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July 24 - In Search of Healing Power - Wake up at 4:00. I was woken up by a cramp in my leg / feet / calves. Fortunately, I was able to deal with him already in bed. However, I woke up so groggy, sleepy. In my head I think about yesterday's bad potatoes - For a while I lay down in bed and got up around 4:30 am getting to life adding a new element: peeling potatoes. I drank a lot of grain coffee with Inka and milk. I felt that my body needed it, in the end it was fiber, it cleanses the body, works well for the intestines - only think about this milk? Am I sure I can use Inca milk? Like other things like cream, you can combine it. To be calmer, I think I'll buy a coffee cream and use it instead of milk. Then it will be a neutral product. Simple :) - I did the meditations almost continuously, full soundHealing. It was quite pleasant to yawn. I was still waiting for energies, pleasant energies for this blog, but I am not waiting yet. - Instead of fruit in the morning I decided to test Inka, counting on energy. Unfortunately, it was neither at 7:00 nor at 8:00. Lack of energy. On the road I took yesterday and 1 rare of today's chocolate to check what is a stimulant during training - Intuflow training, after finishing around 8:05 (on my watch) I ate chocolate. Of course, fear for nuts - are nuts a neutral product? Raisins are for sure, but are nuts? I do not know :) - Training: I felt rather exhausted than full of energy. Until now, I have not lived to see it. - Lack of fruit in the morning, I explained to myself: I ate a lot of toxins last night and maybe my body has to catch up now. Training in the sun, L1x2 (4 series of bars) I felt my muscles quite nicely - TRAINING: - During training, triceps upstairs (they smashed those "tables / bars" in booths). - Stretching the neck stretched the bicceps pleasantly as well. He feels them pleasantly until now - Fails again. In the morning measure the biceps 33.5 cm - No belly - I take a long time, I don't feel it very well. I have to work on some technique. - I have plans to make the morning meal only protein - but now I do not know. I'm going to take a shower, see how things turn out. I know what to strive for - this negative energy. I need to find out some way to do this! - After training, I ate a watermelon at home, go to the shower. - Now I feel a little more energized after training than before. But that's not it yet. Nothing, I'm waiting and waiting for this energy! CONCEPT: Synthesis of junk and energy food - experimental! THIS IS WHAT I FEEL THAT WILL BE HANDLING STRONGLY ON MY PSYCHIK! - Now he's writing from the office. I ate this breakfast a little before 10. Mum gave me extra tomatoes and cucumbers. I took the cucumbers on the way to the cutlet. In total: half a cube of white cheese, some 16dag, half an onion, half a sliced ​​tomato, and a garlic sauce. Maybe I forced a slight feeling of hunger, I think I feel that this meal energized me to some extent ... Of course, I think it is not as much energy as in the case of the last 2 days. Back then it was mega power, I felt I could do everything! :) I'm definitely less tired when I came to the office. Whenever I come here I feel exhausted at the outset - although the reason may also be heat. Today it is perfect, I was even a bit chilly without a T-shirt. Adopts the breakfast concept B - Jupi. Before 2 p.m. I felt a slight feeling of hunger. Pleasant, light feeling of hunger :) With pleasure I ate 4 sandwiches made at home and I would like to eat a little more. Hydrated, body happy, I think I feel a bit more energized. It just feels great! :) Before the meal I drank 2-3 glasses of water during the day. The effect is really electrifying! I feel great! I am energized, positively energized! I feel that energy again. I described these 4 sandwiches with a whole tomato as light. I would have a bite of some more. - I felt even further hungry. I went to a nearby bakery. And again this fear for my own health. Dusty street, sand fell into my eyes. Despite the fact that these were not any great and strong ailments, I was afraid. I bought 2 rolls, one small butter with poppy seeds for 45 grams, the other large gracham for 60 grams. Both were very good, but of course a problem: the lady gave them "out of hand" instead of putting on a glove ... Well, I could have attracted her attention to overcome my fear, but I decided that it was too early for such feats. I have to master other situations, MindCode will help me - this is how I FEEL! I made the affirmations: despite fear and guilt (...). But despite the fact that I ate I still feel hungry :) I still have a cutlet for 17, but I see that the concept of today's nutrition favors me. I feel energized. All I feel today is the fear of my tailbone and my tired legs while sitting. - Around 3:30 p.m. I still felt hungry, I would eat something, these delicious buns and I explained to myself that I still have a cutlet to eat. Apparently, I could jump for a piece of bread, although I was afraid that it would be a short interval. I felt that Kujawianka would be perfect to eat. I did this too, poured about 1/4 and 1/5 of a glass (closer to 1/5) and ate almost everything until I felt silent. This coffee is certainly good in small amounts as well, because I liked it very much at first, but I ate too much of it. At least here, the body is informing you of the Glamor. Interesting, since chocolate and cocoa are stimulants, I wonder what kind of stimulant honey must be. Although of the two stimulants, Cocoa is certainly the better, because the body will inform you when it has enough - in the case of chocolate, unfortunately you will be cheated. But it's not bad, it's even pretty good !!! The energy level is quite high, only the fear of my tailbone and tight legs limits my abilities at work. - Before leaving work, I ate a pork chop, around 4:30 pm. I was still hungry and still wanted to eat, although I