Courage

01 February - Courage Nothing special happened during the day. I was not running for my feet for fear. I'll be training tomorrow. I read a little bit of esoteric psychology and finished reading it the joy of a dangerous life. Throughout the day I was engrossed in books. Mom today is cutting her finger into juicers. A moment ago now in the evening she went to Morczyna for some reason. Probably from Tat. I'm going to meditate in a moment. I will use the 3-finger technique again, but I will lie on my stomach because I feel that this position will be perfect for me today. I will use the technique of self-hypnosis and I will imagine the golden aura that will give me energy. In this position, the muscles will be taut, which will allow me to imagine the golden aura more easily, like in DragonBall. I had a lot of sweets and cips and sandwiches at night, although I did not want to eat ... What did I do, this feeling of guilt again. In my head, metlik and chaos: learn to live without food, no, it is enough to keep a 14-hour fast to stay healthy and slim, tomorrow I will be hungry if we are gone .... God ... What to do. I feel bigos in my stomach, I've mixed it up too much. I'm sorry my body. Sorry .... I'm lost in my life and I don't know what to do ... When will I learn to meditate?

3 Fingers

Dream: I remember a dream that I was at the Laryngologist's in Rabka. I asked him to prescribe me because he helps me a lot. He agreed and prescribed some new prescription. January 31 - 3 fingers. At night Meditation method of self-hypnosis + Radio. Watching all thoughts as they arise. I was kind of on the side. In addition, my hands were exceptionally placed on the bed and not on my hips as I had recently done. I clenched my hands as if in 3 fingers which actually made meditation easier. This trick was prompted by a user. In the morning training 15 repetitions Today I read a book about healing. I have prepared a healing decree necessary to heal the soul. A set of super affirmations that I developed myself. I ate in the afternoon. Until you are too full. Indeed, abundant food makes you sleepy. Has anything else important happened today? I read Radoslaw Balwierz about creativity and took notes. I need to get my creative mind back. I also called a psychotronic school in Krakow. I was supposed to call the director after 6 p.m. but I didn't want to. At that time, I practiced and somehow postponed it.

Warning Asu

January 30 - Aseu Warning. Bronek, I don't want to interfere, but something tells me that I should tell you something, it's as if someone gave me a thought and wanted me to pass it on to you. It's so strange (...) I thought, and it actually came to me that your father is actually a victim of lies, that you both suffered a lot, although you probably more and he wanted to protect you too, the system got you into a trap ... I'm very sorry that it happened and I apologize if I said too much, if these words offended or touched you. These are the words that ester welcomed me during today's conversation around 1:00 or 3:00 when I woke up. It is allegedly from the angel Aseu. Ester checked that some sources say it is an angel, another and a fallen angel or a demon. In any case, I liked these words ... Which, however, does not change the fact that my father is still hating my father a lot !!! Throughout the day, due to fear of feet, I did not run. Only around 9:00 am I supposed to go for a run, but I was afraid of running. It was also when I started walking with breathing. I jumped to the post office and returned home. At the post office, I picked up a boxing bandage. Today I read The Book of Immediate Healing. I tested quite a lot of techniques on myself. One of the first was the Healing Blanket - I thought it helped my feet, although later I was still living in fear that the pain would return. I feel my feet "crack" and the traveling pain / chlamydia began to cling to more damaged areas. Besides, I also tested touch and imagination. I imagined a bit that I was kissing and I love Kaja. This is a nice visualization. Perhaps I will use it now for evening chakra work. When I was cold, I imagined myself exercising on armrests. I felt warm. After such visualization, I was proud of myself, calm and composed. Cool! The affirmation thread was very useful. I created my own beauty, thanks to which I had good mental and physical well-being for the whole day: "My body is enjoying tremendous health like never before." I blessed my body, thanked him. Blessings are similar to affirmations, but you are thankful for what your body is doing. These techniques, although discreet, I felt they worked :) Affirmations plus visualization of the exercises gave some sort of peace for a good part of the day. Like after breathing exercises or meditation. Oh, at night, then in the morning when I was doing the breathing exercises, my mom came in and fucked me up that I was breathing so loudly. Today I also watched a movie on YouTube - Cruel people - leaders of sects. Until I wanted to have super powers myself, but only because at the moment to send my father to a mental hospital. Hypnotize and manipulate it! This is probably all the most important things today. What I learned today: Visualization and some healing techniques.

Electro Acupuncture

January 29 - ElektroAkupunktura A day written on time. I got up quite early, somewhere between 00:00 and 01:00. I woke up, did some mind exercises, and went to sleep again. I think it is due to the fact that I went to sleep quite early the previous day, around 21:00. 4 hours of sleep perfectly regenerated my body. After 1-2 hours of such mind / awakening exercise, I went to sleep. I was still waking up / getting up. In the morning I went to Rafal Pawlik at 8:30. As soon as I entered his block, he knew it was me. As he claimed, he did not expect anyone else. Today we explained a lot about what we think of each other. We also changed places to see what it's like to be in a different place. Return home, quick breakfast and departure to Nowy Targ. Today I had an appointment with a Rheumatologist. Today I was terribly worried about my feet - probably too much effort from running. She feels new lumps growing on her .... Coming back to visiting dr. Feathers - I lied that something hurt me, that there are cramps in the groin etc ... I lied. I don't know if I did the right thing. I learned that my hip might hurt my knee. I also left the original consultation result by Dr. Sebastianowicz. This is my tactical mistake, but I thought to myself - it's alright. One day I will ask at registration to make photocopies of me. I made an appointment with Dr. Pierzg� on March 20, she said that she would be able to do treatments then. I went to the Buffet, earlier I bought grapefruit juice in the shop at the entrance, I drank it in the buffet. Being in the buffet, I was thinking about Wojciech Panz, hoping that I would meet him, and on the other hand, having a little fear of meeting him ... Today I received an electroacupuncture device, but seeing such a large book on this subject I don't want to read it. I still think of an ordinary book - I don't want to read it. Today I was worried about my feet. I can feel new bumps growing at my heel. What to do? Gotta get some neurological diagnostics. How neurologists analyze such things and then I can go to a neurologist who will make the diagnosis I know that the footwear and spine are bad. I KNOW IT, I AM SURE OF IT. But the neurological tests suck! From your difficult condition, she can heal you like in the Department of Social Humiliation. At 4 p.m. I made an appointment with Łukasz Lopata. I gave him my book - Balance of body and mind. Today I was not running. I'm not okay with it. I ate 3 slices for the night and then a little sweetness. Feelings of guilt again and ate a bad meal. I have read Tombak's Road to Health. It is like a conglomerate of readings that I have already read. I enjoyed reading this lesson. Somehow I'm afraid to move forward and read other books, I preferred to go back a bit. I do not know why, maybe because reading the book about bioenergotherapy recommended by Wampirek I have some strange conviction in me that I will not learn it anyway? I do not know.

Tombak hypnosis

January 28 - Tombac Hypnosis Wake up at 4:30, although I lay in bed for a long time and woke up an hour later. Standard mind training, but I had no time for meditation or lucid dreams afterwards. Workout 8:00 in the morning. 14 repetitions in the open air. I have completed another part of the healing of the soul for Mirriel today. Exceptionally in the afternoon I trained in the kitchen. At that time, my mother was practicing in my room. I started another book by Michał Tombak. Somehow, I am afraid to reach for another esoteric book, so I started with Michal Tombak, Road to Health. Of course, I haven't read 2 books a day again. I read Andrzej Rakowski and about 30% of the current book. Got a foot / tongue massage mat today, spike. A bit soft, but as long as you walk it can be. Mom complained that she couldn't walk around like this because of her finger and corns. Michal Tombak mentioned a bit about hypnosis. He recommended relaxing then issuing commands sharply in a gentle, affectionate form. I was wondering if I should try it on myself. In December last year, when I was in a great mental shape, having excellent conversation, I was talking to myself such beautiful words and I was able to make suggestions. However, briefly. I fell into such a manner and quickly everything returned to its original state - that is, disease. I started to train the fish as if with a massage mattress. I put a massage mattress on my bed and it vibrates. I do not want to do fish, and this form of exercise is easier for me. I guess as much as happened today. For tomorrow I made an appointment with Łukasz for 4 pm. In addition, tomorrow I also have to go to the Rheumatologist. Maybe on the way he will stop at ul. Orkana 19 explore your testicles.

HomeFather

Dreams: Today I had 2 saved dreams. There were more, but I saved only two. The first one I called "a dream with a neighbor with a Polish dog". However, I have no idea what I might have meant. The second dream I remember was a lucid dream and I woke up quickly. I was running by the river at night. I was running and running and at one point I realized that I was having a lucid dream. January 27 Father at Home. Today I woke up quite late, a little before 6:00. I did mind exercises. Daddy slept on the couch at our house. I was worried about the drugs, whether I had to take them or would I get splashed. Finally in the morning I managed to smuggle them and went for a run. When I got back I made breakfast. We ate them together with my dad. Ba ... We even talked to each other. I made breakfast. About 12.00 Mum came. Dad has been here all day until now. I tested the InTuFlow day today At 6 p.m. I ate Pizzas. Today Dawid was repairing a damaged car in Malenka and bringing pizzas. A moment ago I had an inspiring conversation with Michał Staniszewski. I asked him today if he would like to become my mentor / spiritual guide. He replied that there was no time to say that you can learn everything from books yourself. That's how he learned everything he can. He talked a little about himself, he learned hypnosis in his childhood and he probably had a talent for it. Now I wonder a little - I was stupid. The angel told me to look for a spiritual guide, and here Michael tells me to learn by myself. What should I do? Oh, running in the evening I met this guy in goggles who sometimes practices in the park. We talked for a while. He showed me an interesting exercise with red handbags to grab the "blocks / cubes". Then the upper part of the chest also works during the exercise. I wonder if dad is staying here for the night? Today I started reading the book Kregoslup w Stresa. I also downloaded instructional videos for this book. Again I have not read two books a day, even if I have not read one ... Would you change the affirmation to "I read one book a day?"

