the crib. I didn't feel lonely. Simply blogging! :) Home and family are my obstacles in meditating. The homely family atmosphere was never too friendly. Fear of the mother. Yes, I could meditate much easier in the presence of the ester. We made an initial appointment at 21.00. Ah, this blissfulness, silence, lack of music and his words. It was really cool. It is true that it was not possible to contact the angel, but I hope that one day it will be successful :) Now, after the evening training, I feel that the effect of the tram has evaporated. It's a pity because it normally keeps me much longer. Another event of the evening day. In the evening, my mother insulted me, I had a great Riposte cut in my head, everything was arranged in one puzzle: - What, mom didn't love you, now you have to challenge me. You hated your father too, but you have to protect your reputation and pretend to be crying at the funeral. I will not cry for you at your funeral, moreover I will not pretend, and even come out in front of the altar and shout: jeah !!! this foul whore is finally dead. Let Christ save her, lest evil souls take her suck off Satan's dicks (oh fucking but strong!) ... And so I rode in my imagination. But I was proud of myself: D PS As for traveling pain. I eat light and healthy - I listen to my body and not my mind. Thanks to why the pain doesn't travel and it feels great! The pain does not move and I am happy! :) This pain occurs when I do something wrong with my body, mainly nutrition. Now for the evening I found the website backtrack.pl

Resuming Training

Resuming Workout - Light nutrition in the morning Ester and the Indigo children. I ate cereal for the night so that my mother would not be bothered that I did not eat supper, although I did not want to eat anything. I feel like I've poisoned myself. I didn't feel like eating the 3rd meal. Earlier, I ate apples and ate, in fact, I ate these apples too hard. After lunch, I had absolutely no desire to eat anything. My stomach was full of overeating - I ate quite a lot of cereal, in addition to sugar Corn Flakes. Ah, but I regret poisoning my body. He let me know it was the traveling pain that is now circulating in my body. This is a sign that I made a mistake, because when I was doing everything fine with my body these last days - the pain was not moving, it was all right!

Opioid vapors

March 16 - Opioid vapors In the morning Ester hypnosis, unfortunately it ended in failure. Also, I woke up around 2:00 am for the opioid. I went to sit in front of the laptop in the diamond position. I spoke to the ester. He revealed to me an interesting technique of searching pictures in google - it's great !!! In addition, I found an add-on for Chrome to have a negative side (so-called night mode) and a linux skin with a conky (blue one) which I liked a lot. Unfortunately, I had problems with both during the installation ... Today - in the morning I was in bed until 10. I did not get up. A light breakfast, a light dinner and I feel full of energy. I keep a weight of 72 kg. Is great! Theoretically, I should start working on a graph program - but I don't feel like it. I came up with the idea to post a fragment on the 4programmers forum so that someone will solve part of the task for me. It remains to believe that it will succeed, 200 zlotys of infantry do not go. Today, really beautiful winter weather. I look forward to training on Monday. Or maybe I will start training from tomorrow? Finally, on Tuesday I will have to have a break again ... It is also good to prepare a training plan. I feel really great on these opioids !!! In the evening I ate a packet of nuts, then I had dinner 2 slices so hard, because I did not want to eat it. after this supper, my pain began to tremble sharply, because earlier it was quite decent, it was quite ok. Today I changed the radio station Music Oriental. Pretty cool songs. I really like at least 80 tracks on air. I have planned and resumed training tomorrow.

Reliable Obligation

March 15 - SolidneObzarstwo Hearty breakfast 4 slices I will have to correct the program and write a new one for the next guest. Software update Conversation with Mateusz Labuda on Skype. Buried rabka The nonsense of living in the afternoon Falling in love with Kaji. I like the name Nathaniel Hearty supper - feel sorry for yourself Today I was supposed to do 2 orders, but I neglected this matter. Despite the heavy binge eating for breakfast and dinner, at least I didn't stuff myself with sweets. David noticed this and said: what sweetness are you not eating? I said in my mind: more for you. Fuck, where is my cut retort, this diary writes so much and I can't get them back ... Now that I stuffed myself like a pig for dinner, the pains began to wander through me. Today Jerzy Krupa called me again. Like a coward, I avoid talking to him. PS a moment ago, out of this nonsense of life, I decided to take Tramal 100mg of course. This is the perfect dose. Although I took 5 days ago, but fuck with it. I pissed myself off like a pig, but fuck it. I really want a tramal. By the way, he will write down how this drug worked for me with such a large meal. And why not take a 200mg probe to check something new, see what I have to deal with then? Ok dear diary. New experiment - I have now taken 200mg of Tramal. This is against my rules, because at 150 mg I am already mega sleepy. What will happen at 200? In addition, I chewed well. It's 20:22, after biting what I remember, the first results were after 30 minutes. We'll see what happens...

Gouranga (2)

March 14 - Gouranga At night a dream where my dad discovered that I was hiding psychotropic drugs in my coffee. Today, excessive fantasizing. Since I eat well - the pain practically does not go through. My thoughts run to fantasizing because I keep focusing on the error. Prepare yourself emergency medication in your wallet. In the afternoon I went to Krakow I was finishing my SEO course earlier. In Krakow I learned 3 meditations, but the only one I liked was Gouaranga. Can fully clean the lungs. She is great! I could feel this volume of my lungs. Just how to do this meditation at home. We were also treated completely for free with delicious herbal tea and vegetarian cake - healthy! No gluten, some kind of healthy flour. It was delicious. I have registered for a vegetarian course. On the way back, I met Ole Paternoge. She was returning from Katowice from studies.

Paper selected

March 13 - The Pope was elected Morning - life nonsense again Dream: I had a dream and my mother made tea for me to drink my medications. I couldn't spit it out. Maybe it's a warning ... WFM meditation + back pillow = relieves the legs. Satisfaction of my client. I have finished the project for PLN 1000 The paper was selected today During the night I made an appointment with Esther again, although this time he got drunk and he didn't get hypnosis. On fb kuba wojewodzki gave a nice photo regarding the choice of paper "this time they chose two: D" The day before I read about healing fasts as it heals even cysts. I wrote a new interesting affirmation: "Hunger regenerates my body, destroys all diseases, eliminates cysts, rejuvenates and extends my life, gives energy and power"

Milky Tramal

The guy who threw 17 pages of algorithms - I didn't want to read it all. Just like the doctors to whom I presented my views WFM at night. Fasting in the morning too. Today I gained as much as 1 kg, 1 cm bices drop. WHORE!!! Fucking doves! Beautiful music from youtube I chose the Tramal. I drank 2 cups of coffee with milk, of course, grain Inka because healthy. I will see if milk actually reduces the effects of drugs. Theoretically, many drugs contain Lactose I wrote a new interesting affirmation: "I don't let this whore feed me like pigs." She is really strong. A light morning meal = tremendous adrenaline and a boost of energy. No pain wandering :) In addition, today I took 0.5 tbl of tram from 1 week ago, maybe it got mixed up. For breakfast cereal with milk, cayene pepper and honey. I feel great !!! Oh, it should also be added and in the morning I did over 1 hour of breathing sessions in the 4-4-4 system at the same time Finding a free meditation on Thursday 18:00 Krakow joga-medytacja.pl Strasko - my new nickname Tomorrow morning at 8:30 to Rafal, earlier meeting with Łukasz and giving him the book, then to Mszana and buying a tablet. I have just tested the Brainwave Vibration in the Diamond Pose - wow. This item is PERFECT for me. The spine is simple and does not get tired. For this we could use 3 more candles on the sides, music. My hands are very taut so that I can discharge my hatred. This is something for me !!! You just want to sit like this !!! The chair has bad associations. It is simply not suitable for meditation! PS next Day: I hypnotized Esther for the night. I made him anchors for stressful situations, one of the WFM chest, the other of the Mundra toes. I was going so well, I no longer have the power of words that I had before. In turn he later hypnotized me. I was under the influence of the tram and I absolutely did not want to move. I was a bit distracted by quarrels at home. I found that for hypnosis in bed, headphones with a microphone in the phone would be perfect. Maybe I will buy them, because the original ones screwed up.

We create Sect

March 12 - We CreateSekte Morning from meditation, quite early 5:00. The effect of a healthy lifestyle and light meals. A trip to the rafal - a conversation about my techniques of "manipulating on the offer", the beginning of the conversation - sauna, taxes, fees, adult life. Expedition for the tablet, measuring shoes in the mszanie. Then in the koperniak - the guest knew something there, he said himself that he was running. Earlier, probably registration for treatments at PPU. Coming home, my mother called in the meantime. Yesterday and today I lied to a client and we had breakdowns in our area. In the evening, Kaja wrote, thanking for the delayed wishes on the Women's Day. She wrote that she is worried that we speak so seldom. In the evening, also Adrian wrote to me. He said he wanted and willing to learn hypnosis and meditation. Together we decided to civilize together and master esotericism. After all, in a group it is better, more pleasant, one in quotation marks "pagans" or rather enters the other's ambitions. Oh, I made an appointment with ester to channel 22 or 23, I'm not sure anymore. Until then, I have to write an appropriate script.

AdidasBoost

March 10 Adidas Boost Adidas Boost - I got hot on those running shoes again, just like the last time I got hot on the tablet. In the morning, light the pitch from the client, but we managed to undo it. It was cool. Today I wrote exporting data to Excel. Someone called us last night. We thought it was a simon. By day of programming. In the evening it was very pleasant for me to program. I wanted to program, but I stopped it on purpose, because I finally wanted to practice the vibration of the brain waves. Again, regret that I ate as many as 2 large pigs while I was full, then I ate apples and then even dinner, although at least only 2 slices. Tomorrow is Monday. I hope that david will want to lend me 200 zlotys, in the end I can transfer the money to his account right away. Ester also wrote today that the girl quit him and asked me for help. I advised with breathing exercises, moreover he asked me for hypnosis. I am glad that I have planned that I will be programming by 22:00 and I have finished my goals for today. I still have to remember about the QT project for this student.

4-4-4

March 9, 4-4-4 4-4-4 Work on optimizing the program and fixing errors. No time for QT He was horribly eaten - I didn't want to eat today. Buying pens on the Allegro Urgent C ++ PLN 227 I think so when people write stupidly. The guest gave all the necessary details, and you also write: "Hello, I would like to work, please send more details to the e-mail I amstudentem@zrobiezadarmo.pl" I felt guilty at night and ate a lot. However, I had to make a good appearance. Dad drew my attention to the thin slices. Tomorrow you will have to weigh the 2nd day of regeneration and we will see what the results will be. Overall weight for the evening was 71.5 kg, the biceps was 36 cm. But it is terrible to eat, I did not want to spend the night after lunch. Even though the dinner was of normal size, I did eat it enormously. I used to write so many wise views, and now somehow I feel crazy when I philosophize in such a way, if only with this project for PLN 227. Well, it's not the worst physically and mentally. It remains to believe that someday I will reach the state of meditation and gain the divine POWER!