felt great. Now I dreamed to come back home earlier and eat the rest of the flat. Unfortunately, my mother heated them up too much, up to 100 degrees. And this feeling of guilt again, because I will not provide the body with the right ingredients :( It was nice to meditate after the meal, really nice with the affirmation: "Despite fear and guilt / ailment, my body is doing great! Making WFM head nodding + handrails / chair backs made me meditate pleasantly by entering blogs and relaxing, but I still felt guilty, that's why I uttered this affirmation. - Then I went to the river. There I did intuflow in the sun, then stretching and to the playground. It went somewhere until 20:30. On the way, I met Szymon 2x. After 9pm it was like my last meal - I drank carrot juice in 2 rounds. A quiet relaxing shower and at 22:00 to bed so that Vanesa could work. I felt like meditating on WFM with myself, actually I did it a few minutes before going to sleep and recently woke up. Well-rested and refreshed. I thought it would be 3:00 am. I lie in bed for a while, I look, and here it is only 23:30 on my watch, of course. Incredible! Is it the effect of my diet today or maybe it is also Vanessa's cause, or both? Even before entering the house, these kids accosted me to help them with shuttlecocks and paddles. Actually, I wasn't keen on helping them, I don't like that Kamil, but somehow I succumbed to them. I should say firmly and firmly: I don't have time! - Oh, I was reminded to do some crunches before going to sleep. I found my situp technique absolutely sucks, so I go back to O. Lafay's situp technique. IN SUM: TODAY: (W) -BWBBW SCHEDULE: 7-10-14 and 15-16-18-21 <7:00 - Inka coffee + chocolate 10:00 - Cottage cheese with tomato and onion 14:00 - 4 sandwiches with butter, 15:00 2 Bulk grachamka and buttermilk (quite a strong feeling of hunger) 17:00 - Chop (still quite strong feeling of hunger) 18:00 - Red meat with spaghetti (A lot of meat and a sense of guilt for heating the meat twice) 21:00 - Light meal Carrot juice CONCEPT: WBWBW - I feel that this initial arrangement of my diet gives HEALING ENERGY AND POWER!

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July 23 - Manages Energy and Power2 - Due to my high exhaustion, I will write today only in points, maybe I will write a little - Wake up before 3:00 am, 2:30 am. I think this is due to the fact that I went to bed early 22:00, and before midnight it is the best sleep - Before 7:00 am, I ate almost the entire watermelon. Already before 7:00 am I felt the same unique surge of energy and power that I felt yesterday. I wanted to go run, run and run. Something amazing. I promised myself and for now I will give up running, and will test this method of increasing energy for morning training. I was shopping for a long time - I wanted chocolate or those delicious cookies. Unfortunately, I did not find them, although I did find chocolate milke with nuts. - Earlier I was also too colorful. I discovered 2 new exercises 1.stretching the spine in an overhang (one leg pull) 2. Stretching the neck while standing. Pleasant relaxation of convex vertebrae. - At home I was full of energy after eating this watermelon over time. Earlier also SoundHealing meditation, although I did not endure the full 46 minutes, maybe 20 minutes, the rest of the time I was sitting and doing something at the computer. - I ate chocolate with fear - see small amounts if it will increase my energy. I wanted her. First, a slight decline and then perhaps a rise again. Today I finally read a book on separate diets in my office that chocolate acts as a stimulant - small amounts increase serotonin. It's probably true! - And here you are swinging, running, exercising? It was cold, but I decided to stretch and intuflow on the other pitch (motley) as I will call it. One girl when I was doing the neck exercise asked: is everything okay? - In the morning I only ate 3 sandwiches with butter and an onion. I felt that this amount was enough for me, although I could, of course, eat more. - Another meal at work around 2 pm - white cheese with tomato. I was starting to feel a little hungry. - Next meal at 5:30 pm after the day. I went again to energize myself with acupressure and a new way of breathing. After that I ate the chicken, I was more like potatoes, but I listened to my mind, because you have to eat only carbohydrate for the night. Or is it nonsense? Maybe I'd better check on myself if it's true and eat protein in the evening. Yes, I felt that potatoes would energize me then, and so I ate chicken, after which I was slow and muddy during training. Lack of strength, lack of energy, a bit sleepy ... I think I made a mistake - I figured I wouldn't do a fast on Sundays. He will replace them with a one-day Detox. I wonder how I'll feel then. - At the same time I met Grzegorz - cheerful and happy with life, he was a son. Awesome guy, really. I like him very much. You can see that he cares for his son, at least that's the impression I get - The training did not fill me with energy - I was exhausted. Conclusion - better carbohydrates - better. Much better. - After 7pm I met Jack Gabis. We made an initial appointment for the weekend - Fear again. I wanted carbohydrates, some good cucumber salad potatoes. But my mom made shit potatoes, cut, overcooked, and no chunks. I promised myself that in the morning I would be peeling potatoes for a good meal. Yuck, how bad, I felt I was eating toxins instead of eating a nutritious meal. SUMMARY: - EXP: check the morning training - use the method of increasing energy - EXP: Wegle at 5:00 p.m. and (or protein for the evening) - let's check only one day, how will I feel then - And at work: pipes were not even ridden like that, white noise, we chatted a little with Marcin - at least he has a sense of humor similar to mine. When I refine my notebook and read it regularly, I feel that I will be a leader there, of course with good intentions.