InTuFlow

January 26 - InTuFlow Wake up at 4:00. I recovered enough after yesterday's training. I got up and started training my mind. Left hand, of course. Zonglujac even feels my brain "grow" as if I were exercising the strength of the muscles, so it exercises the strength of the muscles of the brain. Around 6:00 am I went to bed for meditation. Still in the corpse position, I listened to the Chakra Journey. This is probably the most pleasant music for meditation with HemiSync for me. She is brilliant and also regenerates chakra. I also had an idea to test something else. LSD was in motion. but I didn't listen too long. About 8:00 training. 10 return home. David wasn't here today, he was at work. Today I wanted to maniacally achieve hyperventilation by breathing. However, I failed. The fuck how do you do that ??? Once upon a time it was good for me the first time. Today I watched youtube InTuFlow. I took notes, it was very enjoyable training, I don't think I do all the exercises correctly, but I will test this training. However, it seems to me that performing it as a warm-up will probably take much longer than 10 minutes. Mom went somewhere today. I don't know where, but I thought tomorrow is the perfect time to go hungry. On the other hand, I thought: maybe we will clean the colon with apples? A whole day on apples? Choose new ones and I think I will choose it. Tomorrow a lot of running, we will check how my body will behave in the new situation. I'm worried about my feet lately. I have a bit of a pain from running where the bumps are forming. I did quite a tidying up in the room. It took me about 1 hour. I listen to music better: Kazik na zywo - Plamy na soncu. A moment ago there was quite an interesting situation. Mum was gone, dad asked me to take medication. I hesitated to swallow or spit out. Eventually I spat out. I felt fear. I went with Kaw to the room and then my dad asked a question about whether I would be able to remove the simlock from any card there. Oh fuck - my heart was beating again. Stress as hell will catch me. I tried to control my breathing and I said a random word: I think so ... The conversation started, I moved a lot to relieve the tension, my breath, my body is stronger under stress. I made it, I managed :)

Psychoanalysis of the Boy

January 25 - Boyka's psychoanalysis The psychoanalysis of the buoy - has poor responses, is full of fear. Fear uses in combat. Even a long time ago, when I watched the film, I saw undisputedly in the fight a man who causes fear. Now I see something else. He can't talk. He is a great fighter, but has problems with communication and with sharp retorts. Fear is mixed with anger. By using these feelings in battle, he becomes invincible. I remembered the scene where he was so pissed off in the ring and taking the blows. Once, I would have thought that I wanted to disregard my opponent, now I can see it and he made an incident suggestion. Anger, adrenaline made him feel pain. Today's day: I slept quite late 6-7 am. I was glad that I was able to enter meditation. Of course, in the morning I went for a run. During the morning run I asked about the pharmacy in carefour, I asked if there were already guaranose tablets. Unfortunately it was not. I returned home, somehow a day passed. I downloaded the movie, you are the god of pactophones. I really wanted to see his version of what it means to be a god. Unfortunately ... I was unable to download a smooth episode which I regretted. I explained to myself - maybe fate wanted so ... Wioletta wrote back to me. When I read her description, I felt sorry for myself again and I used this feeling for running. Something beautiful. I like to feel it, as if I like to hurt myself. She wrote at the end and a bit sad and doesn't want to give herself a chance. In the afternoon I was running again ... While running I remembered that I had an appointment with Łukasz today. He drove me a little by text message. I wrote back to him. I imagined a little scary thing and he will become my enemy and he will vengeance, for example, by spreading things about me. I was a little overwhelmed by this fear. While I was running, a certain telephone number was calling me. I did not answer because I thought it would be Lukasz. At home it turned out that he was a guest from Elektroakupunktury. He wanted to explain why I bought two devices and paid for one. I told him I would buy one thing and pay commission for the other and it would be fair. He agreed, although I do not hide and I hoped that he would say that he would bear the commission costs. My mom was really on this. She was screaming at me, panicking. I answer her - you panic terribly and make a big scandal. After the telephone conversation, I even spoke in a contemptuous voice: the matter is solved, nothing big happened, we got along well culturally. It's not that bad. For dinner I ate 2 bananas and a little chocolate. I liked the chocolate and nutella so much, I felt it was a meal for me. I didn't want cottage cheese, I felt I needed chocolate. Although, on the other hand, I was not even hungry, I wanted to stick to 3 meals a day and that my mother would not be bothered by me. I don't remember any more sins. I used a new interesting technique, namely - deleting a day in the calendar. However, I do not want to describe its beneficial effects. That night - meditation + Valerian :) I feel a little sorry for myself again and I haven't read any book today ...

When I was God

January 24 - When I was God I start this post quite unusual, because I start typing 9 minutes right after the day starts, and I barely wrote the Endorphin post. I watched the movie: You are God, but the one from 2011, which inspired me extremely. He tells how the main character used a pill that activated 100% of his creative mind. He writes down an interesting quote, which he treats from now on as affirmations: "Everything I have ever heard, seen, read is logically connected." And I started to wonder: what did I do that at the beginning of 2011 I was indestructible, I had a fast powerful mind? What have I done? I remember that I once wrote an entry which I titled: "Euphoria". I think so. It was there when I naturally induced a state of euphoria. February, March, April and May, and even June and later 2011 of the period before Skawinska was invincible in words. I was a true master of Cietta's retort. I also took Rhodiola for a long time, which I think helped me a lot. Krzysiek also praised this preparation. And the creatine stuck in my brain. I suspect I was invincible then. Indestructible. Take creatine again? And I started to wonder what they suspected on Skawinska Street and when I called an ambulance. It was written: The patient recently consumed large amounts of creatine and guaranose. Well, guaranose was also brilliant. My doctor at Skawinska Street said to defend me against Markiewicz: it could be from the head, from the spine, it is Lyme disease ... But where is this Reiter? Here are the quotes I remember. It was one big mess. And I will only focus on the brain. Tomorrow, when I get up, I have to analyze the entries from this period of time. It's quite important, maybe I can think of a cure for my present low self-esteem. I want to be God, a young god ... Quote: the brain cannot function all the time at this high speed. Gee, this video motivated me even more to meditate and ImageStreaming. as far as I can remember, ImageStreaming was even more powerful than meditation. Dr. House that fascinated me is nothing compared to this divine pill. I started to imagine going back to Rhodiola again, looking for this pill and learning to meditate and imagestreaming. Morning is a standard mind training. Then training. I chose a new place for training. Those red rails by the river. The training was going quite well, but I was a bit weak - I was hungry and then had little strength. I think I remember two homeless people, one was showing me how to breathe. he also demonstrated a technically nice punch karate. At 12 o'clock I had an appointment with Wioletta for channeling. Earlier, David and I dismantled the Christmas tree, although I took it apart to a large extent. I was a bit disappointed while channeling. Again, I unnecessarily spent PLN 150 here, 120 here, in total 270 I went to pasture. And it was possible to have so much fun. I got answers and the backbone is unsettled. When it is done, it will gradually straighten. Yoga from an angel is also recommended. Wioletta also recommended yumeiho, jonas and salvia methods. All in all, that's all that I found out to be useful. I'm done channeling and fairy. I will only ask Arleta questions because she is cheap and effective with her tarot cards. About 2 pm I went for a run. I had so much regret for the angels, it gave me extra energy that I used for running and burned it up quickly. I feel proud that I have learned so well to deal with my own psyche. My hips and lower back hurt a bit today. The pain was relieved by a stick - a spine decompressor and my own developed hip exercise. I was after pharmacies asking about guaranoze and Alc. At the pharmacy under the carefour, I ordered guaranose during an afternoon jog. Coming home for dinner - mom a little pissed off that I came back so late. She was practicing in my room then. I ate baked beans and went back to the city, or rather to the park, then to pharmacies in Poniatowski Street. In the pharmacy where Tomek Glab takes, I ordered the preparation "session". I like the name on average, but after watching "I am God" yesterday, I want to protect myself with hemicals to top up and regain my mental potential that I had before Wroclaw. I joined Marcin Farmer in Kefirk. We had a lot of fun talking. I also bought baking soda there as a reserve. When I run out of hair, or in a month or so, I will switch to baking soda - this is how I like to try different treatments on myself. I also wanted to buy creatine at a sports store, but somehow I forgot. I was also in this gambling shop. I wanted to play about money, but there were new machines on time, so I gave up such an investment. I had my own slow tactic and I decided I wouldn't play that way. From March back home, and at home, I decided to take 100 mg of Tramal on an empty stomach. I drank Rzenszeń to stimulate the body. Finally, the tramal puts you to sleep and stimulates you. In the meantime, my mother started buying baking powder. Tramal worked great. Blogostan + Euphoria, but the key moment that gave me a great mental well-being and euphoria was the juggling of the LEFT HAND balls. In this way, I should stimulate the right cerebral area responsible for paranormal phenomena. It was an AMAZING BLOG EXPERIENCE. Pleasure that I would like to juggle and juggle :) I had quite a long training, somewhere between 8:00 pm and 10:00 pm Including a warm-up before and after training. Tramal made you sleepy, but also very resistant to pain. A brilliant dope. 14 repetitions of the squat on one leg did not make any impression on me. Great! After training, the blog is sleepy, very pleasant and satisfying. I felt great! I even imagined it was the same tablet as in the movie "You Are God". By the way, I wonder what the Polish edition of this film from Paktofonika looks like. After training, I was very resistant to cold. I took a cold shower for 6-8 minutes. I drank a lot of green tea with swelling, now I feel so eager to drink that I also made myself teas. What I learned today: juggling my left hand plus a tram. And tramal 100mg is a sufficient dose for an empty stomach with a hairline. PS I forgot. Impulsively I ordered the allegro eletkoakupuntkure, terry cloth and spikes / tongue for noki as acupressure for feet. I can't wait :) Wioletta invited me to Warsaw for her training. Even Angel was telling her to give me a boyfriend discount. Besides, the Angel also told me to find a spiritual guide. I was supposed to meditate, shut myself up at home and get to know the world through meditation. I have been doing this for 1.5 years and now I am suddenly supposed to find a spiritual guide. I thought to myself: where the fuck will I find a spiritual guide? What? At the beginning, she even encouraged me to come. I was a bit inclined to come. But after a while, when I read the program of classes: Love ... Joy ... Tantra ... I said - I don't give a shit, I will not come. Tomorrow I will write an email and I will not come, justifying that it is not about money, but I am afraid that I will not learn anything, I am afraid to go into the unknown with my health condition and that I listened to so many people for 2 years and I am already stupid. Meditate here, not meditate here, breathe here, chakras here, chiropractic here. I don't know what to do anymore - I was stupid. That's why I only listen to my body's voice. He will heal himself, and I am looking for a doctor only to regain my honor! I asked an angel to ask when Lyme tests are revealed. Wioletta knew this disease, although she did not ask the angel. She just told her about this disease. In addition, I also wanted to write in this way to additionally hurt myself. I feel sorry for myself. I like it, for some reason I like to listen to these channelings and blame you angels that you are fucking talking to me here. On the other hand, I would like to be God - to have divine power! Besides, I want to be angry! Full of hate, destroy and bring justice. What an exceptionally long entry. Maybe I still have time to write this email to this Wioletta? It would be great. However, I also imagined an angel giving a 50% discount. Choose the unknown, choose something new, talk in a calm state as I am now on the tram with people, tell your story. But no, I'd rather suffer, I'd rather be sorry for these angels! HUNGE YOU IN YOUR DUPE! These fucking meditations don't work! I trusted you fucking, locked myself at home, tried to meditate and what. This motherfucker my father has locked me up at the top. I am not studying, I lost 2 years of my life. I am to bring peace and mediation in this world. I don't give a shit! I want to be sinister and hateful. God those needles in the brain. I'm scared. I know that these are pressures from the spine and such bables are formed as on the tongue, as on the testicles. I'm afraid of this. When will the spine's nightmare end? Write a letter to Violetta? I think I'll write it now. Oh, what else to say. Regarding the channeling technique that I asked Wiolette for myself - Wioletta refused to say that in this state as I am, where I do not distinguish good from bad (here she interpreted me a bit badly, because I hesitate whether I want to be good or bad, recently I prefer to be bad) he won't give me this technique because I can summon dark beings. They can be good, friendly, show me a lot of good. And that's not the point. And then I wanted - since the angels do not help me, maybe I will summon such a dark being? I will sign a pact with the devil and gain divine immortality. Just ... What consequences could it have later? On the other hand, there is no good and bad, if I choose evil it is neither a good nor a bad choice. It's just a choice - right Raphael? Yes, I want to be like that sith on my avatar. I am actually him. I am a good fighter with the dark side. Now I prefer to be like this avatar of the early sith, the dark sith. Entirely black. Now I want to be like Unshelated 2 a dark sithem emanating hatred, a sinister desire for revenge. But I like today's post. He writes so much about his feelings. I feel great about it. I am listening to the chakr hemi sync sounds now. It feels great when I write my dark feelings into my diary. Satan's Bible? Maybe I can find interesting things there? PS 2 00:40 I wrote an email to Wioletta. I feel something beautiful. Such pity for myself, such pity for angels, the universe. This feeling of fucking regret towards the angels is overwhelming my whole body with joy. Until I stopped sleeping. I don't even want to discharge this feeling. I feel good about it. It's a beautiful feeling, and the effect of the tram is gone a long time, so I know I can feel it. Now still wandering pain, even more regrets. My body is already strong compared to what it used to be. It is really strong and I can take that feeling. I have a beautiful regret. And I want to say FUCKING, HUJ with MEDITATION HUJAM YOU ANIOKI, FUCK YOU FUCK. AND YOU BELOVED DADDY, YOU HATE YOUR FUCKER FUCKING! -------------------------------------------------- After discharging emotions: A very interesting technique that I discovered by accident. I wrote down all the dependencies that lie on my heart and note: I think I was meditating. Yes, I guess. Being overwhelmed with regret, I felt his beauty. In addition, by attaching the breathing technique, I felt even better while lying in bed in sasavana. I turned on Osho's Foreword, as if it put me in a light trance. And then I breathed a long time. A long time yet. Each thought was as if on the side. I had no need to contact angels or attain higher states of consciousness. I accepted everything! I was watching it from the side. I was in the middle of myself. When osho is over - total silence. Emptiness. The beauty of being alone. Every feeling, the hormone spread through my body giving me strength. I think that in addition, drowsiness, early time and taking tramal 100 mg contributed, in a way, to deeper meditation. Wow ... I feel great....