GoodRobot2

March 7 - goodRobota2 Today is another day of work at the PC. I spent most of the day here. I did a loop for downloading everything, filtering in TreeView, and an update form Every now and then some errors that also needed to be corrected. From 14-15 I started to eat today. In the morning I took the measurements, we'll see what will come out on Saturday again.

Purring Shopping

March 8 Purring Shopping Preparation 9:00, 14 glodoweczka the day from yesterday, a question at the bus stop in Rabka, the guest about the bus to Limanowa (Nysa), going to the Mass, then straight to Limanowa. Getting to know the new road to the small market, long waiting for the bus to the mruek I was at mruek's before, I told him to set 2 circles in the neck and chest. Some blonde woman, I wanted to ask them to take me back later, but just behind me a country of 2 people came. An older woman and a man - probably a husband. The woman was the first time - I told her about my back problems and how the growl helped me. I also tried to calm her down, although I was not honest with her until the end. I gladly gave her information, I smiled, I was cheerful because I wanted to go back with them. Oh, and being at mruka's place, he set the pectoral so neatly and that something "crunch" in it. They gave me a lift in front of the small market, I walked the street to the small market, then to the bazaar - at the bazaar I saw nice sports shoes for PLN 35 but they had a terribly hard sole. I also bought two silver insoles there to help me walk better. Then I went to the bus stop on the street behind the blue bridge, but I waited for over an hour and there was no bus to the mass, despite the fact that they should go 2-3. There was also some guy with me who was also trying to get to the mass. He was 18 years old - which is 4-5 years younger than me. After an hour, we went together to a stop at the station. I was glad that I got to know a new way and had some new experiences today. There we went to Mszana. In Mszana I went to Tesco. I met Artur Antosz on the way, but I don't think he met me, didn't notice or didn't want to say hello. Since our last meeting I lost some 20 kg so ... who knows. In tesco, I broke the hunger. I was also in the toilet, unfortunately I paid 1 PLN. I went to EuroMix - but I was fucking hot to buy a little tablet with a keyboard there. I even wrote down its name: "Goclever r83.2" but I got hot so I wanted to buy this tablet. I enjoy shopping. I also met this guy outside with whom I was traveling in the bus. I ate a few apples there, the last 4 I ate in Rabka. I went to Rabka and got off at the statue of Mikołaj. I saw this lady "God bless" but I didn't greet her. You could say - I pretended not to see her. I went to this fruit and vegetable store next to the lower church. I wanted to buy apples there. I also saw nuts, but they were expensive as much as PLN 35 per kg, which discouraged me a lot. The Lord, however, offered the second cheaper for PLN 25. We weighed and 7zl came out. Somehow he pressed them, but I bought them - in the end, on the other hand, I wanted to eat something new. It is true that the nuts from the ladybug would come out of 4-5 PLN. I went to Janosik. There I bought 2 nice wallets and a gray sleeveless jacket that I am wearing now. In Janosik I discovered something interesting - namely: In the mirror my muscles looked amazing !!! I took a few photos to paste into my training diary. As for the wallets outside, there was one I liked very much, but a bit torn. Then I looked at the very bottom underneath and found the same model without any flaw. Probably they have to put the spoiled ones outside so that they sell first and then the better ones for the bottom. They do the same with groceries in hypermarkets. Then to the ladybug. I bought delicious apples in the ladybug! For this also butter. I left my things for safekeeping with a nice lady who sold bread. Shopping was such a joy for me, and I also got to know new interesting places. My mind was not bored. After the ladybird, I went to a nearby shop / kiosk where I read computer magazines. There was some program to download MP3 files for free. It was also about the best android applications - I took pictures. My pains have almost nothing to do with me today. I have noticed how wonderfully my mind works when I am not thinking about pain. Nothing bothers me, I had a lot of dreams, imaginations - it was great. I am stuck in such a pleasant fascination. At home, my mother left a candy for me. Then I remembered how in Limanowa, next to the stop where we were waiting with this guy, I met a girl in the store who looked like my mother. A short gypsy girl, about 9 years old, had a breast and took the child by the hand. It felt like her baby. She was also with some other child. And in the store, the saleswoman pointed out to the child that they were sweets on the occasion of Women's Day. Now it passed me as if I wanted it on this tablet, fascinated by his wallet. In addition, I am a bit tired and I still need to train my spine. Maybe I can do some breathing exercises?

TramalowaRobota

earn.com Free hosting, reading about starters ... Conversation with Rafal Pawlik about my acting skills, I also met Dad Arek there Mom discovered the tram, stress but moderately contained. You can't see anything from me, although everything is shaking in me. From today, when someone offends me - I come up with 5 counter replies in my diary. Riposts: Why did you buy a tramal, why do you need it: - because morphine is on a pink prescription, and vicodin is too weak - does not impress me at all. - and maybe thanks to him I can function normally - and what will you complain to daddy? - call the police, let them come here with the dogs and put me in a pot - I have to somehow protect myself in the future if something happens to me, because I cannot count on the help of my family and doctors you are like ulcers on the ass that hurt me more than they help - some people drink alcohol, others marry for money to ensure a better life, I take a tramal - everyone has some deviations Light meals - great eyesight today. My body is in mighty health like never before. In addition, during the day I worked on the TabelePilkarskie program. In the evening, I wanted to sleep terribly - not enough that the tram was still working all day but I fell asleep late. Such a slight insomnia. However, it was not the worst. I don't know what caused this insomnia. I also remember situations where I heard something about doctors on the radio. Suddenly stress, mobilization to fight. I was reluctant to sleep.

Good job

March 6 - Well done Today, chlamydia a little. Gripping under the heart. I panicked a bit about that. Besides, I noticed that since I eat small light meals again I feel better and in addition chlamydia is not going anywhere :) Further work with the program. It was good for me to work. I am proud of my appearance. Advertising on earn.com thanks to which I gained some posts. I counterattacked a bit with retorts Think of snickers and post-boosting. But I was engrossed in the imagination of how I earn 4,000 a month: D I imagined how I write programs and in addition I run my additional businesses with websites. Today I was consumed with these dreams It was great working for me. When I was tired I breathed, when my spine ached I exercised. Working alone is really fun!

Light Walking

January 4 - Light Walking Sleeping on your stomach - hand slightly upwards along the pillow. Unfortunately, the pain in the back of the neck is blocking the neck a little. Measurements - weight loss, circumference increase. In Eska Rock I heard about a girl whose ambulance refused to help. They came the second time, unfortunately it was too late. Attacking by mom: Krystianku You practice and walk in this sweatshirt (in the evening think about the cut riposte) and the fuck I don't want to think about retorts. I have lost my precious gift A guest from Tramal called me today - today he sent me my sweetheart :) Today I imagined how I earn a lot of money and finish my portfolio :) Today I was working all day on the Football Tables program. I wanted to use a SQL database because the typed files are completely unsuitable for this, but unfortunately I gave up on this idea because you need to install an additional sql server. So I decided to get HOLFiles from 4programmers. There is a kimponent included, but a bit underdeveloped, I had to improve / redo a lot. Moreover, today I was letting up a little. The affirmations worked - I wasn't eating any sweets The traveling pain almost did not bother me at all today. Theory: Pain is when you do something wrong with your body. Today he hardly bothered me, because recently he has been wandering as much as possible.

2 Affirmations for the Freedom

March 3 - 2 Affirmations for the Freedom I woke up early - quite a lot of energy. Numerous soreness after training, which is just stretching. This probably only proves how the last muscles of the spine were found Jng music, juggling with Morning Measurements - I gained a lot of weight and 74.1 kg. Oh fuck, this is really weird. Get up to 3-4 kg in 2 days? Perhaps this is the proof that the body after starchies has an amazing power of regeneration. It is a pity that I used to say nothing, maybe then I would regenerate better. But the measurements are not over yet, we will see what Friday brings. In the meantime, I'll be monitoring the condition. But I also found a way for gluttony, 2 new interesting affirmations: - White bread is fucking Poison! - White sugar is destroying my beautiful body and the third one replaces 2 of the above - A light healthy meal gives me HUGE ENERGY! I didn't get tired all day, I didn't eat any sweets. I am really pleased with the result of the new affirmation. An interesting persuasion is offered by the application edition, which makes it stand out. I took a new order in C ++ for PLN 177 I worked on ProgramowanieNaZlecenie.pl. I edited a little Slider, unfortunately I did not know how to make smoother transitions, because the current default ones are terribly eye-catching. The Inka Coffee was ending today. So I decided to go to the store - it is my weapon against psychotropics. However, I bought a Kawe Kujawianke, something new for a change. Better in taste, plus only 2.50. However, it has a few downsides. It does not dissolve completely, it is weak, you need to boil strong water. I wondered how I would smuggle drugs then, but quickly figured out a few ways: - pour 3 teaspoons to make it stronger and not to see the drugs - A teaspoon always in the center of the cup - You can add a little milk Monika's meeting after shopping. We talked for a while, but there was nothing to talk about too much. I only know that he works in Krakow. New Place for Start Bar - guesses at the bottom. I changed the wallpaper to give the mind a new experience. The phone and the tram will be sent tomorrow, erasing the blackboard, then training the spine My laptop fell off. A broken key, a small plaque, and spilled coffee on a black liner. In the morning I also felt a bit like the Brain Wave Vibration. I took about 20 minutes to the beat of hemi sync Guided Meditation.