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July 22 - I run Energy and Power - Wake up just before 4:00 with guilt for yesterday's ice cream and huge amounts of zoleto cheese. In addition, the window was closed all night, the candle was on - I'm fucking ... I'm thinking. Well, I started my daily routine and ... At one point I sat down to meditate. - I was doing soundHealing, I stayed in the diamond position for 46 minutes, reading my page "from the red note" in google documents with that name. I did it in the intention of removing toxins from the body after yesterday's meal and not having an open window ... Oh god ... - Oh, while meditating, by accident, feeling my breath, I discovered how to exhale correctly: sss .... (a, o, u, y). Quite by accident. This combination made the voice full for a moment, and I got rid of all the content of my lungs - Before 7:00 am after meditation, I went shopping. I also hooked on an electric one. I wanted to buy something like a laptop pad. I bought 2 "blocks" for 20gr for the test and he told me that maybe I can find something more professional for the student - In the morning I promised myself that I would go jogging, but ... After yesterday morning training I was full of energy, so today I decided to continue my experiment and went to the park to practice in the sun. I did not feel hungry for hours. I decided that the body must now make up for the loss and cleanse itself because in the end it does not feel hungry at all. Nothing at all. After training, I was super tense, I was also doing stretching with this new discovered breathing technique. Exceptionally, I immediately went to training without shoes. I was absolutely not afraid, no fear. Wow, I got rid of him ... - I was pissed off at home. I was like "positively drunk" after training. I didn't have time to stretch after training and here was my mistake. With this feeling of urgency, I went with Marcin to the office. I hesitated to tell him take a backpack and I will go because I still have something to do on the way, but I decided that too much is not healthy and I went with him. He asked what had happened since Wednesday, like gossip. I don't like gossip, I hate, I didn't want to be involved in this conversation too much. - At the moment, when Gregory arrived, we found out that Tomek, however, resigned on Sunday. I wanted to talk to Grzegorz about my position, but somehow I didn't. - Okay, I do not want to write such details, so I will write points, the most important of today's day: - It was only before 2 p.m. that I had a meal: potatoes with mustard. Then I bit more with 2 grain rolls. Before 5 p.m. I felt mega energy, mega adrenaline. I just felt that I was alive, that it is worth living for such energy! Really! something beautiful. I felt great, I wanted to go to Maciejowa, but I couldn't because of the backpack. I felt God, I felt I could do anything. So I went to sunbathe in the playground. In fact, before that, I raised this energy even more. So how much do you need to eat to feel such an amazing boost of energy? It was really beautiful! - I put a few affirmations in connection with what I wrote on the phone, although I will not share them now, I don't want to. After eating the onion chicken, the energy may drop a bit. I returned home quite tired and exhausted. I measured my biceps with fear and ... 33.5 cm ... I broke down. - And I was already thinking, I will make meals in the WBW system 3x a day and now I think to go back to 5-6 a day. Maybe it's better 5, I really don't know what to do. I just don't know ... It really pissed me off! why so little in the biceps where I made a mistake? - I will add that at work I only drank 2 Inka coffees and one Yerbe. And this meal without eating anything before detoxifying from yesterday's cheese - That energy was beautiful. - At home, I ate cucumber salad and cooked vegetables. I left the chicken for tomorrow (today's of course). I felt my energy drop, so I conducted an experiment: I took some cookies to see how it energized me. Eyes tearing, generally it's quite OK, only these thoughts: after all, I recently ate a veggie, can you eat it? - At work I read a little about a separate diet, which calmed me down a bit. - Today at 10:00 pm I have an appointment with Vanessa. I wrote down 21, knowing that I am always late. Perhaps she would prepare steps to her ears, she asked that nothing could disturb the silence. - Ah, I put as much affirmation / self-suggestion as this energy drives to build a strong, fast, muscular body, even when I faced 33.5 cm in the evening I broke down a bit. Well, whore ... And I was so happy, I was a god again. I walked without a shirt and barefoot in the park without fear. I want to achieve this beautiful state again, this beautiful energy! - Yes, I ate quite a lot of cookies for the night, at the same time feeling guilty because I ate sweets: before going to bed, combined with another meal, and if I did not eat it, I was afraid that I would lose weight again and lose weight ... Whatever I would do is wrong, although I feel pretty good. Pretty good, eyes beautifully and elegantly moisturized. I am quite energetic. Only one of them hurt me, the one that was damaged due to the "blood density" on the Skawinska street. Finish, light WFM, I'm going to wash and it's time for Vanesse. I'll still write an email to her.