Pelen

January 22 - Pelen Wypas Dream: a falling tree on the church outhouse next to a healthy one, as if there was a divine body there. Morning jogging, Rafal Pawlik talk about masking feelings, about Kasia, my head ached from masking and suppressing my feelings. Coming home, going to the urologist, drowsiness after a sleepless night, no valerian drops effect, a woman who was arguing terribly, reading the patient's rights, meeting Adam IT and saying hello, Urologist - semen tests, smashing Kiji's car, possible surgery, leaving, registration to various clinics, a cool blonde, walking into the unknown after the hospital, meeting a gypsy in front of the bus. Coming home, meeting Lukasz Lopata. Lost his dog again, David and Ford Focus, Ultra Glue. After lunch, David and I went with gifts for my grandfather. We joined the Presencik. There we bought a bomb grandfather and a nice pen. Dawid could not go up there, so I advised him to go to Malgosie. Some guy was talking to us and asking about this Ford. We went to see my grandfather. There was Ola with Wojtek. Eletka has already grown up, they have a second child. We greeted my grandfather. Wojtek at one point said: all life is based on fucking. As if I didn't know what to do with it. I changed the topic to honey ... We also tried something with GPS, in general I was not very talkative Being with my grandfather again, I wanted to live there. Peace and quiet, no people. A great place. After 18:30 he gave me a ride in his Ford to Marta, or rather to the bus stop. There I went to Martha. We smoked the herb with some homies. I was afraid that something like weed would happen to me, but I was in control of the situation. It was not as fun as with Marta herself, but it was cool. We talked about time travel in weed and acodina. Again, I wanted to control my mind so that I had super abilities. Marta recommended a movie to me: you are god, she tells about some pill that stimulates up to 40% of the brain.

Endorphins

January 23 - Endorphins Today I did not train hard. I had a great desire to run. I got up somehow around 6:00 am, finally I went to sleep late yesterday after MJ's party. In the morning, of course, to train your mind. Then running. I added green tea to the skin, so it acts as an aphrodisiac. As far as I know, green tea strengthens the skin. Running was great. I was running to the rhythm of skrillex-syndicate music. I imagined how I am Uri Boyka and I have a fantastic fight with opponents. Perfect music for that. Throughout the day, I read a little book about running. In the afternoon I went for a jog again. I promised my mother that we would clean up the Christmas tree. But we forgot. In the morning I weighed some 73.6 kg. Somehow, slightly under 74 kg in any case. I was 80 cm in waist and 83 cm in hips. Awesome!!! 14h fasting is an extremely effective method. There was delicious beans for dinner. Interestingly, it was not at 2:00, even though my mother was then somewhere a bit later, she left. We ate alone with David around 3:00. And around 6 pm I went running again. What a joy! :) Mom, I looked today to see if the money for this Este Lauder came. They came on January 16. However, they were at Place Allegro. I finally used David's account and they didn't come automatically to me. I lied to my dad and it came yesterday and I missed it. Now I was looking for a movie "I am a god" about this pill that stimulates 40% of the brain. By the way, I found interesting information about the drug Ritalin. It is also supposed to be a great mind stimulant, and this drug is used in children with ADHD. Until I want to get this drug and try it out. And I'm looking for this movie. Oh, after running and before stretching. I felt how stretching the muscles promoted better regeneration and, in addition, oxygen also regenerates them. I release locks and tensions. Incredible! Ritalin - I have to get it! ;)