SSSSS (2)

Blog: Removal of an advertising banner with a link to catalogs. Removing the Simple style and configuring on the basis of the default "Window" template. January 2 - January Glodowka I got up in the morning and so quite early between 6-7, although I can get up earlier, but I go to sleep late. I went and kind of took my medication. Rafal Pawlik called me. He asked if I had left the house yet. He offered to give me a lift. Oh, I took a tram before leaving - I wanted to feel this euphoria :) I approached Adam - Rafal came. I noticed that he was listening to Hans Zimmer on the radio. It immediately occurred to me that maybe he lent it to him. We drove up to him. Today we talked about magic, witchcraft, the end of the world and a family atmosphere during the world. I also presented him with the ideas for my speed reading program. I think he liked the concept. When I got home, my mother and Dawid were leaving the house. I was alone. I came up with an idea that since I'm home alone, I will do a starvation :) I threw out the slices and drained the soup in the toilet. Oh, being home after this tram, I had a lot of energy for training. Today I also tested enemas, but I skipped this topic because I was not successful and I was under a bit of stress and my parents could come and hit me at any time. I also called dr. Sebastianowicz. I made an appointment with him tomorrow at 12:00. After 2 p.m. I left the house. I loaded the phone to have something to listen to and I went on to be full of conviction and I am already dealing with my body very well and nothing more is to be expected. I was breathing, at one point Rafal Pawlik called. In fact, I saw a missed call at home earlier. He asked if he wanted to earn. He explained that he needed a specialist who would change his router password. I agreed. I was cold when I was too. I bought felt insoles at a store in Manhattan. I was next door to change the money in the lingerie store, but the lady was busy, in addition, I thought that maybe the client is ashamed of the man in the women's store. So I went to that crazy guy at the stationery store and he talked to me. He mentioned that if he went to the toilet ... I explained quickly and for a different purpose. Now I think I could say: ladies, you can pee into the bushes and save a lot of money: D Again, I also bought drinking water in the shop behind the tracks. After all, it's a starch. I was also in steskal before 5 pm to warm up, while at 5 pm I went to Rafal Pawlik. I think some woman was teaching French. I sat for a long time. I also wrote to Romczyn about whether I could return my golf. He was in Krakow at work, although he gave his sister to know. I agreed with her. Rafał worked with it for a long time, but in the end I managed to change the password to the router, restart the passwords to connect the Internet. At the end he asked how much is due. I said firmly and firmly: PLN 30. He: only that? You value yourself low. I am still hard at PLN 30. I didn't want to take any money from him. I like him and would be foolish to rip him off. He asked if there was so little that I should think about it ... He gave me a lift to Romek's sister, who gave me my golf. There were problems with finding a house on the way, but we hit it. She had a very pleasant voice. Rafal talked about how he quit his job and has a lot more time for himself and about the earnings that were there. I got off at his place, I went too, but I thought that I could use some more water. Oh, there I put on a golf in the cold air, taking off my upper half clothes. Today I also listened to makary of Sieradz to positively believe in my own strength and starvation treatment. In stescal, I bought 2 livers. At 23 I came home. My mother asked me what I was doing, what it means that I went crazy. I managed not to take drugs all day, except for the tram that gave me euphoria, although I treat it as a support for my hunger. JUPI: D What I have learned today, or rather I need to learn: take a lot of money for your abilities! A day written with 20 minutes delay In the morning I got up quite early at 6:00 am and I figured out how not to take my medications. Andrographis, and around 7.30 I threw away the drugs to continue the starvation. I also prepared carrot juice for the first meal. I went to practice, it went quickly. I was a bit afraid of drugs, so as not to take them on an empty stomach to get hungry, luckily I was able to :) I came back, taking an alternate shower, and to the new market without breakfast. Continuation of the juice diet. Cool :) I went to the new market. I was much earlier. In the meantime, I was called by some phone number 607164002. I thought maybe it was about an employment contract, but I didn't call back. I was at Sebastian's. Some old lady wryla. It was nice to talk to the patients in the corridor. I saw in them both myself complaining about doctors from Krystin and people who were suffering. I sympathized with them Sebastianowicz examined me, he gave the result of the consultation for PLN 100. He said I had something with the kneecap and joints - he said it was a normal reaction with chlamydia and butcher's. He recommended ice compresses, cryotherapy, a bicycle, physical therapy, and a swimming pool. Super guy. Then I went to the hospital. I registered with a Urologist and Rheumatologist. Now I regret because I could still register for a neurologist and ophthalmologist, but I did not. I went home, previously I also bought 2 Tymbark juices to unblock my intestines, although I did not feel hungry at all! Nothing at all. In the morning a nice situation as I weighed only 77.4 kg and 12.1% fat. Incredible! I made an appointment with Łukasz at 15.30. Before that, however, I went home, ate a bad dinner - disgusting chops. In the meantime, I heard about vegetarianism, my meat smelled and stinked, it was bad and I felt bad after this meal. I left feeling troubled. Unfortunately, I also swallowed a tablet with a large amount of lemon juice before and after a meal Lukasz is at 15:30. On January 8 I was offered a speech club in Krakow. On average, I wanted to go there, but I agreed. I was ashamed when he talked about sex, manipulation and persuasion in my backyard. It's just a shame ... I gave him Kichboxing and Karate books, and he gave me something for a flat stomach. He also talked about the training system on which he was demonstration. Normally these trainings cost 200 PLN. He walked me to the thesis, we crossed the streets and so. He talked about sex that ugly girls have a good ass because they will do anything for you. Also about the Sieradz macaroni, vegetarianism, bedding and his interesting thoughts. Despite this, I listened well to me, I am in a state of meaningless life. I have low self-esteem. Arek somehow called, canceled my today's meeting with Marta, or rather informed that he would not come. The snow started falling today and they had to finish something quickly today. At 18 I went to Martha. I took the medicine which I threw away on my way back. It was great at Marta's for greens! I had a moment of wrestling but I dealt with it quickly. I was de-stressing myself with my breath. Then I drank my tea. We talked with euphoria about so many trifles! Was great. The herb gave me euphoria and the power to talk !!! I had a high sense of worth. I was held for a long time because over 2 hours. Fantastic! By the way, I got to know my body again. I felt the poison penetrate my spine, giving me neurological sensations of tingling, numbness, pseudokundalini. I got it under control. We talked for a few hours, long hours, because when I came at 6 p.m. I finished a little after 11 p.m. She recommended me a great song that I wrote down: Dupstep, Excision, Protonica, broken cide I even imagined how in difficult moments I lick like cpun tramal regaining my super mental strength. And the Rhodiola brother to strengthen the mind, juggle with balls, train the mind and regularly write an interesting diary. Maks wrote to me. We made an appointment tomorrow. Being able to weed, I had super positive and confident thoughts, enough that I could offer him a shared flat. Now it has expired and I feel normal again. link to one of them: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lF_ISeT6On4 What I learned today: the herb gives you the power to talk. January 4 - Max's sadness A day written with a delay of 21 minutes. In the morning my mother got up at 7:00 and she was preparing medications. Of course I didn't take them, then she came back somehow. I was jogging to the rhythm of dupstep music. Euphoria and joy from running. After running, I went on too. At the same time, I developed a new breathing technique, or rather, one element of it has been refined: exhalation. Exhale deeply through the "throat" and I had such chills on the zebra crossing the pressure from the spine. I felt great blogging. After that I was still with poles in the park, but I think I'm breathing so well already. Some two older people asked where the brine thesis was because they had something to sign. Today I was supposed to meet Maks, so I went to the hairdresser, to my favorite hairdresser, Asia. The hairstyle is brilliant as always! Mom went to the moraine after 2 p.m. I watched her on the internet for the bus schedule. I started drinking Rhodiola today. I mixed it with tramadol expecting good results. Rhodiola strengthened opioid receptors, and tramal too. I was drinking 1 tbl every 5 minutes, 3 tablets in total. I was already in the blog post, a pleasant dream blog post. At 18 I went to the max, earlier I bought ice cream from Malgosia. We ate. We tried to talk to you, but I think these conversations came out on average. We watched James Bond, but I didn't want to watch TV so badly. Now I'd rather read a good book than watch TV. I hate television. However, I didn't want to hurt, so we watched to the end trying to talk about everything and nothing with Maks. Maks said that he was leaving tomorrow, at the end of my stay I promised him a 2GB card. He said he wanted to become a chiropractic and study in the USA to ensure Sandra a better life. I told you about my plans to become nautrotherapists. But I was saying it somehow without conviction. I was talking about hypnosis, but also somehow without conviction. I wonder if he believed me. I spoke a little about Kaja. I sadly said goodbye to him and made an appointment with him tomorrow morning to give him this 4gb card. It was raining, I went too well and I imagined how I made love with Kaja. Such a visualization can be maintained for a long time and is very enjoyable. Cool! I came back home, my mother was a bit clingy and is writing this diary. I feel a bit of sedation which is a side effect of the tram, but it's a nice sedation. What I learned today: new breathing and sex visualization. 5 January - Sleepiness In the morning I got up quite late. My mom tried to wake me up around 8:00 am. I pretended that he was still asleep. I got up, unfortunately I had to take those fucking drugs. I was getting ready for Maks to come. I was wondering if he would come. I even checked it in the cards, but I didn't understand the result. However, Maks arrived around 9:40 am. Ola was driving the car, their dad was behind, I went to the streets. I had to wait so long that I didn't want to exercise anymore. I did too, but I didn't even practice breathing. I just didn't want to ... By the day you feel sleepy. I slept. I was doing nothing. I haven't even read the books. Later, I cleaned the floor. Lukasz came - I gave him his book about stretched relaxed. There was also Waldek who wanted to write down the water meters. Mom hid from him with fights on her head to my room ... I guess that's it ... Dream: Marta, Russian champagne alcohol. Besides, my mother rummages in a bucket of clothes for dirt and drops a tegretol tablet. January 6 - Sleepy 2 Today I did nothing again almost all day. In the morning I practiced in the park, and in the evening I also did some incomplete training. I lent my mother a laptop and she was browsing the allegro. Now I was looking for a new blogger shell for excellent health again. I wanted to find a nice simple and transparent one, the best that I could give a background. They are nice and simple, but it is difficult to find background options ... 