MindCode

- I woke up at 6:00 am, I wanted 2 Inka coffees. I did so too, drinking slowly. Then after 7:30 2 apples, then more Guarana yoghurt. And somehow after 9 o'clock I went for a run, fearing for my circles. But along the way, I didn't feel like running. I don't have this energy to run. I stopped for the motley. I felt it was an ideal place. I felt it! So, first I started intuflow, then stretching, and finally I thought and when I am already and I don't want to run, I did my morning training and then I run. I was not disappointed. After training, I was full of energy at home. This energy freaked me out so much that I had to eat a good garlic clove to calm down. During the TRAINING I learned that - Squats holding one hand on the slipper - better feel legs / thighs - Push-ups on handrails at staircases - quite a different exercise - I tanned my thighs without fear (only panties). I even thought of where to sunbathe naked here. I felt that I could find a place like that somewhere on Maciejowa Street. Now I think to myself to lie on the end and if someone was it just put my panties back on. - Drazek as a goal - it was quite thick in the handle and I exercised well I think that's it from training. I will add that in the morning I made myself an injection with milk and breast. She was really DELICIOUS. Yes, inka with milk and breast, only these thoughts about a separate diet. And I took care of myself. Carrots, I waited eagerly, breaking the weaknesses, and took a shower. Then I ate my breakfast potatoes with garlic and then after a while slices of bread with butter. An excellent meal, despite such a dose of carbohydrates, after 2 p.m. I felt a light hunger back. I felt pleasantly full and energized. Just fear for the spine, I didn't know what to do with it. I called Rakowska impulse and typed to call tomorrow. - Oskar came spontaneously between 1pm and 2pm. Again I felt, somehow it just felt that he was parked here. I think he demanded too much from this laptop, but at least I helped him with something. He's a lot of urusl, he's much taller than me. - After the protein dinner, which I liked and I ate red meat with beetroots almost without fear, I did an experiment because of the fear of the vertebrae in my spine. I went to lie on my stomach in the vibrations of the chair. It made me feel sick, and I fell asleep and woke up drowsy with a sense of fear and guilt, and I made the mistake again. And I think about it again. - Now I want to run, but I want to go run to my dad ... I already have a route set through my old kindergarten. I feel it. the weather is beautiful, i'm going to run there. - PS rest written the next day. So: - I did not go to run to Zaryty. Change of plans, it was so long for me and I only went to sunbathe / stretch for the motley. At one point, Simon called to ask for a laptop loan. I agreed, probably even earlier in the afternoon I suggested it to him when I was with him. I shaved without fear alone in the park, in the evening I was done with it. - What I remember for the night, I stuffed myself like a guilty pig with cheese and ice cream, although there are also some advantages that I discovered today! Yes, and I want to write about it in a moment. - I also started to read KodUmyslu2, or rather listen. I figured it would be better to just listen and then make notes. I don't think this e-book is on the internet, although I don't know. I will check it right away. - Oh, I think I forgot to add that there was Oscar with the Laptop that day.

I feel

July 20 - I feel - A day written with a one-day delay. A lot has happened, a lot has happened, even though I spent most of the day alone. I don't even know when I'm going to write it all down. - Morning Fruit, I went for a run listening to Intuition. I chose places that I felt I should choose: for example, I found 2 nice places by the pitch where there were nettles, by the pool my intuition automatically directed me towards where there is grass instead of concrete. At Maciejowa I saw Karolina gacek with friends when I was returning. I also burned the card there. I hesitated to go to the mother herself, because I still wanted to buy a gift for my mother. I did it "almost that" because I felt it would be better that way. And so I was guided by the voice of my intuition. This is my theory, no book - do what I feel. To integrate it with the mind. By the way, I got to know a new place through the fields, and coming back an even earlier way to the pollack. It was just this that I felt that this road would lead me there. I felt it! - While on the pollack, I was returning through the streets on the left side, next to the sheet metal trapezoid. It felt like this again. I do not know why, the only advantage of this decision was that I found out that there is a lot of concrete there and the road is moderately conducive to running. I was hoping to meet Maks or his family - that's the only thing I was running for, although I didn't meet him. I was also in his aunt's shop - I hesitated to buy grapefruit juice, but from what I saw the store was closed long ago, unfortunately ... - I walked towards the market looking for a present for my mother. I ran nervously across the tracks as the train rode, I wasn't afraid. I was even thinking: without fear and without pain, life is BORING! It is as if you are still playing some computer game at the lowest level. BOREDOM! I bought these delicious gray cookies from my childhood in a store by the fitnesland. They cost 5.07. The lady gave me a terrible change, I broke my fear and asked her to give me 5 zlotys, and in a moment she would notice her. Probably reluctantly, but at least she agreed. Then I tested the new Lewiatan store. There I bought the cheapest ice cream as a gift, but at least it matched the gift and a multivitamin juice for myself. I was hesitating between the white grapefruit and the multivitamin. I chose my mind