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In the morning, toxins after DX, a short hydropost for dinner, rubbing the floor, a lot of herbs, reading more mantaka, Manchester - Letter, drHouse father's son in a coma 1st day HydroPost 2nd December - Ladies in the Park A day written on time. I did not write, but for several days my left knee hurts - like a kneecap. Workout at home in the morning. In the afternoon I went to the park to breathe diaphragmically. I met some ladies who asked me about this breathing. Older people value their health very much. I continued reading the mantaka chia. I watched the film materials of the Academy of Natural Therapies. They are quite encouraging on December 3 - Stories by Pawlik The morning started around 5-6 am. It was cold, I woke up sleeping on my side. I also had some dreams, I wanted to write them down but unfortunately I forgot to write them down. At 8:30 I went to Rafal Pawlik. We talked today about Lyme disease: one woman had 3 years of boleliosis and was treated for neurosis. Of course, she was told that she was better. Same as it is done to me. About a guest with schizophrenia who was 35 years old and Rafal Pawlik himself sent him to a psychiatric hospital. I confessed that I am also being treated by Donata Bargiel. Rafal said that he has great respect for this woman (referring to this woman who was treated for 3 years for neurosis). Today I confessed about my stay in a psychiatric hospital. He recommended a great movie to me: a rebel by choice that I later watched. Saying goodbye to him, he handed me a film and there was also a blonde girl. Probably plagued by despair, depression. I wanted to go to donata Bargiel to register. I thought about possible positive and negative aspects of my behavior, but couldn't think of anything special. On the way I saw this bald guy drinking - nice guy - I feel sorry for him. Being at Rafal Pawlik's, my blood flooded me - how can FUCKING DOCTORS treat people this way? FUCKING HUJE. I was treated like that too. Wrong, unjustly, diagnosis made in 2 minutes ... I cried when I left. I couldn't hold back the tears. The blood is flooding me. While at home, I watched the movie "Mutineer of Choice". Incredible Mathematical Genius, genius slog, he read books. He reminded me a bit of Ryan Atwood. From appearance. - A patient who does not trust you will not be honest - When a patient does not trust you, you will not drag him to bed, and that should be the goal of any good therapist. - Puzzling: nerd and street troublemaker. Describe it all. Yes, nerd and street troublemaker. I think maybe he used to be a nerd like me. It was hard for him, he was not accepted by his peers and he learned to be stronger mentally and physically. Seeing this film, I wanted to learn photographic reading again and develop my mind. At home, I gathered up my courage and told my mother that I would not eat soup from tomorrow. oh, in the morning I flooded the shower cubicle. Dad fucked me up for this tonight. What I learned today: The film Rebel by Choice motivated me to act and develop myself. A day written on time. The day before, in the morning I ate a lot of chocolate. I made no mistake and it resulted in it and in the morning I woke up a little sleepy. I woke up several times. I had a dream again. I made love with Kaja. I remembered a thread when I kissed her belly. It was nice. In the morning, my mother greeted me for a name day. I got Rafaello. In the morning I also received the Karma prophecy. It turned out that my war with my father has been going on since previous incarnations. I will not write about it, I will leave it in my head for myself. I didn't feel like anything today. I slept, or rather blogo, lay on my stomach in my bed. In the afternoon, I helped my dad fix the shower cubicle. All luck was successful. I would not like to go to bed dirty. I wrote my CV today, too, but half of it has been deleted. I will have to rewrite. In the evening my grandfather called. He also wished me a name day. I saw a fragmentary fight between Mariusz Wach and Klitschko. December 5 - Creating a CV The morning training was excellent. In addition, despite the fact that I ate a lot of ice cream and chocolate for the night, I woke up well enough at 6:00 in the morning. Biceps after training again 40 cm Mum and Dad went to Krakow for surgery. I spent this time at home. Around 4pm I started to hypnotize Adrian. We had an appointment today. Just like I used to give him a hormone panel, this time I gave him a narcotic panel. I applied creating a state of euphoria like after MJ. I wrote my CV today. It turned out great. I applied for two positions from Rabka.pl - InPost and some insurance representative. I met Luc Liuc in the park on a walk. He recommended a practice of doing a flat leg for my knee pain. December 6 - Homeopathy idea A dream with J. Kogout in an installation You mentioned something about the post. Sending people a CV in the morning, training without legs, constant knee pain, searching for a bluetooth headset, talking to Łukasz Lopata about my CV. He didn't like the photo - I have sent pdf. Idea of ​​homeopathy. Talking about interrupting something for a week so that later it would have more power. Talking to my dad in the evening about his problems in the store. I had an idea to solve this problem by channeling and gain respect in his eyes. Giving in to the temptation and willingness to test, I took a sandwich plus sweets for the night. Today I read Adam Bytof's Orienautory on my fast reading program. Great reading, I hope to finish it today and make some notes. What I learned today - the idea of ​​homeopathy !!! Sleep in the morning: Talking to my dad, going to Gazda where the pharmacy was max. Dad talked to me, I really wanted to go to Maks at that time. Talking to my dad was about fixing the computer. I also remembered looking at my and his biceps who has the bigger one: D Suddenly a jump in time and space to oli's cousin. She spoke of Elence as she conquered many areas in the North Pole. Elenka's achievements were shown on the map in Ola's room in the old apartment: D What could it mean? : D Ola wanted to find out with me very much, but I wanted to return to Maks. I went back there, but the max was gone :( December 7 - Feather Rental Morning workout. It ran brilliantly. I stick to homeopathy. Instead of herbs, I switched to green tea, which I liked very much. Oh, I woke up at five o'clock in the morning, taking my sleep over. Restless blood pressure, lack of sleep, but it was possible to compensate for it with breathing and vibrations of brain waves. The window was closed, making the room warm and pleasant to get up. After training, I went home. I drank cocoa from the wrong milk and sugar - finally 2 weeks of homeopathy - I can eat anything that is messy. I ate, changed my clothes, took my photos and went to the new market. Being on buses, fear of life again. I'm out of my own ground. What will or someone fuck me up, he will shout - and I do not have my short retort. Fortunately, the busier was cool, we sensed each other. He wrote chimek asking for a top-up of PLN 5. So I jumped to the store and sent him the top-up code by SMS. Before that, I also met Dawid when he was returning from Mszana Dolna. He was boasting about his new job as an advisor to Play. PLN 1000 base for 3 months, PLN 200 from the signed contract. Great job. He plans to buy a car from January. He was also talking about some app that would find jobs from all job related sites. In the bus I really wanted to pee, my bladder was full. However, I asked my body to help me bear it :) Being there, I registered for the beebust. And actually going up The registration was closed, the wall was fenced. It turned out that from December 3 she was moved to the bottom. I went downstairs, she was a very nice nurse - she said that the card was already lifted upstairs. I thanked you. In the meantime, I somehow settled my needs in the toilet. I also bought tissues in that little shop at the entrance. I waited a few hours in line. Interestingly, people have complained a lot and have to wait. I, however, waited patiently. On the one hand, I wanted to hear what people had to say, on the other hand, I ran away from them - I didn't want to listen to how they were suffering and to get excited. Chills passed through me. Finally after 2 p.m. it was my turn. It turned out that Dr. Sebastianowicz is receiving on Thursdays and today is Friday. But I don't think time has been wasted. Despite this, dr. Pierzga was very nice. I think she liked me. I went to re-register with Dr. Sebastianowicz - according to her, the only orthopedist who can deal with my case. Unfortunately, I could not register because I do not accept new patients at all. There was Dr. Wolski for next Friday, but Pierzga really wanted it to be Dr. Sebastianowicz. I came back, explained the matter: Dr. Pierzga a bit irritated. She said, she also could not register new patients, so how is it ... We agreed with a smile on our face that I would wait patiently until this January, then I will register and, having a date, I will come here to your nurse. She with a smile - well, let's do it, after all, when I go with it for 2 years, I can still come a bit. I went back to Rabka, it smelled terribly in the bus, I was hungry and I felt it very much, although I instinctively wanted to clean my intestines with grapefruit juice. I did it when I was at the train station. Meanwhile, while in the queue, I wrote with Marta Tomalczyk. She asked me to lend her the book by S. Kinga Wie�a 7 in the library, unfortunately it was not there. I looked at books on medicine and healthy lifestyle in the library. There was a lot of it. There were even about Hypnosis, H. Louise you can change your life. Wow. I wrote about 9 titles on the x-ray of the spine. I borrowed the Yoga book for a good start. I went home. David ordered a pizza. I ate another bread. Pizza for PLN 15, or PLN 7.50 per head. Great pizza ala kebab with lettuce. I liked it very much, but it was so great that we couldn't eat it all. And here I will shortly. I continued reading Adam Bytof's book of Orientals, I went jogging, I threw away my medications - today I managed to be without drugs all day long. I went for a run. I was at home. Now I'm going to wash myself. Parents ate the rest of the pizza. It was a long interesting day :) Sleep, from 00 to 02 chakra sounds meditation plus visualization of winning fight with doctors. Dream: FB app for free phone calls. morning laziness. I was not mistaken. What I am homeopathy. A cold walk. Conversation with Adrian about winning the lottery, the deprivation chamber, the second book about lucid dreams. I enjoyed reading on December 9 - Today 2 dreams around 6:00 am. Holes as in the matrix (I wrote so, but I don't remember what's going on anymore). Rafal Pawlik's second dream on a wheelchair. Ninja Pads went crazy around town. Next to Rafal a spouse but much older with dry eyes. In addition, the morning training 39cm cold, Nothing special happened, I healed Adrian at a distance. The placebo effect worked on his teeth, but the reiki effect was moderate. I tried to heal my tongue for myself - no results. A quiet winter day I spent almost all of my time at home. In the morning, Rafal Pawlik called me. He said that he wanted to lift me because he was passing in the area, but I turned on the phone too late. We continued talking about my feelings. I gave him the movie. I felt such a hunger during our conversation as if it lasted too short. On my way out I met a girl who was also recently. Hoarse voice, but she tried to be nice. Being at home, Rafal called again and my insurance ran out. I have committed myself to report a new insurance tomorrow. I spent the day in my pants. Although I didn't look my best in them, I felt very comfortable. I have completed the notes on the starfish in my book diary and on lucid dreams. I was reading my autobiography in the evening. I was in touch with Violetta, the channeling woman. However, he takes up to PLN 120 for such sessions. We'll see what Mirriel says to that. Tomorrow to the ophthalmologist. Today's Dreams: Mountain Expedition, meanwhile, on the train, you will rob us. I remember the text that this mountain trip was supposed to last 30 days. I called it the mountain expedition, because this expedition happened somehow as if in a skip when we were robbed on a train. Interestingly, they forgot to circle "us", i.e. me and Tomek Marek - I think you were him, but why did he appear in this dream ?. The second dream, moments after waking up, when I wanted to record the dreams was the fight between Wacha and Klitchko. Yesterday was written with a slight delay. In the morning I had a very optimized training. I started practicing at 8:00 AM and finished at 9:00 AM. Something incredible in my performance. After the training, I prepared myself for an appointment with an ophthalmologist. I quickly made up my mind, ate something, and a little after 10 I was in the clinic. I met Angelik on the spot. She wrote her way a day earlier to me on Facebook. Maybe we thought together. Her sister was then on a visit to the dermatologist Dr. Dragonfly. Dr. the pacifier, of course, arranged everything in 2 minutes for PLN 40. Hehe. Oculist visit: not very satisfying. The same visual impairment 0.25 and 0.50. Droplets on dry eyes. She didn't notice that my head ached in one place and it was putting pressure on the nerves in my right eye. I am not satisfied with this. After the ophthalmologist, I brought the insurance to the clinic, as asked by Rafal Pawlik. I met dr. Prochyre - great guy. He asked in a friendly voice: Lord to me? I explained that I had only come to report the insurance. I went out and wandered a bit after the rabka. For a change, I went a different route. I bought 2 cereal bars in kefir and cabbage soup in Malagasy. I was in the bookstore next to Rafal Pawlik. I asked if they bought books and books about medicine and a healthy lifestyle. I came across the book Self-healing with the BSM method. Since it was sealed, I downloaded the e-book from the Internet. I have been wearing underpants for 2 days at home. I feel such an incredible desire to act lightly and freely. I feel good about it. This way I read books, I listened to the magic of reading. It feels so nice: snow and winter outside. I don't have to work and go to school. It's pretty good :) http://chomikuj.pl/bronex/Medycyna+naturalna/Ezoteryka << interesting hamster, interesting movies. Worth watching I also resumed juggling with balls. Not only that it synchornizes this exercise, it strengthens its power. Osho's Autobiography: Osho was the only one who had the courage to complain to his teacher for being tortured by Master Kantar. 21 years osho nervous breakdown. According to osho, only those who are ready to go mad can reach god. I wanted to do a fasting for this day, but I gave up on this idea. Today my mother was going to Krakow for some surgery. I don't know exactly, I'm not interested in her. At night, just before going to bed, I ate 2 bananas and a few slices. At night I opened my window and slept with the window open. I woke up at 5 am well rested. I wonder how, after this break of several days without a window and without food, I could get up early. we'll see in 2 weeks. After all, my idea of ​​homeopathy lasts until December 21st. What I learned today: Lots of interesting things. Books are a good way to deal with my present loneliness. Yesterday, December 12, written with a delay. I got cold, but I bravely coped with garlic, plenty of water with lemon and nettle. Today, although slightly weak, I feel much better, and alternate showers. Mum was in Krakow all day long. I spent the day at home because of a cold. I turned on the New Age Gods, but I couldn't hear the lies they were telling about my master OSHO. I turned it off, the television is lying. I had a dream the night before about Gum to live. Maybe there was something in it, maybe it was needed to go to Sebastianowicz, but more about it in the next entry. 13 December - I met Sebastianowicz. Today I woke up well rested at 3:00 in the morning. I made myself a nettle and drank a lot of water. After all, I still have a cold. Ha, today I managed to avoid taking medications all day :) At 9:00 am I went to the hairdresser. My favorite hairdresser, Asia, was there. We talked about vocational exams, work etc ... I came back home, I did some morawberry shopping for Grandpa, but everything was wrong. Bananas rotten, cookies not good and coffee too much. Today my mother pointed out to me that I should not drink any medications or drink juices, especially grapefruit juices. Fuck - who did she suddenly get this information from. Were they calling doctor Zarowski? At 12 I went to dr. Sebastianowicz at the Puls clinic. Being there, I was afraid not to meet Rita Jozwiakowska by accident. Unresolved cases always come back to us. As stressed as it is with my insurance. However, when I entered it turned out that the visits are private ... But I gave spots. I was not informed about it at all. So I came up with an idea to look for where Sebastian still accepts - from what I remember somewhere in Krakow. I left the clinic towards the hospital. On the way I bought pizzas in steskal near Fuss, and then a sandwich at the buffet in the hospital. Oh, it was cold. I went home, nothing interesting happened at home. Fortunately, I managed to avoid drugs all day. Now for the night as usual, I got really fed up. Homeopathy - especially destroys health. I remember 2 dreams: The first time I was at my grandfather's and I walked into the kitchen with my shoes on. I pledged to clean the kitchen. 2 with Dr. House. I felt dr. Wilson. Our block 13a was like a hospital. I dreamed that 2 girls came to me and wanted to complain about dr. House that what kind of doctor is this, since the advanced stage of cancer cannot distinguish from leukemia. I went to House. We injected each other into the patients with some poisons. I think my patient's head exploded - he shouted freezer / freezer. I was devastated to be ready to wire the House for counterfeit prescriptions. Finally, House says he doesn't know who he is, a dermatologist, a nephrologist (...) but he knows one thing - he'll do anything to fix the spine. December 14 - I Choose Darkness. The day did not differ much from the other days. In the morning I read the diary of August 2010 in my speed reading program. I read every 2 words. I spent a lot of time in bed. In the afternoon I had to train so I trained my stomach, chest and legs. At 4:00 PM I had an appointment channeling with Wioletta for today. We talked about it that by December 21, that is when the world entered this whole aquarius (I do not know what it is about, I do not know esoterics) we should decide whether we want to be bad or good. After listening to this at the beginning, I wanted to be angry. Wioletta contacted some Angel of joy. But when I heard this, I had this regret, I said to myself: I will not be doing any meditation technique. It sucks, it is stupid !!! HUJ WITH IT. I'll be licking like dr. House tramal, I'll get my good old talk back and eat people with my hate. Why do I need some fucking meditation! Before we channeled, I spoke with David about Christmas gifts for parents. Dad a little laptop and mom a new mobile phone. I'm not fucking doing anything! I have what is there, I have a place to live, I regain my health thanks to my herbs. I just want to get back my super earthly good talk !!! I hate people! Huj with Angels, channeling and esoteric. HUJ WITH THIS !!! Yesterday is written with a slight delay, therefore I will write it in a telegraph abbreviation: Great laziness all day long. I came out almost completely from a cold. For the day I lay there and did nothing I did one old visualization training exercise: namely I turned on the IPLA and watched everything without a picture visualizing the situations. I slept all day. I was doing nothing. I tried to read the angel's message, partly regretting what he was saying. Speaking of HUJ WITH IT I won't do it. Why do I need it! I went to sleep early. I did a modified vibration of the brain waves in a lying position - I nodded my head sideways, or rather turned it. It worked! I did the Rebrithing exercise for a long time, at least 15 minutes. Then I didn't want more. What I learned today: exercises to improve visualization, plus a Rebrithing exercise December 16 - death of my grandfather In the morning my grandfather died at 9:20. About 10 mum got a call. I was reading the Intelligence Training book. My task was to read the entire book in one day while my mother was dealing with matters related to the funeral with my father. I got to page 80, but that's still a pretty good result. I LEARNED E.G.: - Crossing the Rubukon: on the example of smoking weed with a simone. Something bad can happen, but even if it is secured in the future (NP: NAC, a lot of