7 January - Live without food. In the morning, at 9 am I had an appointment with Rafal Pawlik. Earlier, however, I woke my mum to go to the bathroom - she is sleeping in the living room now. I thought to myself - crap she was cunning. I want to be in control to use these psychotropics. But I had a brilliant idea - I made coffee and dissolved medications in it. Coffee slightly changed its color to rough - this is the fault of tegretol, or rather amisepin, which dissolves quickly. I dissolved the rest in the room and poured it out. I did the same in the afternoon and in the evening. At 9 am I spoke to Rafal about my plans to become a naturopath. We also went down about Maksym. He said he was his second son - so they lived together. He even met his parents. As for my plans - Rafal seemed to warn me against the fact that it is impossible to do everything at once. Of course, he did not tell me this directly, but I had such an impression. He asked if I could meet: a naturopath, security guard and IT specialist ... Then a day like everyday, i.e. doing nothing. Father Christmas was to come to visit today. In the morning I called the clinic - I wanted to make an appointment with Dr. Kalemb� to write me back treatments. Unfortunately, the clinic did not answer the phone. I also wanted to make an appointment to Ochorowicz's school in Krakow. However, I also did not manage to get through, I was directed from the secretary to another telephone number which, interestingly, started with 018. Maybe it is somewhere close to Rabka: D OK 14-15 I went to return the book to the library. I met the priest in the street. I borrowed a book on the spine in the library. They also made an electronic system and got a new card. At home we were waiting for the priest. I looked at that time, or rather listened to the ReadBox for 2-3 months entries from my diary. It was really fun with the music, even in a sitting position. The priest came, I saw my mother afraid that he would come down on topics or go to church. After lunch, I went to the post office and picked up the outstanding books at the post office. Karma, Sciaga and the Psychology of Esoteric. Then I was jogging again, but I quickly returned home. I did not want to run after such a frost. At home I read the book: "You can live without food - Ejma Yasanta" As I read, I wanted to live without food. At one point, I even wanted to forgive my father. Wow, I imagined it would be if I had a social flat, if I do Lyme tests, go to Kalemba for a spine referral and work on my health. How Dr. Bargiel writes me out for a disability group and a social flat. How will I study at Ochorowicz's school. I started to have something to live for, and the desire to live without food suddenly became my passion! What I learned today: you can live without food! PS Yesterday or this morning I was very pleasantly surprised how highly qualified my website DosknaleZdrowie! Dreams: I called the dream strange, pokemons, as if I rode down from a great mountain / whirl and saw a lot of worlds. I called the second dream detoxification, but I don't remember what it is about ... January 8 - SuperUmysl I woke up around 6. I slept on the other side of the bed, closer to the window, because my spine hurts on that side and I wanted to do something new, something different, see how it is different. Morning preparation for training. We managed to smuggle the drugs in my pocket and throw them away in the field. The training was smooth, I did not listen to music exceptionally because of it and I was in a hat. Also some new experience for the mind. Today I was surprised by the fact that my mother was supposed to go to Krakow, unfortunately my father postponed it for tomorrow, which forced me to cancel today's post. After training, I ate 3-4 sandwiches, but quite small. For the first time in a long time, I added tomatoes and onions. The meal tasted divine. I felt a little hungry after leaving the table, and the meal gave me a lot of energy, because I usually feel a heavy belly and choking. In the morning I cleaned up, or rather I brought the room from yesterday's priest. I finished reading the book "Can You Live Without Eating". I recorded that affirmation for listening to readBox, or rather such a prayer of Archangel Michael about the Vision of the new world. I was at the store for a student. I bought two green and red ballpoint pens and two green and orange underliners. I found a job offer at Alsen - just submit your CV. It would be a fun job here and there. I saved myself to jump to Elena tomorrow and do a resume with a new photo I read a new book today: SuperUmysl. Simple techniques, or rather habits, how to learn. I recently discovered a new one: listening to HemiSync BrainMassage while reading a book quickly. I enjoyed it all. I began to imagine again how I would have my own apartment in Zakopane, like dr. Bargiel will try to arrange them for me and I will live by myself, alone, he was educated, he had a pension of 1000 zlotys, he lived without food. Super vision! After the evening training, I was back at the post office. This time they had my 5 books. Lately, the postmen leave avizo instead of bringing them to the house, but I don't think it's too bad for them. I have an excuse to go jogging in the evening. At home, I opened a large collection of osho books. I ate little during the day. Light meals. I felt strength and energy after them. In the evening I ate an apple and a banana, because I felt that my body was going downhill after the leg training. I was also guided by my old belief and my muscles were burned out: D In the evening, test this prayer again, Archangel Michael's vision of the universe. Tomorrow get an avizo from szymka and go to Elena to take a better photo. 9 January - CVAlsen In the morning I read a book on super Mind and took notes. In line with HemiSync, my concentration to learn was really great and I enjoyed reading this book. After I finished reading, I tweaked my speed reading program a bit to interpret punctuation marks. In the morning it turned out that David stayed at home, so I could not write my post. I was hungry for breakfast, not for dinner. I felt as if I had eaten my lunch hard, and so was my dinner - a feeling of guilt was born in me. But at least I didn't eat anything else. Today I was with Marysia to ask if she would print my CV. But they didn't have ink. I jumped to the kiosk, but it only had openOffice there that misinterpreted my doc file. So I jumped to Elena, there they did it to me on a nice satin cardboard paper for PLN 1.20. I took it to Alsen. I chatted a little with the guest. Very nice, actually he was still talking and I was just listening. Before that, I was also taking pictures. I don't know why I paid as much as PLN 20 if I didn't like them. Lack of assertiveness? Money is not so important to me? Hard to say. When I was walking I saw Rafal Pawlik's Car. Oh, I didn't sleep overnight. I was cold, I wanted so much to finish reading this book and I was not able to sleep at all. In the morning with this hunger, my body felt great. Such hydrated, a lot of saliva in the teeth. Cool!!! It nullified all this dinner. I wanted to use my new skills and wrote on my white board what to do with David. He went out to wait, if I don't break my hunger - it's not worth the risk. Today I was supposed to go to this speech club, but I quit. My method for psychotropics works and I also feel very confident when I do it. I have read another book today, I have read almost 40% of Abelar Taisha - The Magic Journey. It is written in a really interesting language. Today I also tried to regenerate SoundHeilting - I felt that my body needed these sounds. At the same time I practiced my breath but ass. ASS!!! my breathing is not going the way it used to be. Why ??? Dream: I dreamed that I was reflecting endlessly. I woke up with horror, and then still felt like a shock in my brain. I was wondering what it resulted from: Radio plus music, radiation waves? I do not know... January 10 - Reading Mania Morning practice, I also finished reading the Magic Journey book and I felt like having another one. The training was great, I went home and ate a light meal, only two slices of tomato and cucumber. I felt a little hungry and felt great about it. I was sitting at home, somehow before dinner my mum and dad went to see my grandmother with a moraine. I was hungry again before 2:00. I ate a light meal and it felt great Today, while reading the book quickly, I felt euphoric when I reached 700 words / minute. Euphoria like weeds, a high sense of worth. Cool! Then I had moments of swaying, it seemed to me that I was falling into the psychosis I had on the Skawina, but I used auto-suggestion and breath. It took over. I have to be careful now, I stopped taking my medication completely, but I believe it communicates very well with my body. This second book was: Get Rich While You Sleep. And so it was a day of reading mania, when I finished reading after 2-3 hours, now in the evening I started the Phoenix Rebirth. He's hungry again. I had my last meal at 6:00 PM. After 8 p.m. I exercised intensively, maybe that's why. Oh, I got the African root of the dream today :) I wanted to test it today, but I don't want to, so I put it off until tomorrow. PS, being able to be creative, I came up with the brilliant name of my program for free calls: the telephone and the telephone, but the telephone is definitely better. 11 January - Meditation Test Yesterday was written with a delay. Wake up at 3:00, read books. Around 6:00 am I went for a run. It was dark and cold, I was a little scared, but the music from the Krakow radio gave me courage and encouragement. She was perfect for this climate. I was running in this square between the post office and the monument to the paper. In the afternoon, between 12-14, I slept, or rather lay on my stomach in such lethargy. Probably not enough sleep. The position was perfect, although I didn't sleep, I regenerated my strength a little. On the negative side, however, I made a hole in the mattress and my lumbar spine feels a bit like this after tonight. I lowered the laptop table one step. Better to read, the position is more comfortable for the spine, even now when I'm standing and writing it's pretty cool. I did something new, I met a new slaughter. I read the Phoenix Rebirth yesterday, 52 effective psycho tips, and started reading radical forgiveness. Somewhere in my subconscious I set myself a goal to learn and read at least 3 interesting books a day. An ambitious goal, although if I had set a smaller goal - 2 books a day - it would have been more realistic. I will try to say: I read two books a day! About 17 I tested meditations from Angel Elavi. Running and exercising released my tensions in my muscles and mind. It worked like active meditation. Osho argued that active meditation is like adjusting the strings of an instrument to make it sound better. I fully agree with him! I was at peace, breathing finally became silent. I wrote down how I achieved it: - Well dressed and nicely dressed - Youtube Relax Music (meditation is boring without music) - Fragrance lamp - Low seat - Stuck in motionless CSS (previously useful running) - Diaphragm breathing a few minutes - Third Eye I tested the root of dreams for the night. I brewed it, but I haven't seen it melt unfortunately. I ate it too. Whether it worked - I don't know. Today I'll try to eat it without brewing it. Dreams I had were: driving a car with Szymek and Dawid. Szymon had some troubles and was about to be transferred to another prison and wanted to stay with his prison. I told him he had a powerful weapon, and that was Meditation! I will meditate to stay with my prison. I also made some affirmations in my mind, unless: Brother, you feel insecure. It was like a signal to me: not true, I will show him that I can meditate. Hehe. And I felt incredible self-confidence in my dream and I will be able to meditate. The next dreams were: I was a soldier and shot down by mannequins / robots. They were armed in several places: knees, head, etc. I aimed at these places so that they wouldn't shoot at me. In the morning I woke up with a tension in my lumbar spine and a daze from radiation from my mobile phone at 6:00 am. I slept for a long time, but I am glad to meet two other factors that are harmful to my health: holes in the mattress and how harmful the radiation of electromagnetic waves is. What I learned today: meditation, radiation is harmful and holes in the bed. I also learned about psycho-tips and techniques of the rebirth of the phoenix. January 12 - Radical Affirmations Yesterday was written with a delay. I got up late, at 6:00 am. 8:00 I went to exercise. Somehow it was during this period that I had the idea to write an Affirmation. I did this in my old red notebook. They are beautiful, they turn me on and I like them very much. eg: I love my spine. It is straightened by my stubbornness and strength of determination Or: I live for free in my lovely 30-45m2 apartment from Donata Bargie�. I read only one book that day: Radical Forgiveness and I exercised half of Adam Bytof's books - The Winning Dreams. The problem was caused by removing the password from this file. Some program was successful, but it's a trial version and unfortunately I had access to the first 50 pages and that's all I read. In winning dreams, 3 exercises to stimulate the right hemisphere of the brain were interesting for me. In addition, I downloaded 2 recordings from the store: one is 4 hours of sleep in 40 minutes, the other is to achieve the oobe state. I began to test the Rzhen-Chen alone as a remedy for my disease. I had a hypnosis appointment with Adrian Green at 8 pm. Earlier he admitted to me around 12:00 and he feels unloved and has complexes about his own personality. I thought that day quickly, even lightning fast to the floor. In the evening, my mother cried that Mrs. Beatka's husband had died. I tested the first one that night with the African dream root. I woke up well rested at 5:00 am, but is this what I expected? The video is highly praised as opposed to the recording of the oobe achievements. Today I had a dream with Patryk Kocaj, we talked about the gym What I learned today: Exercises to stimulate the laws of the brain. 