and took a multivitamin, and unfortunately I made a mistake here. You should have taken Grapefruit - I felt so, and this choice would have been much better! Then I reported even 10 groszy to this lady. During this walk, I was a bit afraid of the lumbar spine. After all, I was running on the asphalt, I was tired after this run. And so I was running after the dupes, mainly in this flower shop, together with your florist, we prepared a really incredibly attractive visual gift. Everything looked great together. It was a real work of art! :) What a true gift is a root not out of love for the mother, just because it is appropriate to give a gift. Besides, I wanted to have a holy peace and a stress-free day to organize my own affairs in life. After I finished, I ran towards the house. Along the way, this feeling again - we may not be there, something suddenly dawned on me that she was about to eat. I felt that it would be best to call David and that's how I found out ... My mother is gone, she is in Nowy Targ. So I ran further home, on the way (and probably several more times a day) listening to my intuition, such as correcting items, telephone, shopping - in the way I feel. Quick cut on the stick. I thought to keep this gift for this time at Mrs. Basia or Monika, but I chose Monika because I just saw her, at the same time I probably wanted some rumors to spread what a beautiful gift I bought ... That's what I had in mind. In addition, returning through the rust without pain and ailments, I had another thoughts again: when I fight Kais, I smash him with my strength and sharp retorts. Riposts suddenly came by themselves and I hadn't had them for a long time ... It's interesting ... Even very interesting ... - Shower at home, then breakfast, and it's very late, after 1 p.m. And I think again because I ate breakfast too late, in a moment, what to do for dinner? But I had a feeling it would be fine. And I was not wrong. When my mother arrived, I went to Monika to get a gift. I returned and my mother was delighted. With this gift, I bought her well-being for the whole day and mental comfort for myself. Yes, I was extremely calm that day. Dinner was later anyway, but I just calmly put it on my desk. Mom didn't pick on and scream like she used to do every day. I just put dinner and said that I would eat later and so did - I ate dinner somewhere around 5 p.m. when Dawid was packing up to Mielno. By the way, today, when he writes, I felt it would be nice to steal some nice pants from him. I just felt it! And so I did, backing up the cool blue jeans. They feel good in them and look great. - What next after dinner: I also talked to Szymek by phone. It was great talk. I informed him with self-suggestion that I have free calls and we can talk without fear. In this way, he felt calm that he didn't stretch me and I felt calmer because we could talk. He asked for a movie of higher quality. I thought that he has a bigger screen and that is why he may have such a problem. I looked for him the same author in HD quality. And downloaded from some warez. Today, as I watched, the quality was excellent - What else for the day? Hard to say. I was breathing a little freely on my stomach, just deep. The stronger voice was also much stronger and at the same time calm, but of course for a while. - In the afternoon I started cleaning the house. This continued until evening. Until the circles in my spine began to worry me. Generally it has been cleaned up quite nicely. 82% of me are satisfied with myself. I also destroyed old research and documents. I felt that some of them are no longer needed for me, so I fired them all. It just felt like that, and so did it! I felt it. I have prepared old bags for the basement of things that I do not use and which I want to sell. I want to experiment how much I can earn by selling unnecessary things. - And so the time flew by. Mom was calm. Oh, and something else important. Before dinner, my mother treated me to a wafer. Feeling guilty and wanting to shine the next oh how delicious. But I made my affirmation / self-suggestion and I was sick of the next one. It breaks down the weaknesses (...). I managed to defeat myself. For an evening with chocolate, it was not so good for me, but it was still pretty good. After a few lumps of chocolate I could feel the energy, but with time it turned into a slime. At least I got to know another error. I wanted dark chocolate as if it was the best medicine for me then. I did so too. - At night, especially before going to sleep, instead of meditating, I wanted to watch a movie. But I didn't know which one, but now I know - I'd like to see a dexter. Yes, a dexter would be what I need. However, I watched adrenaline 2 from youtube. I couldn't sleep for long. I didn't feel like it. Finally 1:30. I was afraid of it a little because I had not suffered from insomnia for a long time. This is also what I got up and started reading Andrzej Bednarz's Meditations. Despite the poor cover, I have to say that his book is much better than OSHO - it shows the meditation better. I told myself that I have to give this book some special frame. - I woke up at 6:00 am, I wanted 2 Inka coffees. I did so too, drinking slowly. Then after 7:30 2 apples, then more Guarana yoghurt. And somehow after 9 o'clock I went for a run, fearing for my circles. But along the way, I didn't feel like running. I don't have this energy to run. I stopped for the motley. I felt it was an ideal place. I felt it! So, first I started intuflow, then stretching, and finally I thought and when I am already and I don't want to run, I did my morning training and then I run. I was not disappointed. After training, I was full of energy at home. This energy freaked me out so much that I had to eat a good garlic clove to calm down. During the TRAINING I learned that - Squats holding one hand on the slipper - better feel legs / thighs - Push-ups on handrails at staircases - quite a different exercise - I tanned my thighs without fear (only panties). I even thought of where to sunbathe naked here. I felt that I could find a place like that somewhere on Maciejowa Street. Now I think to myself to lie on the end and if someone was it just put my panties back on. - Drazek as a goal - it was quite thick in the handle and I exercised well I think that's it from training. I will add that in the morning I made myself an injection with milk and breast. She was really DELICIOUS. Yes, inka with milk and breast, only these thoughts about a separate diet. And I took care of myself. Carrots, I waited eagerly, breaking the weaknesses, and took a shower. Then I ate my breakfast potatoes with garlic and then after a while slices of bread with butter. An excellent meal, despite such a dose of carbohydrates, after 2 p.m. I felt a light hunger back. I felt pleasantly full and energized. Just fear for the spine, I didn't know what to do with it. I called Rakowska impulse and typed to call tomorrow. - Oskar came spontaneously between 1pm and 2pm. Again I felt, somehow it just felt that he was parked here. I think he demanded too much from this laptop, but at least I helped him with something. He's a lot of urusl, he's much taller than me. - After the protein dinner, which I liked and I ate red meat with beetroots almost without fear, I did an experiment because of the fear of the vertebrae in my spine. I went to lie on my stomach in the vibrations of the chair. It made me feel sick, and I fell asleep and woke up drowsy with a sense of fear and guilt, and I made the mistake again. And I think about it again. - Now I want to run, but I want to go run to my dad ... I already have a route set through my old kindergarten. I feel it. the weather is beautiful, i'm going to run there.

There is energy

July 19 - There isEnergy - Wake up spontaneously slightly before 4:00, say 3:57. Supposedly well rested, as if I was supposed to get up to meditate, but it was similiar ... It was freezing cold. I guess I just pissed myself off and went to sleep. And I slept and I thought that at this hour I could get up to my meditation and then go to bed and go to bed. I woke up after 6:00 am, started my routine daily activities. I prepared almost 1/3 of the old bread, 5 huge slices of onion. And the resulting white cheese cube with tomato. Meditation on a vibrating chair, I felt like a lot of oxygen with stretching my chest. Yes, I felt a lot of soreness after yesterday's training. She was just cunning. - Jakos 7:30 training until 9:00. Actually just stretching the muscles, stretching + intuflow. Stretching was really nice in the sun. After 9:00 getting ready for work - very resistant to stress on the mother and lack of time. Is it the effect of affirmation, exercises, or maybe all at once? Hard to say. But I didn't have time for brainChallenge and tetris and other stuff anymore. I focused on eating my meal and getting ready for work. - Ok, and what's next ... Stress and constant fear of pain and ailments. Today about the tailbone, the vertebrae in the spine were teasing. I'm afraid, I was still afraid ... - Somehow. About 12:00 (it's hard for me to say exactly) Grzegorz came. He offered me a job as Tomek ... 1500 basis and said that I could come out for a total of 5-7 thousand zlotys. Wow ... Something incredible. This sum seemed too abstract to me. I dreamed of earning PLN 1500 and just getting out of the house. When I received an offer from him, I felt fear only for 2-3 reasons: 1. Vanessa's prophecy about government problems 2. Fear for health, mainly the spine and tailbone associated with driving a car 3. Fear of receiving the pension 4. And maybe the fourth thing, fear of driving a car. - I felt that Grzegorz was also afraid. I am pleased to say that I am responsible, reasonable, etc ... But I am not. I'm inside like a paltry gift that is only nicely wrapped. In a nice shirt, good haircut, good-looking, he expresses himself well and wisely. I liked Grzeska. I really liked it, he impressed me with this conversation in the car when he wanted to help me, when he got into my heart and mind, admitting that he is a fagot, alcoholic, drug addict, drug addict etc ... telling me about himself. It made an amazing impression on me ... And I wanted to revenge him, but I was afraid to have faith, so I only said 4-7% about myself and my problems, although maybe what I said are the roots of other problems ... I think so ... Moreover, psychoanalyzing this situation: I confirmed that I was soft, I agreed, which probably also evoked reactions on the subconscious level, such as: YES means> NO. ENCOURAGE and you will be SOLVED. DISPOSE and you will be ATTRACTED. - Maybe it was even a good thing, because mentally I was not prepared for such work, mainly due to the health and mental aspect and I do not want to earn so much money so quickly, but I mean health more! It's also good that I agreed, because later Grzegorz called to forgive Tomek, they reconciled and Tomek returns to work :) I will continue to be a poor IT specialist / programmer for 600 PLN :) - Plus, I like to spend my time here in the office. I really like. I'm alone, away from my mother, although I'm just scared of sitting and the spine, but it's really horny. I read books, I am alone, I like this place :) - While on a trip I bought accident cutlery 2x - great. I spent PLN 8, excellent for my container. In the case of ailments, as usual, I advise myself: water, WFM - today I had practically no desire to stretch. - However, I bought 2 wallets that I liked yesterday. Brilliant, great! - For dinner I scraped rice in my own garlic sauce. I bought mild mustard for 1.95 and a head of garlic for 1.50. Total 3.50, it also came out much cheaper than the garlic sauce in the store. Excellent taste with rice, and in addition those 1.5 oz of garlic (one