water, hunger, lemon water) and it will pass just like then at Wojtas's party. - "It is impossible" - Great people have been told various things, especially by doctors after serious accidents, and it is impossible that they can only dream of returning to their professional careers. And what. They made it and they start in the Tour De France. One bled almost to death, the other had a testicular tumor with brain and lung metastases. They are both at the top of the Tour De France, the world's most exciting cycling race. - Dividing the sheet into 2 parts, writing the problem at the top. Listing the aspects which we have no influence and on the right which we can influence. Reading a book to the rhythm of Krakow radio music. I start to read books in an ordinary way, and at first a photographic one according to Kasia Szafranowska's kusu What I learned today: I learned some interesting things from the book: Intelligence Training. A dream about wisdom teeth - and they somehow round the face. December 17 - ProfessionBargie� The morning started a little later than usual, a little before 7:00. I had an appointment with Lukasz Lopata at 8:00 am under the cover I came 8:10 he was moments later. He brought my books and then we talked about his books. I lied a little about reading his book. I haven't really read it to the end, haven't made 2-page notes of it yet. I felt stupid with that. He followed me a bit further to the cemetery. Then I went to Rafal Pawlik. I found out today, among others, that Lukasz Jarosz was once a bandit and a scam. Maybe that's why she doesn't like him so much. Rafal asked again why I am coming here, what is the purpose. I decided that a man in his life must help himself, you can only guide me to certain things. I just want to talk about some issues, get support, understanding, etc. We also talked a little more about martial arts. I went home. Here my laziness in bed began again. At 12 o'clock I ate some cannabis guiltily and I would get fat again, but on the other hand - HOMEOPATHY. Today I didn't even want to read any book. Absolutely nothing. At 3:30 p.m. I had an appointment with dr. Bargie�. However, fate wanted me to meet Dr. Prochyre with a wife. GOD, WHAT A SHAME !!! I think he saw me. GOD, WHAT A SHAME !!! On the other hand, what was he doing there wondering? Was he at Donata's or an orthodontist? Maybe his spouse has some mental problems. Who knows... Earlier I checked with Arletta how the interview with Donata Bargiel would go. Just like she wrote to me. Donata will seem that the treatment is going well and is satisfied with it. Maybe it was so in this case. She inquired about the spine, symptoms, herbs, studies, and how she could help. Oh - she reduced my medications. I was very happy about it :) I went home - to sleep again. My hip ache came back a little while I was walking for so long. At home, I impulse upon Mirrel's Aura cleansing service or something. Maybe it will help me, maybe not. I have already got meditation to do by myself, but it is so difficult and there is no chance that I would do something like that on my own. HUJ WITH THIS LIFE !!!! Today's dreams: Reabiling a graphics card in my laptop, a dream with Pania chicken and Tomek Bereznicki in room 29. December 18 - ChoreLazeNext Huge laziness continues all day long A moment ago I watched a video by Maria Bucardi what will happen during the famous December 21st. Some kind of energy transformation is to take place - some people will gain psychic abilities and those who already have them will be deepened. I decided to take DXM with White Grapefruit Juice today. Today I stuffed myself terribly with food and sweets. My stomach hurt. I had nothing to do, I ate on December 19 - After DXM In the morning I was taking DXM, I had no visions, but when I woke up I felt complete peace and self-control. I knew what to do: vomit the rest of the substance to remove the toxins, drink plenty of water, breathe and woke up. In the morning I was kind of enlightened. I felt and imagined situations like Dr. The Lord will heal me. I felt it healing people. Again, full of thoughts and imaginations. Like in the past :) I only missed my Ripost cuts, but it was still pretty good. Throughout the day: still sick laziness :) I had a dream now when I fell asleep how we made 7-person prisons from our basement. Lots of dreams in the morning: including: being in Rabkoland and being aware of it. Going up with his uncle (the owner of Rabkoland) where he showed "boats" flowing on the pond / lake. At the same time, I was listening to the HemiSync induction for lucid dream December 20 - Before Earth Transformation Huge laziness again. I stuffed myself with sweetness out of self-hatred and I don't feel like anything, nothing works out for me. I met Bogdan Schmidt in Malgosia. He was the first to say hello to me. Mom. Dad and Dawid went to Grandpa's funeral. I spent almost the whole day alone at home. Again, I watched the world by poor people without a picture, practicing my imaginations. Kaja wrote to me today. After a short text message exchange, I suggested to her that she should arrange a disability group and at the same time gain some money. I was proud of myself that I could help her. I hope that today before the transformation of the earth I will be persistent and I will manage to do the whole Rebrithing ... End of the world fast, Rebrithing for the night, Aunt Krysia, baking soda. zafu, hemi sync meditation December 21 - End of the World Yesterday was written with a slight delay. Aunt Krysia visited us yesterday. A package with baking soda from Auntie came also. I checked its health properties on the Internet. Wow something beautiful! A miracle cure for mycoses, cancer, kidney ... Everything. But since it heals the last stage of the disease, it should heal the earlier stages as well. I was terribly irritated when my mother brought the drugs to my room. But I was pissed off - with Aunt Krysia. Then, as the future said, don't worry about Krystian. My mom felt as if she was talking. I hate you fucking motherfuckers !!! You fucking bitch !!! Besides, on the Allegro I bought a zafu pillow for meditation. I also meditated with Hemi Sync in the diamond position. Thoughts slowed down, the mind was silent moments after this meditation. I was in town with David in Malgosia, I met under the pretext of looking for a present for my dad. I'm not really going to buy a gift for an asshole that is like a pain in my ass and stuffed me with psychotropics for x years! FUCKING HOOK! I was in a sweet shop to buy ice cream. I spent as much as 12.50 on ice cream alone. Besides, I bought 4 cabbage rolls today, freckles in Malgosia. I stuffed myself with sweets. Supposedly at this end of the world or the transformation of the earth I shouldn't do it, but fuck with it. He just wants to regain his normal happy life and health. I don't give a shit about some kind of earth transformation !!! HUJ WITH IT ALL! Oh, I wrote 2 entries on my blog. One about starvation at the request of Łukasz Lopata. The second one today in the morning about hydrotherapy I have 8 minutes to make it before the end ... of the day :) Today I woke up early in the morning. I wrote entries on my blog. It was a real pleasure for me. For the day I was lazy, I helped my mother with something, I cleaned something up there David and I were wearing a Christmas tree. The event of the day. In the evening I helped the users on the CPN forum. By inserting my link in perfect health, I had a really good number of views. Huge, ie 15 more than normal. I also played a little bit in positioning. What I learned today: It is great to help others. Sleep: I dreamed that I am a kickboxing trainer in a psychiatry in Wrocław December 23 Help CPN Users 2 I was mostly at home during the day. Practically at home. I was still moderating my blog. I wrote about the buhner protocol and field horsetail, which will appear on December 24th. I positioned my blog a bit, giving links to borelia.pl, and the zarabiam.com forum I also tested the Kundalini meditations one more time. Now my health is good and I am able to do this meditation without any problems. I met some forum users who were interested in switching to buhner protocol. I registered on the forum kleszcz.edu.pl to gain even more people who would like to visit my website. Sleep with a worry in front of my block. I was coming home, and she was just leaving building 11a. We started talking and I woke up. December 24 - Christmas Eve Ah, these holidays. I hate the world and this family atmosphere. This pretending and making wishes. Today I was still working on my blog. I changed the background, I set the transparency. I also wanted to block the middle mouse button in order to make users click on ads more often. Unfortunately, this procedure did not work for me ... Blogger does not seem to accept javascript code in the dynamic view of the website. I just read about making money on Facebook using SocialShare Fan Page. I set up an account on AdTaily.pl, but I set a cosmic rate for ads: 7.90 / day. Today I shuffled to the rhythm of dynamic music. THIS made me deal with the mess quickly. Gnyla accosted me today. She was afraid of some thugs who allegedly beat her once ... Today I had the power to work on my blog, but I am impatient and there are no effects in the positioning of the site and the only views come from chlamydiosis. However, I do not have google completely and my linking in the form of comments to blogs is not displayed in google ... 25 December - I am God ... young god Luc young god. Affirmation: I am a young god! The day started at 7:40 am when the alarm clock woke me up. I quickly put on my panties to hide there and get rid of the psychotropic drugs that my own family uses. A little more and he will learn ways and techniques not to take them at all. It worked flawlessly. Mom got up at 9:00. She was surprised that I took the medication, she was clinging to the fact that the water in the kettle was cold, but it was not so bad. I will add that the morning I was terribly sleepy. I finally went to sleep at 4:00 in the morning doing my service. And my position on the slogan of perfect health fell from 37th to 6th place. Today I was able to buy the domain niezapalezdrowie24.pl 2 times did not arrive SMS with the confirmation code mbank, only the third time after a few hours it came. I have configured everything as it should so that it works for a pure domain and from www. I was also with Laki on a walk around Rabka. I chose the unknown and walked across the park, the river, the old new world and through the streets I came back with it. I was a bit embarrassed and the lacquer pissed somewhere. What do people think. God, I started to really worry about what people think about me. Fuck me ... At least I was proud of myself and I chose the unknown. Today I wrote to krzycha666. I wanted to invite him to my fanbook, but it turned out that he himself deals with unconventional medicine, esotericism and helps people. We exchanged a few sentences with each other. I was especially interested in liliotherapy - stone therapy, and clavitherapy / reflexotherapy - it is regeneration based on reflexes. Probably quite similar to those used by the Bonifraters. I also gave the silent my speed reading program. He is now writing this diary to the beat of new music: Nightwish Imaginaerum Album HD. I thought it was Within Temptation, and this is the good old Nightwish I listened to when I was a teenager. In this way, as I have emphasized many times, the diary is much more pleasant to write. I read Maria Bucardi's recap video after December 21st. She wrote that she sensed a lot of Evil that day. It was determined by the struggle between good and evil. She stated that there is a time of change - there is a lot of bad things in the world that each of us can do. I read a little about psychotronika.org in Krakow. I like this school more and more. There is a list of teachers listed on the website as if the headmaster of this school wanted to emphasize how outstanding people are at his disposal. Hogward of Harry Potter as I came across in one of the articles. There is a library with numerous publications and books. You can gain several professions at the same time. Of course, I can't say a word to my parents that I'm studying at this school. http://www.adsblog.pl/installc-udostepniaj-platne-pliki-na-blogu/ I found this InstallC site where you can earn money on your own private proprietary programs. And the event of the Day. I am God ... a young god. This affirmation is now developed after Luc wrote me a link from his blog. At first I was slightly intrigued and he reworked my motto a bit, but then I thought - the more you give, the more you get - right? He wrote 3 posts, but they were brilliantly described - you could feel that he was actually writing them by the god himself. I don't think even an angel while channeling wrote to me in such a powerful language. Enjoy powerful health and attractive appearance. Now, as I psychoanalyze my website and the offer is intended as if for grandparents - he created an advertising motto aimed at people who want to become young gods, at young and old people. I like it very much. I also tested Binaural on the phone of some dose mental activity while on a walk around Rabka where I chose the unknown again and went along the Malgosia, then Pilsudski and on May 1st returning home. I don't know if I felt anything - probably nothing at all. I had a lot of sweets and cake today, especially for the night. I felt as if I felt guilty for having stuffed myself so massively. However, this is what I have to do for 6 more days during my candy-eating period. I wonder what will happen next, if it will be difficult for me to wean it off like in the case of Affirmation and Prayer for which I have been hard to do recently. What I learned today: write to the beat, you can write a lot in your diary. You can feel that despite the meaninglessness of life and the low sense of value in which there is now something beautiful in my life. And I felt the desire to become God. Young god !!! Today's dreams: something with chic and holidays. Szymek left for his father. I also had some mashed potatoes. I saw a list somewhere where you could mention, among others, medications related to stimulating the kundalini energy December 26 - I am God, a young god2 Compared to yesterday, today probably not so much happened. I woke up a few minutes before 8, but my mother brought me medication. Unfortunately, I swallowed them. I listened to the song of Nightwish throughout the day In the evening I went for a walk with Laki. He was walking very slowly. Old man - as grandfather said. I didn't do anything today. Luc wrote a new article about exercise, but I already knew most of it. I am thinking: when would I feel God? Then when I could fight and fight well. Have the power to destroy, have the ability esoterically. Unfortunately, I do not have such abilities, so how am I supposed to be a god. It's a kind of self-deception, but that's what affirmations are all about. Telling yourself all sorts of things. Oh, last night I had a little alcohol. I noticed that after drinking alcohol I breathe much better with Rebrithing. I bought an African dream root for a magical garden hoping to reach land. In addition, I became interested in Hemi Sync - I downloaded a few that could be about lucid dreams. One that I want to test is chakra cleansing. FROM THE LAST MOMENT NEXT DAY: Okay 22 I have been doing Kundalini OSHO meditations. A little bit modified, because instead of an earthquake I was doing vibromassage. After 30 minutes, I sat down on the vibrating armchair. The body itself adjusted the correct posture for meditation. There were moments of silence in this position, and when there were thoughts I was just thinking. It takes 7 weeks to practice. I was doing meditation to the rhythm of nightwish music. This meditation gave me such energy and I couldn't fall asleep and was programming the speed reading presenter. December 27 - We're going to get the herb It is puzzling that only after 2 years of diary I came up with the idea to sign the title Ryszard G�sierkiewicz - Alpha waves, music - today I read this article on how to become a genius on the website of my future school. I learned that in these waves the mind absorbs knowledge better. Ryszard Gasierkiewycz recommended classical music like Bethoven, but I will use Hemi sync for this purpose. I helped Krystian from CPN forum about herbs, healthy lifestyle, his back problems, etc. Today I changed the skin on my website, and moreover, I started a new blog - portable24.pl We smoked a herb with the ark, we were drinking beer in Slodka. Today I also talked to Marcin in kefirk, arek talked with this crazy friend called damian or kuba. We were at his house in a dormitory - we repaired his computers. On my way home I had a stomach ache. Maybe from the smoking of the herb. Arek used weeds from the ground to light him up. Of course, I was afraid that we would ignite some bacteria: D Maybe that's why. Communicating with my body, I kept calm, I drank multivitamine juice bought in a stescal, at home still a nettle. Unfortunately, I took tegretol, I was afraid that the poisons would not mix, but somehow I only live a little, as if dull. Oh, earlier in the afternoon I met Lukasz Lopata. Today he was carrying out another medical starvation. He showed me the In flow up technique - gaining the euphoria of the whole body. It is about moving everyone, specific performance of different exercises What I learned today: Gasierkiewicz alfa we learn better. Lukasz - in flow up. Communication with the body with abdominal pain December 28 - again laziness That day I started training. It was hard to break with the unhealthy lifestyle. The training went so-so, it was finally the first time. I've read OSHO on my show. according to him, first catharsis. Dynamic meditations, then passive meditations. That is the emphasis. If you throw out all the clouds, then you can immerse yourself in the silence. Reading was much nicer with the modified version of the program. I understood much more. In the evening, Mateusz Miskowiec asked me if I would like to buy a gym. I refused to give any reason. I did it great, thanks to that I missed unnecessary excuses. I found out that he will be married in 3 weeks. Please, I'm older than him and I don't have a girlfriend yet ... In the evening, a few hours before falling asleep, I was listening to the radio of Krakow in my bed. Nice music to listen to. Then I did the second part of the evening training again. I really didn't want to, but somehow I got over it. He wrote to me from finalstan@o2.pl about meditation. very smart man! December 29 - I forgot to write down the report I don't remember much yesterday. I suppose nothing special happened. I forgot to write down the report, unfortunately ... December 30 - before New Year's Eve. Today I positioned a bit of my blog. I have improved the HTML code to a large extent, which has improved readability for search engines. Thanks to this, my position in individual words has increased significantly. on the slogan "glodowka healing breathing exercises" there is a link to breathing exercises thanks to which it stood in the 6th place. Maybe if I put a link in the place of the breathing exercises: see also the healing starch, my position would also increase. Today I talked with Szymek before New Year's Eve about my plans. Marta visited me at 12:30. I wanted to sleep exceptionally during our conversation. Later I met her while still in the park while I was still at school. For several days I have been all in soreness after training Blog: 34 ways to link: http://www.lexy.com.pl/blog/pomysly-na-linki Wordpress.net.pl blogs catalogs Sitemap for blogger /rss.xml << GREAT! validator.w3.org << checking for errors perfectalezdrowie24.pl December 31 - New Year's Eve The last day of the year today. How have you gone? I didn't do anything, I didn't achieve anything, I didn't learn meditation or healing. I am useless. 2 years ago I felt like a god, and this year I feel like nobody. It must have all started since I was hospitalized in Wroclawska Street. Today I met a maw. He was rummaging around my teeth again. Finally, I showed him my broken semen from Tomek G��b, which I left with him by accident. I have enough of this rummaging around my teeth. I don't know how to solve this problem. However, I was giving affirmations back then: I feel better and better every day in every respect. This self-suggestion somehow made me feel stronger. I've been working a bit on my blog today. I found out some interesting things which I wrote above. I bought a course with a list of strong catalogs for PLN 27. David paid me the money. New Year's Eve - like a special day and I suppressed my feelings. How could I survive it in a unique way? Maybe take the Tramal ?? Maybe I will finally get meditation? To merge with a higher self?