13 January - Predicting the future Morning 5:00 AM. For that night, I tested the recording of 4 hours of sleep in 40 minutes. I woke up at 5 rest, but whether this is the intended effect that this recording was supposed to give me - it's hard to say. However, the tape is very pleasant to listen to. Morning jogging, then sit in front of the PC and read books. I tested Adam Bytof's exercise to stimulate the right cerebral hemisphere. It consisted in describing as many uses of a given item as possible. I chose Notebook as my subject. I have described 50-60 different and interesting applications: D. Today I read the dreams of winners and the art of getting rich. At 7 pm I was hypnotizing adrian. I released future prediction inductions. I installed him a program to predict the future. There were pictures. The numbers are 6, 14, 12, 18, 23, 2. I wonder if it will work: D To make sure it works, we have predicted the future of today 22:05 what the TV program will be. He said that a bit as if it were correct and it was a great success! Dream: I was dreaming about Japanese knotweed. I had a drink on Liszka and Jurek Wolf. Jurek shouted: you are sitting, you will dig the mucus ... Should I return to the Rdest? That day I woke up at 3:00 a.m. well rested. Maybe it is the effect of using the recordings of the synchronization of the cerebral fields. I got up, wrote down the dream and did the wake up, a little longer than 15 minutes, over 20. I was playing tetris nicely then. I went back to sleep playing the recording of the synchronization of the cerebral fields. Unfortunately, I did not fall asleep for a minute. I think I slept so well the night that I felt no need for more sleep. Unfortunately, I also felt the cold - but it is probably worth closing the window and revealing the towel to make it warmer in the room. But I'm glad that at least I started :) 8:00 training, I exercised exceptionally without water and a thermos. David took him to Germany yesterday. I felt a little stress related to today's visit to Kalemba, which was partially unloaded during the exercises. I came home, I made a mistake, ate - it was probably 10:30 then and it was 11:00 a.m. which made my stress a bit worse. When I left the house - loads of cortisol in my blood - stress. I'm going to kalemba, stress like hell. Cortisol or adrenaline, anyway paralyzing stress. And then this: I started RUNNING! While running, I was breathing deeply - which relieved the stress perfectly. When I got to the clinic, I was a few minutes before 11:00 Kalemba called me, I was only a little afraid. I entered as some scared Pussy, but I did not let it know after myself. I had my cynical smirks on me, but I couldn't summon the courage to talk to Dr. Kalemba. Today I was thinking about taking a tram, but somehow I managed without it. Kalemba was a bit stuck that he didn't have to write me out. I have to convince him that it hurts me. He ordered an EKG and some blood tests. He also ordered photos to be delivered. As if I should be up. He was at fault, and I was afraid ... In any case, when I left I felt great satisfaction and it worked :) I summoned up my courage. I went to the hospital to get an EKG, I was in the blood collection center, an old lady patient hacked me downstairs in the hospital. There I talked to some doctor, he directed me to the door with the trauma. I knocked - I broke my fear again and was proud of myself. Nobody opened it, so I went to Ziemianski. At Ziemianski, I was told that the cost is PLN 20 and I do not respect the clinic. Back to the clinic. I missed dr. Gabis, but I was afraid to meet him, so I avoided him. I asked the Lady again in the window where the EKG is. This time I was explaining to myself: after all, for her it is a daily job to listen to the moans and complaints of patients. They are already bored with it and used to it. I also just observed how the patients communicate with the staff. They tell long, complicated stories - and here they would like to hear something briefly and to the point. I missed a certain blonde lady, although I should be alone, but I had no regret or grudge against her. Well, maybe 1% was stuck there somewhere, but at least I heard her communicating with the staff. It was my turn, the Lady referred me to office number 3, where blood is also collected. There was one guy in front of me and it was finally my turn. The examination was quick: in the position of the electrode to the legs, and the cancer, and something to the heart. Then she measured my pressure. It came out 150. So I wonder why Kalemba ordered me a rather expensive EKG test. Maybe he has suspicions that the spine may radiate to my heart, or he wants to check my performance. Or maybe it is required for a spa treatment? Who knows... I left, I was already walking towards the house, when it reminded me that I still need to register for tomorrow. I did so too. I was a bit stupid again, I was scared, because in the EKG I told you that I was registered tomorrow. But again I said to myself: conquer your fear. I did great and I was proud of myself again :) I went, I had a great desire to run again. Oh, I will add that being in the clinic I was very relaxed. I think it was thanks to this run before - I unloaded my nervous tensions. I was running in the park, I reached the pharmacy under the carefour, but there was a terrible queue. Before I ran there, however, I was running along the river. The weather was beautiful. There were two dogs, one on a leash and one behind the fence. And again with pride I overcame my fear and ran with them :) Then I ran to my father's trusted pharmacy and bought a urine container there. I was also in this petty store wanting to buy a calendar and a glass of scented lamps. I met Rafal Pawlik's wife with children. There was no calendar, so I went to Manhattan to the traffic kiosk and there I bought a calendar with flowers for 9 PLN. Earlier, I also asked about the calendar in Photographic, they said that they can print from the photos. He cost as much as PLN 47, but I did not have the courage to say that it was a bit too much for me. I was stupid and I like it - although I did like these calendars, I did not take the courage to buy it anymore. I was also at the cemetery. I bought candles. They had a red plastic shell that could also be used for scented lamps. Uncle Kazek and Sebastian were at the house to visit. Sebastian said that he was finally gaining weight, uncle Kazek talked about his hard life when he was making some extra money. As a young kid, he rode his bike to the seaside. Hahaha: D We made an appointment to go cross-country skiing on Sunday. I do not know if I was assertive, on the one hand I wanted to do something new, on the other hand I am a bit worried about my joints and feet. I ate dinner with soup. Feeling guilty and ate so much ... My stomach felt it. Then I was on the 15th day to make an appointment with Łukasz. I needed an XP disc. It's terrible to go there, I didn't want to, but I made a commitment. I wanted to go fast, he shared his views on food and exercise. He motivated me to talk about some guy who used InTuFlow to rehabilitate the spine and straighten it. Maybe now I start spending some time watching this video on youtube. I went home, exercised my legs and stomach. I wanted to read, but I practiced. The time flew by when I finished, because it was between 17-18. I remembered that I still have to send a lottery coupon, I went to Wick, but this time calmly and did not listen to the music. I moved slowly - I was after training. I went to Manhattan, there I hesitated to enter the casino - I overcame my fear again and went in. It wasn't that bad, the guy referred me to carefour. There, I still kept the lottery ticket and returned home. It was terribly cold in the field. I tested meditations, or rather a self-hypnotic recording of Adam Boduf. It made me sleepy. I also watched the fight vegeta vs goku first time kamehameha. This music made me drive, it gave me adrenaline. I'm too tired after today, so I'm going to wash up and sleep right away. I will test the recordings in bed, learning to meditate again. What I learned today: I have overcome my fear January 15 - I feel like a tip I woke up today at 3:00 am fully rested. I slept exceptionally by one window to keep it warm. I woke up and went back to bed. I played the recording of Adam Bytof and the recording of the gaze.net cos ala hemisync. I fell asleep, although I did not have a lucid dream. I fell asleep again, fell asleep. I woke up around 6-7. But I got up after 7. At eight o'clock, I accidentally swallowed one ablify tablet. Whore!!! I took NAC quickly to neutralize the effects of the drugs. I went for a run and then I wanted to go to the institute to do blood tests, but I forgot my urine. I went home to get the container and pee. I also added creatine - quite a lot for such an amount. I took it to the institute, took my blood and rushed to Rafal the Pawlik. Earlier I called him and I will be a little late, which is practically 30 minutes. I praised Rafał about yesterday's success and went to Kalemba. He congratulated me. We talked about fear, about the fact that he feels insecure everywhere - he says and he also feels insecure when he goes into a new area, especially where there were some thugs. Running back home, I ate 3 slices for breakfast. After reading the book, I swore to myself whether it is possible to live without eating, and I will also acquire such an ability. At home, I started reading the book I take care of the spine. Unfortunately, I did not fulfill my resolution. Somewhere, it is subconsciously stuck in me and it is a book and I will not be able to read it ... I have read a half of this book. I learned how important the feet are in the spine posture. At 4pm I went to Dr. Kalemba's. I brought him the test results. He prescribed me a referral for rehabilitation. He also asked discreetly if I was under psychiatric care. I answered politely like some pussy: yes, here at the donut bargiel. He asked if I was taking any medications, I replied with ablifa and tegretol. And I felt like going out like a fist, I was sad. I still had to stamp the registration. I was sad coming home. I had to relieve my stress somehow. But I held up quite a lot of sadness. It was beautiful how I adapted to this situation. I went to the park to laze on the lane closer to the river and do the WFM ala Yoga exercise to relieve the tension in my chest. Relief, but the sadness remains. Then I went to breathe too. It was nice to breathe. And so until 18 I was angry with my father, with myself. Life's nonsense again. At home, I ate 2 bananas for dinner, drank carrots and ate potatoes. I had an appointment with Adrian on the 19th for hypnosis. However, I transferred it to 20. I felt a tension with regret, I had to go to bed and lie on my stomach. This position is a good way to relieve the tension in the body. At 8 p.m. we started hypnosis. Oh, for lunch, I swallowed tegretol especially because I was afraid that my mother would catch me in the eye. But my mother used to tan her teeth for dinner, this time I managed to smuggle some drugs. The trance with adrian lasted 10 minutes. 30 minutes of photographic reading coaching that I conducted for him. We used a cool affirmation as the target: "He knows Bruce Lee's fighting methods." We have used a similar affirmation to program today's lucid dream. Lotto draw today. I am still waiting for the results to add this event to my diary. Heh, not a single number fell: (Dreams: 2 days ago I had a dream with my hips. I woke up with two legs. I realize that it was a kind of warning Today: I talked to my mom about a hoodie I got lost. January 16 - Klotnia with mama I woke up between 4:00 and 5:00 am Full of hatred for my father. I couldn't control the hate that was inside me, I felt anger spread through my blood. I had to unload it, that's why I went to exercise early because at 6:00 am. By the way, I did something new. When my mother was leaving, she scared me a bit when I was in the hall and I turned on the light. during training I missed the push-ups on the bars. After training, I got tired of it. The training was fun because I finished practicing at 8:00 in the morning. Maybe I'll start training early. However, the downside to such training is that you cannot practice lucid sleep. Being at home, my mother pissed at me for water in the bottom cupboard. She was looking for a bomb envelope. It's good that she did not notice antibiotics or, worse - drugs in coffee :) I boiled, but I was able to withstand this stress. Then I unloaded it when mom went hitting the pillow and calmed down. I also tried sleeping on my stomach. This position is great for discharging minor nervous tensions. Being on my stomach, I listened to 2x Adam Bytof's LD induction, which made me sleepy a bit and regained my strength. Mom went to the funeral of Ms. Beatka's husband today. At that time, I read the book Take care of your spine. I did not prescribe exercises, the book was general about back pain. I ate dinner, my mother, when she returned, asked what so little. In the evening I ate a cup of coffee. I did it mainly for a show to my mother. Mom encouraged me to eat chocolate. Then I had a grudge and I felt sorry for myself, in addition I ate it with a meal, and I strive to eat light and live without food. Dawid and dad came back from Germany today. David bought himself