large and one small) calmed me down. Garlic seems to have calming and sleeping properties. This was what I needed, I felt the peace and harmony of my body and I read the book by Andrzej Bednarz with ease - I have not finished it yet, but at least I can see that writing this diary is doing better for me. Excellent meal! - I have also prepared a new affirmation that I must implement: "Since the methods of light meals did not work so far, let's try something else 4 + 2 Powerful meals a day build a fast, agile, powerful muscular body. When running and evening training I think it will be enough." Vanessa wrote back to me about her healing proposal. A very nice start, it will start for free. Only the end irritated me, I wrote that I should give up esotericism. I have to somehow slightly change her way of thinking, she described her mother's case - I think I am referring to it, and how does she know what is the truth about her mother? I have to do this! - I thought there would be a lot to write and almost nothing here? Today Kregi started to annoy me a bit again, probably from uncomfortable sitting ... It's hard to say Now I am sunbathing sitting on the couch in the storm. It is 5:45 pm. With a laptop and Wifi I feel more connected to the world. Do you eat another meal now? I'm not that hungry, but maybe water first and then eat it Summarizing the plans for today: - Chronicle written - There is light order in the storms - A. Bednarz's book is finished. And I think is there anything else worth adding to my Jedi Warrior Chronicle? - Now he writes from home. it is 10:06 pm. - The rest of the day went on as follows. I left work full of fear for my health. No shirt, of course. My hunch told me to go through Podhalańska. I don't know why I had that feeling, but I did. On the way, I had an idea to meet Maks, or at least his parents, or Ole ... But I did meet Lukasz Jarosz - I think so I was close, because he is their neighbor, probably even the closest, right? - Then the black woman's house - fear. But I am breaking my courage, so I walked through his house saying my affirmation. In the event of an attack, I had an interesting image with Riposta: "At the beginning, buy dumbbells, yes with 50 kg, wave them 20 times every day and in about 10-20 years you will be as beautiful, handsome and muscular as I am" she liked - I also had some ideas about the conversation with Grzegorz about today's work. Long conversation, I won't write anything and I think I need to talk to him about it. I'd like to ... - I got my feet wet by the river and went barefoot to the playground without a T-shirt. No feeling of creep or fear. As if I got immune to it. Jupi, it's getting better, I'm proud of myself! - At the playground, I wanted to drink, then eat. I also saw Karoline Gacek with my friends - I used to like to show off in front of them, today as if the old coded thoughts were directed again to draw attention to them. - I thought to send some kid to the store, but I didn't find any. I would not be afraid. I would have done it without fear or creep. Finally, after warming up, I left my bag to a nice old lady and without shoes and a T-shirt, I went to the mushroom to buy a little water for 2.50. Not even the worst price, and it came with a stopper. I was not frightened and afraid - wow something beautiful. How it's possible. - After training, I was so exhausted that I didn't have the strength to stretch at the end of the training. Lack of strength. At home, I ate a cold dinner. As always, my mother crackled and fired, imposing her mouth and mouth. The meal gave me energy. Potatoes with Cauliflower, then I took another zodka. In addition, I was hungry and exhausted. Wow - There is energy! I was tired and now I feel charged again! - There is Energy!

Better and better But

July 18 - Better and better, but - Wake up after 5:00 spontaneously. A slight sensation of toxins, the feeling of peanuts in the stomach after yesterday evening - I have the impression that a laptop on plastic heats up more. I will test it for a while (without saving) and compare it in the office and on the table. - I was in the shop twice because I ran out of money. Nasty apples, no matter what compared to the rest of the day - I wasn't for a run. I felt that I did not have the strength, but I was very eager for intuflow. I was kind of tired, I would only burn out running by running. On the other hand, the intoflows in the sun increased my mental and physical energy - At home, I ate 6 thin slices of grams with onion and then tomato for breakfast. To the office I took quite a lot of cheese + egg shells + broad beans that I didn't eat. - As for the morning meditation: it was exactly 15 minutes. It ended with the end of the chair vibration - I came to the office around 10:30. On the way I was walking without a shirt, catching a little sun, although there were also a lot of clouds. I was not even afraid of my mother, who almost went out with me, all thanks to my self-suggestion, i.e. positive affirmation from the red notebook. - In the office I was doing great: I was tired: I was doing WFM for my head and I was energized. Water, stretching the muscles. By the way, I developed a great exercise to stretch the biceps - this is what I needed, because recently I feel that I have guts in my biceps. I had neglected stretching them for several months, I accidentally missed this muscle in my warm-up. When I was too relaxed, makeshift intuitive stretching of most muscles and I am already full of energy. I think I can do it. - I went to everything for a student to get a marker, then to the new StrafaNiskichCen store. Some great wallets, including one I especially like for 12.50. I wish I had money, I have to get it tomorrow. In total, I left the office twice: once for chewing gums, and once for the underliner - Today I read Andrzej Bednarz's book about meditation. Really great read! Brilliantly