Valerian Test

January 21 - Valerian's Test I got up very early. About 3:00 in the morning. However, I did not practice lucid dreaming, although I was full of energy and will to live. I started my mind and physical training which I called after yesterday's movie: "Undisputed Training". I have done my mind training brilliantly. Mind training included: Ball jiggling, tetris, brain challenge, diary, Adam Bytof's Exercises, describing and inventing applications. I was proud of myself and got up so early and went back to training my mind. The morning training went very well. I held on to the number 13 repetitions again. A day at home. I paid the bills to Szym PLN 300 for the apartment. I also downloaded a new movie for him. Exactly - I lent chick a PenDrive For tomorrow I have an appointment with Marta at 18:00 and with Urologist and Rafal Pawlik at 8:30. I am so full of energy right now and my mother has a terrible desire to run. But I have to hold on until the morning. OK 16, I trained my legs and stomach. Today I looked for something about lucid dreaming aids. I found about valerian drops. Wanting to test 150 drops overnight. Amazing how a bottle for 2 PLN can do wonders. I spoke with Kaja a moment ago. She asked me for help to get her photo page up and running. I read a book today about running - but it was terrible. In addition, I only read one book. I had an appointment with Łukasz for 4:00 pm, but he didn't come. I was also 10 minutes late myself, but I didn't wait long for him. I did not feel like it. I have a problem with my phone. I am not getting any messages even though I have freed up some space in my memory. I don't know what to do with it. Anyway, it's all not important. Today we test valerian! :) PS Today I installed a new application for running on android. It uses the GPS module.