a car. I guess that's it. Today I dealt with my father hatred and the stress after arguing with my mother. I am really resistant to stress compared to what used to be. I can turn this negative energy into something positive. I spoke to Mirrel today. She did not agree to the screenings so that Donata Bargiel would arrange my apartment for free. I was about to quit her services. I kind of wanted to hurt myself. She wrote me back quickly today. We agreed, however, that he would bring me purification of my soul so that I could live on my own and how I would get a flat will be my only business. What I learned today: deal with stress. January 17 - Feel sorry for myself I did not write down today's dreams. I did not feel like it. I do not remember a stay 4:00 or 5:00 either. I sat a bit at the pc, doing pseudo meditation. I felt enormous pity for myself and nothing was working out for me, and a bloody hatred for my father. I went for a run around 7:00 am. I also unloaded nervous tension on the back of the track. I didn't run for a long time, I didn't want to. Oh, before I went for a run I was looking for information on channeling again. I have found a new fairy who also has this skill. I made an appointment with her tomorrow at 12:00 I was at the bank twice today. Pay yourself 400 zlotys once, and then 150 zlotys for this fairy for tomorrow's channeling conversation. I was going to transfer from my account to her account afterwards, but I was in such a rush and impulsively went to make a second separate transfer to her account. By depriving me of almost all the pension I received today. The nonsense of living today. I still think about my father and want revenge on him. Fucking fuck. Mirriel completed a certain soul-healing questionnaire. And so I lived almost all day hating my father. Several times I read 3 different channelings about me. As if I would like to feel this pity for myself or for the angels in heaven. WHORE!!! I don't know how to pick out of this whole situation. I was asking myself what I FUCK TO DO! And I told myself one thing: I don't want any fucking love, I want power, revenge and hate. I wish to take revenge on my father! And for that it needs a lot of power! For that I need meditation, martial arts - only if I'm fucking meditating. Angels there in heaven, call the FUCKER if you said that I am so important to the future! I felt so special when I talked to you, and now where did you go? On January 18th - PLN 150 I woke up quite early in the morning 3-4 am. Again full of hatred, regret and anger towards himself and towards his father. What I did? Something on the computer. I tried a bit of a lucid dream recording with a focus on failure. Somehow at 8:00 my mother came. She pressed my medications, brought them to my room. And that's a whore !!! my heart beat harder and I had to swallow it. I quickly took 2 tbl of NAC to neutralize the effect. I went to unload my anger, fear and hatred by practicing. On the one hand, I didn't feel like it, but hatred gave me strength! Somehow, when I got home, I went to lie down for a while. When I got up I was quite sleepy and dull. Was it the fault of a short nap or psychotropic drugs? And so I lived almost all day. At 12 o'clock I was scheduled to channel with Elen, although to tell the truth I was disappointed. I spent PLN 150 for a chat and I got methods that I know won't work on me. Again some fucking meditations, visualizations etc ... FUCK. I lost PLN 150. I wanted to choose unknown, I could choose Wiolette. Now I have a dilemma whether to make an appointment with Wioletta, because it will be an expense of PLN 150 again. Well, but I will at least write what I found out. According to her numerology, I have to work on 3 things in life: 1) Low self-esteem - I have to regain my own worth 2) Drug against changes and losses 3) Working with finances Moreover, during meditation, say the words: I am consciousness of the Buddha, Christ, the Universe, the All-Existence. And what a FUCK IS SUCH A FUCK for? I also got my own channeling technique which I won't use anyway: - take a pen and paper - Say: I am asking you, Angel, for a message for me - 3 breaths, write on the 3rd exhalation. And I guess that's fucking it. I slept the day. What I learned today: I got to know something new and it's better to go back to my previous fairy. 19 January - Huj z Meditation! Morning around 3-4 in the morning. However, I have not recorded sleep, nor have I practiced lucid dreaming or meditation. I just blogged and I lay in bed pleasantly. Yesterday, I went to sleep as if in undiluted nervous tension. Anger, hatred, I want revenge and I feel sorry for myself and the angels and nothing comes out of me at all. During the day I slept, in the morning I ran for something, but as much as nothing. In the evening I did yesterday's overdue leg training. I haven't been doing anything today, I haven't even read 2 books a day. I don't give a shit about everything. I made an appointment with Wioletta, or rather transferred her PLN 120 for channeling. I made an appointment with Marta and Arek for something good on Tuesday. Szymek downloaded two movies: Death Run and Mr. and Mrs. Smith. I will have to bring them to him in a moment, my dear. January 20 Undisputed The morning is very early. Between 1 and 2 I woke up well rested. However, I had nothing to do so I slept in bed. I didn't want to practice lucid dreaming. Huj with meditation, as I wrote in the previous post, huj with everything I woke up in the morning, or rather in the morning I woke up. With reluctance, I went for a run - I didn't want to. I think I met my stepfather, Łukasz Lopata. They were looking for the Hague dog. Unfortunately I couldn't help. Through the day, laziness again. In the afternoon I downloaded the movie Undisputed 2 and 3. I recorded for him. When I started watching I moved to another world. Again I wanted to fight, learn martial arts, meditate, exercise, develop. Bojka seemed to be speechless in this film. I know what I feel - I feel exactly the same now. Bored of it all. I can not come up with any sharp retort, although it was different at Marta's party. In the evening I went for a run again. I read today also a little courage and the joy of a dangerous life. I would like to finish reading because tomorrow I would like to lend this book to Łukasz. 21 January - Valerian's Test I got up very early. About 3:00 in the morning. However, I did not practice lucid dreaming, although I was full of energy and will to live. I started my mind and physical training which I called after yesterday's movie: "Undisputed Training". I have done my mind training brilliantly. Mind training consisted of: ball juggling, tetris, brain challenge, diary, Adam bytof's exercises, describing and inventing applications. I was proud of myself and got up so early and went back to training my mind. The morning training went very well. I held on to the number 13 repetitions again. A day at home. I paid the bills to Szym PLN 300 for the apartment. I also downloaded a new movie for him. Exactly - I lent chick a PenDrive For tomorrow I have an appointment with Marta at 18:00 and with Urologist and Rafal Pawlik at 8:30. I am so full of energy right now and my mother has a terrible desire to run. But I have to hold on until the morning. OK 16, I trained my legs and stomach. Today I looked for something about lucid dreaming aids. I found about valerian drops. Wanting to test 150 drops overnight. Amazing how a bottle for 2 PLN can do wonders. I spoke with Kaja a moment ago. She asked me for help to get her photo page up and running. I read a book today about running - but it was terrible. In addition, I only read one book. I had an appointment with Łukasz for 4:00 pm, but he didn't come. I was also 10 minutes late myself, but I didn't wait long for him. I did not feel like it. I have a problem with my phone. I am not getting any messages even though I have freed up some space in my memory. I don't know what to do with it. Anyway, it's all not important. Today we test valerian! :) PS Today I installed a new application for running on android. Uses the GPS module on January 22 - Pelen Wypas Dream: a falling tree on the church outhouse next to a healthy one, as if there was a divine body there. Morning jogging, Rafal Pawlik talk about masking feelings, about Kasia, my head ached from masking and suppressing my feelings. Coming home, going to the urologist, drowsiness after a sleepless night, no valerian drops effect, a woman who had a lot of arguing, reading the patient's rights, meeting Adam IT and saying hello, Urologist - sperm tests, smashing Kiji's car, possible surgery, leaving, registration to various clinics, a cool blonde, walking into the unknown after the hospital, meeting a gypsy in front of the bus. Coming home, meeting Lukasz Lopata. Lost his dog again, David and Ford Focus, Ultra Glue. After lunch, David and I went with gifts for my grandfather. We joined the Presencik. There we bought a bomb grandfather and a nice pen. Dawid could not go up there, so I advised him to go to Malgosie. Some guy was talking to us and asking about this Ford. We went to see my grandfather. There was Ola with Wojtek. Eletka has already grown up, they have a second child. We greeted my grandfather. Wojtek at one point said: all life is based on fucking. As if I didn't know what to do with it. I changed the topic to honey ... We also tried something with GPS, in general I wasn't very talkative Being with my grandfather again, I wanted to live there. Peace and quiet, no people. A great place. After 18:30 he gave me a ride in his Ford to Marta, or rather to the bus stop. There I went to Martha. We smoked the herb with some homies. I was afraid that something like weed would happen to me, but I was in control of the situation. It was not as fun as with Marta herself, but it was cool. We talked about time travel in weed and acodina. Again, I wanted to control my mind so that I had super abilities. Marta recommended a movie to me: you are a god, she tells about a pill that stimulates up to 40% of the brain. 23 January - Endorphins Today I did not train hard. I had a great desire to run. I got up somehow around 6:00 am, finally I went to sleep late yesterday after MJ's party. In the morning, of course, to train your mind. Then running. I added green tea to the skin, so it acts as an aphrodisiac. As far as I know, green tea strengthens the skin. Running was great. I was running to the rhythm of skrillex-syndicate music. I imagined how I am Uri Boyka and I have a fantastic fight with opponents. Perfect music for that. Throughout the day, I read a little book about running. In the afternoon I went for a jog again. I promised my mother that we would clean up the Christmas tree. But we forgot. In the morning I weighed some 73.6 kg. Somehow, slightly under 74 kg in any case. I was 80 cm in waist and 83 cm in hips. Awesome!!! 14h fasting is an extremely effective method. There was delicious beans for dinner. Interestingly, it was not at 2:00, even though my mother was then somewhere a bit later, she left. We ate alone with David around 3:00. And around 6 pm I went running again. What a joy! :) Mom, I looked today to see if the money for this Este Lauder came. They came on January 16. However, they were at Place Allegro. I finally used David's account and they didn't come automatically to me. I lied to my dad and it came yesterday and I missed it. Now I was looking for a movie "I am a god" about this pill that stimulates 40% of the brain. By the way, I found interesting information about the drug Ritalin. It is also supposed to be a great mind stimulant, and this drug is used in children with ADHD. Until I want to get this drug and try it out. And I'm looking for this movie. Oh, after running and before stretching. I felt how stretching the muscles promoted better regeneration and, in addition, oxygen also regenerates them. I release locks and tensions. Incredible! Ritalin - I have to get it! ;) 24 January - When I was God I start this post quite unusual, because I start typing 9 minutes right after the day starts, and I barely wrote the Endorphin post. I watched the movie: You are God, but the one from 2011, which inspired me extremely. He tells how the main character used a pill that activated 100% of his creative mind. He writes down an interesting quote, which he treats from now on as affirmations: "everything I have ever heard, seen, read is logically connected." And I started to wonder: what did I do that at the beginning of 2011 I was indestructible, I had a fast powerful mind? What have I done? I remember that I once wrote an entry which I titled: "Euphoria". I think so. It was there when I naturally induced a state of euphoria. February, March, April and May, and even June and later 2011 of the period before Skawinska was invincible in words. I was a true master of Cietta's retort. I also took Rhodiola for a long time, which I think helped me a lot. Krzysiek also praised this preparation. And the creatine stuck in my brain. I suspect I was invincible then. Indestructible. Take creatine again? And I started to wonder what they suspected on Skawinska Street and when I called an ambulance. It was written: The patient recently consumed large amounts of creatine and guaranose. Well, guaranose was also