described the basics of meditation step by step, only in the mind of the mind: it is a pity that someone did not say that. It seems to me that the Cooper described the Meditations better than OSHO, and in my head I think: it is a pity that it is not someone ... - Now it is 4:41 pm and despite all day in the office I am full of energy. Because I listened to my body. The body is a temple, I care for my body and my body cares for me. And this is beautiful! - Practical, the only thing fully done today, or rather half of it, is reading A. Bednarz's book. Great book! - I was afraid that there would be a lot of writing, but at the moment that's probably all. Do what you want. Follow the stream of the river, not against the current, because it is much heavier upstream. - In addition, I listened today and yesterday to my intuition opening the keys to the door. I felt intuitively which keys would match. I felt it! - Coming back from work without a shirt, I was tired after a whole day. Intuitively or subconsciously, I moved towards the thesis. Then, as if on the bridge, I woke up and wondered what I was doing - after all, I was supposed to go to the playground to practice. But I found I was listening to the subconscious and I was not disappointed. There I breathed my diaphragm and also walked barefoot on stones. Oh, my feet were hot, the mine was energized by the negative pole of the earth, as Tombak used to say. And I went on to the playground, but found that I will not exercise now and do exercise after the meal. After 7 pm I had a meal, meat with 4 cucumbers. I decided to leave it for 21, but I was afraid that the meal would be too late. But when I plan to schedule [7-9-xx-19-21] I feel like I should eat meals like that. Where xx is a protein during the day. This is my feeling that it will hit the mark. I watched my mother not to warm me up, I was afraid of it less and less, probably for affirmations. Wogole coming back just in front of the house, next to the red drazka, cokes from RBK or WRU were staring at me. Also nicely carved, including this michael from David's class. - I went to training after 8 p.m., before that I did a lot of shopping for the night. I have to report 11gr, preferably in the morning :) When I was going to the playground, I met my grandson. I walked tired and wondered if I had done the right thing with this meat. But then, during the training, I gained a lot of energy for exercise. I suppose it was the effect of the sun going down, fresh air and I really got a lot of energy for exercise. I thought that I would only do 2 series, but I did the full training. Wneku has delayed him a bit, he wants to practice with me. We guessed for tomorrow, but I don't really want to exercise with him. I prefer to practice myself ... He admired me a little when I was stretched, he also said that I looked better packed. - And now for the evening the question: to eat rice or not to eat? Maybe I can do an experiment, that is: I'm not that hungry, in addition I'm full of energy and I want to rest and stretch, right? So I will leave the rice until tomorrow, and I will eat only the tomato before going to bed. I also drank the Inka Cereal Coffee - I wanted it. Yes, an experiment because recently I get up after 5:00 to eat at night. There will be a reap for tomorrow. Yes, EXPERYMENT! to know if I am doing well. At most, in the morning I will wake up with wolf hunger, then the body will make up for the loss and eat this rice or apples ... We'll see ... - Gee there is energy and at the same time pleasant exhaustion. And at the same time fear of pain and ailments. Head again, a moment ago I caught my mother that nothing hurts me when she looks at me as I take the droplets. - I forgot to note 2 quite important events from today. Being in the store before the evening training was quite a long queue in the store. At one point, the Lady from the other lady says: "Cash". I changed Kase almost without hesitating, even though I was second in line. People waved and I did. I was also a bit afraid of it, although it is important that I did it. Maybe this fear will pass with time :) - The second situation a moment ago, but first, when I was watching my mother so that it did not heat up my meal: as usual, she pretended to be a stupid type: and what would you heat yourself up, I say: dinner. And what kind of dinner will you get this dinner from? (...) and such a fucking conversation. I do not have such bright, sparkling ripostes anymore, but at least I said something and I was not afraid, as I used to, thanks to my affirmations. Excellent! - A moment after the shower, just before going to bed, my mother asked me to the computer to help her with something. As usual, not enough that I want her help, I still get away from her. But somehow I managed to defend myself: I told the translator's technique (my favorite) that not enough that I want to help you, I still get the fuck out of me. I finished with my word, I feel like the winner of this battle for words. The last word belonged to me. And I think to make my success even better. Well: mom is good to me and cute only when she needs money from me. I'm done giving her money, I won't give you any more. Now I owe it PLN 9, so I will not give PLN 10, I will give exactly PLN 9 Because when something doesn't work, do the other way around. I give her money like a fool, try to be nice, and this fucking whore attacks me at every turn. Enough of this. When you are nice to someone, someone is not nice to you. I will not give her a penny more arguing with words like: you already know why ... Guess. Juices - you can not do what you don't want (and here's a great persuasion because there are chances and I will continue to do them). I forced her not to do something, so her subconscious pride will shout NO and let her make lenses, and I will emerge victorious from it! Got contact lenses and she's fucking mentally!