Undisputed

January 20 Undisputed The morning is very early. Between 1 and 2 I woke up well rested. However, I had nothing to do so I slept in bed. I didn't want to practice lucid dreaming. Huj with meditation, as I wrote in the previous post, huj with everything I woke up in the morning, or rather in the morning I woke up. With reluctance, I went for a run - I didn't want to. I think I met my stepfather, Łukasz Lopata. They were looking for the Hague dog. Unfortunately I couldn't help. Through the day, laziness again. In the afternoon I downloaded the movie Undisputed 2 and 3. I recorded for him. When I started watching I moved to another world. Again I wanted to fight, learn martial arts, meditate, exercise, develop. Bojka seemed to be speechless in this film. I know what I feel - I feel exactly the same now. Bored of it all. I can not come up with any sharp retort, although it was different at Marta's party. In the evening I went for a run again. I read today also a little courage and the joy of a dangerous life. I would like to finish reading because tomorrow I would like to lend this book to Łukasz.

HujZMeditation

January 19 - Huj z Meditation! Morning around 3-4 in the morning. However, I have not recorded sleep, nor have I practiced lucid dreaming or meditation. I just blogged and I lay in bed pleasantly. Yesterday, I went to sleep as if in undiluted nervous tension. Anger, hatred, I want revenge and I feel sorry for myself and the angels and nothing comes out of me at all. During the day I slept, in the morning I ran for something, but as much as nothing. In the evening I did yesterday's overdue leg training. I haven't been doing anything today, I haven't even read 2 books a day. I don't give a shit about everything. I made an appointment with Wioletta, or rather transferred her PLN 120 for channeling. I made an appointment with Marta and Arek for something good on Tuesday. Szymek downloaded two movies: Death Run and Mr. and Mrs. Smith. By the way, I will have to bring them to him in a moment.

PLN 150Poszlo

January 18 - PLN 150 I woke up quite early in the morning 3-4 am. Again full of hatred, regret and anger towards himself and towards his father. What I did? Something on the computer. I tried a bit of a lucid dream recording with a focus on failure. Somehow at 8:00 my mother came. She pressed my medications, brought them to my room. And that's a whore !!! my heart beat harder and I had to swallow it. I quickly took 2 tbl of NAC to neutralize the effect. I went to unload my anger, fear and hatred by practicing. On the one hand, I didn't feel like it, but hatred gave me strength! Somehow, when I got home, I went to lie down for a while. When I got up I was quite sleepy and dull. Was it the fault of a short nap or psychotropic drugs? And so I lived almost all day. At 12 o'clock I was scheduled to channel with Elen, although to tell the truth I was disappointed. I spent PLN 150 for a chat and I got methods that I know won't work on me. Again some fucking meditations, visualizations etc ... FUCK. I lost PLN 150. I wanted to choose unknown, I could choose Wiolette. Now I have a dilemma whether to make an appointment with Wioletta, because it will be an expense of PLN 150 again. Well, but I will at least write what I found out. According to her numerology, I have to work on 3 things in life: 1) Low self-esteem - I have to regain my own worth 2) Drug against changes and losses 3) Working with finances Moreover, during meditation, say the words: I am consciousness of the Buddha, Christ, the Universe, the All-Existence. And what a FUCK IS SUCH A FUCK for? I also got my own channeling technique which I won't use anyway: - take a pen and paper - Say: I am asking you, Angel, for a message for me - 3 breaths, write on the 3rd exhalation. And I guess that's fucking it. I slept the day. What I learned today: I got to know something new and it's better to go back to my previous fairy.

Get to yourself

January 17 - Feel to yourself I did not write down today's dreams. I did not feel like it. I do not remember a stay 4:00 or 5:00 either. I sat a bit at the pc, doing pseudo meditation. I felt enormous pity for myself and nothing was working out for me, and a bloody hatred for my father. I went for a run around 7:00 am. I also unloaded nervous tension on the back of the track. I didn't run for a long time, I didn't want to. Oh, before I went for a run I was looking for information on channeling again. I have found a new fairy who also has this skill. I made an appointment with her tomorrow at 12:00 I was at the bank twice today. Pay yourself 400 zlotys once, and then 150 zlotys for this fairy for tomorrow's channeling conversation. I was going to transfer from my account to her account afterwards, but I was in such a hurry and impulsively went to make a second separate transfer to her account. By depriving me of almost all the pension I received today. The nonsense of living today. I still think about my father and want revenge on him. Fucking fuck. Mirriel completed a certain soul-healing questionnaire. And so I lived almost all day hating my father. Several times I read 3 different channelings about me. As if I would like to feel this pity for myself or for the angels in heaven. WHORE!!! I don't know how to pick out of this whole situation. I was asking myself what I FUCK TO DO! And I told myself one thing: I don't want any fucking love, I want power, revenge and hate. I wish to take revenge on my father! And for that it needs a lot of power! For that I need meditation, martial arts - only if I'm fucking meditating. Angels there in heaven, call the FUCKER if you said that I am so important to the future! I felt so special when I talked to you, and now where have you gone?

Klotniaz Mom

Dreams: 2 days ago I had a dream with my hips. I woke up with two legs. I realize it was a kind of warning Today: I talked to my mom about a hoodie I got lost. January 16 - Klotnia with mama I woke up between 4:00 and 5:00 am Full of hatred for my father. I couldn't control the hate that was inside me, I felt anger spread through my blood. I had to unload it, that's why I went to exercise early because at 6:00 am. By the way, I did something new. When my mother was leaving, she scared me a bit when I was in the hall and I turned on the light. during training I missed the push-ups on the bars. After training, I got tired of it. The training was fun because I finished practicing at 8:00 in the morning. Maybe I'll start training early. However, the downside to such training is that you cannot practice lucid sleep. Being at home, my mother pissed at me for water in the bottom cupboard. She was looking for a bomb envelope. It's good that she did not notice antibiotics or, worse - drugs in coffee :) I boiled, but I was able to withstand this stress. Then I unloaded it when mom went hitting the pillow and calmed down. I also tried sleeping on my stomach. This position is great for discharging minor nervous tensions. Being on my stomach, I listened to 2x Adam Bytof's LD induction, which made me sleepy a bit and regained my strength. Mom went to the funeral of Ms. Beatka's husband today. At that time, I read the book Take care of your spine. I did not prescribe exercises, the book was general about back pain. I ate dinner, my mother, when she returned, asked what so little. In the evening I ate a cup of coffee. I did it mainly for a show to my mother. Mom encouraged me to eat chocolate. Then I had a grudge and I felt sorry for myself, in addition I ate it with a meal, and I strive to eat light and live without food. Dawid and dad came back from Germany today. David bought himself a car. I guess that's it. Today I dealt with my father hatred and the stress after arguing with my mother. I am really resistant to stress compared to what used to be. I can turn this negative energy into something positive. I spoke to Mirrel today. She did not agree to the screenings so that Donata Bargiel would arrange my apartment for free. I was about to quit her services. I kind of wanted to hurt myself. She wrote me back quickly today. However, we agreed that he would bring me purification of my soul so that I could live on my own and in what way I would get an apartment, it will be my only business. What I learned today: deal with stress.

I feel the tip

January 15 - I feel like a tip I woke up today at 3:00 am fully rested. I slept exceptionally by one window to keep it warm. I woke up and went back to bed. I played the recording of Adam Bytof and the recording of the gaze.net cos ala hemisync. I fell asleep, although I did not have a lucid dream. I fell asleep again, fell asleep. I woke up around 6-7. But I got up after 7. At eight o'clock, I accidentally swallowed one ablify tablet. Whore!!! I took NAC quickly to neutralize the effects of the drugs. I went for a run and then I wanted to go to the institute to do blood tests, but I forgot my urine. I went home to get the container and pee. I also added creatine - quite a lot for such an amount. I took it to the institute, took my blood and rushed to Rafal the Pawlik. Earlier I called him and I will be a little late, which is practically 30 minutes. I praised Rafał about yesterday's success and went to Kalemba. He congratulated me. We talked about fear, about the fact that he feels insecure everywhere - he says and he also feels insecure when he goes into a new area, especially where there were some thugs. Running back home, I ate 3 slices for breakfast. After reading the book, I swore to myself whether it is possible to live without eating, and I will also acquire such an ability. At home, I started reading the book I take care of the spine. Unfortunately, I did not fulfill my resolution. Somewhere, it is subconsciously stuck in me and it is a book and I will not be able to read it ... I have read a half of this book. I learned how important the feet are in the spine posture. At 4pm I went to Dr. Kalemba's. I brought him the test results. He prescribed me a referral for rehabilitation. He also asked discreetly if I was under psychiatric care. I answered politely like some pussy: yes, here at the donut bargiel. He asked if I was taking any medications, I replied with ablifa and tegretol. And I felt like going out like a fist, I was sad. I still had to stamp the registration. I was sad coming home. I had to relieve my stress somehow. But I held up quite a lot of sadness. It was beautiful how I adapted to this situation. I went to the park to laze on the lane closer to the river and do the WFM ala Yoga exercise to relieve the tension in my chest. Relief, but the sadness remains. Then I went to breathe too. It was nice to breathe. And so until 18 I was angry with my father, with myself. Life's nonsense again. At home, I ate 2 bananas for dinner, drank carrots and ate potatoes. I had an appointment with Adrian on the 19th for hypnosis. However, I transferred it to 20. I felt a tension with regret, I had to go to bed and lie on my stomach. This position is a good way to relieve the tension in the body. At 8 p.m. we started hypnosis. Oh, for lunch, I swallowed tegretol especially because I was afraid that my mother would catch me in the eye. But my mother used to tan her teeth for dinner, this time I managed to smuggle some drugs. The trance with adrian lasted 10 minutes. 30 minutes of photographic reading coaching that I conducted for him. We used a cool affirmation as the target: "He knows Bruce Lee's fighting methods." We have used a similar affirmation to program today's lucid dream. Lotto draw today. I am still waiting for the results to add this event to my diary. Heh, not a single number has fallen :(