brilliant. My doctor at Skawinska Street said to defend me against Markiewicz: it may be from the head, from the spine, it is Lyme disease ... But where is this Reiter? Here are the quotes I remember. It was one big mess. And I will only focus on the brain. Tomorrow, when I get up, I have to analyze the entries from this period of time. It's quite important, maybe I can think of a cure for my present low self-esteem. I want to be God, a young god ... Quote: the brain cannot function all the time at this high speed. Gee, this video motivated me even more to meditate and ImageStreaming. as far as I can remember, ImageStreaming was even more powerful than meditation. Dr. House that fascinated me is nothing compared to this divine pill. I started to imagine going back to Rhodiola again, looking for this pill and learning to meditate and imagestreaming. Morning is a standard mind training. Then training. I chose a new place for training. Those red rails by the river. The training was going quite well, but I was a bit weak - I was hungry and then had little strength. I think I remember two homeless people, one was showing me how to breathe. he also demonstrated a technically nice punch karate. At 12 o'clock I had an appointment with Wioletta for channeling. Earlier, David and I dismantled the Christmas tree, although I took it apart to a large extent. I was a bit disappointed while channeling. Again, I unnecessarily spent PLN 150 here, 120 here, in total 270 I went to pasture. And it was possible to have so much fun. I got answers and the backbone is unsettled. When it is done, it will gradually straighten. Yoga from an angel is also recommended. Wioletta also recommended yumeiho, jonas and salvia methods. All in all, that's all that I found out to be useful. I'm done channeling and fairy. I will only ask Arleta questions because she is cheap and effective with her tarot cards. About 2 pm I went for a run. I had so much regret for the angels, it gave me extra energy that I used for running and burned it up quickly. I feel proud that I have learned so well to deal with my own psyche. My hips and lower back hurt a bit today. The pain was relieved by a stick - a spine decompressor and my own developed hip exercise. I was after pharmacies asking about guaranoze and Alc. At the pharmacy under the carefour, I ordered guaranose during an afternoon jog. Coming home for dinner - mom a little pissed off that I came back so late. She was practicing in my room then. I ate baked beans and went back to the city, or rather to the park, then to pharmacies in Poniatowski Street. In the pharmacy where Tomek Glab takes, I ordered the preparation "session". I like the name on average, but after watching "I am God" yesterday, I want to protect myself with hemicals to top up and regain my mental potential that I had before Wroclaw. I joined Marcin Farmer in Kefirk. We had a lot of fun talking. I also bought baking soda there as a reserve. When I run out of hair, or in a month or so, I will switch to baking soda - this is how I like to try different treatments on myself. I also wanted to buy creatine at a sports store, but somehow I forgot. I was also in this gambling shop. I wanted to play about money, but there were new machines on time, so I gave up such an investment. I had my own slow tactic and I decided I wouldn't play that way. From March back home, and at home, I decided to take 100 mg of Tramal on an empty stomach. I drank Rzenszeń to stimulate the body. Finally, the tramal puts you to sleep and stimulates you. In the meantime, my mother started buying baking powder. Tramal worked great. Blogostan + Euphoria, but the key moment that gave me a great mental well-being and euphoria was the juggling of the LEFT HAND balls. In this way, I should stimulate the right cerebral area responsible for paranormal phenomena. It was an AMAZING BLOG EXPERIENCE. Pleasure that I would like to juggle and juggle :) I had quite a long training, somewhere between 8:00 pm and 10:00 pm Including a warm-up before and after training. Tramal made you sleepy, but also very resistant to pain. A brilliant dope. 14 repetitions of the squat on one leg did not make any impression on me. Great! After training, the blog is sleepy, very pleasant and satisfying. I felt great! I even imagined it was the same tablet as in the movie "You Are God". By the way, I wonder what the Polish edition of this film from Paktofonika looks like. After training, I was very resistant to cold. I took a cold shower for 6-8 minutes. I drank a lot of green tea with swelling, now I feel so eager to drink that I also made myself teas. What I learned today: juggling my left hand plus a tram. And tramal 100mg is a sufficient dose for an empty stomach with a hairline. PS I forgot. Impulsively I ordered the allegro eletkoakupuntkure, terry cloth and spikes / tongue for noki as acupressure for feet. I can't wait :) Wioletta invited me to Warsaw for her training. Even Angel was telling her to give me a boyfriend discount. Besides, the Angel also told me to find a spiritual guide. I was supposed to meditate, shut myself up at home and get to know the world through meditation. I have been doing this for 1.5 years and now I am suddenly supposed to find a spiritual guide. I thought to myself: where the fuck will I find a spiritual guide? What? At the beginning, she even encouraged me to come. I was a bit inclined to come. But after a while, when I read the program of classes: Love ... Joy ... Tantra ... I said - I don't give a shit, I will not come. Tomorrow I will write an email and I will not come, justifying that it is not about money, but I am afraid that I will not learn anything, I am afraid to go into the unknown with my health condition and that I listened to so many people for 2 years and I am already stupid. Meditate here, not meditate here, breathe here, chakras here, chiropractic here. I don't know what to do anymore - I was stupid. That's why I only listen to my body's voice. He will heal himself, and I am looking for a doctor only to regain my honor! I asked an angel to ask when Lyme tests are revealed. Wioletta knew this disease, although she did not ask the angel. She just told her about this disease. In addition, I also wanted to write in this way to additionally hurt myself. I feel sorry for myself. I like it, for some reason I like to listen to these channelings and blame you angels that you are fucking talking to me here. On the other hand, I would like to be God - to have divine power! Besides, I want to be angry! Full of hate, destroy and bring justice. What an exceptionally long entry. Maybe I still have time to write this email to this Wioletta? It would be great. However, I also imagined an angel giving a 50% discount. Choose the unknown, choose something new, talk in a calm state as I am now on the tram with people, tell your story. But no, I'd rather suffer, I'd rather be sorry for these angels! HUNGE YOU IN YOUR DUPE! These fucking meditations don't work! I trusted you fucking, locked myself at home, tried to meditate and what. This motherfucker my father has locked me up at the top. I am not studying, I lost 2 years of my life. I am to bring peace and mediation in this world. I don't give a shit! I want to be sinister and hateful. God those needles in the brain. I'm scared. I know that these are pressures from the spine and such bables are formed as on the tongue, as on the testicles. I'm afraid of this. When will the spine's nightmare end? Write a letter to Violetta? I think I'll write it now. Oh, what else to say. Regarding the channeling technique that I asked Wiolette for myself - Wioletta refused to say that in the state I am, where I do not distinguish good from evil (here she interpreted me a bit badly, because I hesitate whether I want to be good or bad, lately I prefer to be bad) he won't give me this technique because I can summon dark beings. They can be good, friendly, show me a lot of good. And that's not the point. And then I wanted - since the angels do not help me, maybe I will summon such a dark being? I will sign a pact with the devil and gain divine immortality. Just ... What consequences could it have later? On the other hand, there is no good and bad, if I choose evil it is neither a good nor a bad choice. It's just a choice - right Raphael? Yes, I want to be like that sith on my avatar. I am actually him. I am a good fighter with the dark side. Now I prefer to be like this avatar of the early sith, the dark sith. Entirely black. Now I want to be like Unshelated 2 a dark sithem emanating hatred, a sinister desire for revenge. But I like today's post. He writes so much about his feelings. I feel great about it. I am listening to the chakr hemi sync sounds now. It feels great when I write my dark feelings into my diary. Satan's Bible? Maybe I can find interesting things there? PS 2 00:40 I wrote an email to Wioletta. I feel something beautiful. Such pity for myself, such pity for angels, the universe. This feeling of fucking regret towards the angels is overwhelming my whole body with joy. Until I stopped sleeping. I don't even want to discharge this feeling. I feel good about it. It's a beautiful feeling, and the effect of the tram is gone a long time, so I know I can feel it. Now still wandering pain, even more regrets. My body is already strong compared to what it used to be. It is really strong and I can take that feeling. I have a beautiful regret. And I want to say FUCKING, HUJ with MEDITATION HUJAM YOU ANIOKI, FUCK YOU FUCK. AND YOU BELOVED DADDY, YOU HATE YOUR FUCKER FUCKING! -------------------------------------------------- After discharging emotions: A very interesting technique that I discovered by accident. I wrote down all the dependencies that lie on my heart and note: I think I was meditating. Yes, I guess. Being overwhelmed with regret, I felt his beauty. In addition, by attaching the breathing technique, I felt even better while lying in bed in sasavana. I turned on Osho's Foreword, as if it put me in a light trance. And then I breathed a long time. A long time yet. Each thought was as if on the side. I had no need to contact angels or attain higher states of consciousness. I accepted everything! I was watching it from the side. I was in the middle of myself. When osho is over - total silence. Emptiness. The beauty of being alone. Every feeling, the hormone spread through my body giving me strength. I think that in addition, drowsiness, early time and taking tramal 100 mg contributed, in a way, to deeper meditation. Wow ... I feel great ... 25 January - Psychoanalysis by Boyka The psychoanalysis of the buoy - has poor responses, is full of fear. Fear uses in combat. Even a long time ago, when I watched the film, I saw undisputedly in the fight a man who causes fear. Now I see something else. He can't talk. He is a great fighter, but has problems with communication and with sharp retorts. Fear is mixed with anger. By using these feelings in battle, he becomes invincible. I remembered the scene where he was so pissed off in the ring and taking the blows. Once, I would have thought that I wanted to disregard my opponent, now I can see it and he made an incident suggestion. Anger, adrenaline, made him feel pain. Today's day: I slept quite late 6-7 am. I was glad that I was able to enter meditation. Of course, in the morning I went for a run. During the morning run I asked about the pharmacy in carefour, I asked if there were already guaranose tablets. Unfortunately it was not. I returned home, somehow a day passed. I downloaded the movie, you are the god of pactophones. I really wanted to see his version of what it means to be a god. Unfortunately ... I was unable to download a smooth episode which I regretted. I explained to myself - maybe fate wanted so ... Wioletta wrote back to me. When I read her description, I felt sorry for myself again and I used this feeling for running. Something beautiful. I like to feel it, as if I like to hurt myself. She wrote at the end and a bit sad and doesn't want to give herself a chance. In the afternoon I was running again ... While running I remembered that I had an appointment with Łukasz today. He drove me a little by text message. I wrote back to him. I imagined a little scary thing and he will become my enemy and he will vengeance, for example, by spreading things about me. I was a little overwhelmed by this fear. While I was running, a certain telephone number was calling me. I did not answer because I thought it would be Lukasz. At home it turned out that he was a guest from Elektroakupunktury. He wanted to explain why I bought two devices and paid for one. I told him I would buy one thing and pay commission for the other and it would be fair. He agreed, although I do not hide and I hoped that he would say that he would bear the commission costs. My mom was really on this. She was screaming at me, panicking. I answer her - you panic terribly and make a big scandal. After the telephone conversation, I even spoke in a contemptuous voice: the matter is solved, nothing big happened, we got along well culturally. It's not that bad. For dinner I ate 2 bananas and a little chocolate. I liked the chocolate and nutella so much, I felt it was a meal for me. I didn't want cottage cheese, I felt I needed chocolate. Although, on the other hand, I was not even hungry, I wanted to stick to 3 meals a day and that my mother would not be bothered by me. I don't remember any more sins. I used a new interesting technique, namely - deleting a day in the calendar. However, I do not want to describe its beneficial effects. That night - meditation + Valerian :) I feel a bit sorry for myself again and I haven't read any book today ... 26 January - InTuFlow Wake up at 4:00. I recovered enough after yesterday's training. I got up and started training my mind. Left hand, of course. Zonglujac even feels my brain "grow" as if I were exercising the strength of the muscles, so it exercises the strength of the muscles of the brain. Around 6:00 am I went to bed for meditation. Still in the corpse position, I listened to the Chakra Journey. This is probably the most pleasant music for meditation with HemiSync for me. She is brilliant and also regenerates chakra. I also had an idea to test something else. LSD was in motion. but I didn't listen too long. About 8:00 training. 10 return home. David wasn't here today, he was at work. Today I wanted to maniacally achieve hyperventilation by breathing. However, I failed. The fuck how do you do that ??? Once upon a time it was good for me the first time. Today I watched youtube InTuFlow. I took notes, it was very enjoyable training, I don't think I do all the exercises correctly, but I will test this training. However, it seems to me that performing it as a warm-up will probably take much longer than 10 minutes. Mom went somewhere today. I don't know where, but I thought tomorrow is the perfect time to go hungry. On the other hand, I thought: maybe we will clean the colon with apples? A whole day on apples? Choose new ones and I think I will choose it. Tomorrow a lot of running, we will check how my body will behave in the new situation. I'm worried about my feet lately. I have a bit of a pain from running where the bumps are forming. I did quite a tidying up in the room. It took me about 1 hour. I listen to music better: Kazik na zywo - Plamy na soncu. A moment ago there was quite an interesting situation. Mum was gone, dad asked me to take medication. I hesitated to swallow or spit out. Eventually I spat out. I felt fear. I went with Kaw to the room and then my dad asked a question about whether I would be able to remove the simlock from any card there. Oh fuck - my heart was beating again. Stress as hell will catch me. I tried to control my breathing and said a random word: I think so ... The conversation started, I moved a lot to relieve the tension, my breath, my body is stronger under stress. I succeeded, I managed :) Dreams: Today I had 2 saved dreams. There were more, but I saved only two. The first one I called "a dream with a neighbor with a Polish dog". However, I have no idea what I might have meant. The second dream I remember was a lucid dream and I woke up quickly. I was running by the river at night. I was running and running and at one point I realized that I was having a lucid dream. January 27 Father at Home. Today I woke up quite late, a little before 6:00. I did mind exercises. Daddy slept on the couch at our house. I was worried about the drugs, whether I had to take them or would I get splashed. Finally in the morning I managed to smuggle them and went for a run. When I got back I made breakfast. We ate them together with my dad. Ba ... We even talked to each other. I made breakfast. About 12.00 Mum came. Dad has been here all day until now. I tested the InTuFlow day today At 6 p.m. I ate Pizzas. Today Dawid was repairing a damaged car in Malenka and bringing pizzas. A moment ago I had an inspiring conversation with Michał Staniszewski. I asked him today if he would like to become my mentor / spiritual guide. He replied that there was no time to say that you can learn everything from books yourself. That's how he learned everything he can. He talked a little about himself, he learned hypnosis in his childhood and he probably had a talent for it. Now I wonder a little - I was stupid. The angel told me to look for a spiritual guide, and here Michael tells me to learn by myself. What should I do? Oh, running in the evening I met this guy in goggles who sometimes practices in the park. We talked for a while. He showed me an interesting exercise with red handbags to grab the "blocks / cubes". Then the upper part of the chest also works during the exercise. I wonder if dad is staying here for the night? Today I started reading the book Kregoslup w Stresa. I also downloaded instructional videos for this book. Again I have not read two books a day, even if I have not read one ... Could I change the affirmation to "I read one book a day?" 28 January - HypnosisTombaka Wake up at 4:30, although I lay in bed for a long time and woke up an hour later. Standard mind training, but I had no time for meditation or lucid dreams afterwards. Workout 8:00 in the morning. 14 repetitions in the open air. I have completed another part of the healing of the soul for Mirriel today. Exceptionally in the afternoon I trained in the kitchen. At that time, my mother was practicing in my room. I started another book by Michał Tombak. Somehow, I am afraid to reach for another esoteric book, so I started with Michal Tombak, Road to Health. Of course, I haven't read 2 books a day again. I read Andrzej Rakowski and about 30% of the current book. Got a foot / tongue massage mat today, spike. A bit soft, but as long as you walk it can be. Mom complained that she couldn't walk around like this because of her finger and corns. Michal Tombak mentioned a bit about hypnosis. He recommended relaxing then issuing commands sharply in a gentle, affectionate form. I was wondering if I should try it on myself. In December last year, when I was in a great mental shape, having excellent conversation, I was talking to myself such beautiful words and I was able to make suggestions. However, briefly. I fell into such a manner and quickly everything returned to its original state - that is, disease. I started to train the fish as if with a massage mattress. I put a massage mattress on my bed and it vibrates. I do not want to do fish, and this form of exercise is easier for me. I guess as much as happened today. For tomorrow I made an appointment with Łukasz for 4 pm. In addition, tomorrow I also have to go to the Rheumatologist. Maybe on the way he will stop at ul. Orkana 19 explore your testicles. 29 January - ElektroAkupunktura A day written on time. I got up quite early, somewhere between 00:00 and 01:00. I woke up, did some mind exercises, and went to sleep again. I think it is due to the fact that I went to sleep quite early the previous day, around 21:00. 4 hours of sleep perfectly regenerated my body. After 1-2 hours of such mind / awakening exercise, I went to sleep. I was still waking up / getting up. In the morning I went to Rafal Pawlik at 8:30. As soon as I entered his block, he knew it was me. As he claimed, he did not expect anyone else. Today we explained a lot about what we think of each other. We also changed places to see what it's like to be in a different place. Return home, quick breakfast and departure to Nowy Targ. Today I had an appointment with a Rheumatologist. Today I was terribly worried about my feet - probably too much effort from running. She feels new lumps growing on her .... Coming back to visiting Dr. Feathers - I lied that something hurt me, that there are cramps in the groin etc ... I lied. I don't know if I did the right thing. I learned that my hip might hurt my knee. I also left the original consultation result by Dr. Sebastianowicz. This is my tactical mistake, but I thought to myself - it's alright. One day I will ask at registration to make photocopies of me. I made an appointment with Dr. Pierzg� on March 20, she said that she would be able to do treatments then. I went to the Buffet, earlier I bought grapefruit juice in the shop at the entrance, I drank it in the buffet. Being in the buffet, I was thinking about Wojciech Panz, hoping that I would meet him, and on the other hand having a little fear of meeting him ... Today I received an electroacupuncture device, but seeing such a large book on this subject I do not want to read it. I still think of an ordinary book - I don't want to read it. Today I was worried about my feet. I can feel new bumps growing at my heel. What to do? Gotta get some neurological diagnostics. How neurologists analyze such things and then I can go to a neurologist who will make the diagnosis I know that the footwear and spine are bad. I KNOW IT, I AM SURE OF IT. But the neurological tests suck! From your difficult condition, she can heal you like in the Department of Social Humiliation. At 4 p.m. I made an appointment with Łukasz Lopata. I gave him my book - Balance of body and mind. Today I was not running. I'm not okay with it. I ate 3 slices for the night and then a little sweetness. Feelings of guilt again and ate a bad meal. I have read Tombak's Road to Health. It is like a conglomerate of readings that I have already read. I enjoyed reading this lesson. Somehow I'm afraid to move forward and read other books, I preferred to go back a bit. I do not know why, maybe because reading the book about bioenergotherapy recommended by Wampirek I have some strange conviction in me that I will not learn it anyway? I don't know. January 30 - Aseu's Warning. Bronek, I don't want to interfere, but something is telling me that I should tell you something, it's as if someone gave me a thought and wanted me to pass it on to you. It's so strange (...) I thought, and it actually came to my mind that your father is actually a victim of lies that you both suffered a lot, although you probably more and he wanted to protect you too, the system got you into a trap ... I'm very sorry that it happened, and I apologize if I said too much, if these words offended or touched you. These are the words that ester welcomed me during today's conversation around 1:00 or 3:00 when I woke up. It is allegedly from the angel Aseu. Ester checked that some sources say it is an angel, another and a fallen angel or a demon. In any case, I liked these words ... Which, however, does not change the fact that my father is still hating my father a lot !!! Throughout the day, due to fear of feet, I did not run. Only around 9:00 am I supposed to go for a run, but I was afraid of running. It was also when I started walking with breathing. I jumped to the post office and returned home. At the post office, I picked up a boxing bandage. Today I read The Book of Immediate Healing. I tested quite a lot of techniques on myself. One of the first was the Healing Blanket - I thought it helped my feet, although later I was still living in fear that the pain would return. I feel my feet "crack" and the traveling pain / chlamydia began to cling to more damaged areas. Besides, I also tested touch and imagination. I imagined a bit that I was kissing and I love Kaja. This is a nice visualization. Perhaps I will use it now for evening chakra work. When I was cold, I imagined myself exercising on armrests. I felt warm. After such visualization, I was proud of myself, calm and composed. Cool! The affirmation thread was very useful. I created my own beauty, thanks to which I had good mental and physical well-being for the whole day: "My body enjoys tremendous health like never before." I blessed my body, thanked him. Blessings are similar to affirmations, but you are thankful for what your body is doing. These techniques, although discreet, I felt they worked :) Affirmations plus visualization of the exercises gave some sort of peace for a good part of the day. Like after breathing exercises or meditation. Oh, at night, then in the morning when I was doing the breathing exercises, my mom came in and fucked me up that I was breathing so loudly. Today I also watched a movie on YouTube - Cruel people - leaders of sects. Until I wanted to have super powers myself, but only because at the moment to send my father to a mental hospital. Hypnotize and manipulate it! This is probably all the most important things today. What I learned today: Visualization and some healing techniques Sleep: I remember a dream that I was at the Laryngologist's in Rabka. I asked him to prescribe me because he helps me a lot. He agreed and prescribed some new prescription. January 31 - 3 fingers. At night Meditation method of self-hypnosis + Radio. Watching all thoughts as they arise. I was kind of on the side. In addition, my hands were exceptionally placed on the bed and not on my hips as I had recently done. I clenched my hands as if in 3 fingers which actually made meditation easier. This trick was prompted by a user. In the morning training 15 repetitions I read a book about healing today. I have prepared a healing decree necessary to heal the soul. A set of super affirmations that I developed myself. I ate in the afternoon. Until you are too full. In fact, abundant food makes you sleepy. Has anything else important happened today? I read Radoslaw Balwierz about creativity and took notes. I need to get my creative mind back. I also called a psychotronic school in Krakow. I was supposed to call the director after 6 p.m. but I didn't want to. At that time, I practiced and somehow postponed it.