I conquered the fear

January 14 - I Defeated Fear Dream: I was dreaming about Japanese knotweed. I had a drink on Liszka and Jurek Wolf. Jurek shouted: you are sitting, you will dig the mucus ... Should I return to the Rdest? That day I woke up at 3:00 a.m. well rested. Maybe it is the effect of using the recordings of the synchronization of the cerebral fields. I got up, wrote down the dream and did the wake up, a little longer than 15 minutes, over 20. I was playing tetris nicely then. I went back to sleep playing the recording of the synchronization of the cerebral fields. Unfortunately, I did not fall asleep for a minute. I think I slept so well the night that I felt no need for more sleep. Unfortunately, I also felt the cold - but it is probably worth closing the window and revealing the towel to make it warmer in the room. But I'm glad that at least I started :) 8:00 training, I exercised exceptionally without water and a thermos. David took him to Germany yesterday. I felt a little stress related to today's visit to Kalemba, which was partially unloaded during the exercises. I came home, I made a mistake, ate - it was probably 10:30 then and it was 11:00 a.m. which made my stress a bit worse. When I left the house - loads of cortisol in my blood - stress. I'm going to kalemba, stress like hell. Cortisol or adrenaline, anyway paralyzing stress. And then this: I started RUNNING! While running, I was breathing deeply - which relieved the stress perfectly. When I got to the clinic, I was a few minutes before 11:00 Kalemba called me, I was only a little afraid. I entered as some scared Pussy, but I did not let it know after myself. I had my cynical smirks on me, but I couldn't summon the courage to talk to Dr. Kalemba. Today I was thinking about taking a tram, but somehow I managed without it. Kalemba was a bit stuck that he didn't have to write me out. I have to convince him that it hurts me. He ordered an EKG and some blood tests. He also ordered photos to be delivered. As if I should be up. He was at fault, and I was afraid ... In any case, when I left I felt great satisfaction and it worked :) I summoned up my courage. I went to the hospital to get an EKG, I was in the blood collection center, an old lady patient hacked me downstairs in the hospital. There I talked to some doctor, he directed me to the door with the trauma. I knocked - I broke my fear again and was proud of myself. Nobody opened it, so I went to Ziemianski. At Ziemianski, I was told that the cost is PLN 20 and I do not respect the clinic. Back to the clinic. I missed dr. Gabis, but I was afraid to meet him, so I avoided him. I asked the Lady again in the window where the EKG is. This time I was explaining to myself: after all, for her it is a daily job to listen to the moans and complaints of patients. They are already bored with it and used to it. I also just observed how the patients communicate with the staff. They tell long, complicated stories - and here they would like to hear something briefly and to the point. I missed a certain blonde lady, although I should be alone, but I had no regret or grudge against her. Well, maybe 1% was stuck there somewhere, but at least I heard her communicating with the staff. It was my turn, the Lady referred me to office number 3, where blood is also collected. There was one guy in front of me and it was finally my turn. The examination was quick: in the position of the electrode to the legs, and the cancer, and something to the heart. Then she measured my pressure. It came out 150. So I wonder why Kalemba ordered me a rather expensive EKG test. Maybe he has suspicions that the spine may radiate to my heart, or he wants to check my performance. Or maybe it is required for a spa treatment? Who knows... I left, I was already walking towards the house, when it reminded me that I still need to register for tomorrow. I did so too. I was a bit stupid again, I was scared, because in the EKG I told you that I was registered tomorrow. But again I said to myself: conquer your fear. I did great and I was proud of myself again :) I went, I had a great desire to run again. Oh, I will add that being in the clinic I was very relaxed. I think it was thanks to this run before - I unloaded my nervous tensions. I was running in the park, I reached the pharmacy under the carefour, but there was a terrible queue. Before I ran there, however, I was running along the river. The weather was beautiful. There were two dogs, one on a leash and one behind the fence. And again with pride I overcame my fear and ran with them :) Then I ran to my father's trusted pharmacy and bought a urine container there. I was also in this petty store wanting to buy a calendar and a glass of scented lamps. I met Rafal Pawlik's wife with children. There was no calendar, so I went to Manhattan to the traffic kiosk and there I bought a calendar with flowers for 9 PLN. Earlier, I also asked about the calendar in Photographic, they said that they can print from the photos. He cost as much as PLN 47, but I did not have the courage to say that it was a bit too much for me. I was stupid and I like it - although I did like these calendars, I did not take the courage to buy it anymore. I was also at the cemetery. I bought candles. They had a red plastic shell that could also be used for scented lamps. Uncle Kazek and Sebastian were at the house to visit. Sebastian said that he was finally gaining weight, uncle Kazek talked about his hard life when he was making some extra money. As a young kid, he rode his bike to the seaside. Hahaha: D We made an appointment to go cross-country skiing on Sunday. I do not know if I was assertive, on the one hand I wanted to do something new, on the other hand I am a bit worried about my joints and feet. I ate dinner with soup. Feeling guilty and ate so much ... My stomach felt it. Then I was on the 15th day to make an appointment with Łukasz. I needed an XP disc. It's terrible to go there, I didn't want to, but I made a commitment. I wanted to go fast, he shared his views on food and exercise. He motivated me to talk about some guy who used InTuFlow to rehabilitate the spine and straighten it. Maybe now I start spending some time watching this video on youtube. I went home, exercised my legs and stomach. I wanted to read, but I practiced. The time flew by when I finished, because it was between 17-18. I remembered that I still have to send a lottery coupon, I went to Wick, but this time calmly and did not listen to the music. I moved slowly - I was after training. I went to Manhattan, there I hesitated to enter the casino - I overcame my fear again and went in. It wasn't that bad, the guy referred me to carefour. There, I still kept the lottery ticket and returned home. It was terribly cold in the field. I tested meditations, or rather a self-hypnotic recording of Adam Boduf. It made me sleepy. I also watched the fight vegeta vs goku first time kamehameha. This music made me drive, it gave me adrenaline. I'm too tired after today, so I'm going to wash up and sleep right away. I will test the recordings in bed, learning to meditate again. What I learned today: I overcame my fear!

Predicting the Future

January 13 - Predicting the future Morning 5:00 AM. For that night, I tested the recording of 4 hours of sleep in 40 minutes. I woke up at 5 rest, but whether this is the intended effect that this recording was supposed to give me - it's hard to say. However, the tape is very pleasant to listen to. Morning jogging, then sit in front of the PC and read books. I tested Adam Bytof's exercise to stimulate the right cerebral hemisphere. It consisted in describing as many uses of a given item as possible. I chose Notebook as my subject. I have described 50-60 different and interesting applications: D. Today I read the dreams of winners and the art of getting rich. At 7 pm I was hypnotizing adrian. I released future prediction inductions. I installed him a program to predict the future. There were pictures. The numbers are 6, 14, 12, 18, 23, 2. I wonder if it will work: D To make sure it works, we have predicted the future of today 22:05 what the TV program will be. He said that a bit as if it were correct and it was a great success!

Radical Affirmations

January 12 - Radical Affirmations Yesterday was written with a delay. I got up late, at 6:00 am. 8:00 I went to exercise. Somehow it was during this period that I had the idea to write an Affirmation. I did this in my old red notebook. They are beautiful, they turn me on and I like them very much. eg: I love my spine. It is straightened by my stubbornness and strength of determination Or: I live for free in my lovely 30-45m2 apartment from Donata Bargie�. I read only one book that day: Radical Forgiveness and I exercised half of Adam Bytof's books - The Winning Dreams. The problem was caused by removing the password from this file. Some program was successful, but it's a trial version and unfortunately I had access to the first 50 pages and that's all I read. In winning dreams, 3 exercises to stimulate the right hemisphere of the brain were interesting for me. In addition, I downloaded 2 recordings from the store: one is 4 hours of sleep in 40 minutes, the other is to achieve the oobe state. I began to test the Rzhen-Chen alone as a remedy for my disease. I had a hypnosis appointment with Adrian Green at 8 pm. Earlier he admitted to me around 12:00 and he feels unloved and has complexes about his own personality. I thought that day quickly, even lightning fast to the floor. In the evening, my mother cried that Mrs. Beatka's husband had died. I tested the first one that night with the African dream root. I woke up well rested at 5:00 am, but is this what I expected? The video is highly praised as opposed to the recording of the oobe achievements. Today I had a dream with Patryk Kocaj, we talked about the gym What I learned today: exercises to stimulate the right cerebral hemispheres.

Meditation Test

January 11 - Meditation Test Yesterday was written with a delay. Wake up at 3:00, read books. Around 6:00 am I went for a run. It was dark and cold, I was a little scared, but the music from the Krakow radio gave me courage and encouragement. She was perfect for this climate. I was running in this square between the post office and the monument to the paper. In the afternoon, between 12-14, I slept, or rather lay on my stomach in such lethargy. Probably not enough sleep. The position was perfect, although I didn't sleep, I regenerated my strength a little. On the negative side, however, I made a hole in the mattress and my lumbar spine feels a bit like this after tonight. I lowered the laptop table one step. Better to read, the position is more comfortable for the spine, even now when I'm standing and writing it's pretty cool. I did something new, I met a new slaughter. I read the Phoenix Rebirth yesterday, 52 effective psycho tips, and started reading radical forgiveness. Somewhere in my subconscious I set myself a goal to learn and read at least 3 interesting books a day. An ambitious goal, although if I had set a smaller goal - 2 books a day - it would have been more realistic. I will try to say: I read two books a day! About 17 I tested meditations from Angel Elavi. Running and exercising released my tensions in my muscles and mind. It worked like active meditation. Osho argued that active meditation is like adjusting the strings of an instrument to make it sound better. I fully agree with him! I was at peace, breathing finally became silent. I wrote down how I achieved it: - Well dressed and nicely dressed - Youtube Relax Music (meditation is boring without music) - Fragrance lamp - Low seat - Stuck in motionless CSS (previously useful running) - Diaphragm breathing a few minutes - Third Eye I tested the root of dreams for the night. I brewed it, but I haven't seen it melt unfortunately. I ate it too. Whether it worked - I don't know. Today I'll try to eat it without brewing it. Dreams I had were: driving a car with Szymek and Dawid. Szymon had some troubles and was about to be transferred to another prison and wanted to stay with his prison. I told him he had a powerful weapon, and that was Meditation! I will meditate to stay with my prison. I also made some affirmations in my mind, unless: Brother, you feel insecure. It was like a signal to me: not true, I will show him that I can meditate. Hehe. And I felt incredible self-confidence in my dream and I will be able to meditate. The next dreams were: I was a soldier and shot down by mannequins / robots. They were armed in several places: knees, head, etc. I aimed at these places so that they wouldn't shoot at me. In the morning I woke up with a tension in my lumbar spine and a daze from radiation from my mobile phone at 6:00 am. I slept for a long time, but I am glad to meet two other factors that are harmful to health: holes in the mattress and how harmful the radiation of electromagnetic waves is. What I learned today: meditation, radiation is harmful and holes in the bed. I also learned about the psychological advice and techniques of the rebirth of the phoenix.